posted January 21, 2007 06:29 PM              

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With condoms! - Chelle

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posted January 22, 2007 12:57 AM              

So much sense... Now I get it.

He's looking for a wife, but not really looking for a wife. Because his taste in other women, besides me , is questionable. LOL. No, I kid you not.
A drunk, violent, bi sexual, stripper. Who he even said to me, "I was going to marry her." To which I said, "REALY?????"

But for me, he always said, I'm so smart, I'm so clean, like I don't smoke, drink or curse, have no vises (according to him), I have the MA degree, and while his ex girlfriend and the chick he's seeing now are so "BEAUTIFUL", well, I'm just attractive, but I hate to say it and I'm not tooting my own horn here, but those chicks would even say to him, HUH? LOL. Really. And he told me once that he can never marry someone who does what he does, and I do what he does. And I really think there's a little, fear there. If I get my career off before he does. And he's led me to believe that many of times. So, that's why that makes a lot of sense. And he's said so many times how perfect I am, but then when I asked, so then, what is it about me that makes you not "love" me. And he always said, I don't know. Really, he said, "I don't know." But I think he does but to say it would illuminate something about himself that he doesn't even want to know.

So thanks Puckachelle, and Natasha for confirming it.

posted January 22, 2007 02:12 PM              

But, oh, I am highly sexual. However, I do one man at a time, and NEVER a woman. So, no extra partners in the bedroom here. And, of course, my Venus in Leo will NEVER allow that. I'm the PRIMADONNA in that bed, on top or under off the sheets! I need all his desire or none at all! LOL. But, I don't know, he slipped the condom off once without telling me. I was ****** ! And quite disturbed, actually. And then, the last time we were together he kept saying, I want to take it off, I want to take it off! LOL. But I was like, no way, because I didn't know where he's been. Believe me, I have always been enough for him in the bedroom, TOO MUCH. That's not where the problem lied. I believe it was in who I am as a person. I think he's very intimidated by that. I mean, his current girlfriend, he used to tell me she's not smart enough, and she just doesn't it for him. The only reason he's with her is because he needs a place to stay. Yadda yadda yadda. But he never cut the ties with her, and he's with her now! And he's right she and I or on TWO different planes. Like, she's the type who wears her g-strings out on her jeans, midruff showing shirts, clinking with jewerly, and a tacky hair weave. And I'm BCBG dresses, with high boots, the only jewelry I wear is my nose ring and watch. My makeup is natural. She's all painted up. Way more immature than I am, and about 5 years older I think. And she wants to be an actress. Still. Which I think, maybe that ship has sailed. Basically, there isn't a market for her look. Sort of strange. Like that Madam puppet. I kid you not. But I think he hangs on to her because it makes him feel better about himself. I remember once, when he was my roommate, him all loud in the room, telling her to calm down over something she was freaking out about. I was like, that's a forty something year old woman he's talking too? Wow. Too old for that. But he's like providing all the guidance. It was too much. But he got off on it. He loved it. And frankly if I have to do that to get him, then he can step. Which he did. And so I say, CONTINUE.