posted October 20, 2002 11:46 AM         

Where are you ?
Celebrating already ?

Jakie

posted October 20, 2002 03:46 PM         

But, and there's always a "but",my ex decided to appear again ,and for instance ,to buy things for my daughter that I cannot buy as expensive clothes and to take my daughter for weekends at the beach....
I admit that in the beginning I was a little sad and with fear that she preferred him, but that didn't happen. She knows the exactly difference between me and her father. He can buy what I am not able to, but he doesn't have to give what I have. Love 24 hours a day.

Of course for being stressed, a lot of times I didn't have time for my children and sometimes I fought with them.
But, last year, she went with me to Paris.It was an opportunity and I decided to take her with me.We stayed together 30 days, 24 hours a day and it was wonderful.

One day, we were walking at the Champs Eliseé and she began to sing a Brazilian song that says something like that :

" Nothing that happened will be again the same way that was one day,
everything pass, everything will always pass,
life comes in waves like the sea,
in a infinite going and coming.
Everything that we see now is not same that we saw one second ago.
Everything changes the whole time in the world.
So don't try do flee, nor to lie for yourself.
Now, there is so much life outside and in here,always, as a wave in the sea "

This music is from a very famous Brazilian singer and we began to sing together, given hands, in Champs Eliseé. The two laughing and sung.
When we stopped to cross the street. She hugged me and said:
" Mom, I love you so much, you are the best mother of the world !"

On that moment, all my effort was rewarded. My daughter's love turned off any sadness that I could have in my heart...

To finish. On that moment I had a strong sensation when I looked in Cleo's eyes that she was my mother in a past life. She took care of me and now it is my time of taking care of her.

posted October 20, 2002 04:01 PM         

Thanks for the advice, I'll be more specific about my dreams from now on

And i'm quite sure that you saw Kardec's grave. It's the only one with fresh flowers everyday.
My daughter,as an old soul-I know that she's an old soul-just loved Pere Lachaise !

Jakie

posted October 21, 2002 10:22 AM         

I'm an earth person also...I just can't see mys-elf living at the sea...
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posted October 21, 2002 10:25 AM         

Carpe Dien

Jaqueline

posted October 21, 2002 01:41 PM         

Thanks Jaqueline.

I regret hearing of your dog.

posted October 21, 2002 01:51 PM         

Thank you for the miraculous dream interpretations you have been posting! I need the help right now, and I appreciate your thoughts much!

You have studied Jung? He is great! Much MUCH better than Freud!

posted October 21, 2002 03:53 PM         

Stella , did you saw a movie call "What dreams may come." ?
With Robin Williams & Max Von Sydow ?

posted October 22, 2002 11:08 AM         

This movie talks about reincarnation , soul mates, suicide, reunion after death with the people that we loved and also speaks about forgiveness. No that forgiveness that we give to the other ones when they make something that displeases us, but the forgiveness that we have to give to ourselves. And this is the most difficult. To forgive ourselves.
Of course everything is approached in a Hollywood's vision , but if we remove the fantasies, we have a quite perfected vision of Kardec's doctrine .

At this moment, I am having a great problem with my ex. He told me a story and I was making force to believe ,going against everybody's opinion that he was lying to me. If he was really lying I would have to make a decision, therefore on Sunday, before sleeping, I asked that they gave me an answer. I should believe in him or not.
Then I dreamed that he came to visit me, he came with a woman that I could not saw the face,there was a fog in the woman's face . He was very kind and asked me if we could be friends, I accepted,but all the time I felt suspicious and uncomfortable with his presence. Then I saw that he spoke to me in a false way, I felt that his behavior was not natural, I could feel clearly that he was trying to betrayed me. I could saw in his face and in his eyes...

So, that's my answer dream. What do you think ?

posted October 22, 2002 11:15 AM         

When you have a chance of reading what I wrote some posts above about some facts of my life,I would appreciate a lot if you could tell me your opinion if these facts influenced or influence my dreams.Specially the one in German...

I'm thinking about what Stella wrote." A kiss that a father gave in his daughter"...

Stella , feel free to do the same if you want. Ok ?
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Ra... by the way...
Thanks

posted October 22, 2002 04:19 PM         

The woman with "fog face" in my dream could be me,but it's not.
It's his wife. He married 30 days after we divorced.
I never saw her,but I know that she looks like the woman that was on my dream,brunette with long hair.

Maybe I should have told you all the facts,but I feel a certain embarrassment of being speaking certain things...
What I can tell you is that when we divorced I suffer so much,and this suffering was prolonged for a long time,but now it passed.
Believe me,what I feel for him today is a great affection, but we cannot be friends...yet.

Thanks dear

posted October 22, 2002 10:44 PM         

At the end of the afternoon I was at my office with dozens of drawings in front of me and my lawyer called, she was returning my call . I got to answer the telephone... but I gave up .

Minutes later, I called him, something that I didn't do since June
I began the conversation in a quite friendly way and tried to solve with him some problems that are pending and need an immediate solution.
He was quite receptive and assured me that up to Monday he will have a solution.

Don't worry, if he'll make everything wrong I am the only responsible, in fact I always considered myself the only responsible for everything that happens in my life.
I just followed my heart. My head objected strongly, but my heart compromised and ended up winning.

And you know what ? I am feeling much better. I'm feeling light. It's not that I like to follow my heart, he always deceives me,that's why I avoid to follow him to the maximum, but today I could not avoid.

Jakie

posted October 22, 2002 10:54 PM         

Jakie

A friend is a person who knows all about you, and still likes you.

Elbert Hubbard

posted October 23, 2002 01:10 PM         

When this person arrived to see the house, he said that he would buy because he loved the sea and my house was everything that he wanted. I felt that I was not telling the truth to that man, because I had the sensation that I was selling the wrong house. My house is not in front of the sea.
Suddenly, several people began to arrive to do a New Year's party .

I was more and more upset with that situation and I decided to leave .
I walked for a long time hoping to find somebody to help me understand what was really happen.

I entered in a bar and there was this man alone. The man had black hair and black beard. I approached him and I asked for help, he told me that on that moment he could not help me because he also had many problems. He had a family and a small child that needed him and for this reason he had to work the whole day and sometimes at night.

I said that I didn't want his money ,what I needed was help and only he could help me. Once again he lamented and said that he could do nothing for me.
I looked inside his eyes, imploring for his help ... He stayed impassive.
I left the bar,and still looking behind, I woke up.

posted October 23, 2002 11:23 PM         

For me, your dream indicates that you have an ambivalent attitude regarding your present . A mixture of both, positive and negative.
What I felt, and please correct me if I am wrong, is that you don't seem to be satisfied with your life. It is as if you wanted to change your life, but at the same time a certain fear exists in relation to the safety that this life that you already know, gives to you.

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- The coupe is very tiny, there place for my son and the son of the woman we share it with, but the woman and I put down green blankets on the floor to lie down, my son lies down there, too…. My son is bicycling on the road in front of our house, he's free.

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- some collegues from my old newspaper, they where happy to see me and asked me to join them, but I didn't sit down, they had like a pick-nick.

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- but my son kept showing me that the paint was still running and I knew the ruins were just painted over.

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- it has to do with just fixing my horoscope.

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- my mum was VERY upset when I left my job as a journalist and moved to Greece.

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Dear Stella, this is just my opinion. Ok ?
I'm sure that Ra can give you a better interpretation .

Take care
Jakie

posted October 23, 2002 11:50 PM         

"So take your time look round and see
The most in time is where you're meant to be
For you are light inside your dreams
For you will find that it's soomething
That touches me"

posted October 24, 2002 01:04 PM         

My relationship with my mother was always a paradox. My mother was and continues being somebody that at the same time that pushes me to heaven, saying that I am capable to become whatever I want, is also the person that pulls me down, when she says that I'm weak and without her I'm nothing.
When I was younger, my mother's words hurt me a lot. I suffered when I was disapproven by her.

Today I understand that it is because of her own insecurity that she tries to diminish me. In reality she admires me, but she doesn't have the necessary courage to admit that, because I made exactly the opposite of everything that she wanted me to do. Therefore if she praises me, she will be admitting that she was wrong.
And we cannot forget "the factor jealousies" in relationships between mothers and daughters.

But life has their own mechanisms to put things in their owed places. When my father died, my mother inherited a great fortune that she didn't know how to administer and ended up throwing everything out. One year ago she was going by a difficult financial situation and I invited her to live with me. I admit that I was terrified imagining my mother inside my house after so many years. It would be difficult for me and for her, because she was always an authoritarian woman, accustomed to give orders. But she needed me and I would never abandon my mother.

She came and behaves as a guest, we talked a lot, we go out for restaurants as best friends, she tries to interfere in my way of educating my children, I pretend that I don't notice, and things are going better than I thought. Just yesterday I was telling her the history of the prince Sidarta and trying to teach her the principles of Buddhism that she must learn : Detachment and Inpermanence.

Anyway, I hope that Ra can take a look at your dreams when he has time.And now that I made the cleaning at my posts he'll find your posts...He can help you better.

posted October 24, 2002 01:18 PM         

And I have begun on Stella's dream, and will continue if you wish. But I do not know if you two really need me! I must admit that I have only had time to scan through this last page of posts, so I do not know every word, but it seems to me that you both are incredible with each other! Bravo!

Is there a desire for me to interpret these dreams still? I will gladly do so if you wish, but I may just end up repeating the wise words that each of you have already spoken!

The both of you are truly AMAZING!