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Originally posted by ReachingForTheStars: “Humbling” is a scary word since it’s likely, humiliation is involved. Embarrassment? Yes! Some disappointment too.
It’s been quite the journey.
As much as I thought I treated people with dignity and respect, I realized I had been inadvertently dismissive by holding to my perspectives the way I did. I gave too much consideration to being “right” and not enough to personal rights.
A while ago, a member here mentioned something to me that changed my approach. She taught me something about boundaries and privacy. Saturn traveling through my 5th conjuncting my Mars, Saturn, then Pluto, trining my gem placements and squaring my moon prepared me for the Neptune squares.
As you’re probably aware (since you have similar gem placements), Saturn just moved out of conjunction with my DSC and out of opposition with my sun. Throughout this Saturn transit, I changed in ways that made members of my in-group uncomfortable. What I was confronted with was not my own ego, but the ego of someone close to me. Someone, who in many ways, was just like me. I saw how ugly I could be. I was accused of being fake, jealous, stupid(!), lazy, passive-aggressive and sabotaging. He was projecting. When those accusations couldn’t be substantiated, I was threatened. Who I became seemed to have conflicted so deeply with everything he was that he couldn’t stand his own reflection. I was what he was trying to be and in my presence, he couldn’t pretend anymore. Disillusionment ensued. He’s not happy with who he is or where he is. What’s scary is, I could have easily been all of those things had I not admitted to myself early on that my perceptions was incomplete - had I not humbled myself and did the work. I’m still a little scared by what’s to come. Neptune square sun is a dissolution of the ego and my ego is still very much intact.
This person is a sadge, so he’s going through much of the same experiences. He’s just not dealing with them as well, so I understand that it takes “liberal amounts of wiggle-room and forgiveness.” I don’t ever want to be struggling with myself in this way.
I know this may seem off topic, but this thread really is about the egotistical expression of the ego. Have compassion.
Lindaland
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posted March 21, 2018 12:00 AM
posted May 08, 2018 09:32 AM
(Right Said Fred , 2006) [2:59] 
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