posted March 02, 2003 11:10 PM              

And you wonder why
moons don't respond to you.

posted March 03, 2003 03:55 PM              

I remember in the late 80s/early 90s it wasn't even characterized and an ailment, just a crappy mood swing.

posted March 04, 2003 01:19 AM              

I see. You didn't want to be the bearer of bad news.
I'm actually surprised that I'm walking, talking, and capable of semi-coherent thought after reading about my Saturn/Neptune/Sun aspects.
Geesh.
As far as the NN & Mars info, though, that site just whet my appetite; I'll go hunt down a book.

Thank you again for your help.

LL -
And the more it's out in the open where there's people that can identify and relate to each other's fits, which are common and not to be TOO worried about...

While I do agree that getting it out in the open helps to destigmatize (and make more tackle-able - yeah, made up words -) depression, there's gotta be a distinction drawn between "a fit" of the blues and major depression.
The latter can really eat a person alive; or rather, immobilize them to the point that they can no longer maintain even a semblance of a functioning life at which point (after some time) they either dissolve or destroy themselves.
I know that when I was depressed (and it was the latter kind - ever not been able to get out of bed for a few days while in a horrible twilight that is neither quite wakefulness or sleep, and in those few moments when you could manage to stumble out simply begin crying at completely frikkin off-the-wall and random moments? It's a blast), thinking about it or reading about - even if was in a supportive context which communicated other people's experiences and susceptibility - it only made me feel more hopeless.
I did, however, "think" my way out of it (warning: pure opinion to follow, although it's pretty well-rooted in experience); while it is a fundamental "chemical imbalance", it's more a product (in most cases) of a vicious thought-based but phycially anchored feedback loop (you're depressed, your serotonin level/uptake rate decreases, you're more depressed, your serotonin level/uptake rate further decreases...) than an underlying biological malady. If one can find it in themselves to place a kink in that loop, it can be reversed. Barring that, competent and caring help must be sought - most likely in conjunction with some kind of meds to chemically put in place that kink because, let's face it, it's gotta be much harder for someone else to get through than it is for a person to reach themselves...but oftentimes that's the only viable way.

*looks around*
*blinks*
*swings one foot down, then the other*
*steps off of soapbox*

Sorry. I do that sometimes. Please excuse my over-zealousness.

posted January 22, 2009 03:25 AM            

interesting how people list capricorn here.

im an aries moon, its harshly aspected, but i have depression issues my self, maybe its the cardinal element - cancer, capricorn, aries, libra?

posted February 10, 2009 10:45 AM              

I haven't wrote anything here in about a year! Hello again everyone, and nice to meet you if I haven't!

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I love my Virgo <3

posted February 10, 2009 02:57 PM              

I am a worrier from time to time, but it seems more worries then actual depression

posted April 13, 2011 07:07 PM            

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Originally posted by charmainec:
Not sure if it's depression but not feeling good about anything
Don't worry bb, everybody hurts sometimes. It's human nature. I am thinking "this shall pass too" and I'm going to find ways to be enthousiastic again!

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posted April 14, 2011 12:24 AM            

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And you know (since we're on the topic of depression).. I think sometimes it depends on whether you've been through very depressing life experiences.

It's definitely true that some people deal with messy situations and heartache better than others - but it is also true that some people simply go through more traumatic events (it happens!).

I mean I might well complain that - Tom, Dick or Harry - is depressed - while I am always as happy as sunshine!

But if half of Tom/Dick/Harry's family has just passed away in an earthquake and the poor bloke also got fired and went bankrupt on the same day as he found out his wife moved out with his kids, filing for divorce........

I think I'd be a bit demented (or maybe emotionally immature) to "complain" about their depression.

posted April 21, 2011 10:40 AM            

I have a friend that is strong, and works hard. I look up to her. She come from a big dysfunctional family. Her dad is evil, he abused her in many ways, and other siblings too.
She didn't let that stop her from being pretty much a straight A student though. And going to College, Graduating, and having a pretty good job, and going to law school.

But then she had to testify her own father in court. That took a toll on her. So now she takes Xanex.

She is a Taurus Sun, Cap Rising, and Gem Moon

And for me...I would say that I had mild depression(where your depressed for a few years and can come out of it), when I was 17 and 18(I just learned about that in my intro to psychology class). My self esteem just dropped. I hated my parents, I was having a hard time fitting in at school, my classes where hard, I didn't want to do show biz stuff anymore, cause I was doing so much of that I felt like I didn't have a normal life and started to hate it. And almost no one understood that I needed a break. I felt like I was surrounded by people who thought I didn't deserve what I wanted and needed. My mom gave me so much **** for it. Also some child abuse I never came to terms with resurfaced. I just hated my life. And my driving sucked back then. I failed my road test the first time. Got in 2 car crashes, no one got hurt though. I hated my old lifestyle, but that transition was tough on me. Like I barely had a control or say over anything, and was fighting it...and started to really act out and give my folks a hard time.

But finally things turned around. The 2nd half of my senior year. I was finally placed in the right classes. And made new friends, and had some good times. I was still a rebel though(finally I felt like a normal teenager that's kind of all I really wanted). And my friends from that time made fun of how innocent I used to be before I met them. Or how innocent they thought I looked before they got to know me.
So then I was just your typical crazy young adult going down the wrong path being young and stupid. But it felt good to be doing things my way. And taking a break from school and having a job. And traveling, going to concerts and shows,meet new people. Try living away. Things like that to bring up my damaged self esteem.
Then I started learning things the hard way, and dealt with it pretty well. Now I am pretty much on the right path. And know how good I have it now. And find my life in a positive place now.

And here are my placements.....

posted April 21, 2011 11:30 AM            

Well I needed an escape too. And the stuff I was going though I knew I needed some kind of vacation...my parents didn't care and thought I was being ridiculous.(I went a few years with out travel, I seriously get depressed if I don't. I just read in self magazine that people who don't take vacations are more prone to depression) Also I knew that I needed to see some kind of therapist...But when I tell my mom she wants an explanation why...And it's like 'mom your not helping me, right now I think you fail as a parent and a person who cares about me, so I want to talk to a professional...so just do and pay for it already.' I've been though this with her before...And I had to prove that she fails as a person that cares about me, for some reason that works.
Well this time I didn't want to talk to her about it at all...and I thought 'hey...if I just do what my friend does. She'll have to shut up and just do what I say'...cause I didn't feel like being told I didn't deserve to see a therapist, or explain anything to her. So that week was pretty rock bottom for me, I played hooky from school for 3 days. One of those days I actually did what my friend did, for the first time and only time ever. Slit my wrists. Packed up a bag. Left a note saying that I slit my wrists and I need to see a therapist. And since no one here thinks I deserve any kind of vacation...Well I'll give my self one then, I'm 18 and old enough to do so, and you can't do **** about it.

I stayed in a hotel with a pool and a gym and free breakfast.(I wasn't even leagaly old enough to be there in Michigan you have to be at least 21...but they where pretty dead there, and I had money!haha. Hotels, swimming, working out and breakfast make me happy.

And yeah my messed up plan worked.

posted April 21, 2011 11:41 AM            

quote:

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Originally posted by Nyah:
melancholy all through winter

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posted April 21, 2011 05:52 PM            

I am starting to recover from my latest depressive episode which lasted 2+ months.

Supposed to be starting CBT therapy in a weeks time,I need to get my head around things somehow, otherwise I don't know how much longer I can be be bothered with living.