posted January 23, 2006 02:01 PM         

I'm focusing on myself at the moment. Kind of tunnel-vision. If I find myself straying into other people's thoughts and feelings I pull myself back to me.

Every day I am learning something new about myself, even in old situations. I am healing very quickly and very properly. My Crab isn't on my mind so much now, I have accepted that it is over, finito, gone. I'm even beginning to look back at the whole situation with a sense of warmth and understanding. It all needed to happen so much.

I'm not sure what she got out of the experience, she already seemed to be bitter towards blokes, she told me this as well, so she is probably hating me right now. Not my problem really.

When you come out of the other side, make sure you bring yourself with you. Walk through the circle of fire and do not be afraid of the flames darling. They are there to cleanse you not harm you.

I hope peace comes to you soon.