posted September 02, 2007 03:43 AM         

I don't know if anyone wrote this already but, you always have friends when you post here at lindaland. Eternal love is here for you, manifested in black text and pink background.

posted September 02, 2007 04:27 AM         

I want to see my kids grow. so when I leave this world, I'll know they'll be able to take care of themselves. I never had a father growing up, I don't even know my real dad too good. I seen him once but for 15 min.
I want my kids to know I'm there for them and I want to be a better father and better husband. I been to too many treatment centers and AA doesn't seem to work. I don't want to drink anymore but it's hard to stop because I like that altered state.

posted September 02, 2007 11:14 AM         

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I don't want to drink anymore but it's hard to stop because I like that altered state.

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There other ways to get high, much better ways. Like spiritual highs, high on music.

Whatever we surround ourselves with in our environments nourishes who we are or will become. We must chose it wisely.

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Eagleman.

I don't know if anyone wrote this already but, you always have friends when you post here at lindaland. Eternal love is here for you, manifested in black text and pink background

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posted September 03, 2007 07:29 AM         

Since you're into songs, here's some I think of that remind me of her:

all that lies in me,
all that dies in me.
how can i live without you?
all that lies in me,
all that dies in me.
how can i live without you?

i am your mirror image,
i'm all you left behind
you made me what i am,
then who the hell am i?

but, we make the same mistakes.
cause, we are one in the same.
but, we leave behind the stain.
i cannot seperate.

all that lies in me,
all that dies in me.
how can i live without you?

do you think of me?
do you dream of me?
i always dream about you.

do you think of me?
do you dream of me?
i always dream about you.

all that lies in me,
all that dies in me.
how can i live without you?
all that lies in me,
all that dies in me.
how can i live without you?

--Ill Nino, How Can I Live Without You?

And this silence is her life
Falling fast into the dark November sky
Over voices she shall cry
Soundless screams are felt before the sun can rise

Hear her voice is strong as steel
Speaking long dead names to keep the evening still
In her heart rests all time
Trapped for now in faith that death is still alive

To the fields and seas again
Without sight we wander through the haze of this dark land

In a dream she gently cries
In a tear her story moves to find the floor
And she speaks before she goes away
"Carry on my friend, but leave me not alone"

'Til the reign of sleep again
Without sight we wander through the haze of this dark land
To the fields and seas again
Without sight she wanders trough the haze of this lost land

To the seas again
'Till we find our lives again
And the waves are crashing hard against the farthest shore

Bella Morte, The Quiet

They told me to run, but just how far?
Can I go wearing the black mask of fear?
The hate in my eyes always gives me away
The tension building slowly
Now I lost everything I had in you
Nothing we shared means a thing
Without you close to me
I cant live without you

Breaking the silence of the night
Cant you hear me screaming?
I look for your face in the neon light
You never answer me

Theres no direction to my stare
No more flame burning in my heart anymore
Quiet, I keep it to myself
Until the sun sets slowly
I hear your voice in the evening rain calling
Nothing will keep us apart
No more lies and fear
Theres no end to our story

Breaking the silence of the night
Cant you hear me screaming?
I look for your face in the neon light
You never answer
I could make all the wrong seem right
If you were by my side
Id gather all the tears you cried
And hide them deep underground

--Queensryche, Breaking the Silence

And within a violet rose
Matures to fall in ash
Our fears, confirmed, do sleep
to trouble us no more
And in the dimming light
Her eyes still grace my thoughts
As haunting as the sea
As soft as winter's touch

posted September 03, 2007 12:00 PM         

[Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
No one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head ]

How do you feel? That is the question
But I forget you don't expect an easy answer
When something like a soul becomes initialized
And folded up like paper dolls and little notes
You can't expect a bit of hope
So while you're outside looking in
Describing what you see
Remember what you're staring at is me

'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
but No one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head

How much is real?
So much to question
An epidemic of the mannequins
contaminating everything
We thought came from the heart
But never did right from the start
Just listen to the noises
(Null and void.. voices)
Before you tell yourself
It's just a different scene
Remember it's just different from what you've seen

I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
And all I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head

'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
And all I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head

And it's the stars
The stars that shine for you
And it's the stars
The stars that lie to you.
And it's the stars
The stars that shine for you
And it's the stars
The stars that lie to you.

I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh God it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head

'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head

And it's the stars
The stars that shine for you.
And it's the stars
The stars that lie to you.
And it's the stars
The stars that shine for you.
And its's the stars
The stars that lie to you.

Oh when the stars
Oh when the stars they lie...