posted September 08, 2006 01:19 AM         

Good thoughts, white light, love and prayers are headed your way.....please take some deep breaths...know that somebody cares....not just somebody....but lots of sombodys....

I've never spoken with you on this forum, but lots of other people have and you have friends here....

Are you in desperate need right now?

Can you call someone?

I'm concerned about you...

EMAIL somebody from this site if you have their address....

Randall can give you mine...

I know you feel you are surrounded by darkness right now.....but hang in there...

Please answer my post....

Love,
Rainbow~

posted September 08, 2006 02:20 AM         

(good to see you, AG)

We care about you.....

posted September 08, 2006 08:06 AM         

How old are you -- I guess what I am asking is can you get away from your parents?
I think living in a more stable, affirming atmosphere would help. It sounds like your relationship with your parents is toxic to your soul. If you are under 18, perhaps your counselor could recommend you be removed from the home. If you are 18 -- RUN, don't walk out of there!

posted September 08, 2006 10:33 AM         

Remember, this will pass...distract yourself and let it pass, ok? Don't do anything rash...Don't do anything, just feel through it, until the beauty you cherish so much returns to you.

You are cared for. Even if from far away.

posted September 08, 2006 10:45 AM         

!!!!

Well, think straight, I hope you understand that you are more powerful than you thought you were!

posted September 09, 2006 12:00 AM         

Hang in there... it will pass... I know it can get tough...

Wishing you the best!
Silverstone

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The only other sound's the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.

posted September 09, 2006 01:17 AM         

It's absolutely NORMAL for you to be angry! And plus you're Aquarian, so how can you not be with parents like yours (ive been there too)!?!?! We were born to cook up a storm.

Ive got family who roll their eyes at me and think that I have more than a few loose screws...Ive learned to tone down my ways...you should have met me in my teens though

Some people are soo stubborn, so prideful or so oblivious they will never apologize. Some may not have guilt about this...their hearts are sealed and black...But most do have guilt and may keep it with them instead of expressing it to you.

Your mother and father are testing you...and their treatment or lack of for you is a test for you in this life. In their mind they think they're raising you the best they can...possibly the way they were raised?

I have a feeling you'll change your parents...you're testing them too!!!

Also, every one is different...you seem more "knowledgeable" or current and practical about things than your parents in the things and ways you described in your post. People believe in many different things...My mother can also be very "superstitious" or "disillusional" and believes some things that seem to be unreasonable and sometimes tries to force those things and ideas on me. But Ive come to accept her different views and beliefs in life...even though I may not agree with them and may not use or practice them...Accepting the way they are does not mean you have to agree with it (some people may not change in some ways) esp now that you may know better. Both my parents have made mistakes in the past and still do with themselves and how they raised (didnt or wasnt able to raise) their children. I look as those mistakes happening for a reason though...its up to you, your will, how you want to use those mistakes.

BTW, you don't sound like a lunatic to me.