posted June 22, 2014 05:16 PM            

Everything you wrote made absolute sense to me.
I relate to all of it, very very much.

I'll write more later. I can't concentrate right now.

posted June 22, 2014 05:48 PM            

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Originally posted by Padre35:
Scriptural backing would be:

"Racheal is crying in Ramah, and cannot be comforted
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And what would that point to?
I'm a bit confused.

posted June 22, 2014 05:56 PM            

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Originally posted by Doux Rêve:
And what would that point to?
I'm a bit confused.

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It points to..nothing save for your innocence

posted June 22, 2014 09:34 PM            

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Originally posted by Padre35:
How so, ppl are willing to pronounce cursings, never blessings.

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That is the eternal question of why people choose unhappiness over happiness, misery over contentment, dark over light...

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Originally posted by DeepFreeze:
There is a book that I read years ago by Herman Hesse, called, "steppenwolf".

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I've read a few quotes. Resonates, but leaves a negative imprint on me (some were quite cynical).
I don't want to end up like the people in such books. I don't want to be restricted by my own limitations. I intend to overcome whatever is holding me back from developing my potential and feel deep satisfaction in life.
That is also the reason why I tend to feel claustrophobic when I'm put into a box. You are this and that. Well, I may be this and that now, but that doesn't mean I will remain that way. The idea of growth, development and expansion lies close to my heart. I know there are challenges in the way, but the hope remains.

posted June 23, 2014 12:41 AM            

I'm just going to ramble a bit.
I won't add to what you wrote. I completely get it. I understand it, and I feel it. All of it.

Over the years I've gotten better at dealing with things at the time that they occur. I've gotten better about not tucking away feelings.
I've learned my limits about what I can tuck away and not have come back to bite me later, and that sort of thing.

One of the biggest things though - acceptance.
Just accept who you were, what you ever did, who you are now, and how you deal with things. I've done a lot of stupid things. Hurt myself, hurt others.
Accepting it has allowed me to to deal with it. (It being anything that I tucked away)
I think we can learn a lesson from everything. Everything is a part of growth. No matter what, there is "light" to be seen in it. I don't want to publicly tell my personal stories. Whatever it is, there is something positive.
I don't know how else to really say it, or explain it. My communication sucks. lol

I mean for example I had kind of a crappy childhood. But, I'm here now. I'm normal, mostly. No but seriously... I have no drug abuse, alcohol abuse. I have a good job, I support myself. I'm happy. I'm here.. healthy. What's done is done. I can enjoy now, and tomorrow is always available to change if I want to. At least in some ways.
Barbie really helps me too. There's some areas that I really struggled with but wow... she pushes me and I'm glad that she does. She pushes me to grow where I need to grow.

And, you can learn that, tucking away is not the worst thing. Some will tell you otherwise but you know. Sometimes I do it just to buy me time until I've prepared myself to deal with it. Sort of like taking those "10 deep breaths" to calm down.

posted June 23, 2014 04:00 AM            

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Originally posted by DeepFreeze:
Doux

Everything you wrote made absolute sense to me.
I relate to all of it, very very much.

I'll write more later. I can't concentrate right now.

I wonder if this is Neptune related...?

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posted June 23, 2014 09:04 AM            

That's actually quite... sweet? You feel her pain and gave her an opening to share it with you. It's nice you and your friend can have these moments even in public. It's so obvious you can really emphasize with her.

Aww. You really care and you showed it, even though your own feelings took over. I'm sure she knows. Just let everything out if you need to. You supported her and she's there for you now. About time you ask someone else to let you lean on them for a while!

Brave woman, showing some more of yourself even if it shocked you.

I know what it's like to be embarrassed of yourself, feeling like you're just drawing attention to yourself. But you're not - at least, not in that way. It's good to give that hurt a place, especially when it's hurt you've been carrying with you for so many years. And you could be HSP. I'm trying to find out more about it, thinking I may be, so we could look for it together if you like? Faith knows a lot about it, too, if you need to ask someone else.

Sad songs, uh-huh. They show exactly what you're feeling, right?

posted June 23, 2014 12:01 PM            

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Originally posted by DeepFreeze:
I won't add to what you wrote. I completely get it. I understand it, and I feel it. All of it.

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You have no idea how good it feels to read that... Wow, I feel less like a weirdo now, haha.

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One of the biggest things though - acceptance.

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That's a big one. I think it's really the key point. Thanks for reminding me of this.

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My communication sucks.

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It doesn't. You're good. Tell that Virgo Mercury of yours to keep its criticism to itself.

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I mean for example I had kind of a crappy childhood. But, I'm here now. I'm normal, mostly.

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Lol, ain't that the truth...

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I hope it made sense at least, if not helped in some way.

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It sure did. Thanks for sharing, it genuinely made me feel better, especially knowing where you are in life.

By the way, I don't think I've congratulated you and Barbie... So, congratulations for finding each other and being happy. I hope you live together for a very long time and that everything will be okay for you two.
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Vi Got your message.

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Rie Thank you so much. You're awesome.

I don't feel bad about it, actually; I'm okay with it... it didn't last long, haha.
I'm just used to being the strong one in my real life relationships. I never talk about or show my vulnerable side IRL. It's much easier online because it's safer.

Sure, it'd be interesting to see if there are similarities between all of us. I'm pretty sure there are... I know Faith has a very acute sensitivity as well, so it makes sense.

I'll shoot you an email soon.

<hug>

posted June 23, 2014 04:11 PM            

Hi Doux!

I'm sorry, I haven't read the whole thread, but I wanted to say that this happens to me sometimes and I don't always see the rhyme or reason to it, either. Something just strikes a deep chord in me, and I get a flash-flood of tears.

It can happen at the most awkward moments, like when I'm talking to someone I don't know very well, or someone with whom I seem to have an unspoken agreement that we are just on small-talk/"formal" terms.

I once saw this saying in a random witchcraft book for kids, just browsing through it at the bookstore:

"You won't know what you need until someone gives it to you."

posted June 23, 2014 04:22 PM            

Thanks for posting.

What you said makes a lot of sense.

It's the waterrr!

posted June 23, 2014 11:50 PM            

The way Faith worded it makes a lot of sense.
Identify with your own internal pain.

posted June 24, 2014 04:33 PM            

Being strong is good and it feels so... unnatural to suddenly swap roles, right?

Yes, I'd love to compare with you and Faith. You and I are really similar - it's like we've both gone through the same things. Got the email, thanks. Talk to you soon!

Faith, thanks for the message. I'm totally looking forward to it.

posted June 25, 2014 05:27 PM            

Crying and giving in to your bad feelings can be good. At first it may not feel that way - like you're making it worse, rubbing it right into your own face. At least I felt that way at first. But it got better when I just accepted I'm a sensitive person who needs to cry now and then. To just accept you have this sadness, anger or worry and to let it all in. Once I could stop feeling guilty for my intense emotions or even blamed and cussed myself out for it... it started to feel like a cleansing.

But again, I definitely get what you mean, Doux. Not until long ago, the random crying you talked about happened to me, too. Just hit me from out of nowhere.

posted June 25, 2014 07:37 PM            

DF, it's normal to have internal resistance... But you should try and sit with your feelings and allow yourself to cry if you feel like you need to. I know, easier said than done...

Edited: Starlight, I've only now just seen your comment. Hm, you might be onto something...