posted June 07, 2008 04:32 AM         

try looking thru it.and i would strongly recommend buying those books i mentioned.chiron return is a time when u are looking at a window thru which u can emerge free from lifelines of karma.

posted June 07, 2008 04:58 AM         

what strikes me the most about your reply is the tone of it. you are a very gracious person. and that is such an astounding quality in someone. you have so many gifts you can share with yourself. i am sorry that you are missing your daughter. i can't even imagine what that would be feeling like. i know that you feel alone right now. is there something you can do to meet new people - join a group or do some kind of creative class, which would also provide you with a distraction and one that would make you feel very good about yourself - and also in your worth and talents. there is something that you are really really good at - something creative - using your hands. do a class and you will meet new people - make the time and money for it - it's value to you will go beyond monetary value - you can't place a price on your self worth and on your own happiness. plus you will meet people - and some others that in time you will really really relate to - women - just like you are here - who will support you with unconditional understanding and care - genuine friendship. really, in yourself, from where you are - what do you have to lose. when you are feeling so down the only place to go is up. one step at a time, and in your own time.