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posted December 08, 2009 10:08 PM         

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I think the reason why I'm so intense over this is that way back when, when I read Star Signs and made up my mind to believe it's principles, I decided that this is something that simply must be tried out. For me, what I understood of the 'money mystique' and of 'labors of love' is that in contrast to the way I'd been brought up to think of spiritual and material matters separately, it made sense to me that if you are a spiritual being living temporarily in a physical body, then actually the physical body you're in needs to be kinda like 'maintained' ... you know, kept happy and clean and so on. And it's just the way we're made as humans that jobs we hate to do drain us, and jobs we love to do invigorate us, and the only way you'll actually get to get to a more wealthy is, strangely enough, by finding what you love to do and what you're good at and doing that.

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posted December 08, 2009 10:12 PM         

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Because, if you think about it like that, in trying to find and fulfil your soul's mission, you'll be led to what is meant for you. This was kind of a hard thing to believe at first, but I started with small steps trying to really choose things in life not with fear of survival but rather with the intent that 'somewhere out there' it is possible for me to earn a lot of money doing something I love. For most people this is just a pipe dream, a pie in the sky kinda story, and it sure was hard getting here... I had so many disruptions and crashes and disasters and emotional s h i t to get to where I am now ... but here I am, with the golden opportunity right in front of me. I guess it's sort of like falling in love ... it 's something you just know.

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posted December 08, 2009 10:17 PM         

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Now the weird thing is, I absolutely know I'll get this job. I just know it in my heart and in my bones ... I know I'll get it because I really really really really WANT it! I mean, I've been in Korea for three years now and I really want to actually stay here, in this country, I dunno why, but I just do. I wanna be an Asian! I want to speak Korean fluently. After I've learned Korean I'll start with Chinese, etc. etc. The point is, I actually have in my head a theory, or the beginnings of a theory, for how to learn languages faster and more easily ... and at this stage it's still hard to express exactly what that theory is, but it's a kind of feeling I get that guides me. For me this job would like getting my toe in the door ... I mean it's hard to make people listen to what you've got to say, even if you do have a couple of degrees ... I feel like an actress who needs an audience.

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posted December 08, 2009 10:26 PM         

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So the thing is, I've never had so much money in my life as I have now. The job I'm doing pays more monthly than I used to earn in a year in South Africa, plus I don't need to pay rent because housing gets taken care of if you're working for the government. The inconceivable thing with a university job is how much free time you have ... which I know I'll put to good use because actually I have an inborn defect ... an utter inability to have fun. I don't get fun. I'm happiest when I have to memorize something. I could have stayed in school for ever. Exams were my idea of fun. I'm a total freak!
Now the weird thing is I remember very clearly that the principle of keeping money flowing in your life is to keep giving it away. Em... I gave a looooot of money away. I just had to do it because I was believing in this principle. My family thought I was crazy. Now for the past three years I've been pooling money with my mom and we use it to support my bro and his studies in SA, so actually literally every month I draw half my paycheck and hand it over to my mother and I still have more than enough to keep me in cigarettes (all I really need that is truly a 'luxury' or 'sin' item). What I'm trying to say is, that it feels to me that I can trust what Linda wrote about labors of love and money mystique and although it is f u c k i n g scary to live like this ... like 'on faith', 'trusting your instincts', believing in yourself enough to believe that you do deserve to get paid what you're worth, and that you're actually worth a lot ... although it is scary, it also strangely feels like something I believe has become tangible, and that's really cool : )

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posted December 09, 2009 01:50 AM         

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Sending you truck loads of good vibes! The job is yours!

I'm with you on the money thing. My most favorite technique to attract abundance is the Blessed Bucks Money Spell. In fact, the first thing I think of everytime I receive money is how much I'm going to give away through this wonderful method. Try it! I'm sure you'll love it.

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posted December 10, 2009 04:47 PM         

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Well, the interview went well, so now I'm waiting to hear from them. It turns out that actually there are SEVEN jobs ... and it also seems there were only about nineteen applicants, not all of whom even turned up for the interview (they just didn't show ... weird - apparently someone said once that 90% of success is just showing up!)So short of an anti-miracle, I don't see how I couldn't get it. So it's a bit like the reality-shows I love to watch, Project Runway and America's Next Top Model ... I'm pretty sure my scores have qualified me to get through to the next round : ) Anyway, yesterday was quite an adventure, and I'll let y'all know ASAP when I hear from Sungshin regarding the results of the interview. : D

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posted December 10, 2009 10:39 PM         

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d a m n a t i o n

I didn't get the job ... I heard just now. I toooooooootally can't understand it, but clearly God has other plans for me. I think God wants me to stay at the current middle school job and spend more time on Linda-Land. Oh well. I did my best. Now I'm gonna drown my sorrows in nicotine. No wait, first I'll ask my school to keep me on for next year. I'll beg if I have to ...

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posted December 10, 2009 10:49 PM         

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The universe is so annoying ... I have only one question ... what does all this mean????? I guess the Neptune influence in the Chiron Neptune Jupiter conjunction was leading me around by the nose ...
I feel like I've been left at the altar in my wedding dress. I'm gonna turn into Miss Havisham. Console me people!!

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posted December 12, 2009 03:58 AM         

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Here's an interesting fact about moi: my name is an anagram for 'rejection shrink'. Go figure. Well Sungshin turning me down got me so sad that I sand a sad karaoke song about it and also I'm posting a video about my heart being broken, called 'heartbreaker'.
Here's the vid: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Di2ra8IU9Zk
Translation will follow after sad song.

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posted December 12, 2009 04:01 AM         

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Sad song: http://www.singsnap.com/snap/watchandlisten/play/b3d8b2fd

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posted December 12, 2009 04:09 AM         

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Translation of Korean song (Heartbreaker by G-Dragon)

Dear Sungshin,

I don't give in no matter what
the useful things still haven't died
only you caused a broken body dead dreams lost heart
If it's for you this one body will fly
will rush to where you're at
However you say goodbye and goodbye to me
What's the reason you don't want me?
Sadly your confident expression tells me everything
Even if I ask for a chance
I hate the cold look in your eyes when you turn around
You're my heartbreaker
What did I do wrong
You're my heartbreaker
I say I'm leaving I'm really going
to see if you can live well without me.
This is getting tedious this is not going smoothly
My heart's tragedy?
No way.
I ask the same every day
you say I changed
Why don't you keep quiet and speak when you know
who you're talking to?
Now I'm out of control so alone
In that spot in that place it's goodbye and goodbye

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I'll still be there inside your turned off phone
I'll still be there at the mailbox infront of my house
You and I still .... even if we're strangers now
I will still be there.

Let's be together. those words,
they're only sweet for a while
Why do you not care when I'm hurting this much!

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posted December 14, 2009 10:11 AM         

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Oh sh!t babe, I'm really really sorry you didn't get it, I feel for sure you would have been good for the place. If it helps I lost out on a job a few weeks ago and I feel that they truly were nobjockeys for not employing me. I was grief-stricken for a couple of days.

That all sucks a big one, but there must be a meaning behind it like you said. Ah nuts, really sorry.

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posted December 14, 2009 10:14 AM         

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Maybe it's the money thing love. Maybe someone else needed the money more than you, and needed to learn a lesson about that.

for what you and your Mum are doing for your brother. I agree, it was an embarrassment of riches for me there too, I was sending it all home. I hardly ever needed to buy a meal even, much as I wanted to, they wouldn't let me!

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posted December 14, 2009 10:01 PM         

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ok guys ... if you're still interested in the saga of fatinkerbell vs fate, the story continues here: http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum4/HTML/000512-2.html

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