posted June 26, 2014 02:47 AM            

Hopefully I'll get to that place some day.

Right now I can't really picture it...

Well, it's a process.

posted June 26, 2014 08:44 AM            

Violets, that was really helpful for me to read.

I need to have energy work done, my energy is seriously out of whack (a Reiki healer and naturopathic doctor both told me the same thing.) Frankly I am ashamed of that, like it's some major failure.

Usually I cannot cry for myself and my own misfortunes. Sometimes, but not often. Even if I want to cry or feel full of tears, nothing happens.

In those cases, I need to see someone else undergoing something similar, or something related to my struggles in some way, and then I vicariously feel my own pain. (Maybe because my mother was adamantly against any kind of self-pity when I was a child? I emote best through empathy?)

So I might watch YouTube videos of people reuniting with their fathers (soldiers homecomings) to remind myself that I am still, on some level, suffering the loss of my own father.

In a way, it's a kind of codependency, where I need to connect with someone else, no matter how Neptunian the context, to process my own feelings. But that does make sense, for an 8H Pisces moon...I think.

I do the random crying "out of nowhere" and some other sorts of crying but as I said, the way my energy looks, it's like there are still too many blockages.

Knowing that you can heal yourself alone by crying it all out is really encouraging to me. Thank you.

Best wishes, everyone ~

posted June 26, 2014 11:55 AM            

Thanks for reminding me to give myself a break...yeah, these transits are so bad it's like a sick joke.

We'll get through it.

posted June 26, 2014 02:41 PM            

So many people to hug!

I'm glad that we're able to talk so openly on here in this way, right now.

I like these threads...they're what makes Sweet Peas really pleasant and caring sometimes.

posted June 26, 2014 08:12 PM            

<hugs everyone>

Faith

That sounds intense! I hope you're dealing... And don't talk about death on here. You're staying with us.

Vi, no worries about editing. It's good to express ourselves but then it's also a bit weird to leave personal things on here... forever... lol.

I've been unable to cry again.

The other day I had a 'breakthrough,' and now I can't shed a tear. Back to living in my head again.

Well, waiting for the next trigger, hahah. Will try not to let it slip away.

Rie,

Umm nothing too crazy.
Saturn's on my Sun (again).
Uranus quincunx Sun from the 12H?

The night I sobbed for 2 hours straight and lost all sleep I had tMoon opposite natal Pluto, from the 12H. How fitting.

posted June 30, 2014 11:36 AM            

I hope everything is well with you.

posted June 30, 2014 05:21 PM            

No, not Saturn again! Some harsh experiences to go through for you.

Uranus to the Sun sounds fitting, though. Unexpected, breaking through from out of the blue.

Oh, yes. Moon-Pluto transits, that's definitely it. Scary, isn't it, when suddenly all things you thought you'd dealt with just resurface. You have it natally, too, that's really tough.

Venus through H1 is nice! Even if you're not feeling pretty, you could find a few moments where you do. Good time for shopping, getting a new haircut. Put some of that love into making yourself feel better, or in some comfort.

Just trying to look for a few bright spots for you.

posted June 30, 2014 05:55 PM            

My skin has improved a little. Mainly I think it's because of a change in diet - I don't eat dairy anymore and have cut down all processed food.

I take medication now as well to deal with a cold and my stomach issues.

So far I think it's good.

Hope it'll help on the long-run.

posted July 03, 2014 04:53 PM            

But wow. What a major change of diet. How's it been for you so far? Getting used to it? I hope it wasn't for health reasons.