posted October 28, 2004 12:42 PM         

OH MY GOD! I've never seen that "destiny" Web site! Too cool ... I mean ... every single person I put in there, including my own, came out with an INCREDIBLY ACCURATE Birth Card.

Vinita -

posted October 28, 2004 07:25 PM         

I got that website link from a post somewhere on lindaland in the first place. I can't remember which category it was in though, or who posted it

I'll go for a wander later.

posted October 28, 2004 08:15 PM         

It doesn't matter, there are many new people joining us all the time, and I've been here a year and don't remember seeing that at all. I'm sure everyone in the Astrology forum would love it. Would you mind if I post it then?

posted October 29, 2004 12:29 AM         

Not that it was mine to begin with, but of course you can post it.

Edited to add original thread (I found it):
http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum18/HTML/000137.html

posted November 20, 2004 07:34 PM         

you were right about the ANGEL part.....it's one of the lexigrams in my name.

Regarding this man, I never heard from him again. (And no, you are not probing.)

I continued to send him light and love for a month or so (by doing affirmations to the Universe). I hope this extra positive energy was the catalyst for him seeking professional help.

posted November 25, 2004 07:52 AM         

you should never lose faith. Sometimes, when we let things go, they come back to us.

Part of me grieves for what might have been (well, maybe I'm even over that). But I know that the Universe must have a much more grander plan for me. It doesn't make it easier at the time, to heal - but synchronicity plays a very important role in my life. I have come to trust it.

posted December 18, 2004 09:23 AM         

I must say that your story touched me, purple_scorp. I donīt know why a soulmate would choose not to give us a chance.

I lived a similar experience ( for more details, look at http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum2/HTML/001113-2.html ) and Iīm still wondering.

I know he is a Soul Mate. And, as Linda said, no-one will ever be able to sever the"silver-blue cord" between us. Some people tried and never succeeded.

Iīm starting to think I also, like you, have a karmic debt with him. Maybe I need to let him go and see him happy with someone else. It hurts like hell.

Maybe I did it to him before... I have tried to cancel that karma forgiving him. I donīt want this to come back to us next lifetime. I donīt want his repayment...

But it is so hard... Someone told me heīs buying a flat with that new girl heīs dating. In Spain, that means itīs serious. Theyīll get married... But I know, inside my soul, this is not over. Iīll have to see him again. And I donīt want to...

He chose not to be with me. I want him to go and not hear from him or see him again. I donīt want to remember him. I want to bury him... But I know there is a superior force that will keep us tied... That bleeding silver-blue cord...

I used to read his thoughts, I could communicate with him without talking, I could feel his pain and read his mind... Somehow, I think he still invades my mind and I invade his.

I was asleep at first, I couldnīt recognise him for several years... And now, he has chosen to let me behind. But he canīt sever that cord and I know heīll be back in my life. And I donīt want to, because heīll only bring pain with his denial.

Maybe what I did in past lives was awful. I donīt know, I donīt remember. But, what can I do? I would have loved to put it right but he wonīt let me. Maybe itīs my turn to lose and suffer.

posted December 18, 2004 03:26 PM         

Relationships are never easy, they are Hard. Very very hard and difficult. Everyone that is important is a rough road, and its never going to end in Happily ever after ever. To you, relationships are very important, so they will always be difficult, and your emotions are tightly controlled sometimes it's hard to read. Why wait a year to cry? Even though you have a cord with this man, have you considered the cord is bound up in sad/mad/happy feelings that you haven't let go and experienced yet?

Your control, your concern for his life is admirable, and you have pride in it. But it doesn't sound he knew how to fulfill your lust for life, or help you experience true love the way you need to, even if he did love you, he can't experience it to the fullest.

There is Love, and experiencing love to the fullest, my ex, a Libra, could love me but never expeience love, or receive it for himself, not even after 8 years together in the same house. The chances are even if you married this man, you are connected to you, he would never feel fulfilled and you would never see him experience a depth of feeling due to his insecurities.

The Leo woman in the story was close to you too, but she was a friend who hurt you, some one you will always remember. Both were meant to be together to learn their lessons, but I don't think it would have been different without her, she was meant to be for him, there is a higher will, and even Leos don't make things happen.

In my silver cord story, the woman was a Cancer/Leo and I "won" him for a little while, still I was never happy with his reactions. He never felt secure in his attraction, so he needed more reassurance from elsewhere.

We will be connected but as uneasy friends, he broke my trust and I broke his, my feeling about forgiveness is that it comes from above, we have to wait for it, not rush the experience. I believe it happens at certain points in time when we need the feeling.

And another thing, the boundary between heaven and earth is very thin, one day we will all ascend to a better place than this and everyone we know will have the perfect love they need.

Until then, at least we have imperfect friends,
I'm not him, but I do want happiness for you

posted December 18, 2004 08:36 PM         

Firstly, a cyber hug for you.

I often wonder how my soul mate would retell the same story that I told. I can imagine that he might tell his mates that he met some nutter and needed to run as far away from me as possible. LOL.

Why would I say that? Because mostly I've put my own perspective on my story. Perhaps I should have tried writing it from his voice? I think time is making me cynical.

Regarding your soul mate. I wonder if for him, the chase was more exciting than the catch? Once he caught you, he didn't know what to do with you. Think about it. He spent so many years chasing something that he knew was unobtainable. And finally when it is, he doesn't know how to handle it.

In terms of repaying your karmic debt - well, maybe you have already - by letting him go.

I've heard a lot of stories where people have become romantically involved with their soul mates (twin flames in some cases). And, they've not been able to last the distance because the relationship was too intense.

The Universe sure cooked up a very elaborate way of getting me to meet this man. So many synchronicities - and, as a firm believer in such, the Universe knew it would be a way to get my attention.

So for a while, I was stuck with there needing to be more. I don't know the reason why we were brought together but I do know there is no future for us. So, I've had to forgive and forget, without closure, and move on. I've pretty much resolved that I will never know the answer to these questions.

You know, before I met this man, I had a dream/vision of a past life. It was one where I was married but in love with another man. The man I loved was engaged to be married, but he loved me. So, we were both not free to give our love to one another. We made a vow that we would be together in a future life.

I truly believe this man was the soul mate I speak of in this thread. Obviously, it wasn't meant to be right here and right now.

Love is a two-way street. And as much as you and I might pine for what might have been - the harsh reality is that things always happen for a reason.

In my case, I wonder if my soul mate was stepping aside for an even greater love to show in my life?

The only way to know for certain is to wait for the future to unfold.

with love

posted December 19, 2004 08:15 AM         

Natasha, you are right... I donīt think heīs ready to give me true love even when he felt it or to fulfill my lust for life. Heīs not ready. Maybe he needs to experience what is like to live apart from a Twin Soul. What is like not to have that magic after having smelled its perfume because he wasnīt brave enough. Maybe his life is not as perfect after all. At least, I can feel proud of myself because I have learnt something he hasnīt grasped yet. Iīm much more ahead of what he is in the race for enlightment. At least I was ready to give, ready to fight... and ready to forgive.

Purple_scorp, I know he wasnīt ready for the catch. He always felt he didnīt deserve it. It was such a responsibility for him, he thought he wouldnīt be able to keep me so he decided not to try. Our tie was unusual so he went for something much easier and more conventional. But true love is not conventional. As he is a Scorpio, I thought he wouldnīt give up so easily. I was wrong.

I always believed there was only a Twin Soul and many Soul Mates. Soul Mates are souls that follows you around from lifetime from lifetime, your spiritual family, brothers and sisters. Your Twin Soul is the one that was forged as part of yours, your other half, your spiritual mate.

Maybe he wasnīt my Twin Soul. Maybe he is just a Soul Mate, my brother as to speak... A Twin Soul cannot keep apart from you...Maybe I was overwhelmed by this kind of love because it was the first time I met a Soul Mate in this lifetime; I love that brother as I never loved anyone I already know and I got confused and thought that should be Twin Soul kind of love. Maybe, your Soul Mate, purple_scorp, was also your brother and as you said, was stepping aside to give way to your Twin Soul.

I also had a powerful dream (http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum2/HTML/001232.html). A palm reader told me 6 years ago that man I always wanted would come after a disastrous relationship, which has just finished... Something tells me that heīs coming... I hardly can believe it... Maybe not everything is lost... Maybe I wonīt need to wait until next lifetime to reunite with that man with powerful eyes...

posted December 19, 2004 10:01 AM         

You will find a fighter someday, who knows your value, and even if it's not perfect, he won't give up.

posted December 19, 2004 11:36 AM         

You are a star! I hope you also find your fighter... We all deserve one. He must be somewhere out there waiting...

posted December 20, 2004 12:22 AM         

I never actually thought he was a twin flame - the other half of me - only a soul mate (sheesh, she says only.....). I did think he bore a similar resemblance to me though. I spoke in my post about him showing me a photo to prove that I had the same front teeth as his sister - that was weird because she looked a bit like me too. LOL.

It's funny because some of my other friends tell me he was my twin flame and that he'll be back in my life at some point. But I don't feel that.

I know these strong feelings that you speak about.....I've not felt anything like it before either. I can't imagine how powerful it would have been had the feelings been reciprocated; or had he been my twin flame.

In a way, I think he has now spoilt me for future relationships. I think I'm looking to feel the same thing with another man, and nobody has come anywhere close. So I have to watch that I don't sit on a shelf for the rest of my life .

Take care

posted December 20, 2004 09:46 AM         

I will never be happy with less than that... I tried with someone after him and never was even close... I did love that man a lot, but what I felt was shameful in comparison. I learnt that lesson.

I donīt think my Soul Mate, the one Iīve been talking about in previous posts, will be back to me, not to be with me... Iīll see him again, thatīs for sure... But heīll marry that girl and have a family with her.

Only because he is not ready for me... Thatīs why I want to believe he is only (yes, only) a spiritual brother. Thatīs why I love him so much... But I hope I will be able to find someone I can love even more. I hope he is not my Twin Flame or Soul.

If he was, he wouldnīt be able to resist, he would come to me. There are higher forces than your own will. I believe Destiny is stronger. And, anyway, why should I pay for his decision, because he is too spiritually inmature to undrstand?

Because if he is the one, I will be either left on the self or deeply unhappy. And everytime I see him or I think I see a glimpse of him, my heart will be crushed. I deserve to feel happy to see him when I do and the only way I will is finding someone I can love even more...

He will condemn me to unhappiness without wanting to... There is no karma that can be created for that reason. My pain would not be compensated... Equilibrium rules the Universe. What would be my lesson? I already learnt to fight, I already forgave him. There is no point in suffering for the rest of my life.

There must be someone else. My Twin Soul must be around and it canīt be him if he wonīt be back. I refuse to accept that. He must be my brother, a Soul Mate but not my Twin Soul.

The only thing I have left is Faith. I refuse to accept that the Universe wants me to suffer for the rest of my life because Iīm part of it. I gave Love and Forgiveness so I canīt receive Pain back forever. It must be compensated. So I will receive Love with the same intensity. Thatīs what I believe.

posted October 20, 2005 07:24 PM         

hello and how lovely to hear from you again.

Your story is amazing and beautiful. You must have had some unfinished soul work to have met up again. I can imagine that things would pick up exactly where they'd left off. I guess that's what happens with a soul mate as such.

To answer your question. No! I never heard from my soul mate again. Nor did I bother to contact him again. I know he was still on the dating web site where he first contacted me. And, he had some extra photos up which just made him look so ugly.

The interesting thing I've learnt is that our mind is a very powerful thing. We can make oursElves be in love if we want to. Now, I don't know if that came out the way that it was meant to. I believe that to be in love, you must feel a deep connection with someone BUT, you can block that connection if you want to. You can turn it on and off like a switch. Well, I believe your mind can anyhow.

I know some people will read this and think it's not possible. If you love someone, I mean, truly love them....that no amount of mind work is going to stop that. Well, I've learnt in that last year (it was September 2004 when I last saw that soul mate) that if you want to truly love someone, it is a choice that you make. What you put into a relationship is what you will get out of it. And believe me, relationships are a lot of hard work.

vinita, you see, the way I look at you is that your first encounter opened your heart and mind to all things possible. Some people take that knowledge and grow with it. You obviously have. Some people ignore that knowledge and stay the same. (Which sounds like your soul mate.) So, whereas you were probably on the same page back when you first met, you've moved on and am now midway through the sixteenth chapter.

I know what you mean about idolising someone too. I think that absence does this. While you were apart, your imagination thought of beautiful things that you could achieve together and fabricated information for the parts where there was none. It's a natural thing to do. Funny how reality often doesn't live up to our dreams though, hey?

I can now look back at my soul mate encounter and accept that he came into my life for two reasons: 1. To make sure I was doing okay in this life. 2. To help open my heart for a future love.

I had locked away my heart and he made me go and fetch the key. It takes someone special to do that. And while I wrote that I thought he may have been sleeping.....perhaps to some extent I was too.

Another friend of mine had said how interesting it was that I believed that in our last incarnation, I couldn't be with soul mate because we were both in relationships (though we were very much in love). And yet, in this incarnation, we were both free and he chose not to be with me.

You would have read of the synchronicity between me and soul mate in this thread. Well, in April of this year, I met a new man, whom I also shared a lot of synchronicity with. We've been dating since that time but he blows hot and cold. I started another thread about him on Lindaland. I think it's called "Synchronicity bit me again".

So, I'm learning a lot about love. Some of it is painful but I just have to trust in the Universe and accept that I am exactly where I am meant to be.

Good luck with your future love life, vinita and take care of yoursElf.

posted October 29, 2005 05:59 PM         

I would read the Soul Mates and Fear Thread! It's got some good information there! Don't be sad Mine didn't recongnize me either, he Ran!!!

posted March 29, 2006 09:38 AM         

you guessed it he never replied.
anyways well since I had decided to move on...I dint give it much thought or atleast I tried...

then many months later I did figure out that it wasn't working out with them anyways so in 2005 dec I just happened to call him (yes, i know am idiot, I don't know why I keep doing it)and asked him who this girl was...?
he told me blah blah.....
you know one of the biggggggeeeessssttt and probably the only reason nothing actually materialised with us was that he was many many years older to me!
so I just asked him how old is she?

that was it final straw...
as old as I am!

it just got to me....
anyways he told me she had promised to marry him, but she din't..and now she had moved to another country....
anyways I called him once after that...
and then
OMG....
on New year eve...he has neverrrrrr callled me, like never....it took me two minutes to recover...anyways...
yes I did figure that it was out of sheer loneliness and boredom
he asked me to spend the new years with him and I declined!
how weird is life!
anyways...a friend told me later he called up every girl on his list that day!!!
*sigh*
anyways...I've come a long way!!!
It should be over.
In many ways it is!

posted March 29, 2006 09:39 AM         

you guessed it he never replied.
anyways well since I had decided to move on...I dint give it much thought or atleast I tried...

then many months later I did figure out that it wasn't working out with them anyways so in 2005 dec I just happened to call him (yes, i know am idiot, I don't know why I keep doing it)and asked him who this girl was...?
he told me blah blah.....
you know one of the biggggggeeeessssttt and probably the only reason nothing actually materialised with us was that he was many many years older to me!
so I just asked him how old is she?

that was it final straw...
as old as I am!

it just got to me....
anyways he told me she had promised to marry him, but she din't..and now she had moved to another country....
anyways I called him once after that...
and then
OMG....
on New year eve...he has neverrrrrr callled me, like never....it took me two minutes to recover...anyways...
yes I did figure that it was out of sheer loneliness and boredom
he asked me to spend the new years with him and I declined!
how weird is life!
anyways...a friend told me later he called up every girl on his list that day!!!
*sigh*
anyways...I've come a long way!!!
It should be over.
In many ways it is!