posted February 18, 2014 01:53 PM            

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original posts Ellyn:
Yeah, it felt like crap.
That's why I asked.
-- mirage asks... ^ 'Please explain more....? What are your thoughts and feelings about the experience?'
-- Ellyn: I was worried for you, frankly.
If things are that bad, I truly wish you the Best. *angel*

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Thank you sooo much for your efforts on my behalf, Ellyn-- thank you for your time... I appreciate you.

Sometimes when all else fails, and one tries all one can do, there is ALWAYS Faith, and Prayer to turn to.... It's good to Believe in God in these sorts of changing Times...

Our Souls-- my Soul agreed, made a Lifetime contract for `whatever this is` that I am presently experiencing.

My Moon is afflicted and intercepted... (As I've seen writings on this, it perhaps suggests that in my lifetime I chose to handicap this. So I rummage around, looking for what else I have. My chart ain't too cool, BUT can see the sublime IF I find out how to 'unlock' it. And I ALWAYS in the STRENGHTH inside say that 'whatever I figure out for me, I "WILL" take people who were Captive around me, and BRING them OUT WITH ME! I Believe in being efficient. That's the 'special Grace' I ask of God. Free me, but LET ME GRAB others who want that Freedom too---- We're COMING OUT, "Together"..... Deepest Longing. If that's what I could ask God, that is what I ask.... If I have to go through hell, and find that way out-- then let the ones who want to COME, COME OUT with arms linked--- thick victories, no whimpy victory here..... All who want OUT of their rut.... I'm Leaving "Stuck" behind! C'mon, let's DO IT!!!

Sometimes we are dealt 'a bad card hand' in life, and have to suck it up....
That's what having God and Higher Faith is for (Leo 9th cusp, intercepted VirgoMoon in 9th)... In traditional astrology my 6th House Sun is 'unaspected'... except for its sesquisquare FOG to NeptLibra-rx 10th, and semi-sq UranusCancer8th.)

Sometimes in my thoughts I need to do reality-checks. And right now I've just gotta rely on God to Do what I myself cannot do. If it's time's up for me, then there's nothing else I can do of myself than keep the chat up with God.

I'm just 'burdening' others when I "ask"... not meaning to pressure. A wimpy whisper can be magnified all out of proportions. My mother regularly reminded me (and her children) what "burdens" we were on her. Actually, I felt awful about that, but couldn't help myself. She said that People Already Know.... and if THEY don't offer it to you, then they DON'T WANT TO help. You are "imposing" on them-- they 'see' and they 'help' IF they want. *Do Not Ask For Help* You're *too much* weight, too heavy.

But when people Call me a Burden, then the polyanna in me sees it as an "indication" that they would if they wanted to.... And with a good heart and In Good Faith & Thoughts, I pass by as the ocean currents.

God gave everyone free Will. We will keep the Will free.

What does my Soul require of me is now my duty to accept... haha, whatever I do, I've always done with all my might and enthusiasm. I have good sportsmanship credits in my earthtime bank account! *grin*

The Universe tests us. The Universe sets up events that will culminate for the Best Outcomes in our precious Global World and Community...

...So then, when "Best" of Mankind means to be left out by Man, then Soul is Sent into the Desert Wonders... of God's Own totally Awesome Power and Hands. Afterall, I *am* the reflecting refraction of something that's an actual-real image. Philosophically, I am every person who is looking for their Space & Place in this world. And I am sooooo deeply humbled by that opportunity. A 'mirage' -- it exists for real, but just 'not' in the dimension where you'd 'expect' to find it--- The hidden treasures in life don't always appear wearing the quality pantsuits, not living in the best of 'hoods, un-coiffed, not an immediate dazzling outer beauty with all the best assets bundled and pushed up with deep cleavage in your face-- just a 'mirage'.... *smile*

I'm glad to "see" it 'on the outside of me' validated once again more clearly now.

I will Stand~~ Having done all I can, I Stand [Eph 6]

What an awesome thing it is to Be in the Hand of the Almighty...

His Hand Covers me
His Face Shines upon me

God is my Protector, my Strength
He is my High Strong Tower
He is my Sun and my Shield
He is my Exceeding Great Reward

God has His Eye Upon Me
I am the Apple of His Eye

This is The Lord's doing...
And I say Yes! to His Will and to His Way.

When mountains fall, I'll stand
By the Power of Your Hand,
And in Your heart of hearts I'll dwell,
That my Soul knows very well....

(music) And That My Soul Knows Very Well (Hillside, lyrics) [3:35] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zkm1SmtKFlU

(music) My life is in your hands (Kirk Franklin, *Christian) lyrics [5:35] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gIPMllUV12o

(music) No Weapon Formed Against Me (Fred Hammond) [6:13] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9KlhlHTE12Q

posted February 18, 2014 06:38 PM            

All we can do is to do our best.

posted February 21, 2014 10:48 AM            

I won't pass it up if you are!

posted February 23, 2014 02:25 PM            

Probably this afternoon.

posted February 23, 2014 04:42 PM            

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Originally posted by Ellynlvx:
Running late this week, Violets.

Probably this afternoon.

Three-ish.

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posted February 23, 2014 07:41 PM            

My daughter had a Musical going on, we've been out at all hours with this.

posted February 24, 2014 12:40 PM            

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Originally posted by Ellynlvx:
Woke up when I would usually be starting...

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posted February 25, 2014 08:30 AM            

She had her picture in this little paper they made, it had stuff of the time on it, Yankees and Howard Hughes, cool.

They shuttled all the Dinner Guests in these Vintage Cars with Steamer Trunks at the back, and those uh-ooga horns.

Got to sneak in a couple of times and enjoy the show...

Most of the time it was Mom's Taxi and very little sleep

posted February 25, 2014 03:30 PM            

Thanks, it's a pretty mellow birthday with all the crazy transits and snow on the passes, but I'm hoping the wind will pipe down so that I can go work in the garden.

posted February 25, 2014 07:39 PM            

Well, it's a good excuse to drink tea by the fire and read your favourite book.

After all, it's your Birthday, I am sure they will cater to your every whim.

posted March 01, 2014 05:22 PM            

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Originally posted by Ellynlvx:
So, Mars this week?

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Yes, please!
Or my Sun...whichever "feels" right, I suppose. Good God, I'm getting hit by so many transits I'm not sure which one to pick, haha.

Probably Mars, though.

posted March 01, 2014 10:45 PM            

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Originally posted by Violets:
Yes, please!
Or my Sun...whichever "feels" right, I suppose. Good God, I'm getting hit by so many transits I'm not sure which one to pick, haha.

Probably Mars, though.

In other news, it was nice and sunny yesterday, so we all went to my favorite places--waterfall, historic train stations... It was a lovely day, and my dad will be here tomorrow.

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That makes up for the Birthday Blues.

Those all sound really cool!

Historic Train Stations, I always get this Narnia like feeling about those, and it started long before I read the books.

Actually, it was a sort of Coming Home feeling when I read those, not unlike the "Lucy in the Sky(with Diamonds)" one.

"Comfortably Numb" has a bit of the same feel to it...

posted March 01, 2014 11:04 PM            

But I should say, now that Mars has gone retro, I suddenly was so short on patience and energy this afternoon that I should probably have stayed in bed.

posted March 02, 2014 01:00 AM            

FOUR.

That's a lot.

Mercury and Jupiter, going straight.

Mars and Saturn, Backsliders!

I will honour your request, whatever it may be...

Sounds like Mars.