posted February 21, 2019 07:29 PM            

I am a bit surprised but not really.
It is not unusual that the south node on the ascendant does not give psychic experiences or abilities.i mentioned the reasons why. mercury square the node can be a psychic indicator but it is again not unusual, for as you mentioned, that a persons deductive and intellectual ability do not allow you to distinguish the psychic nature are more apparent.so you recognizing of your intuitiveness is subtle recognition of your psyche nature.
I am surprise that Neptune conjunct to mercury did not push you over threshold of experiencing your psychic potential as the node square to mercury and Neptune often gives visionary abilities. but the creative force of Neptune has manifested.

if I may make some psychological speculation,when you ask:

" Never felt one lick of sexual or romantic attraction in my life. Do tell if you can see any indications though!"

this really gives me the impression that there are repressed memory,likley from early childhood, that have cause you to repress your sexual nature.... because the sexual aspects are extremely strong and for you to have no emotional/sexual interest, is amazing. whether you internally have no passions,the external world would have forced you to acknowledged you sexual nature whether you acted on it or not. Puberty and sexual hormones come to everyone and for you to be unaffected by you very strong sexual aspect, can only lead me to look for a psychological block.

and you following comment:

"Honestly, I think I'm happier for it! I've seen very few healthy and functional relationships among my friends and family... most seem to end in heart break and misery. My asexual nature is not likely to change either, so any relationship I were to have would be in for difficulties from the start. So I'm rather thankful that I seem to be a romantic as well. Less complicated that way."

also make me think that eternal circumstances you witnessed caused you asexual stance. it may be the current cultural propaganda of trans sexual orientation may have given you a psychological mold to embrace.

I you chart showed sexual inhibition or difficulty love and relationships that would be one thing, but as I've said you have very strong sexual energies which were with you at birth... so to deny this part of your psyche is very unusual.

and forgive if I am prying to much, but I get the feeling that you are from a strict patriarchal culture.

thank you for your honest feedback because I can only improve when my inadequacies are pointed out.

posted February 22, 2019 06:08 AM            

I am a bit surprised but not really.
It is not unusual that the south node on the ascendant does not give psychic experiences or abilities.i mentioned the reasons why. mercury square the node can be a psychic indicator but it is again not unusual, for as you mentioned, that a persons deductive and intellectual ability do not allow you to distinguish the psychic nature are more apparent.so you recognizing of your intuitiveness is subtle recognition of your psyche nature.
I am surprise that Neptune conjunct to mercury did not push you over threshold of experiencing your psychic potential as the node square to mercury and Neptune often gives visionary abilities. but the creative force of Neptune has manifested.

I do have very vivid dreams, often lucid, but nothing that I've recognized as visions.

if I may make some psychological speculation,when you ask:

" Never felt one lick of sexual or romantic attraction in my life. Do tell if you can see any indications though!"

this really gives me the impression that there are repressed memory,likley from early childhood, that have cause you to repress your sexual nature.... because the sexual aspects are extremely strong and for you to have no emotional/sexual interest, is amazing. whether you internally have no passions,the external world would have forced you to acknowledged you sexual nature whether you acted on it or not. Puberty and sexual hormones come to everyone and for you to be unaffected by you very strong sexual aspect, can only lead me to look for a psychological block.

and you following comment:

"Honestly, I think I'm happier for it! I've seen very few healthy and functional relationships among my friends and family... most seem to end in heart break and misery. My asexual nature is not likely to change either, so any relationship I were to have would be in for difficulties from the start. So I'm rather thankful that I seem to be a romantic as well. Less complicated that way."

also make me think that eternal circumstances you witnessed caused you asexual stance. it may be the current cultural propaganda of trans sexual orientation may have given you a psychological mold to embrace.

I you chart showed sexual inhibition or difficulty love and relationships that would be one thing, but as I've said you have very strong sexual energies which were with you at birth... so to deny this part of your psyche is very unusual.

and forgive if I am prying to much, but I get the feeling that you are from a strict patriarchal culture.

thank you for your honest feedback because I can only improve when my inadequacies are pointed out.

todd

I don't really think that there is anything I've repressed. I'd think that if there was then I would experience some tensions or mental issues with regards to sex. For instance, I don't feel at all repulsed by the thought of sex or by sexual imagery. Nor does sexual touches and advances repulse me. I'm just disinterested. Same with romance and relationships. There is no revulsion or tension, just indifference. If there was some traumatic experience that made me repress, then shouldn't there be some traces of that trauma?

I've always had a very unproblematic relationship with my sexuality, or lack thereof as it were. Never felt like I was strange or damaged in any way, though society has often tried to make me feel that way. Sexuality and romance are seen as universal, so in the logic of society there has the be something wrong with a person if they aren't like that. Well... I am who I am and I've never had any issues with that.

I can appreciate a person aesthetically and feel a platonic/friendly attraction. I'm also definitely a very sensual, tactile person... but sexual and romantic attraction are just not there. I was 16 before I even gave it a thought... and realized that no, I'd never really felt any such attraction towards another person. That was long before I'd ever heard the word asexual. I didn't know asexuality was a thing until my early twenties. Though I live in a society that is very accepting of the LGBTQ spectrum, asexuality is not often mentioned.

To be perfectly blunt with you... I have experienced arousal. I have a kink, as they say... But no person has ever made me feel aroused, which is the definition of asexuality. So in a periferal way I do have a sexual nature, just not in relation to other people.

posted February 22, 2019 03:10 PM            

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Originally posted by Nadja:
[b]hi Nadja

I am a bit surprised but not really.
It is not unusual that the south node on the ascendant does not give psychic experiences or abilities.i mentioned the reasons why. mercury square the node can be a psychic indicator but it is again not unusual, for as you mentioned, that a persons deductive and intellectual ability do not allow you to distinguish the psychic nature are more apparent.so you recognizing of your intuitiveness is subtle recognition of your psyche nature.
I am surprise that Neptune conjunct to mercury did not push you over threshold of experiencing your psychic potential as the node square to mercury and Neptune often gives visionary abilities. but the creative force of Neptune has manifested.

I do have very vivid dreams, often lucid, but nothing that I've recognized as visions.

if I may make some psychological speculation,when you ask:

" Never felt one lick of sexual or romantic attraction in my life. Do tell if you can see any indications though!"

this really gives me the impression that there are repressed memory,likley from early childhood, that have cause you to repress your sexual nature.... because the sexual aspects are extremely strong and for you to have no emotional/sexual interest, is amazing. whether you internally have no passions,the external world would have forced you to acknowledged you sexual nature whether you acted on it or not. Puberty and sexual hormones come to everyone and for you to be unaffected by you very strong sexual aspect, can only lead me to look for a psychological block.

and you following comment:

"Honestly, I think I'm happier for it! I've seen very few healthy and functional relationships among my friends and family... most seem to end in heart break and misery. My asexual nature is not likely to change either, so any relationship I were to have would be in for difficulties from the start. So I'm rather thankful that I seem to be a romantic as well. Less complicated that way."

also make me think that eternal circumstances you witnessed caused you asexual stance. it may be the current cultural propaganda of trans sexual orientation may have given you a psychological mold to embrace.

I you chart showed sexual inhibition or difficulty love and relationships that would be one thing, but as I've said you have very strong sexual energies which were with you at birth... so to deny this part of your psyche is very unusual.

and forgive if I am prying to much, but I get the feeling that you are from a strict patriarchal culture.

thank you for your honest feedback because I can only improve when my inadequacies are pointed out.

todd

I don't really think that there is anything I've repressed. I'd think that if there was then I would experience some tensions or mental issues with regards to sex. For instance, I don't feel at all repulsed by the thought of sex or by sexual imagery. Nor does sexual touches and advances repulse me. I'm just disinterested. Same with romance and relationships. There is no revulsion or tension, just indifference. If there was some traumatic experience that made me repress, then shouldn't there be some traces of that trauma?

I've always had a very unproblematic relationship with my sexuality, or lack thereof as it were. Never felt like I was strange or damaged in any way, though society has often tried to make me feel that way. Sexuality and romance are seen as universal, so in the logic of society there has the be something wrong with a person if they aren't like that. Well... I am who I am and I've never had any issues with that.

I can appreciate a person aesthetically and feel a platonic/friendly attraction. I'm also definitely a very sensual, tactile person... but sexual and romantic attraction are just not there. I was 16 before I even gave it a thought... and realized that no, I'd never really felt any such attraction towards another person. That was long before I'd ever heard the word asexual. I didn't know asexuality was a thing until my early twenties. Though I live in a society that is very accepting of the LGBTQ spectrum, asexuality is not often mentioned.

To be perfectly blunt with you... I have experienced arousal. I have a kink, as they say... But no person has ever made me feel aroused, which is the definition of asexuality. So in a periferal way I do have a sexual nature, just not in relation to other people.

My family is rather more matriarchal... and Finnish society overall is about as equal and secular as they come. So no, I would say it's very far from any strict patriarchal culture.[/B]

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hi Nadja

thank you for further illuminating your feelings toward sexuality.
as I mentioned:

this implies that the overriding trials in your life will be in the realm of physical relations that are the polarity of true complete love and superficially sexual
attractions."

it seems your subconscious dealt with is trial by adopting an asexual stance. I alternative I had not considered.thanks for the insight

which reinforces my feeling:
"you truly are a special soul".

to continue being a devil's advocate, you wrote:
There is no revulsion or tension, just indifference. If there was some traumatic experience that made me repress, then shouldn't there be some traces of that trauma?

actually one can have trauma emotional or physical very early in life which does not give significant trace until later life.

if trauma happens in infancy, before the personality is developed and before the mental faculties are developed ,traumatic events can occur that are not remembered but only exist as emotional structures.which might have bearing on:
"I have experienced arousal. I have a kink, as they say"

again thank you for opening up ,this has expanded my understanding of the personal reactions to various astrological aspect

todd

posted February 22, 2019 04:32 PM            

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Originally posted by todd:
hi Nadja

thank you for further illuminating your feelings toward sexuality.
as I mentioned:

this implies that the overriding trials in your life will be in the realm of physical relations that are the polarity of true complete love and superficially sexual
attractions."

it seems your subconscious dealt with is trial by adopting an asexual stance. I alternative I had not considered.thanks for the insight

which reinforces my feeling:
"you truly are a special soul".

to continue being a devil's advocate, you wrote:
There is no revulsion or tension, just indifference. If there was some traumatic experience that made me repress, then shouldn't there be some traces of that trauma?

actually one can have trauma emotional or physical very early in life which does not give significant trace until later life.

if trauma happens in infancy, before the personality is developed and before the mental faculties are developed ,traumatic events can occur that are not remembered but only exist as emotional structures.which might have bearing on:
"I have experienced arousal. I have a kink, as they say"

again thank you for opening up ,this has expanded my understanding of the personal reactions to various astrological aspect

todd

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No worries, I'm always happy to talk about my asexuality.

Well, I suppose that it is possible that there is some very early trauma, but I'd personally consider it unlikely. There has been some asexuality studies done in recent years but researchers haven't found any connection to trauma. Asexuality isn't very uncommon either (maybe about 1% of the population), and my case is fairly typical.

My mother and brother also display a lower than normal sex drive, though both are at least romantically inclined... so it's also possible that there is some sort of hereditary cause. My mother now identifies as asexual as well. When she grew up there was no such thing as asexuality (in the eyes of society) and societal pressure to get married and have kids was much higher than it is these days.

In any case I'm perfectly happy as is, so it doesn't really matter.

Here are a couple links if you or anyone else reading this thread want to know more about asexuality:

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/living-single/201609/asexuality-is-sexual-orientation-not-sexual-dysfunction
https://www.asexuality.org/?q=overview.html

posted February 22, 2019 05:46 PM            

i stalked your birthday and used Helsinki which I know is not exactly correct but I got a exact pattern of your aspects. I used nada for your named asteroid and used asteroid sappho.

posted February 22, 2019 06:58 PM            

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Originally posted by todd:
hi nadja
okay, I had to kill my cat of curiosity

it stalked your birthday and use Helsinki which I now is not correct but I got a exact pattern of your aspects. I used nada fir you named asteroid and used sappho.

. so I added nada and Sappho to your natal chart they and they were conjunct, which could be interpreted as lesbians tendencies .
\in the composite Sappho was conjunct mrs exact and 2 degrees drom nessus...
todd
todd

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That's interesting! My sensual/tactile attraction is more towards females so it is actually quite probable that I'd be lesbian
if I was sexual.

posted February 23, 2019 03:44 PM            

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Originally posted by Nadja:
That's interesting! My sensual/tactile attraction is more towards females so it is actually quite probable that I'd be lesbian
if I was sexual.

What sort of composite is that?

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I ran a midpoint composite with your natal and today's moment chart, that is the current planetary positions. this composite will reflect the interactions on your chart
by the transiting planets.

one interesting aspect with the composite is that Sappho is conjunct to mars. and psyche is opposed to mercury and to the midpoint of nada and Sedna which are loosely conjunct to mercury.also Neptune is square nada and chiron . from this I could speculate that you recently met a woman that you felt an attraction for.a romantic feeling. and that you did not mention your feelings because you thought she would not be understanding.

your natal as mentioned has nada conjunct to sappho and the Eris/eros midpoint is conjunct to nada and Sappho AND these are square to nessus. from this i would interpret that you have strong erotic lesbian inclination, but are inhibiting this part of you because of some emotional issue in childhood. I have read the first article you supplied and understand that these researchers found no correlation with asexuality and emotional traumas. rather it is a sexual orientation . but strictly following astrology, my above interpretation is solid.

todd

hmmm i'll psot this problem here. i can not bring up the last twp ost on this thread

posted February 24, 2019 04:26 PM            

quote:

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Originally posted by todd:
I ran a midpoint composite with your natal and today's moment chart, that is the current planetary positions. this composite will reflect the interactions on your chart
by the transiting planets.

one interesting aspect with the composite is that Sappho is conjunct to mars. and psyche is opposed to mercury and to the midpoint of nada and Sedna which are loosely conjunct to mercury.also Neptune is square nada and chiron . from this I could speculate that you recently met a woman that you felt an attraction for.a romantic feeling. and that you did not mention your feelings because you thought she would not be understanding.

your natal as mentioned has nada conjunct to sappho and the Eris/eros midpoint is conjunct to nada and Sappho AND these are square to nessus. from this i would interpret that you have strong erotic lesbian inclination, but are inhibiting this part of you because of some emotional issue in childhood. I have read the first article you supplied and understand that these researchers found no correlation with asexuality and emotional traumas. rather it is a sexual orientation . but strictly following astrology, my above interpretation is solid.

todd

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Oh certainly, the chart shows what the chart shows, and that is your area of expertise. And I cannot exactly exclude the possibility either.

Unfortunately I can't say that I remember meeting anyone memorable recently.

Another interesting thing I noticed... Nada and Sappho in my natal chart are also conjunct Amor. Further supporting the interpretation I imagine.

posted February 25, 2019 05:20 PM            

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Originally posted by TaurusVenusGirl:
Hey Todd! I can do an energy balance for you if you like,around a goal you have.. you have done so many readings for me.. we can do it privately if you prefer?

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how would this work?
todd

posted February 25, 2019 05:22 PM            

No more reading will be scheduled until these charts are interpreted

posted February 26, 2019 02:54 PM            

What do you mean with karmic/social influences that affect me but I did not cause?

with the midpoints of venus and the stellium conjunct the south node, you have a very strong sexual/emotional affect on others.

I didn't know this was the case until I heard from a few men that I have an 'erotic' aura (after talking about our first impressions). I have to say though that I'm totally not flirty and/or dress in a sexual manner, so I don't know where this comes from.

with the venus/orcus midpoint conjunct to mars ,you have a very strong libido. But you can also be moody and unresponsive to sexual matters,as this aspect gives a selfish or ego centered nature in sexual matters. you are extremely loving and sensual with moon/venus on the south node but if you feel any insincerity ,you are quick to retreat in to a shell and if you are offended, you will freeze the offender out of your life.
eris is square to the venus/mars midpoint and the south node, which gives a vibrancy to your emotional/sexual encounters. this gives a aggressive joy or lust for life but is another indication that you often are not satisfied and your are continually open to further experiences.so in somes ways you are your own worse enemy when it comes to relationships because you emotional completion will come with devotion and fidelity, but you also have a wild nature to experiences the variety of life.

I have to say that I'm a virgin, so I can't say for sure how strong my libido is. Also, I'm loyal to a fault. When I like someone, I'm loyal to them (or you could say, I'm loyal to my feelings), even though I don't have to be, because I've never had a romantic relationship with anyone. Even though I haven't had a relationship, I do know that I'm in for the long haul. I like commitment and that's the only way for me of connecting with others. I don't have the need to 'experience the variety of life' when it comes to romantic relationships. I like the variety of life when it comes down to other stuff, like travelling or discussing all kinds of topics with people from different backgrounds.

your psyche/eros midpoint is square to the Pluto/Saturn midpoint and the square of Venus to nessus which suggests you have emotional issues. this suggest a loss of innocence or some related abusive experiencing early childhood.it is not clear but his could affect your willingness to reciprocate in loving relationships.

I do think I have emotional issues, but I don't really know for sure why. It's hard for me to open up to men (i'm a woman by the way). I've done an intuitive reading and the lady told me that my heart chakra is closed.. so I guess that's a reflection of this issue. My childhood was good, I was not abused, but I think maybe my parents didn't return the love to me in the way I would have liked as a child? I don't know...

posted February 26, 2019 02:56 PM            

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Originally posted by poochycat:
Hi Todd,
Just wondering where I am on the list? After Spring or...
Thanks for letting me know. Looking forward to it.

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hi pooch
you'll be he first when I open the schedule list up again

todd

posted February 27, 2019 04:03 PM            

your moon/sun midpoint is conjunct to Jupiter which gives you a desire for knowledge. this can show higher learning but likely you have many books around you at the least . This tends to show authority figures/teachers etc. take. a shine to you. You are far sighted and always want to learn more. in addition you are benevolent and good heart, you believe and live the golden rule, treat others has you would like to be treated.
this does not allows show great wealth by itself it does show you will always have our basic needs taken care of.

you have chiron conjunct eris, and these square to node.chirons podition gives you a remakle mind. likely our have a excellent memory and might even have a photographic/eidetic memory . you are analytical and incise n your words. you can be very critical especially in relationships as the mercury/chiron and mercury/eris midpoints are conjunct venus and the sun.in relationship you desire to understand the other fully. uo want to know how the feel, think and ract to everything. this can give a very intimate emotional/mental connect, but sometimes the other can with sand the scrutiny. if arguments occur,they can be very bitter because you both know ach others strength and weakness and criticism can cut t the quick. you are devoted friend but if you are betrayed or offended ,your will erase hat person from your life.it takes quite awhile for you to forgive id ever.

eris square he node is extremely sexual but not sensitive to the emotional needs of the other. this is a very passionate aspct and gives a overall ambition in life.

this pattern with sun/Venus/mercury/chiron/eris is very intense because the mind and emotions are vibrant.it shows laughter and joy in relationships but there is also the underlying critical attitude aha can take the sheen off the relationship sometimes.

your venus is setile to mars with mars conjunct to aura,so you have an ease in relationships and the au shows that any are inexplicably drawn to you for reasons they can not understand.

Eros is opposed to psyche which make you extremely idealistic, romantic and almost spiritual in relationships. you engender a love that is like children's first infatuations.with the midpoint conjunct the Jupiter/mercury midpoint you are attracted to those with knowledge, a peron's mind is very important to your in any love affair

Sedna is conjuct the vertex which make you a truth teller. which is funny because with the moon/Neptune conjunction on the nadir and square to pholous you are quit complex and secretive. this pattern can easily shows someone who is insincere but with the vertex conjunct to Sedna, you can't really lie even if you want to.

though broad minded your mercury square to Saturn shows you also are very realistic. you have a practical nature .yhe midpoint I conjunct to the vertex and sedan so you like to don not talk freely about how you see the world. this goes with your moon. Neptune conjunct showing you are extremely private. this square can give despondency and pessimism at times.

Lilith is conjunct to juno and ceres with these opposed to Nessus and Saturn. this gives a emotional darkness. it seems to be connected to relationship or heritage and likely is a karmic debt that you have asyou desire for nurturing relationships seem to often draw harsh and domineering individuals to you. Saturn and nessus implies a abuse environment in childhood which is also indicates by your sun opposed to Pluto.

with the sun conjunct venus and opposed pluto, you passionate nature is at odds with a inhibition to conceal your feelings. this aspect increases your strong sexual nature but it can easily turn inward so that you do not want physical/emotional intimacy. Pluto opposed to sun/Venus can also make it difficult to mo ve on from relationships .thi is a very possessive aspect even if the chemistry is gone.

with the Pluto/Saturn midpoint square to ixion, there make have been some violent abuse but you have concealed this.
the possibility of physical abuse could be implied by the uranus/orcus midpoint square to your Neptune/moon conjunction on the nadir. this might show physical abuse in your home but again concealed and not apparent others.

your Jupiter/juno midpoint is conjunct to the node which implies higher education and can show successful professional life. it is also a marker of marriage .but I speculate there might be more than one because chiron/eris are square to Jupiter/juno which might show that the critical and incisive understanding in your relationship might have brought Ion on separation early in life.
though ceres is opposed to Saturn which shows a deep emotional need of devotion and fidelity, the Jupiter midpoint is conjunct to ceres which also suggests multiple marriages.

todd

posted February 27, 2019 04:09 PM            

todd

posted February 27, 2019 06:56 PM            

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Originally posted by Springtimeflower:
I just sent it as an attachment from a different email provider..my cable company...you should be able to open it...hopefully...

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