posted June 10, 2007 01:17 AM         

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I feel powerless- its my body, and I feel as if I have no choice

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Motherkonfessor, everything will be OK...
Really -I mean this from the very depths of my soul! You must believe this with all your heart. As I write this very moment as real as this and the very air you breath...

I was diagnosed with cancer in 2003, had a simple surgical procedure and it was removed 100%, today [mid 2007] I am cancer free. I was not lucky, blessed or mildly affected.

I was 100% positive that I would not have cancer. It is gone and it will stay gone as long as I do not give life to it. Do you understand where I'm going with this?
You must make the decision to heal regardless of whether these cells are named cancerous or not. Then believe with all your heart and soul it is happening and move forward, do not question it or analyize the "what if's". Believe the what it is. You are well within, as long as you continue to give life to this fact.

I am sending prayers:
Life to your positive thoughts, actions, and well being. Most importantly to your faith.

p.s. enjoy the visit with mom

posted June 10, 2007 10:29 AM         

I will think of you during my evening meditationals whole and healthy. Be strong of heart, and be light in spirit. Remember YOU are loved. I enjoy your postings very much. You have a wonderful way of putting things and a unique voice.

Be Blessed,
GG

posted June 11, 2007 06:41 PM         

I think I exorcised the pity demon this weekend by bonding with my bed.

I could "what-if" myself sick, just to make excuses to not do this, when I have known for over 5 years I was going to have to do this.

Should I freak out that I am choosing to do this during a Mercury Rx? Does it count that I made the plans before it started? Does the Universe give me points for being neurotic?

Aggh, whatever.
Its the first day of Summer- how is that for a good omen? And recuperation- we can lump that into the "R"s of Merc Rx. Goddess knows I will be thinking a mile a minute, even if I can't talk. And... kind of funny... this is finally getting my mom out here to visit me.
She NEVER flies.

That whole Cancer thing.... whoa...not going to think too hard about that.....its not as if its going to morph into cancer in the next week, just because of Mercury.

Gads, I am a twit sometimes.

See, I am better....

posted June 11, 2007 06:44 PM         

I am NOT going to do this....

Merc Rx in Cancer in my 8th house....

how can THAT be good timing??????????

posted June 11, 2007 06:59 PM         

I don't want you to worry, everything is going to be okay, put it in God's hands, Ma and Pa, will take care of you.

You are not going to lose your voice, please remember how truly strong you are, you are amazing!

LOve LOve LOve

and Magic!

Mind Over Matter
M O M

posted June 11, 2007 08:09 PM         

Dungeons And Dragons
Die Another Day (James Bond)
Digital Audio Disc
Diode Array Detector
Direct Access Democracy
Dogs Against Drugs (hey I like that one!! God is dog spelled backwards )
Dual Air Density
Decide Announce and Defend
Divide And Delegate

MK ~

posted June 11, 2007 08:26 PM         

I just talked to my grandmother- never underestimate the power of a German Catholic grandma's prayers. She's going to light candles for me.

Heehee..

posted June 11, 2007 08:35 PM         

That's great, my grandmother taught me to light candles, I do it every day, and on the day of your operation, I will do a special prayer with them!

What time is your operation scheduled for?

posted June 13, 2007 07:39 AM         

Much love,

posted June 21, 2007 12:15 AM         

Here I go. See y'all in a couple of days.

MK

posted June 21, 2007 06:34 AM         

{{{{{{{{{ hugs }}}}}}}}}