posted March 19, 2013 04:40 PM            

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ELoveCherishEndure: I start things late as well. At least later than I wanted to. Maybe you like having some pressure, especially when you're thinking of what will happen if you don't do it? The Capricorn influence may help you there. Maybe it's giving you the push to do it, even if late. Too much pressure is kind of overwhelming, though. With your 3rd house I see the interest in writing. That's what we've got message boards for, right?

You have placements similar to one of my friends, and I can see his need to do something big with his career.

Aquacheeka: I'll just echo the comments on getting him to do something. Having something to work towards will give him the drive to become like those people he looks up to.

YoursTrulyAlways: Sinatra Doing all of that every day, I'm impressed. It's true that mental strength gets you very far. You have such a powerful stellium. Your family must mean a lot to you.

Somethingexcellent: 7 planets?! How did that even happen?

By the way, have you guys had trouble in love because of the stellium? I imagine the Cap traits would be very obvious, making it difficult to open up in relationships?

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Yes, yes, yes!!! I love to come on here and just vent It is relaxing especially with the interest in the occult that I am fostering. I hope I can really get deep into it and help people but I am scared, though.

posted March 20, 2013 12:42 AM            

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Originally posted by ELoveCherishEndure:
Yes, yes, yes!!! I love to come on here and just vent It is relaxing especially with the interest in the occult that I am fostering. I hope I can really get deep into it and help people but I am scared, though.

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posted March 20, 2013 07:09 PM            

EloveCherishEndure: Sun-Saturn as well, wow. That's about your creativity, isn't it? (Hope I'm not totally prying right now!) This board is pretty good for venting, hehe. I hope for you that your interest in occult can give you the outlet you need. With all of that water and emotions, it gives balance. Sometimes it just has to get out somehow...

12Muddy: Lol, it's worked on me, hasn't it? I wouldn't doubt those prying skills too much. This thread is still going, so you're doing pretty well!

Not bored with the HP references. It's only the second one (unless I missed one)!

I don't know. Haven't really found something I'm truly confident about. Well, maybe. True, it depends on other placements how it comes out.

Harry Potter did get over a lot! Stuff like that makes characters people can relate to. Same with TV shows of some sort of competition. But for the reasons above I find them very painful to watch.

Thank you so much <3 So sweet. True, Saturn can bring out the worst in you. He can be so harsh! I'm glad I'm trying, too, but I'm a bit afraid this will keep being a problem for me. I just feel so much better with others. *hugs* You're helping me get a better grasp on things. That healing light is so pretty! I'm going to look at it and think of some happier thoughts. Good luck on the dabbling <3 Oh, and I'm fine with brick power.

posted March 20, 2013 07:12 PM            

I've... had a lot of knocks and rejections in my hobbies. Creativity. Yeah, with me being a Leo, that huuurts. ;__; I've lost most desire to write after it happened several times. And the worst part isn't even the criticism - it's being ignored. At some point I wished someone would come to me and just trash my work, just to know someone had actually read it and bothered enough to let me know, and that it had evoked some sort of emotion in people. It left me with the same feeling as when I walked away from my last relationship: drained and emotionally dead from all the energy I'd put into it, only to get zero of that in return.

It's just awful to have so much to give and nobody to give it to. Not even a small bit. Months of working hard, taking any advice (more like whining, though) that people wrote anonymously into account and hard labour... and when I'd finished it I couldn't even enjoy it. Even when I asked for opinions, nobody replied, so I felt like such a loser that even that wasn't helping. Even my friends there didn't say anything and just avoided the topic (or seemed to do so). I still don't know what I did wrong that it left people that cold. Worst was that I'd just gotten out of a similar situation before, only with more direct putting down. It took me so long just to be okay with sharing my work again, putting it out for everyone to rip it apart. And it happened another time before that too. It was really all or nothing for me and I'm still bitter I once again got the "nothing". Never the stuff I truly wanted people to read.

My relationships, or lack thereof, have been the same way. I was enjoying the writing so much, but I guess I should find something else for a hobby. I'm saving other people the embarrassment. The only times I've ever had people say they liked my work was about stuff I was okay with, but was nowhere near as good as I can be (though I don't think I'm a master or anything). I didn't really feel it. My Venus-Juno conjunction is quincunx my North Node almost exactly. I guess I've found out what it means.

I'm so scared this will mean the same for my love life. My Venus isn't in a good position to begin with with two squares, one of them to the ruler of my 5th. I've caught men looking at me on the tram or on the streets, but that's people you'll never see again. I just wish I'd meet someone. I've been single for a good four years and it's killing me. At first it was by choice - I wanted to focus on school 100% - but after that it just never happened. Not even a date. When I was still in college (to prepare for uni now), a few guys were interested in me. Sweet guys, too, but I just couldn't give them the attention they deserved, so I laid them off nicely. Sometimes I wonder if I made the right choice and if I shouldn't have tried to adapt and see how it went. I know I couldn't do it back then, and still it... creeps up on me now and then. Everyone keeps asking me why I don't have a boyfriend, if I'm not interested (way to reopen the wounds there!), and talks about their relationships.

The only way I can even cope with that lack is by blocking it out and convincing myself I don't care. Very Cap moon. This is something I've been repressing for years, and it had to get out. I have to accept that I'm not over it.

posted March 20, 2013 07:26 PM            

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EloveCherishEndure: Sun-Saturn as well, wow. That's about your creativity, isn't it? (Hope I'm not totally prying right now!) This board is pretty good for venting, hehe. I hope for you that your interest in occult can give you the outlet you need. With all of that water and emotions, it gives balance. Sometimes it just has to get out somehow...

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And I most definitely am great in creative outlets and most definitely beginning to find my niche in here. I love being of service. Must be my 11th house Virgo, huh?

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I saw your other posts, you're doing quite a good job there Your view is balanced and you seem very sweet.

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posted March 20, 2013 07:35 PM            

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This is part of my reply to 12Muddy, but the post got so long I once again decided to just split it up. It's easier for people who don't want to read it to scroll over it this way.

I've... had a lot of knocks and rejections in my hobbies. Creativity. Yeah, with me being a Leo, that huuurts. ;__; I've lost most desire to write after it happened several times. And the worst part isn't even the criticism - it's being ignored. At some point I wished someone would come to me and just trash my work, just to know someone had actually read it and bothered enough to let me know, and that it had evoked some sort of emotion in people. It left me with the same feeling as when I walked away from my last relationship: drained and emotionally dead from all the energy I'd put into it, only to get zero of that in return.

It's just awful to have so much to give and nobody to give it to. Not even a small bit. Months of working hard, taking any advice (more like whining, though) that people wrote anonymously into account and hard labour... and when I'd finished it I couldn't even enjoy it. Even when I asked for opinions, nobody replied, so I felt like such a loser that even that wasn't helping. Even my friends there didn't say anything and just avoided the topic (or seemed to do so). I still don't know what I did wrong that it left people that cold. Worst was that I'd just gotten out of a similar situation before, only with more direct putting down. It took me so long just to be okay with sharing my work again, putting it out for everyone to rip it apart. And it happened another time before that too. It was really all or nothing for me and I'm still bitter I once again got the "nothing". Never the stuff I truly wanted people to read.

My relationships, or lack thereof, have been the same way. I was enjoying the writing so much, but I guess I should find something else for a hobby. I'm saving other people the embarrassment. The only times I've ever had people say they liked my work was about stuff I was okay with, but was nowhere near as good as I can be (though I don't think I'm a master or anything). I didn't really feel it. My Venus-Juno conjunction is quincunx my North Node almost exactly. I guess I've found out what it means.

I'm so scared this will mean the same for my love life. My Venus isn't in a good position to begin with with two squares, one of them to the ruler of my 5th. I've caught men looking at me on the tram or on the streets, but that's people you'll never see again. I just wish I'd meet someone. I've been single for a good four years and it's killing me. At first it was by choice - I wanted to focus on school 100% - but after that it just never happened. Not even a date. When I was still in college (to prepare for uni now), a few guys were interested in me. Sweet guys, too, but I just couldn't give them the attention they deserved, so I laid them off nicely. Sometimes I wonder if I made the right choice and if I shouldn't have tried to adapt and see how it went. I know I couldn't do it back then, and still it... creeps up on me now and then. Everyone keeps asking me why I don't have a boyfriend, if I'm not interested (way to reopen the wounds there!), and talks about their relationships.

The only way I can even cope with that lack is by blocking it out and convincing myself I don't care. Very Cap moon. This is something I've been repressing for years, and it had to get out. I have to accept that I'm not over it.

So this is also how the stellium affects my life. People with the same placements will aspect my moon.

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posted March 21, 2013 06:04 PM            

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And I most definitely am great in creative outlets and most definitely beginning to find my niche in here. I love being of service. Must be my 11th house Virgo, huh?

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It's what they're good at! Just working the magic. Yeah, I've seen you post around a lot. Glad you're feeling less nervous. They're such killers when you're not feeling well. Keep it up. You're not intimidating to me. I wouldn't have talked to you so easily if I did think so.

Thanks, I didn't want to make it sound that bad. I'm... not used to people being curious about what I write, so don't mind me. I wrote in RPGs and fanfiction a lot. Some pretty dark stuff - horror fiction. Reading that post back, it feels so freaked out over nothing. It really caught up with me. As soon as people make it into a contest on who "deserves" compliments and who doesn't, I freeze up. How did you get over it?

12Muddy: Like I said to Elove, it's not the most common writing. Some horror RPGs, some fanfiction about celebs. The type who have clear roles in the group/personas, which is what the fandom bases their fanfiction on. It's like how astrologers will use celeb charts to explain aspects. So it depends on how creepy you find that. Aww, you could've asked back then. Do you mean the blog? It looks good so far. Thank you. I'm going to try not to give writing up completely. I feel worst about not caring about something that used to be my thing.

Yeah, it's Saturn again. (Great way to keep ontopic!) He certainly doesn't want you to have any distractions, no. I just started university, it'll be a long time before I'm into a career and can get past this karma. Not sure if I believe in the right time anymore. I believe the life lessons and the self-image thing. I wish I could have the typical college life with balancing classes with hanging out and working. Lindaland is fun to hang out on. You've cleaned up pretty quickly then! Sorry about those relationships. I wouldn't say you cheated him, though, especially if you didn't even know about astrology at the time. Like... if you fall for someone, that just happens. Wow, I'm just amazed at how you can learn so much from the experience. Really good. Don't worry about being too light-hearted about it. You don't come across that way to me.

A psychiatric ward?! Wow. Intense. That really calls for that detachment. Isn't it difficult not to take those people's problems home?

None of that vagueness in here. Haha. The only thing I've read about it is that a past life might've ended in suicide and it tests your escapist behaviour. And the need for privacy (I'd say that's 12th house in general). Creativity is good <3 if you ever feel like posting a pic of your jewellery, please do. I'd like to see it. And dreams are nice. Are you the type for reading dream interpretations. I bet they're vivid.

Oh, and I got the oil (coconut/jojoba). Let's see what happens! And I finally found your pic, very cute. Pic looks so professional. I see the Cap stellium coming through with twinkly eyes (the Aries). Found it so late I'd comment over here, I'm commenting on a bunch of others in the thread itself.

To get back to the stellium: my best friend has one as well, he's a late December '89er, which puts his Mercury in that stellium as well. And when adding asteroids, that same house keeps filling up. It's... bizarre.

posted March 21, 2013 06:45 PM            

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It's what they're good at! Just working the magic. Yeah, I've seen you post around a lot. Glad you're feeling less nervous. They're such killers when you're not feeling well. Keep it up. You're not intimidating to me. I wouldn't have talked to you so easily if I did think so.

Thanks, I didn't want to make it sound that bad. I'm... not used to people being curious about what I write, so don't mind me. I wrote in RPGs and fanfiction a lot. Some pretty dark stuff - horror fiction. Reading that post back, it feels so freaked out over nothing. It really caught up with me. As soon as people make it into a contest on who "deserves" compliments and who doesn't, I freeze up. How did you get over it?

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I just think you are forced to because I also wrote fan-fiction and still have some of my works. And I do add to them at times. I would love to talk like e-mail maybe.

Just hit me up on gmail.

I thought that people just didn't like what I had in mind on the site I was on because my stories were different but there was a youth to them that I still love to this day. Your stories have to suit you and that's all. THEY ARE YOUR ART! So please let people appreciate you. Don't change to gain it.

And Muddy --- I have a lot of Cap energy around me lol. Mom is a Cap moon lol and as you know, she would more than likely have a Cap stellium so... it is all love

posted March 22, 2013 07:39 AM            

Oh and you can just call me Ri or Rie if that's easier for you. Pretty much everyone online cuts it short to that.

Elove: I can't see your e-mail address on your profile ;_; Yeah, you have to get over the nerves somehow if you want to keep writing. Wouldn't have taken you for a fanfiction writer - but I don't know who I would, actually. Wow. I think you just pinned down exactly why it went wrong with me. I was so busy changing my writing and attitude to people's wishes I forgot to enjoy it as much as I could have. Very Scorp and good at psychology Thanks for pointing it out. That was like... a blind spot to me. Ahh the youthfulness <3 Feels great!

Muddy: Ahh, that's okay. Just take your time to work on it until you feel it's the right moment. ^^ Only you can decide that. Are you really sure about not having any Virgo? The "harsh critic" thing feels like such a Virgo thing to say. I know the feeling. *hugs*

You do?! Is the blog the Vietnamese one? I can't read that. Dark stuff is pretty cool. What I love about dark/horror fiction is how people are put in an extreme situation and to see how they cope. It's like catharsis for me. (This is turning into a Pluto thread or something, hahaha.)

Three more years, I'm in my first year. So if everything goes right I'll be in school until I'm 26. Last year is full-on internships. Haha, at some point you're just dying to get to put it to practice!! Yeah. I remember people would be like, "Good for you you're not that affected anymore" and I'm like, "I thought of giving up something I love. What's happy about that?!" Sometimes I wonder if my chart isn't wrong, haha. I feel so watery all the time, but that's the house emphasis.

Chinese astrology. So what sign are you there? Maybe the rebelling was predicted somewhere. Some of both kinds of astrology are so similar. Have you found some stuff that both say about you?

So you're always prepared look-wise. I can imagine it takes some time to get used to such a tough job. Especially emotionally.

Yeah, I've noticed. It works better on my legs. They feel soft!

posted March 22, 2013 04:22 PM            

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Elove: I can't see your e-mail address on your profile ;_; Yeah, you have to get over the nerves somehow if you want to keep writing. Wouldn't have taken you for a fanfiction writer - but I don't know who I would, actually. Wow. I think you just pinned down exactly why it went wrong with me. I was so busy changing my writing and attitude to people's wishes I forgot to enjoy it as much as I could have. Very Scorp and good at psychology Thanks for pointing it out. That was like... a blind spot to me. Ahh the youthfulness <3 Feels great!

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posted March 22, 2013 06:01 PM            

If anyone still wants to join in, you can!

If you're okay with other people checking your chart, I'll have a look.

I sent you an e-mail, Elove.

posted March 22, 2013 07:47 PM            

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If you're okay with other people checking your chart, I'll have a look. .

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Please. Pretty please. . My chart is in a thread in Personal Readings.

posted March 22, 2013 08:04 PM            

I do. It does push me to try and be more sensitive to other people's hobbies. So there's some good in that (and very 12th house). The strong water houses do really make you sensitive.

Hahaha. You guessed right. Yeah, I guess it is the same with you and your jewellery. You don't just do it half-hearted. It has to be perfect! Capricorn doesn't want you to slack either, yeah.

It doesn't feel good, does it? You didn't mean it and yet it doesn't sound as good as it did in your head. Glad you've found a way. In some cases it might've been the timing, though. Or squaring Mercuries.
Thanks, but I'm not sure I was. As a child I didn't have much of a filter, but my mother remembers me being really introverted :| So... I don't know?

Sort of strange how one interpretation of the same thing is so good and the other isn't. It's... really different. Cultural? But you chose to go abroad anyway, very Sagittarian! Do you ever think of going back? Is it even possible? (If that's not too sensitive a topic for you.)

I'll send you an e-mail (I just hope it's okay to post e-mail addresses.)

posted March 23, 2013 02:08 AM            

Yeah I don't know why the email doesn't appear in my profile. I'll make a twitter account to connect with yours.

Hehe yeah I got a bit bored after 15 years, so of course I grabbed the first chance of going aboard. I’ve been back twice, for vacations. But I don’t think I can live there. The education system is different, I won’t be able to find a job there. And my family is overseas anyway, so yeah no point in going back People in my birth country place a lot of value on traditions and there is great pressure to follow the social norms. So yeah I love my country, but living there is a no-no.

posted March 23, 2013 05:02 PM            

Isn't it great to have so much to choose from?! And it never ends. Perfect for your Aries moon.

Wow. That's a major change in your life then. Pretty intense having to find that out. Some countries just aren't practical to live in, right? Good for you for realising that, even though it may not be what you wanted. <3 Ah, are they with you? That's good.

It wasn't that late for me, just take a nap if you can.