posted June 01, 2010 05:06 PM            

I LOVE SCORPIO MOONS

edit: Ami, I was like that for years too. I called myself Miss Goodie-Goodie. I couldn't face my other side. I felt ashamed of it. Once I did though, I felt more free. I felt much better. Of course, it opened new cans of worms, but I grew from knowing my "dark" side.

It's not dark, really. It's just uncomfortable. I don't like it very much. I feel it is an unevolved, bellicose side of my personality, but to ignore it makes it persist. So, I decided to face it, in the hopes that it disappears. I think facing it is working because the more I give myself the freedom to be "bad" I find that I don't need to be "bad". If that makes sense.

posted June 01, 2010 05:12 PM            

I GET it,

i want to destroy too...only if (they) have hurt me..

again i DO not like this about me...

posted June 01, 2010 05:12 PM            

I know 4 Scorpio Asc women. 2 are docile, and one, I would think twice before crossing her. The other is a sweetheart

posted June 01, 2010 05:15 PM            

does the want to hurt ever go away???

posted June 01, 2010 05:26 PM            

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I think I am a pretty gentle person, but I am also aware of my dark side. It is a conscious choice to me about which I manifest into reality. I literally choose what will serve me, what won't, think of karma, think of what will be pleasurable, and once I have considered all those things, I decide what to do. As I said, I usually find that I don't have the time for revenge.

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This I can relate to (along with your post at the top of this page).

Lara, I can rant and rave, when my anger/fire is really stoked, and I'm really hurt - I can go on for days. Those sore spots can also be brushed - if something hurts that badly, it isn't just going to go away.

That said, I'm hardly Rosemary's Baby. I've had those moments where something I've said could be considered a "win" in an argument, but in the end, I don't feel good about that at all. I end up in tears, because of the reason for the fighting, the fact that this person most likely deliberately did something to hurt me (the usual reason for anger of that magnitude), and the feeling/knowledge that nobody ever really "wins" in that type of situation. Fighting, hurt and loss = lose/lose to me.

Am I making any sense here? I have to go, so please don't think that I'm ignoring you if you respond.

I will add that I have been surprised by the depth of my anger, but as MVM has stated elsewhere, anger can be a good thing, as long as it isn't taken to extremes. I don't like the feelings, either, if they linger, hippichick.

Aries Sun, Gemini Moon, Scorpio ascendant (Mars in Pisces, Pluto in Libra, etc...)

posted June 01, 2010 05:40 PM            

Scorpio never forgives nor forgets. He will bide his time for revenge. He will see only what he wants to see and his destructiveness will be like a forest fire on everything he touches. It's very deep. Too deep to extract or cover up. Transformation is the only way that he can get over it and transformation only occurs at that point where it's either die or ressurect oneself.

Endurance is a Scorpio trait that when turned negative, can be emotional suicide for them.

posted June 01, 2010 05:52 PM            

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We are sharing Sco Mars, you know, so you dig me, don't you

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you know dis,

posted June 01, 2010 08:44 PM            

i am really scared that i can not let this go..

posted June 01, 2010 09:47 PM            

Sun gets an undeserved bad rep. Moon is often underestimated. I concur that Rising is hell to deal with, but only if you cross them--they rarely do second chances. Venus is a lamb in a lion's pelt, and Mars you'll never see coming until it's too late (take that for what you will)

posted June 02, 2010 12:59 AM            

I am one of those Scorpio risers who is NOT very vengeful. I mean... I can accept my 'shadow side' so to speak, as Unmoved was talking about earlier, but vengeance is just not part of my MO.

I will accept blunt, uncaring, cool, aloof, selfish (on occasion), judgmental (also on occasion), and just plain mean as labels of my 'shadow side.' However, vindictive or vengeful is one thing I know that I am not. Truly, I would rather walk away, never look at or speak to a person again than turn the knife. To me that's vengeance enough. I don't have the energy to waste on getting back at someone. I just disappear from their life forever.

So... I was thinking that this probably has to do with my Pluto placement. I have Pluto in Libra (not the most confrontational sign) sextiling Venus and the Sun and conjuncting Saturn. Actually, it very well may be my Saturn that keeps my Pluto under wraps (though my Saturn is in Scorpio). I am fortunate enough that Pluto does not aspect my Mars. The people I've known with Pluto aspecting Mars tend to have more of a tendency towards revenge.