posted April 10, 2006 08:50 PM
HappyHappyDragon,I just wrote a long drawn out, heartfelt, message that for some reason would not post and got erased. Lets see if I can rememember some of my message
Yes you are tall. You fit the characteristics of your Ascendant decan.
My sister drove a motorcycle but I tried and almost got burned by some large hot metal thing on the side. Well it burned my leg and I jumped off the bike. My dad was trying to teach us both.
I never learned but I would ride on the back with my sister.
I don't know if I am expecting too much. Too be honest I really don't ask for much, in my opinion. I truly like friendship(platonic). I like the company of men because I am so close to my dad, so it is very natural to me.
If I am in a relationship with a guy I give it my all and do expect the same back.
Well to make a long story short the guy I wrote about is now ignoring me. He no longer works with me but was on vacation. He was only at my work location temporarily and was placed at his permanent location. He came back from vacation on a day I was not there to get his things.
He cc me some email regarding something that had nothing to do with me. He has not emailed or called me directly.
One day we talked for 8 hours. He told me all about his past relationships. I was the person who said I really do have to get home, because we could have talked for another 8 hours if it was left up to him.
Before he left for vacation he sent me this beautiful email thanking me and telling me how special I was to him and said I have been a blessing to his life but he looks forward to having more.
I don't know if he is covering himself because of harrassment or work issues.
I have no problem with that but a part of me feels like he is full of it. Maybe he does not want to pursue a relationship because of work but please don't play with my intelligence and make me think I imagined the last few weeks.
I just feel badly. Like the person who I thought was so nice is another game player. I would have no problem with being his friend. Like I said before he was really not my type but something about how he treated me and talked to me drew me to him.
Now I have cut it off. I will not allow myself to dwell on that type of person again but I am just loosing confidence because I so had him pegged wrong.
My sister told me he is insecure and wants me to contact him.
I emailed him back after he sent me that beautiful email but I did not get a response.
How long is Pluto going to be transiting my 7th house? I am just curious, because I know from the bottom of my heart I will be single until I leave this earth.
I will not give in to power plays and games. I love being who I am. I can just feel it. It is so hard for me to change and at this point I refuse.
Every guy is the same. They are so nice until they think you like them, I mean really like them, then they start playing stupid games.
I liked him but I could have easily settled on friendship because I like his company. Now I don't even want to be his friend.
I think it is mean
to fool someone like you are the best of friends, and that is another thing he called me his closest friend and a bunch of other crappy meaningless things.
Anyway I think it is mean to act like you truly like someone
as a friend and then to make sure you come to work the day they are not working and then to casually cc them some email that really did not having anything to do with anything.
His vacation is the longest we have not spoken to each other in about 7 months.
I thought he may have left a note for me saying goodbye. I mean we are still at the same company. OOH, I have to take a breath.
I have never made any romantic overtures or anything. I am so in controllllllll.
I would have loved for him to come back and say hi, I had fun working with you, I am going to miss you and take care. Is that too much to ask??
Sorry if I am on my soapbox but I am hurt again. What can I say.....My exterior is so not like my interior.
Very Blue M