posted November 02, 2003 03:07 AM              

Ok, so that's not exactly good press, but it's press, nonetheless

posted November 02, 2003 10:01 AM              

My Uncle, too, on the other side of my family, is married to a fellow Scorpio; their marriage doesn't seem "easy" by any stretch of the imagination, but it does seem genuine, and they survived the death of my Scorpio cousin at the age of 16 when she fell asleep at the wheel.
My clearest memory of him was of one time when I broke a glass pot. I was...well, let's say that I was regularly pretty strictly disciplined as a child, and one day when I was about 8 a glass pot exploded on the stove when I tried to boil water for spaghetti. His family was up, and he walked in just as I began cry to the point of hyperventilation in anticipation of my punishment, and he came up and hugged me and just said, "Shhh, shhh, it's just a pot, it's just a pot...I'll make sure that you don't get in trouble for this." And he did.
It may not seem like much, but it was an awfully great thing to that little kid.

posted November 05, 2003 05:42 PM            

From that moment on, began a friendship that would flow in and out of my life like tides, leaving me never unchanged by the contact. All through the years, up to a couple of college for me, we had a friendship the waxed and waned, simply by life's circumstances and what not. Never terribly close friends, usually just in the same place at the same time and many of the same friends, being a relatively small town and all. All the while I had an extremely intense crush on him. Though it didn't keep me from falling in love for the first time with someone else and having that whole first boyfriend experience and while the Scorp had his as well.

By the time I was single again, years later, I found myself in a college art class with him and was even fortunate enough to be partnered with him to do a portrait assignment, when I had just barely enough burgioning confidence to entertain the notion of asking him out- but alas! He was involved with a really wonderful woman at that time and I could tell they were blissfully happy together. It was torment. I was aquainted with his girfriend and knew her to be a really special person. Which was appropriate, I though, since I perceived him to be a truly extraordinary soul- so gentle, kind, intelligent, thoughtful and talented. So I acknowledged my very sad heart and tightly reigned in my hopelessly infatuated Scorpio moon/venus ( I've toyed with giving my exact conjuction a name of it's own, finding how much power it has over me sometimes.. Monus? Moo-ven? Venoon?) and moved on.

I moved away from our home town for some years, found love, birthed a child, lost love and returned home this summer for a brief visit. Atleast it was supposed to be brief... On the very first night befell a most sychronous happenstance- a reunion of this Scorpio and I! I had gone out eagerly, having left my wee son with his happy grandmother for the night, in the vague hopes of running into a good friend at a bar. Any one of a fair number of old friends would have satisfied me..I just went out on the hunch that atleast one of them must be out and about.. The thought that it would be him had never crossed my mind. I had pretty much written him off as married, though really, I hadn't heard anything of him in years. Well...when he walked across the threshold into the dark, smokey bar he caught my eye immediatly. By the time he was halfway across the room and my heart was halfway up my throat we made eye contact...ZAAAP! The energetic connection that we made in that moment was palpable. I had to go, very nearly straight away, to the restroom to give my heart a moment or two to twitterpate itself privately- much like a 14 year old might, with hands shaking and such- before I felt able to go up to him and say hello.

So of course, after only brief conversation, I broached the topic.............................
"what is your sign? (scorpioinc pause...) .. no wait..let me guess... oh golly, you're not a LIbra are you?" I asked with slight trepidation (no offense, Librans..I've just had a couple of intense, emotionally tragic (for me only) experiences with the libra men...I think it's got something to to with my Venus in mutual reception with my Libran Pluto.. their suns are always conjuct that ol devil.)
"nope" He gave a coy smile, enjoying this guessing game.
I then went on..wracking my rusty mental astological database, guessing Aquarius and then out of sheer frustration, Sagittarius, since I almost always guess my own sun sign when I'm stumped because I'm really terrible at recognizing other Sags.
Anyways, I gave up and he smiled and said, "Scorpio" and I must admit.....in that moment I knew that we would be together. Perhaps it was because the last half year or so, having been single, I'd gotten to thinking that perhaps my next relationship should be with a Scorpio. Mostly cause I thought it would make my Monus happy.

hmmm..I feel like I may be telling the circumstances more than the quality of the Scorpio, which probably should be more the point. But hopefully I've made a good
reflection of him as a measure of what an impact he's had on me. Really, it isn't without good reason.

Those first weeks together were magnificent. It genuinely is the first time I've ever connected with someone so fully on all three levels- mind, body and soul. Synchronicities abounded and wonderfully, happily we could talk about them. Though he didn't have the word for them, he said he's been accostomed to noticing that at some of the most pivotal times in his life there is an abundance of meaningful coincidences and he's always taken that to mean fated things are taking place. Which is exactly my feelings and it's great that we can share the moments more deeply together because of it.

Once, this summer, when I was commenting on my astonishment at myself for falling so fast and so deeply for him, expecially after I'd grown so cynical and fearful of falling crazy in love, he replied that he felt the seeds of our relationship were planted years ago and that just what exactly was taking place between us was rather beyond him. He couldn't pretend to fully understand it in it's intensity and profundity. I would agree but I still can't stop myself from attempting to make sense of it all.

I acted somewhat out of character, in that, I threw caution to the wind and moved to another state with him since this is where he's just transferred to for college..studing transpersonal psychology. I had to return to my home of the last few years to get our things together and in those weeks that we were separated I knew without a doubt that taking this risk with him was the right thing to do. It was brutal not being able to touch him or smell him but we did talk every day for hours before we finally moved up to the mountains together.

He's deftly taken up the father role with my son. Well, he has moments of uncertainty and doubt but what person doesn't when they are dealing with the terrible two's for the first time as a parent? I think he is doing splendidly. He's of the philosopy that a child needs what he calls, 'loving boundaries'. Meaning that discipline is firm but always in a way that the child knows he is loved. My dear Scorp, growing up, never had a strong, positive father in his life. The man that was around for much of it was abusive with him. He only had a taste of what a father is supposed to be for the years while he was dating his previous girlfriend (the really special woman I mentioned earlier). In her father he saw what it was to be a man, as he told me. It was then that he really decided it was important for him to be a positve male role model for a child. So the fact that he fell madly in love with a woman who has a fatherless son, yearning for such a role model seems really karmic. He's doing a great job of it. My son is settling in quite well to life with this man. He's really warming up to him lately..yesterday I was being the disciplinarian whilst my love was at work and my son said, "mom, I wanna go see, ____!" He was upset and wanted not my comfort but that of this new man in our life.

That's the other thing that's different- that he's good with money, and he's a hard worker. Usually I've dated slackers. This is a blessed change. He's thoughtful, insightful, compassionate, poetic and quite musically talented. I mean, he's going into psychology because he wants to be a musical therapist! This melds great with me, being so intensely interested in astrology because I want to understand and help people.
Speaking of which, it's quite synchronous that I've cast atleast a couple hundred charts and it wasn't until I cast his that I found another person that had seven planets in one house, as I have in my own chart.

hmm. I just heard Ani Difranco on my stereo sing, "how sick of me/ you must be.." and I'm thinking that perhaps I could say the same thing.. this post is quite long.. But I suppose I had some stuff to share, hm?

One last thought that came to me though.. we aren't entirely unlike voyeurs around here are we? Perhaps exhibitionists would be more apt. I only mean because, while I'm not taking my clothes off in public, I am exposing rather personal and private matters in public, for anyone to see. I would feel weird about speaking so freely to some people I know personally, face-to-face but for some reason I find it theraputic, enlightening, and at times cathartic to do so in this manner. I dunno.. It was just a thought that popped into my head that made me smile and I wondered if anyone else feels that way sometimes.

posted November 05, 2003 06:25 PM            

It is not weird at all for a Saggie to up and leave to be with another. I left the West coast and relocated to the East coast to be with my Ex. It didn't work out, but that is life. I am glad I took the chance and will do it again.

Your significant other sounds so wonderful. I truly enjoyed reading your post. Good Luck Harpyr.

posted November 05, 2003 06:49 PM              

My innermost fantasy is that one day I will come back together with the scorpio man I'm letting go (trying. . . not easy!) now.

I feel, like your's said, that we have planted some seeds, and now they must germinate. I'm not sure WHY they have to germinate in separation and distance, but my heart and soul tell me we are not yet through. In fact, there is such potential there. He is not ready for the love I have. I'm not forceful about it. But I cannot NOT feel it, either. So I love him astrally right now.

I sense that we will come together once my son is older, and this scorpio man and I have some more growth behind us. I have always felt there is someone out there preparing for me, as I am for him. I have a hunch it's the two of us. At least, I hope. I, too, have never connected with someone on ALL levels before or since. All the cylinders fire with this man, emotional, spiritual, social, physical (yeow-za!!! His Moon hits my mars), EVERYTHING!

I love this man with all my heart, but he's on a journey right now. I will be patient.

All the best to you both!! I hope this is forever. I can imagine you pinch yourself, and fear in the back of your mind "is this too good to be true?"

posted November 05, 2003 07:04 PM              

Me:
Sun Scorpio 5th
Moon Taurus 11th
Mercury Scorpio 6th
Venus Scorpio 5th
Mars Virgo 4th
Jupiter Leo 3rd
Saturn Pisces 10th (retrograde)
Uranus Virgo 4th
Neptune Scorpio 6th
Pluto Virgo 4th
True Node Taurus 12th
Asc. Gemini

Him:
Sun Scorpio 12th
Moon Virgo 9th
Mercury Scorpio 12th
Venus Scorpio 12th (retrograde)
Mars Leo 9th
Jupiter Pisces 3rd
Saturn Aquarius 2nd
Uranus Virgo 9th
Neptune Scorpio 12th
Pluto Virgo 9th
True Node Leo 8th
Asc. Sag.

Yes, his Sun/Venus in the twelvth has made our association this life quite, ahem, clandestine. But no reason for it. Neither of us were involved at the time. Yes, there's lots of past life karma. I still feel there's more love. Let's just say, I think we're going to keep coming together until our relationship evolves and we can love each other right.

posted November 05, 2003 07:17 PM              

I know a Scorp woman who has taught me a lot about speaking my own mind and sticking to what my principles are in the middle of other's disagreement with them, and her doing that has meant a LOT to me.

I love Libra a lot sometimes too, don't get me wrong, but, sometimes, you really also do just need a tough going Scorpio to really get in there to make the hard decisions and then work to make them happen too.

And oh yeah, they do sometimes have the most intense looking eyes too, I guess, lol.

posted November 06, 2003 02:11 PM            

Pidaua,
yeah, you're right. It is typically Sagittarian to up and move to a new place to be with someone rather suddenly.. It's just that..I had just told myself, prior to this in my cynicism, that I would not be getting involved in a serious relationship for sometime. I felt that I would not be able to trust someone I just met with not only my heart, but risking my son's heart as well. I was even toying with the idea of being polyamorous! LOL It sounds ridiculous now. I can't imagine sharing my Scorp with anyone and I have no desire to be with anyone else but him. But I mention it to illustrate just how sure I was that I would not find a love that could rock my to the core of my soul like my son's father did. Not only did I find it but I made a 180 degree turn and moved to Colorado to hold on to it. Ahh well.. I guess the risk takin Sag in me still posseses the capacity to surprise mys-ELF.

Astrid, I'm happy to hear that you found my story inspiring. I know what it's like to love someone astrally, without being able to express that to them in the way you'd like. It's incredibly difficult. It's hard to tell without seeing the two charts themselves but it seems like the two of you could very well have had past life buisness that is unfinished if your south node conjoins his Sun. The uni-VERSE will bring you together again when the time is right, have no doubt.

prox- I saw that picture of yer pregger belly. I'm so happy for you and here's some bouncin for you!

pixelpixie-

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You are like a wonderous waterfall flowing over the hard edges I feel today

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posted November 12, 2003 12:40 PM              

My s-node conjoins his sun, merc, venus and neptune. his n-node sits right on top my jupiter. His asc in Sag = sag rules my 7th house, and with my asc in Gem = gem rules his 7th house. And many many saturn aspects galore. Lots of double whammy conjunctions, too. Sun-merc-venus-neptune, you get the picture.

A mystic told me his karma with me is done. I have no further purpose for him in his life. (big tear) But. . . I want more. . . whaaaaaaaahhhh.

I still don't feel we've completed the cycle, only because he's left me hanging with so many questions. Unfulfilled , unfinished stuff.

posted November 12, 2003 01:37 PM              

You got a lotta nerve
To say you are my friend
When I was down
You just stood there grinning

You got a lotta nerve
To say you got a helping hand to lend
You just want to be on
The side that's winning

You say I let you down
You know it's not like that
If you're so hurt
Why then don't you show it

You say you lost your faith
But that's not where it's at
You had no faith to lose
And you know it

I know the reason
That you talk behind my back
I used to be among the crowd
You're in with

Do you take me for such a fool
To think I'd make contact
With the one who tries to hide
What he don't know to begin with

You see me on the street
You always act surprised
You say, "How are you?" "Good luck"
But you don't mean it

When you know as well as me
You'd rather see me paralyzed
Why don't you just come out once
And scream it

No, I do not feel that good
When I see the heartbreaks you embrace
If I was a master thief
Perhaps I'd rob them

And now I know you're dissatisfied
With your position and your place
Don't you understand
It's not my problem

I wish that for just one time
You could stand inside my shoes
And just for that one moment
I could be you

Yes, I wish that for just one time
You could stand inside my shoes
You'd know what a drag it is
To see you

I sometimes feel that Scorpios and I have these thoughts in common about other people, and ourselves. That's a nice thing to say, because most people rarely listen to even start to understand, and listening is an art that Scorpios have. Scorpios do a lot of listening with sympathy, same here.

That's the nicest thing a Scorpio ever did for me, was to really listen to what I had to say, without interrupting, or asking what does this mean. To let me have my say no matter what. They are true friends, as in true and genuine. That's their one true asset, being able to listen.

posted November 13, 2003 12:15 AM              

Anyway, here's my chart information:

Sun scorpio, 10th house
Rising capricorn
Moon aries, 4th house
Mercury Libra 10th house
Venus scorpio 10th house
Mars scorpio 10th house
Saturn Cancer 7th house
jupiter pisces 2nd house
neptune sag 11/12 house
Uranus libra 9th house
Pluto Libra 9th house
North Node Sag
midheaven Libra

I see you also have mars in scorpio, isn't that fun! My aries son also has scorpio mars and it helps me to relate to him and know how to handle his little, yeah right, big temper tantrums. Luckily for him, aries doesn't stay angry too long. Can't say the same for me.

I recently read one of the biggest lessons for scorpios is to "let go" of things, whether it's material things or emotional garbage. Once we learn to let go, we become much more powerful. I'm still learning.
My aries moon is usually ready for something new and always wanting to move on to new adventures. It helps me to avoid holding grudges, but it also wants to make a scene before it moves on!

posted November 13, 2003 03:56 AM            

am sooo happy for u!
Esp. coz i am gettin married to my eagle in a couple of months.Am soo much lookin forward to the journey with him...
One thing i admire in my scorp is the Firm believe he has in his Beliefs.

From the first day we met,he believed we r meant to be together...&, i believed that we were not!!

after one n half years of his persistence,..we came together!And then, i was sooooo glad i was 'wrong'!!!!

even then,marriage seemed very improbable(various reasons)!

Today, we r engaged....& I Know HE made it possible...just by the strength of his DESIRE & BELIEF.

& I just love him so much more for this..

LoL

posted November 13, 2003 04:52 PM              

Ok, the reason for my interest is somewhat self serving, a professional astrologer just rectified my chart. Always was told I was Libra rising, but it never felt right to me. Ends up, it's Scorpio rising, which, looking at my face and the way I act, makes sense now. So any insights you have on my "new" ascendant would be welcome.

posted November 17, 2003 07:00 PM              

Kat Smeow, definately!! I think a scorp rising may be JUST as much scorp as a scorp sun.

*Yikes on the posts about Mars/scorp. That could be scary. I'm glad mine is in virgo!

Umm. yah, my ex hub is a sag (aren't they supposed to be free-spririted?) but he has scorp rising and moon. OH...My...gosh.

He is wayyyyyyy more like a scorp than a sag.

(the low level scorp, too).

Possessive, jealous, suspicious, actually, he's quite a psycho!!

posted November 17, 2003 07:06 PM              

Yes, you are correct.

I feel I could get better closure if this person was not such a flake! argghh.

He is the absolute most elusive individual I have ever known. He's selfish. Interestingly, he has no malice. He's friendly, soft-spoken, gentle. But he's extremely passive-aggressive.

My inquiries (usually email) are met with total unresponsiveness, or curt responses.

I want to know how young he was when he became such a grumpy old man.

He has this side to him.

However, this man has been my lover, and confidant. He's got some spirituality, and is very intuitive.

And the last time he came for a visit, I didn't realise he was LIVING WITH SOMEONE!

I'm still a little mad he cheated on someone with me!! yuk!
When I asked why he said he should have never been there and that I need to put it in the past. As if it never happened. arghh.

Anyway, I'm not going to try to pry and get him to talk simply because he WON'T. The more I try, the more he locks down.

I don't have the energy for it, anyway.
Still, it's a RULE of mine not to see other women's men!! And it makes me mad he was in act-out (or one-up, or get-even) mode when he came to me last time.
Thanks for listening!!! I won't belabor this any more.

Interesting. . . I just met a real cool. . . scorpio man. Can't wait to see what happens next!
Wish me luck everyone!! Am I crazy?
Astrid

posted November 18, 2003 10:05 AM              

Scorpio Zodiac Party (this thursday NOV 20th)

YIKES, it's scorpio season....

celebrate with us at The Zodiac Parties.

Bubba's Sulky Lounge (92 portland street)

$5 cover, free if you're scorpio.

dj's dancing and drinking 9pm til 1am.

this month on the turntables...

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moshe

and special guest dj akasha (catch him while he's in
town, this guy's hot!)

visuals by digitaldori

come down to bubba's and kick off your shoes on the
lighted dancefloor and dance with the sign who makes
astrology SEXY!!!!!!

see you there!

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