posted October 15, 2022 09:32 AM
Now that my relationship with my skipped step is almost 3 years past being over.. I'd like to add some more insight.My ex had a Moon-mars conjunction in Virgo, opposite Saturn. His mars was also square Pluto. He also had mars conjunct chiron natally (very loose).
I have Chiron in Virgo in the 5H. Chiron squares my mars natally and semi squares my moon almost exact. Sextile my mercury and Venus. I have mars conjunct NN natally in the 7H with Aries ruling my 12H.
Synastry wise, me and ex had a TON of 12H energy.
SKIPPED STEP: His Moon-mars conjunct in Virgo is conjunct my Chiron and square my NN.
Back to my point:
Long story short, I believe your skipped step highlights what needs to be healed. It may or may not last forever... most likely the latter.
He was the catalyst to my healing journey. I knew I would never be the same after him.. but I would've never guessed the lesson behind it.
He WAS "The One".
The one to finally get me to wake up and see what I've been searching for since a little girl..
My father was very cleaver at molding my brain into whatever he wanted it to be. He spent years grooming me into a mini version of him. Major NPD vibes. He would drill in my head how lucky I was to have him in my life because most kids in my demographic did not. I always knew something wasn't right though because my dating life was horrible. (Yes I had these thoughts in high school-college. I remember me questioning it all and where I was at that exact moment. My life has been a weird journey to say the least.... )
Anyway back to the topic, If my father is so great and I'm so lucky, why is there constant destruction and chaos in our household? Why is my mother always burnt out? Why is she always brushing things under the rug for the sake of "peace"? Why are there even things to brush under the rug? You see where I'm going with all of this? Completely insane.
I started questioning smalls things.. then those things turned into big things until me and my father were eventually completely at odds. I was in school and working but still getting kicked out of the house every other day like a delinquent. It didn't make any sense. I felt unsafe, betrayed, and confused. Why was my father being so mean? What changed? Nothing changed except the inner workings of my brain. My father went to prison for almost 12 years, missing my entire adolescence. He came home when I was 23 and in my last year of college...
Long story short (sorry lol), your skipped step is another missing piece to unveiling what needs to be discovered (to heal) and/ or healed.
My new journey is just beginning.
I'll be 29 in another month or so and Saturn has been torturing my Scorpio stellium for the past year or so. Pluto is in the shadows as well... waiting to emerge again after nearly destroying my moon a few years ago....