posted October 07, 2005 08:48 PM         

thank you for your kind support. Yes, you are right....I am good, and I am strong too. I have grown since the last episode and I am looking at things differently. I actually think I've transformed quite dramatically during that short time (it was about a 10-week period).

***Update***
Interestingly, between my last post and yours, Mr A rang. He tells me his had a miserable week where everything has been going wrong.

Even his voice was strained and deeper. It had changed by the end of the conversation. Much lighter and happier.

Another interesting thing. This morning, I woke before 6am (which is unheard of for me on a Saturday morning). I spent a good half hour meditating and during that time, I channelled love and light from the Universe and sent it to Mr A. I actually visualised mysElf, holding one of his hands in between mine. I felt he needed a boost.

So, on one hand, I wasn't surprised when he rang (as that had been the result another time when I'd sent him love and light).

We had a very deep and meaningful discussion based around his fear of commitment. I told him he needed to take a leap of faith and to trust in the Universe. We've sorted through a lot more issues. I also told him that I need a relationship where my partner can communicate and not run, or shut down on me. I told him I that I loved him for being him. It's something that he's not had in any of his past relationships. So, he's not used to having someone who wants to share and support him in his life.

He's asked me to go up there (seems his kids are missing mine ). At first he said, if you like, you can come to my place. But then he added, no, I would like you to come. We are meeting at 12 noon for lunch in a nearby town.

posted October 07, 2005 11:46 PM         

Thanks for updating us -- I can feel your quiet joy in the spiritual progress of Mr A! I am elated on your behalf -- but something tells me this is still an uphill matter for your skittish fella. I hope that one day soon he truly realizes how lucky he is to have your support.....

Thanks to the knowledge and experience of the Dragon-Man, I've recently been delving into Runes. I cast them for you with the question, "What does purple-scorp need to know for her life over the next few months?"

The runes Algiz / Raido / Fehu came up. Please see the following links for interps -- I'm a neophyte and I don't want to pass on any erroneous impressions that I might have picked up.....

http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum1/HTML/006535.html
http://www.stevenforrest.com/runes.html

posted October 08, 2005 08:19 AM         

Hope you are well....

I pulled out three cards for YOU and asked what path or message should you follow for the next month:

Card I

Reflection.....give each other some space at the moment..

Card 2

Friendship.....nurture the bonds of friendhship

Card 3

Transformation......your relationship with another is about to deepen.

I thought that came out very clear ....... hope it helps you....if you want me to pull some tarot cards too....please ask.......

Sending love

posted October 08, 2005 08:31 AM         

I LOVE when I am sending someone I love light and love and then they call!! Cool!

So happy to hear that he is desiring you and trying his best. Your strength and calmness will help anchor his weaker traits. It is a time for you to be consistent in your thoughts and actions with him so he understands that you love him unconditionally and with a constancy.

Take a look at the 'runes' Zala pulled for you! They are an amazing tool that Happy Dragon began to educate the Knowflakes about...yet until that time,I had never really looked at them-or known anything about their ancient wisdom! They are remarkably insightful!

Not to mention the cards that Sue g pulled for you...right on target!

Good thoughts are with you from your friends here at LLand...have a wonderful time and feel great about your progress-we can all sense it!!!! Excellent job purple!

posted October 08, 2005 10:30 AM         

Keep shining girl.......

posted October 09, 2005 08:14 PM         

thank you thank you thank you for your beautiful words and loving support.

Firstly, to 'Zala. Thank you for my Rune Reading. I am familiar with runes as I actually have my own set that a very close friend of mine helped me make (about three years ago) from a branch from a tree from his back yard.

And, if you don't have a set, I really recommend making your own, as it is a wonderful therapeutic thing to do. Here's a link to a thread where I've posted a picture of my set and some other members have posted pictures of their home-made sets too.

The three Runes that you pulled for me are very positive and reinforce GemStar's advice to remain consistent. Thank you for thinking of me.

Next, to sue g. Thank you also for your reading. What deck did you pull those cards from? Was it the Love one that you were talking about? It sounds a lot like cards from the Osho Zen? At least, I know two of those three cards are also in that deck (which is my favourite Tarot deck, btw). It sounds like a positive time for me. I think I may have already gone through a transformation period in mysElf. Nice to see that a relationship will deepen. Mr A has taken that leap of faith. (More on this in a minute.)

And lastly to the bright and precious GemStar. I don't know how old you are physically but I feel as though you are beautiful old soul. It is so comforting to feel that, despite me not being here much lately, there is tremendous love and support from people like you (and 'Zala and sue g).

So, thank you to the three of you for continuing to care. Really, when I stumbled across this place when I first joined, I felt like I'd come home. Your kindness and support just reinforces this.

And, now, for the update:

We met at midday in a beautiful, treed country town, at a playground by a gorgeous river. The kids all went off to do their own catching up and things seemed easy between Mr A and I. Like nothing had happened.

We went to a nearby cafe (that overlooked the playground) and had a cuppa. On the phone, I had told Mr A that he needed to concentrate on what he had, not what he didn't have. I was very clear on what I needed and, he is making a commitment to step up to the plate. He told me about all of the things that he needed to change.

Like a typical Aries, he's probably jumping twenty steps ahead of himsElf, but I'm reigning him in, gently and with love. After all, I'm an Aries moon, and there's nothing wrong with a little ambition.

I told him he was cyclical and I could not sustain many more cycles like that. As I said, he clearly knows what he needs to do. Hopefully, we can both move forward now.

It is lovely that our children are such good friends - I told Mr A, that we were very lucky that our children got along so well and that in a lot of step-families this was a major issue. (Again, something that we have that we need to be grateful for.) I also told him though, that it was nice but not a reason to stay together.

The rest of the weekend was lovely. Saturday night, we went out to dinner, as one big happy family (with a couple of other friends too). When it was time for Mr A to return his children to his ex on Sunday late afternoon, they did not want to go and my children wanted to spend an extra night there too. (My 7yo son was actually complaining that he only got to spend one night - not our usual two - with Mr A's children.)

So Mr A came to stay at my house last night and will be back again tomorrow night.

I feel as though I'm on a new journey now.

Thanks once again, for all of your love and support.

posted October 09, 2005 09:04 PM         

I am really thrilled that your weekend went so well, it feels like an auspicious new beginning for you and Mr Aries!! What a blessing that your kids love to be together.....

And thanks for the links to the pics of your rune-set and the story of how they were made -- very unique and special!

posted October 09, 2005 10:33 PM         

Your lovely weekend sounds so peaceful and I can almost touch the deepening of your relationship with your beloved Mr Aries!! Good job my Friend!

BTW...the upcoming lunar eclipse in the Full Moon 10/17 falls at Aries 24'....does that fall near planets for him or you? Just one to keep an eye on!!

Jupiter moves into Scorpio 10/25 so check to see where it is currently transiting in your chart for much luck and expansiveness!!

Regarding the runes...I did not know they could be made from a tree branch! COOL! As of yet, I do not have my own set and am waiting to be inspired as to what medium will be my choice....home-made or pre-packaged!!

So happy for you that your patience and perseverance is helping your love grow...keep it up purple!! Knowing what you want is really the KEY I believe to finding lasting love and happiness...that is one of the main secrets of love-do you agree??

Take good care!

Hugs-

GemStar

posted October 09, 2005 11:11 PM         

Could you post a pic here?

Take care. It sounds like you have been through quite an ordeal over the last few months. You know in your heart what you want and need, and I wish you the best of luck.

posted October 10, 2005 04:14 AM         

You are very welcome......you deserve the support.....you always gave yours freely, and that is never fortgotten!!!

The cards I used are called Lovers Oracle, they are not tarot, just red heart shaped cards with a message.....I use them a lot....and find they work well.

So I am going to wish you well,,,,,send lots of love and luck from Ireland.....and shall be hunting for my magick wand......so I can wave it over the two of you.....

Speak soon

Lots of love

posted October 12, 2005 05:30 AM         

Thanks for the compliment re my Runes, 'Zala. Do you want to know a funny coincidence......lol, no such thing.....when I went to fetch the link the other day, it made me think of my friend that helped me make them. I've not seen him for maybe over a year. He rang me today. It was nice to catch up.

GemStar, thanks for the heads up on the full moon and Jupiter. I'll drag out our charts and take a peek. As for making vs buying your Runes.....definitely make your own.....I feel it's an important part in connecting to them. And yes, I think that knowing what you want is the secret/key to love - easy for a scorp to know and get what they want, lol. I just need to give Mr A time to realise it's what he wants too. And if you love Osho Zen Tarot, have you seen the Tao Oracle deck? It's an I-Ching by the same illustrator that did the Osho deck. Very lovely and soft/gentle cards.

Hi future_uncertain. I don't know how to post pics here. There doesn't seem to be a link where you can do that. Can anybody enlighten me?

And finally to sue g. Thank you for your Irish love and luck. I have a wand too (guess what colour it is???) Heart-shaped cards. Wow. They sound excellent. Have you seen Toni Salerno's Universal Love deck? They have a beautiful purple image on their backs and lovely pictures and words.

posted October 12, 2005 02:19 PM         

I am registered at Aeclectic, so I can open the pic and copy it in here so future can see it -- is that OK with you??

posted October 12, 2005 05:42 PM         

btw - is your name the same there as it is here???

posted October 12, 2005 09:08 PM         

I thought I could get your rune-set pic in here, but it's not a .jpg file extension, it's attached to the forum.....

don't know if the url will work..... http://www.tarotforum.net/attachment.php?attachmentid=1889

future, the registration is free and only takes a minute.....

And yes, p_s, I'm Azalaksh wherever I go -- my Virtual Cyber-Ego

posted October 12, 2005 11:01 PM         

And you beat me to the "sign-up plug" for future_uncertain. It's an excellent forum and one definitely worth signing up for. It's free but there is a Subscriber's section that has more options if you want to pay.

posted November 26, 2005 01:09 AM         

Haven't seen you here for awhile, wondered how things were going with you??

posted November 27, 2005 05:58 PM         

I hope you are well and happy. Thank you for your concern, thoughts and hugs.

I have not been to Lindaland for ages. Probably the last time I was here, was to post in this thread. I've actually not even been to my other forums much either lately. I've been totally consumed by Orphalese (a tarot software program) - I've been spending lots of time scanning and setting up my decks and notes etc, and posting on their forum. You should check out the software if you don't already know about it.....www.orphalese.com

I am very happy to report that I am fit and healthy and that things are going amazingly well with Mr Aries. We've just spent this last weekend together (child-free) and it was so beautiful. Not only that, but I had fantastic spiritual development this weekend too.

Friday night, we went out to dinner with his psychic business partner. We were discussing many spiritual things and I don't know how it came up in conversation but I ended up telling him about my sister (who suffers from bi-polar and is not doing well at the moment). She is actually scheduled for Electric Shock Treatment this Wednesday and the business partner decided that I should send her some healing energy, under his guidance.

So, on Saturday, I was shown a new-to-me technique to raise my energy. The business partner supported me by boosting my energy so that I would not be depleted when I sent some to my sister. It was an amazing experience. I'd sent love and light before, but just not at this level. Wow! It was so powerful, it left my body shaking and I was in tears over the wondermont of what I was actually capable of achieving.

Mr Aries was instrumental in creating the situation for me and his business partner to work, by pushing us together. Later on, I asked Mr A what he thought about my work with his business partner and he said that he knows that my spirituality is my passion and he is very happy to see me work on developing it.

I did say, right at the outset, my getting together with Mr A felt like a higher purpose than the relationship itsElf. And, as things developed, I questioned whether his role in my soul's life was to introduce me to his business partner. I really believe this to be true. Whether it was just for the growth and development of my own soul, or whether it was so I could learn new techniques to help my sister, I am not sure.

I actually talked about this with Mr A, and he jokingly said, ah, so now that you've done that, are you going to leave me? And I said, well, just because I've met the purpose, doesn't mean that we have to stop seeing each other.

Of course I have so much more to learn. This feels like a new beginning for my soul, and, that I am on the right path (after that short little detour).

The thing is, this weekend was not scheduled to happen. I was always going over to Mr A's house, but, his business partner was not coming up. Late in the week, a piece of mining equipment seized up, so the business partner decided to make a quick visit to help Mr A fix it. Usually, the business partner would bring his wife and arrive on Saturday. But, this time, he came up alone on Friday night. It gave us the perfect opportunity to do some spiritual work. The Universe had set the scene brilliantly.

For the rest of the weekend - I spent solely with Mr A. Yesterday, we again went walking in that National park that I spoke of earlier in the thread. We climbed "The Horn", the highest point of the mountain and on the way back down, Mr Aries (who was walking behind me) stopped and called my name and I turned around to look at him. And he told me that he loved me. So, I walked back up to him to give him a hug and a kiss, and to say thank you. And to tell him that I loved him too.

You know, I re-read this entire thread before writing this post. Gosh, I've grown so much during this time. Actually, Mr A has grown too. We've been through some pretty tough stuff, and together, we have grown as a couple.

And, what of the future, you may ask? His mum has invited me to their Christmas lunch. Yesterday, his sister was on the phone asking if it was okay to include my children in their Kris Kringle.

I don't know what the long-term future will bring but right now, all is good in my world.

posted November 27, 2005 08:06 PM         

I am so delighted to hear how well things are going in your life right now!! It sounds as if Mr A has become less ready to bolt at a moment's notice.....
And your experience with his psychic partner is electrifying!
How beautiful for you to give energy to your sister as you did

btw, you had a birthday thread in FFA a few weeks ago

posted November 29, 2005 07:32 PM         

His sister's birthday is the same day as my Aunty's birthday (and she is more like my sister than an Aunty).

His daughter's birthday (the one who shares her middle name with my daughter) is the same day as my nephew's birthday.

His ex-wife's birthday is the same day as my neice's (sister of the nephew mentioned above) birthday.

That's just weird in itself. The daughter-mother birthdays being the same as my nephew/niece (brother/sister) birthdays. I must go and check up my birthday book to see if these pairs are soul mates.

posted February 06, 2006 09:28 PM         

Are you around?? Wondering how things are going with you.....

posted February 06, 2006 10:08 PM         

You have this knack of contacting me (through this thread) exactly at times when I need a hug.

I have been totally consumed by Mr Aries and I've not been here, or even on ATF much since Christmas.

I am okay, but going through yet another rough time with Mr Aries. In fact, I just got off the phone from him now.

On 22nd Jan, he told me some days he loves me, some days he doesn't and he's scared that I'm not "the one". He gave some very shallow reasons as to why he hasn't given all of himself to me.....mainly to do with my fitness and some of the clothes I wear. But also, he is still tied to an old relationship and has been comparing his love for me, with the love he felt for that partner at the same stage of our relationship.

I told him, while you're stuck in the past, you have no chance for a future, not with me, nor anyone else.

I asked him if he would come to counselling with me and he said he didn't think we were at the point of needing it.

So, I actually took all of my things from his house on 27 Jan, without explanation, and left (which was bad timing because the next day was the first anniversary of my mother's death - so I had two lots of grieving to do).

The next night, he rang to see how I was doing...with respect to my mum. I didn't even think he'd remember it was the anniversary. He told me he needed time to think about what relationships mean to him.

Two nights later, he rang back and told me how much he misses me. He cried and said that he didn't realise what a bright light I was in his life. That he couldn't see what was right under his nose. He acknowledged he had unrealistic expectations of relationships and an idealistic view of the perfect partner. He said he would ring the next night, and the next night, and the next and every night after that.

I thought it was a really positive sign for our relationship.

Tues came and went....no call.
Wed came and went....no call.

By Thurs I was concerned for his safety (as he works alone, underground) so I rang him. He basically said, I'm okay....just because I don't ring you, doesn't mean that I'm not okay.

Underlying message.....I have chosen not to ring you.

At the weekend, I decided that I needed to put some closure on this, once and for all! So, I txt msg and emailed, an invitation to meet me for dinner either last night, or tonight. I know he got the msg, as he txt a silly msg back....but he didn't reply to the invitation.

Yesterday, I went to see the counsellor here at work. He is a very spiritual person, just like me and we clicked straight away. He basically said, I don't know what you came here for, you are a very switched-on person and you know exactly what you are doing. He said, maybe you just needed to hear it being said back to you, to know you were doing the right thing.

I didn't hear from Mr Aries and I sat at home alone, last night at 8.30pm thinking, well I guess we're not having dinner tonight then.

It always gets the better of me. I hate to leave things dangling. So, this morning I rang and left two msg on Mr Aries' phone. Basically saying, hello, thought I'd send you a hug. I told him that I wasn't going to stalk him or chase him down. That, I'm on his side, and want him to be happy. Said, I hope you're not avoiding me on purpose. That at some point, I hoped that he would actually be able to talk with me. And I closed by saying, I loved him.

On ATF, someone had posted a "Let it Go" poem and I thought it applied so much to my situation so, I emailed it to Mr Aries.

Then, just as you posted in this thread, he rang me. He had been out of town overnight. He wants to meet me tonight. I told him that I needed to meet him to tell him what my needs are. I also said that I thought his lack of contact meant that we were over. And he said, but I'm still working things out in my head. So, I said....do you hear what I am saying....I am telling you, that when you withdraw and don't contact me because you don't want to, it is the same for me as when you are having a time out to think things through.

He said he was looking forward to meeting me tonight to listen to what I had to say.

I have been stressed since I left him. Mainly because I'm still in that push me pull you cycle. I've not been eating much and I've lost 7kg since I returned to work after Christmas (in less than a month). I know that's not good for me and I have to look after myself. I just have no appetite and when my children are with my ex....I can't be bothered cooking just for me.

I just need to know from him....either way....and that's exactly why I'm meeting him tonight.

Thank you for the hugs, 'Zala and silvermoon. I really appreciate them.

posted February 06, 2006 11:08 PM         

I have little to pass on to you, because you are already at the right place for you You have demonstrated the loving patience of a saint with this fella. I need to head to bed now, but I will check back in the morning to see how your meeting with him went -- if you can, please reply here.....

Consider yourself hugged again!! I'm sending thoughts towards Oz and Mr Aries to open up his heart and banish his fears.....

posted February 07, 2006 10:02 PM         

((((('Zala))))))

Your loving thoughts must have worked because he has agreed to stop cycling, to make a commitment to me, to attend my mother's memorial service with me, and to come and see MY counsellor.

I just laid it out straight.....this is what I need from you. Give me a yes I can do it, or no I can't. If it's a no, then, it's been lovely knowing you.....kind of thing.

I think he finally realised what he would lose. Me!

So, please keep sending your loving thoughts. I believe this is such a positive step and regardless of whether we stay together or break up.....my soul's purpose of helping him heal (which is why I've hung around so long) will have been served.

with love
purple_scorp