posted April 03, 2008 10:05 AM         

I'm so glad you're still here. I've been thinking of you for days, and asking for help for you to have the strength to lift your head up and see the sunshine.

Having gone through periods of this myself, it's spirit crushing, draining, and overwhelming numbing feelings of worthlessness.

It's usually some random person, like you said that lifts your spirits.

This song makes me realize how fleeting life really is, and how important it is to keep on:

Do You Realize - that you have the most beautiful face
Do You Realize - we're floating in space -
Do You Realize - that happiness makes you cry
Do You Realize - that everyone you know someday will die

And instead of saying all of your goodbyes - let them know
You realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round

Do You Realize
Do You Realize - that everyone you know
Someday will die -

And instead of saying all of your goodbyes - let them know
You realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round

Do You Realize - that you have the most beautiful face
Do You Realize?

I'll be thinking of you.
Hugs and Love,
GG

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The truth is ... everything counts. Everything. Everything we do and everything we say. Everything helps or hurts; everything adds to or takes away from someone else. ~ Countee Cullen

posted April 03, 2008 12:50 PM         

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Round and round, here we go again....what's it going to take to shake it off once and for all? Does anyone ever do that - shake it?

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I think so. I think it fades out. I know it has for me. Occasionally it comes up again, but not very powerfully.

posted April 03, 2008 03:08 PM         

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Round and round, here we go again....what's it going to take to shake it off once and for all? Does anyone ever do that - shake it?

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What you resist, persists; what you accept, barely exists.

It is only your soul, dear heart.

Dont try to bear it.

Try to bare it.

posted April 03, 2008 04:15 PM         

i believe that there's nothing fundamentally wrong with suicide but when we think about suicide, life seems already pretty awful, so everything is justifiable. dying can relieve us from pain (created by ourselves and sometimes inderictly by others.)

However when we see the beauty of life, the interest of this solution diminishes and only regrets remain, and regrets are probably some of the most difficult feelings to deal with.

so I, and everyone who think about doing it must try to give a go at feeling again the beauty of it all.

thank you 26T for bringing this up and showing the example.

posted April 03, 2008 04:53 PM         

Those words are so moving.

posted April 03, 2008 05:20 PM         

THANK YOU, EMILY!!!!!!!

posted April 03, 2008 08:13 PM         

Whoever wrote that script really "got it".

I see you get it, too.

posted April 05, 2008 07:10 PM         

Oh sweety, I'm so shocked at the answer your mother gave you. She must be in a very deep, dark, and ugly place within her own heart and soul. There must be something very very wrong in her mind to say something that thoughtless.

My belief as a medium, is that we are here to learn, to teach, and to progress our souls. Karma is nothing more then lessons we chose to go through and experience. Some of those lessons are hurtful and negative feeling while others are very joyful and positive to experience. We make a contract with God to live our life and to experience those things, big or small and to come home to god when it is completed. How are soul progresses has a lot to do with how we solve problems. Since suicide ends the contract before it is finished and the person has not solved the problems or gotten through life they are unable to progress. They will recieve needed councelling on the Other Side because they do always regret their choice and feel very guilty about it. It not only hurts ourselves to die before our time but all the people we love. Causing other people unnucessary pain is not soul progress and it does nothing for them on a higher level. It also stops their own contracts, because without you they cannot fulfill certain goals. The suicide victim is then asked to return to Earth once again and deal with similar problems until they get things right.

Suicide is never the answer it is only done by people in an altered state of mind, people who are ill in mind, and those who can't see rationally. It's devastating when someone does this and has never sought or recieved te help they so desperately need. I always think of people who take their lives as ill, because those that are joyful, positive, and in a happy state of mind do not take their lives. This means that something is very wrong when they consider this and it means that the person needs to find help and strength once again.
Treating depression is a long process and I will not venture into that topic because it is so very complex and always different for each person. The only tghing I will say is taht anyone who feels so low that they want it all to end, really need to tell their doctors or a proffessional who can help.

We are all souls here to better ourselves, we got this far we shouldnt give up now!
Think of all the people we can teach and help. One needless death means 200 people(made up #, could be more) won't be affected by their smile, advice, love,compassion, lesson, posts, words etc..
It is like the ripple effect.
When you throw a stone into the water you see it makes one ripple and that ripple causes another ripple and it continues like that even after the stone is gone. Suicide causes a negative ripple effect, while being alive can create a positive one.

I lost a friend to suicide and I know it took him years to even feel happy on the Other Side, because he let so many people down and himself. Love is so strong up in heaven that any pain we caused someone on Earth is just devastating to us.

Be proud of yoursel, love yourself, and know that God loves you.

Your mother may have an illness in her own brain-or a psychological problem to come out with the words she did. I don't know her behaviour enough to say what she has, but it is clear she isn't in the right state of mind. She could be depressed herself-severily and out of it-not knowing what she's saying.

People born with deformities and illness are here to not only teach but to learn as well. They are here to also feel joy, love, and life. Every single person deserves life because one year may look really bad and the next year may be really good.
Trust yourself and your choice to be here on this planet-There's a reason and it may look fuzzy now but later in life it will become clearer.

So in short, no suicide isn't a solution, it won't get rid of the pain the soul will feel (Heaven is perfect, our souls are not(only god is)-we do feel emotions and look at our actions after death. We feel pain b.c we feel so much love).
Self love and the worthiness to be here need to grow.
I can't offer any suggestions except to seek a professionals support, someone you can call when things get rough. Keep only love surrounding you and never for a second consider taking your life, b.c it's worth too much. Your body is The temple to your soul-it should never be destroyed except upon the will of your God.

Be blessed.

posted April 05, 2008 11:41 PM         

You know I think the world of you, you are wise beyond your years..you know this.

Please let me try and help, I meant to help you a couple years ago and I never got around to it. I know that doesn't make sense, but thats ok...I am not going to explain here.

Do you still have my email addy? If so pls contact me, let me know if you need it and I'll repost

BTW, I am sorry you are having some rough times here, tis never easy. Gah, I am seeing past what you see, your road is long one.

Gotta run, hope to hear from you soon....

posted April 06, 2008 01:42 PM         

Right now I'm trying to focus on the present and not go back down into the past. So, I'm not going to get into replying and trying to make sense of this issue. I think this string was started for more reasons than I knew about at the time. I can see that it has helped some of you out as well.

I'm starting to find some solid ground in my perspective of everything again and will continue to work on steadying myself. It is time for me to take a break from a few things, the internet is one of them. So, dont be worried that I'm not around as much.

Thank you all so much for your love advice, kind words and understanding. I pray the kindness returns to each of you tenfold.

posted April 06, 2008 01:46 PM         

I will check my old email addy and see if i still have your email address. Thank you so much for offering to help.

posted April 06, 2008 05:08 PM         

A break sounds lovely ... go see the earth laugh in all her spring flowers!.

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What we do for ourselves dies with us. What we do for others and the world is immortal"~

posted April 06, 2008 11:06 PM         

jun (and a few others),
you have mail.

Yes, spring will do us all some good.