posted December 01, 2007 12:41 PM         

Thank you, Lara.

posted December 02, 2007 05:50 AM         

Perhaps your unconsciousness pulls you to think of this other person. Perhaps u are following your bliss and that is leading you to think of this other person. But theres someone you are having conscious sex with this very moment because you feel you are obligated to this person for whatever reason or perhaps even to fulfill your own needs. I can understand if you are drifting away in that case and you don't want to hurt this conscious person for reasons perhaps only you know better.

posted December 02, 2007 01:59 PM         

Heh perhaps u are not having sex now , but it applies to whenever you did back then. Hope it will add understanding to those moments.

posted December 08, 2007 05:55 PM         

Yes, I'm feeling sorry for myself. I'm feeling old. My sister just married a nice wholesome dentist. I feel like I have given my whole life to CRAP, a stupid quest that is meaningless except in my mind. Yeah, that means astrology and the beauty of L.G. and ALL OF IT. How did it serve me to think of the good in everyone and read Linda's Love Signs and think if I only could keep my mind on the positive side of the person etc. Horse **** . Seriously. Oh, and Christ and forgiveness. Yep, just keep turning the other cheek (until you are black and blue!) *laughs maniacally*

And what did it get me?
Alone
non-stop work
mental exhaustion
pathetic life with my only adult interaction being my online community, my daughter's school or a freaking bar
I HATE TODAY

I would say to just ignore me because I will probably back to normal in a day.
but what if I'm not
what if this is the beginning of a loss of faith
somebody talk me down from the ledge
teach me SOMETHING
make me a better person through this
make it mean something
somebody help me

posted December 08, 2007 06:01 PM         

I have been there as well, but tomorrow will be another day.
Wanna go out and have a drink? Even know I am a true Cancer *laughs histerically*

posted December 08, 2007 06:22 PM         

too bad I can't charge myself for my expertize.

posted December 08, 2007 06:23 PM         

Why are you picking scary guys anyway ????

posted December 08, 2007 08:42 PM         

you say that you weren't raised being able to express emotions? that's a difficult experience. i happen to have a lot of friends who were raised this way and it definitely causes trials throughout life, but it's also something that CAN be done, ya know?

your posts really resonated with me as i've been in that place before. the dark shell of my cancerian nature, but please remember there is a bright beautiful shining light at the end of that tunnel, and the almost orgasmic feeling (since we're on a sex topic here!) of breaking into that light is totally worth it! pulling yourself out of a deep rut, as hard as it is, is very satisfying and the feeling of accomplishment is unrivaled! =o)

and i'd like to note that i, too, enjoy a huge sobbing cry every now and again. maybe because of my water influences but i like to sit in the bathtub with the shower on and cry, that way everything blends together.

good luck to you!

and HSC: you're welcome!

posted December 08, 2007 09:17 PM         

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maybe because of my water influences but i like to sit in the bathtub with the shower on and cry, that way everything blends together.

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agh! I have been there so many times.

Not fair, how is this spirituality tuff helping us anyway????????

And how did we go from sex to crying?

posted December 08, 2007 10:13 PM         

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a bright beautiful shining light at the end of that tunnel, and the almost orgasmic feeling (since we're on a sex topic here!) of breaking into that light is totally worth it! pulling yourself out of a deep rut, as hard as it is, is very satisfying and the feeling of accomplishment is unrivaled! =o)

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posted December 09, 2007 12:09 AM         

MM: I too can look at things darkly, and TRUST me, i'm such a sucker for the dark mysterious men who are so aloof and elusive it's maddening (hello ex-pisces bf!)
i am so glad that i could shine that light for you because i know how it feels to need it! i'll be checking this forum periodically if you're interested in contunuing this conversation or if you decide to start a new topic as maybe NAM feels the subject is drifting too far!

oh and NAM...i think it's really cool that you're interested in getting to know the varieties of human nature, i am too! maybe it's inherently Cancerian or something. but i just found out today that my mars conjunct ascendant tends to make me blunt and like to shock people so i definitely enjoy talking sex. i think that's why i studied sex therapy too. hmm....maybe i should get back into that.

posted December 09, 2007 01:54 AM         

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and some who from time to time even remain with you and guide you gently to the other side.

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posted December 09, 2007 10:40 PM         

Melody and I are good friends.
When she was feeling blue yesterday,
I stayed with her for a few hours,
exchanging emails (she was too sad to talk),
and sharing the best of my sympathy.

What you wrote to her here was very sweet.

posted December 09, 2007 11:06 PM         

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tidalwave,

Melody and I are good friends.
When she was feeling blue yesterday,
I stayed with her for a few hours,
exchanging emails (she was too sad to talk),
and sharing the best of my sympathy.

What you wrote to her here was very sweet.

blessings,
hsc

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I am glad you were there to talk to her privately, at times it is hard to openly talk about issues in here and while I got that feeling from her I was trying to ease her out of it...since I dind't know what to say

posted December 10, 2007 01:01 AM         

HSC has been one of the greatest blessings in my life.

Nellie, you did great. Tidalwave, I bet I will remember your name!
I love John Gray's books. A PhD and a monk discussing male/female relationships and sex. It's a good thing. Too bad he isn't an astrologer too! hehe Then he would REALLY have a book. For now I just read his books as masculine and feminine energy instead of just man/woman. That's why I'm really interested in when our different aspects of self are strongest, and it is obviously determined by the "astrological weather"/our transits, so that is where I hope to expand my astrological education.

posted December 10, 2007 03:08 AM         

NAM:
you're awesome. i love your gutsy posts no matter what people say! haha. i've recently been learning about my mars conjunct ascendant placement and it really helps me understand myself. i can be quite blunt which is kinda opposite of my cancer sun/cancer asc. placements.

MM:
honestly, i'm a little too drunk to be replying to your comment right now, but i wanted to let you know that i read it and i will ponder some things to share and reply here tomorrow! it sounds like you're feeling better and at least for me, it always helps to talk and sometimes just go on a little rant. i love listening to people and try to be as helpful as possible because i know that i appreciate it, myself.