posted January 12, 2016 10:29 AM            

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Lilth is conj. (cazimi) my Sun

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This gives me new respect for Lilith!

ETA: Well I thought I couldn't relate to what you were saying about paying back pain with pain...

But when I cut off my ex-soulmate, it was a very Lilith move, I was hoping he would be in pain, and I was gratified to learn he suffered with it for a while. Because I didn't want to be the only one suffering.

My Leo ASC forms a grand trine with Sag Venus and Aries Lilith.

posted January 12, 2016 10:53 AM            

I had one several years ago, still not 'taking it' well.

posted January 12, 2016 10:57 AM            

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Originally posted by DopGang:
Definitely Venus for me.

My moon is just like, "I'll have to look online why chickens have feathers but don't fly."

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posted January 12, 2016 11:15 AM            

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Originally posted by Elysia:

What's your moon ?

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posted January 12, 2016 11:45 AM            

When I didn't want it to end, I may or may not have seen the end coming. Regardless, the confusion and inability to understand what went wrong, or why we couldn't work it out was agony. This happened to me twice. Both times I had a pain in the left side of my chest. The first time I thought it was a knot in my back or cancer. The second time I realized it was my heart. I thought I was going to die, like some ailment would develop in my body from the energy my heartbreak was emitting... and I would die....I had to heal myself and move on.

Either way, the end of my patience or my survival depended on my moving on.

I think if any of my exes stalked me after a breakup (something I'm paranoid about) they would see me go quiet for awhile, but then it might seem like I was never in love. I can't help it. No one has ever gotten me to the point of just being ready to lay down and die. Though I have faced the choice. I have too many responsibilities, and that's the way it's always been.

I guess I'm wildly emotional and maybe dramatic, but my sense of self preservation kicks in before I throw myself over a cliff.

Cancer Asc/Sun, Venus in Gemini? Would that explain it?

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posted January 12, 2016 11:59 AM            

Not sure if I ever felt heartbreak that way...fortunately it's been a good long while since my heart has broken.

When I try and connect with the energy of that ending that was worst, I imagine myself almost like a tornado wanting to destroy everything in its path. I guess I was a she-devil, but a repressed one....mmmm, within the compressor of my saturnine heart it all became a manageably small sentiment...just something like...well, hell will freeze over before I make that mistake again.

posted January 12, 2016 12:00 PM            

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Originally posted by DopGang:
[QUOTE]Originally posted by Elysia:
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What's your moon ?

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posted January 12, 2016 12:02 PM            

rage, rage against the dying of the light

posted January 12, 2016 12:13 PM            

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Originally posted by Faith:
never going back again.

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posted January 12, 2016 12:21 PM            

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Originally posted by LittleBlackCat:
Is that so? That's interesting. The thing is I have no interest in simple relationships. I love with the obsession and depth of a thousand romantic poets. Knowing this I let few in my world. I have only been emotionally involved with 3 guys, have only dated 2 of those 3, and have had sex with 0. And if I'm with you cheating on you is not even a possibility. Therefore, if I let u in my world I have granted you access only few in this life will ever know and if you hurt me you will become the object of my obsessive pain driven wrath.

Even as I do awful things I will still love them deeply, but my heart is to be felt when alone in my room. Out in the world I have to give ppl what they deserve and make them feel my pain. My idea of letting one of them know I had any love left was by calling from an anonymous number and playing really melancholy/ creepy chords on my piano. My broken heart in musical form. Oddly enough he didn't hang up...listened to my playing for almost half an hour without saying a word. Weird considering he didn't know I played piano.

Sag Sun (1st house). Sag Venus (1st house). Gem Moon (8th house). Gem Mars Rx (7th). Leo Jupiter (9th). Scorpio Asc. Conj. Pluto in Scorp (house 12) .The rest is all Cap (2nd house).

Lilth is conj. (cazimi) my Sun
Chiron in the 8th

My chart :
http://i64.tinypic.com/b4fds0.gif

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posted January 12, 2016 12:30 PM            

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Originally posted by venus2tinkerbell:
Wow Faith, thank you. I like this song! Never heard it before.

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But...that's Fleetwood Mac!

Well I'm glad you like it.

Stevie Nicks is my soul sister...

posted January 12, 2016 04:04 PM            

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Originally posted by Faith:
But...that's Fleetwood Mac!

Well I'm glad you like it.

Stevie Nicks is my soul sister...

Her moon 15 Capricorn
My sun 15 Capricorn

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I knew that Stevie Nicks was a Gemini... It would figure she has a Cap Moon - 10th house no less.

posted January 12, 2016 04:13 PM            

I would stalk them silently too just to see how they're doing. Obviously they would never find anyone as good as me though *hair flip* really though, they wouldn't. These guys would always end up contacting me sooner or later and I act so cold towards them.

posted January 12, 2016 06:47 PM            

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Originally posted by venus2tinkerbell:

Both times I had a pain in the left side of my chest. The first time I thought it was a knot in my back or cancer. The second time I realized it was my heart. I thought I was going to die, like some ailment would develop in my body from the energy my heartbreak was emitting... and I would die....I had to heal myself and move on.

Either way, the end of my patience or my survival depended on my moving on.

I think if any of my exes stalked me after a breakup (something I'm paranoid about) they would see me go quiet for awhile, but then it might seem like I was never in love. I can't help it. No one has ever gotten me to the point of just being ready to lay down and die. Though I have faced the choice. I have too many responsibilities, and that's the way it's always been.

I guess I'm wildly emotional and maybe dramatic, but my sense of self preservation kicks in before I throw myself over a cliff.

Cancer Asc/Sun, Venus in Gemini? Would that explain it?

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I feel you. Every words. Aqua sun in 8, libra moon in 4, cancer asc, pisces venus and mercury in 9, virgo mars in 3

Hurt is a blessing. Sure, it doesn't feel like it. But be proud and HAPPY to feel like it. It is a blessing in disguise. ( not looking for it, but appreciating it for what it is. My heart goes to everyone who felt a heart break )

Sadness is a blessing, Lykke Li

posted January 12, 2016 08:01 PM            

Recently got dumped out of a ~10 year relationship. I was away at school for 8 weeks this summer and it happened right when I got back. Got totally blindsided by it. I was calling her on the phone in every connecting airport really excited to see her and she played along. In retrospect there were some signs that things were weird, but I didn't pick up on them at the time. It hurt a lot. I did a lot of crying and screaming in the car by myself. Started smoking cigarettes again. Failed all my classes. Wrote a few psycho letters. Wanted to jump in the river. At the same time part of me was thinking "Wow, what a life experience! I'm learning a lot from this. And it opens up the door for new adventures." So yeah a kinda back and forth sag-scorpio dynamic.

posted January 12, 2016 09:00 PM            

I turned into a true Aqua Venus after that tough break up with my ex. I had multiple flings, was cold/distant and didn't want a commitment. I think Leo moons love extremely deeply and the lion ego/confidence takes a huge hit when broken up with. With so much love given we can't just instantly stop loving someone you've loved for so long

posted January 12, 2016 09:22 PM            

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Originally posted by Gemini Blues:
I knew that Stevie Nicks was a Gemini... It would figure she has a Cap Moon - 10th house no less.

The 21 year old me once mused that Lindsey Buckingham wrote my life... Leo Mars conjunct my Moon.

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Buckingham wrote most of my favorites on Rumours. All except Songbird.

That album was recorded the year I was born, when Pluto transiting conjunct his sun-Mercury-Neptune in Libra.

Wow, no wonder it was so good.

Great breakup song:

posted January 12, 2016 09:32 PM            

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Originally posted by Gemini30:
I never understood why people have multiple flings after a bad or heart wrenching break up.

Isn't that considered self destructive behavior?

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For me, I would call it both self-destructive behavior and fulfilling a need without the heaviness of a relationship. I would only call my behavior self-destructive because at the same time of me trying to fulfill a need, I was trying to have intimacy with men who were not right for me.