posted January 11, 2016 06:47 PM            

There is only one that was devastating, and there was such betrayal in that one, AND we'd been close together for many years. I'd invested myself in my partner for the long run only to realize that it was a no go.

posted January 11, 2016 07:58 PM            

Breakup # 1: It was clear that my boyfriend liked another girl so I offered that we should break up so he could date her. He said OK but insisted he would marry me later.

Breakup # 2: Ex-soulmate breaks up with me and I'm stunned for about three minutes. I ask if we'll still be friends, he says yes, I believe him, and I'm fine. (It was the middle ground of friendship/romance that went on for years afterwards that was so trying. But that wasn't a breakup.)

Breakups #3 and on: Basically I just wandered off.

posted January 11, 2016 09:32 PM            

Meanwhile, I cut them out. I don't make actual contact and if they contact me I'm very cold and uncaring. Mostly because, well it's over and my "logical" side says, "to protect myself from wanting a second shot at what has proven to be a failure, I must create distance. I must create distance by making them want to stay away."

Inside, whether it's genuine (probably not) or I poker face myself (most likely) I honestly feel nothing inside.

posted January 11, 2016 10:36 PM            

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Originally posted by DopGang:
Behind the scenes, I've had a history of silent stalking. I'm not exactly sure why.
I guess I get curious as to how they're moving on. As if to look for clues as to how they felt about me by what they do after.

Meanwhile, I cut them out. I don't make actual contact and if they contact me I'm very cold and uncaring. Mostly because, well it's over and my "logical" side says, "to protect myself from wanting a second shot at what has proven to be a failure, I must create distance. I must create distance by making them want to stay away."

Inside, whether it's genuine (probably not) or I poker face myself (most likely) I honestly feel nothing inside.

It's very strange.
Probably a result of that logical Virgo being in the watery 12th. It's just stupid.
I'm not even sure if what I just wrote quite sums it up accurately. I'm so weird.

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posted January 11, 2016 10:39 PM            

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Originally posted by theunknown:
It's your 8th housey influences

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posted January 11, 2016 10:54 PM            

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Originally posted by DopGang:
Definitely Venus for me.

My moon is just like, "I'll have to look online why chickens have feathers but don't fly."

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posted January 12, 2016 01:21 AM            

I was "practical" about it. Once things were over, I didn't feel the need to invest time and effort anymore. I took a few days to ponder about future plans and to reflect.

A bit of platonic, lingering affection remained. I liked them as people before developing romantic feelings for them. So although the "romance" failed, the "friendly" feeling stayed the same.

posted January 12, 2016 02:15 AM            

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Originally posted by LittleBlackCat:
I do very drastic somewhat wicked things that screw them over psychologically and at times in actuality. I can't move on until they have hurt the way I hurt (which is impossible) so I get them as close to what I feel as I can. They have to be on the verge of a mental breakdown before I am happy and the funny part is, I usually do all of this without them having a clue I'm the person destroying their life. One guy called me frantically relaying his issue to me and I was "really? aw that's terrible". On one hand he called b/c he was devastated and needed an ear, on the other hand I know a part of him suspected me but had no reason to lol it's crazy but oh well. Makes me feel better. Once I'm satisfied cut them off totally, I won't even pretend to be an ear or anything else.

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What are your placements?

posted January 12, 2016 04:51 AM            

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Originally posted by PixieJane:
What are your placements?

I'd like plenty, please, you remind me of someone I know very well (not identical, but very similar--and maybe she's more alike you than I realize) and it might give me a bit of insight into her.

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Is that so? That's interesting. The thing is I have no interest in simple relationships. I love with the obsession and depth of a thousand romantic poets. Knowing this I let few in my world. I have only been emotionally involved with 3 guys, have only dated 2 of those 3, and have had sex with 0. And if I'm with you cheating on you is not even a possibility. Therefore, if I let u in my world I have granted you access only few in this life will ever know and if you hurt me you will become the object of my obsessive pain driven wrath.

Even as I do awful things I will still love them deeply, but my heart is to be felt when alone in my room. Out in the world I have to give ppl what they deserve and make them feel my pain. My idea of letting one of them know I had any love left was by calling from an anonymous number and playing really melancholy/ creepy chords on my piano. My broken heart in musical form. Oddly enough he didn't hang up...listened to my playing for almost half an hour without saying a word. Weird considering he didn't know I played piano.

Sag Sun (1st house). Sag Venus (1st house). Gem Moon (8th house). Gem Mars Rx (7th). Leo Jupiter (9th). Scorpio Asc. Conj. Pluto in Scorp (house 12) .The rest is all Cap (2nd house).

Lilth is conj. (cazimi) my Sun
Chiron in the 8th

posted January 12, 2016 06:25 AM            

Breakups have always been hard for me. Not the moving on from them per se, but the anticipation beforehand.

Usually the emotions involved with noticing distance between myself and the partner (Moon), confusing my identity (what comes next for me), would cause me to feel so much anxiety with the process of a breakup that I always lose weight and sleep. This is of course after longterm relationships though.

Then, once the breakup actually occurs, the healing process is extremely spiritual. I always gain a ton of strength from that time - realizing the universe is taking control and what is meant to be is playing out.