posted September 01, 2007 07:37 AM         

I need a friend real bad.
all my friends let me down.
I wish......

posted September 01, 2007 07:45 AM         

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How do you feel like???
I gave everything to my family and still they reject me, why!!!!!!!!!

I mean I helped them so muchhhh!!!!
Still they dis me like I'm no-one

posted September 01, 2007 07:52 AM         

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How do you feel like???
I gave everything to my family and still they reject me, why!!!!!!!!!

I mean I helped them so muchhhh!!!!
Still they dis me like I'm no-one

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Now you are talking. And I can relate that too. For me it was a spiritual transedence, hard but sure. What I realized was that I lacked self-respect, self-value and self-worth, now that I put myself first, everything has fallen in pace, and not only that, my mind has started to create the world for me. Well, it always had, but now it is positive and deliberate, and with some recent happenings in my life - even I am surprised at how the mind can create!

What you perhaps need is to re-access what you truly are, what you truly need (not want, but need), and how much do you really love your S-Elf.

It i s not an easy process, but a must.

BTW: I am going out and may not be available till another 3-4 hours to talk about this, so please do not feel bad that I am not responding any faster.

posted September 01, 2007 08:26 AM         

I want some one to help me!
my bro been killed cuz of this gang shyt.
I miss Him soooooooo much.
He wore red and now I wear red not blue.
I miss him sooooooo much.
I WISH U WERE HERE.
PLEASE HELP ME.
Blue all day Brother.
N8V For you Bro.

posted September 01, 2007 08:32 AM         

He was there now he's dead.

who cares???? right????

I just want him here and not there.

he caught shot by another blood.
why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wish it was me and not him.

posted September 01, 2007 08:43 AM         

He helped me in things I wish I knew!
He told me not to worry about death that it happens to everyone.

I just miss my BROTHER.

I'd rather be me than him.......
He know's so much about death than ME.
I Wish He couldv'e told me not to miss hIM.

posted September 01, 2007 08:51 AM         

You can't imagine life without your brother. Your whole world has changed and you don't know what to do. It seems like you have no control over your life anymore. Things have changed and you just want things to go back to the way they were before.

A very important thing to do when coping with the death of a brotheris to talk about the death with someone you trust. It's hard to talk to friends about sibling grief because many of them are uncomfortable because they don't know what to say to you. And your parents are hurting so much that you don't want to add to their burden. Please try to find another relative like an aunt or uncle or a neighbour or teacher who will take the time to listen. It's very important that the thoughts and feelings inside of you come out.

At first, it may seem impossible to believe that your brother is really dead. Somewhere, deep down, you know that they have died but you just can't bring yourself to admit it because then it really will be true. You may not even feel sad, you may just feel numb.

You are feeling deeply saddened by this sibling death. You have never known such sadness. You look around and everyone in your family is sad too. You are surrounded by it. Sometimes people who should be sad don't seem to be. That makes you mad. Feelings are not always obvious when dealing with death. Those people may be sad but they may be dealing with their sadness in a way that is different from your way.

It's easy to be scared of everything right now. It is good to sit down as a family and talk about the person who died and to tell about your fears and worries. It may mean that people cry and are sad but it is healthy to share that sadness and grief. Looking at photographs together and sharing stories about the person are helpful and healthy ways to grieve.

If the feelings of grief are not shared and expressed, they will come out in other ways. Sometimes it's physical ways like headaches, back aches, sore throats, restlessness. Other times it's irritability and a short temper. It's important to look at the reasons for these physical responses and find ways to express your grief.

When someone you love dies, it's natural to want to blame someone or something for the death. Someone should be held responsible for the death.

If you find yourself being angry at the smallest things or getting into arguments or fights with people, it may mean that you are keeping the anger at your brother or sister's death inside. If it seems that you can't control your temper, it is time to start talking about the anger that keeps building up inside you. Find someone that you trust who you know will listen and share your sibling grief. Talking about this anger is very important when dealing with a brother's death.

You may have even told them that you wished they were dead. Now, it's all you can think about.

Just as you know that your thoughts cannot bring the person back to life, your thoughts did not cause them to die. It is a natural part of being a brother to compete with each other. It is called sibling rivalry and it is part of growing up.

Talking about this guilt is very important. Sometimes these thoughts we have don't seem so powerful when they are spoken out loud. Parents may understand more than it seems like they will.

There may have been times since your brother or sister died when you have felt guilt at being the one who lived on, and you question why. There is an emptiness in your life and a deep yearning that things go back to the way they were. Again, other people have felt this way too. Your life will be different from now on, but these feelings will lessen.