posted June 22, 2025 03:07 PM            

Thoughts of self sustenance(2nd) and collaboration(7th)?🤔. Will see.

There was a disagreement with a friend. That was the Venus contra-parralel Venus.

I also noticed that the friend concerned has Mars conjunct my MC degree. And the current Merc transit is opposing their Mars conj my IC.

Today they wanted to go out. Whilst I wanted to stay in(Mercury conj Ic and Sun crossed into whole house 4th). Total opposite intentions. So I think they are mad at me now.😶

On Tuesday, when Mercury is EXACTLY opposing his Mars, there is a work related meeting that he has been setting himself up for since Thursday this past week.

posted June 26, 2025 01:37 PM            

I might finish something what was supposed to be finished long time ago. And I’m still unhappy about it. I worked too hard. And I don’t really know if I’lluse those fruits. I feel not good it is not done the way I like so I am not happy about accomplishment.

posted July 02, 2025 09:20 AM            

I knew that there was something electric happening. I knew that Uranus or Mars was involved somehow. This because we just got real close ,real quickly over such a short period of time.

He has Neptune/Mars parallel in his natal. Both these are parallel my natal Uranus (co-ruler of my 11th). His North Node ♌ is square my Sat(11th house ruler).

Transiting Sun was parallel my Sat(11th house ruler) on the day we met.Transit Mars in ♌ in 5th house in my Natal and was opp trans Plu ♒(11th) at the time too.

Natally ,Trans Mars ♌ was also contra- parallel my natal MC degree and his Venus.

What's more is that his Venus is conjunct my natal Uranus in Sag. All this is what I later came to find out.

His natal Plu is conj my Dsc. His Mars conj my MC.

So yesterday,he and I had a disagreement. This was when transit Mars in Vir was arcing to square his Venus and my Ura.

posted July 02, 2025 10:26 AM            

He is very self-centered(loves to talk about himself.... a lot🤣 and like the Leo Sun signs I have known, is always eager to surround himself with loyal "fans".

There's probably Vir /Gem rising? But definitely something with Merc highly accentuated. And interestingly ,his Mercury is OOB by declinations.

His Draconic Moon in Aries conj my natal Asc degree. And his Draconic Sun is trine my Asc degree.

My Sun is ♎(Draconic), Moon in ♉ and Asc in ♒.

I always look at the Draco connections for significant meetings of people. Especially those that I feel throw my world upside down(in varying degrees of severity).

posted July 03, 2025 04:59 PM            

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Now here is the kicker; He has Draconic Sun in ♌ and Moon in ♈. And I actually see BOTH these qualities come through with him.

He is very self-centered(loves to talk about himself.... a lot🤣 and like the Leo Sun signs I have known, is always eager to surround himself with loyal "fans".

There's probably Vir /Gem rising? But definitely something with Merc highly accentuated. And interestingly ,his Mercury is OOB by declinations.

His Draconic Moon in Aries conj my natal Asc degree. And his Draconic Sun is trine my Asc degree.

My Sun is ♎(Draconic), Moon in ♉ and Asc in ♒.

I always look at the Draco connections for significant meetings of people. Especially those that I feel throw my world upside down(in varying degrees of severity).

What I noticed about all this, is that the 20Deg cardinal mark is important in the Draco chart.This mostly in the Sun/Moon position. And my Asc/MC degrees are on the 20Deg mark. Wow!🙆🏿

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This is my draconic chart. I used to have an internet friend, who almost became an offline friend, to the point where she asked me to be her roommate. Another LL’er did that, too (a sadgie, with a chart similar to my mum’s).

posted July 04, 2025 04:40 PM            

I'm not celebrating anything today. I'm having an "I hate everyone" day, even though I technically don't. Three explosions have already made my house rock, and it isn't even dark yet. My dog is scared, I'm tired, and depressed - and annoyed.

posted July 06, 2025 10:28 AM            

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This is my draconic chart. I used to have an internet friend, who almost became an offline friend, to the point where she asked me to be her roommate. Another LL’er did that, too (a sadgie, with a chart similar to mum's )

The first one I mentioned, had a Virgo moon, and my draconic moon/venus were conjunct her moon.

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posted July 07, 2025 02:01 AM            

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It's always so super interesting when those connections are made. But there is a part of me that thinks that this friendship will not last. Too much Uranus action in the mix.

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posted July 07, 2025 02:07 AM            

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Mars is parallel Asc and squaring natal Uranus. I am so triggered. The day progressed fine. But then suddenly.... unintentional triggers by someone . I need to get some sleep. I am so angry and hurt.😓

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posted July 07, 2025 02:10 AM            

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Uranus enters Gemini tonight! 💫💥

I am always excited when slow moving planet is at 0 degrees and forms aspect with natal Uranus at 0 Sagittarius. I usually get very clear, important insights at that time.

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I'm nervous. I wish I felt all sparkly, and excited. I expect the worst, and feel grateful when nothing bad happens.

I remember people saying that Uranus in their 7th ended up being a good thing, but the only good thing that happened for me, was whenever I could distance myself from something/someone. When I made healthier choices. But there has *so* much hurt, and feeling like any progress I made in the past, was flipped over and stomped into the ground (underground). Now it's going into my 8th. Tonight, or when it reaches 1*degree.

I hardly slept, and didn't get out, because it was 90 degrees outside.

posted July 07, 2025 02:24 AM            

Last week, a family friend contacted me after two months, to tell me that her mum got the runaround health-wise, and was finally diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. She's at home with her, and starting chemo. Both she and her mum have been good friends to us, and two months ago, I had told her I wished I hadn't been so shy when I was younger, and I'd got to spend more time with her, because she has always been the best. She was there for us when others weren't. She took things to the hospital for my mum, when my dad was taken there by ambulance, and we had been waiting for news all night, and then tried to sleep during the day. she was just always there. Now I'm waiting to hear if I can help her at all.

posted July 07, 2025 02:27 AM            

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Mars is parallel Asc and squaring natal Uranus. I am so triggered. The day progressed fine. But then suddenly.... unintentional triggers by someone . I need to get some sleep. I am so angry and hurt.😓

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I was just thinking that I'm sure I've missed things here. I don't always read everything. I'll post sometimes, and disappear for a while. So I hope I didn't miss anything from you. I posted a thread on something I mentioned here, a couple of months ago.

I wish I had a real sense of social safety. Not just a sense, but the reality of it. I can deal with pettiness from a few people - I expect it, and it amuses me - but sometimes my feelings get hurt, too, and it can hurt a lot when it's unexpected.

I wish we had private messages here.

posted July 07, 2025 05:43 AM            

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She disappeared, seven years ago. I'm hoping that she's okay, and nothing happened to her. But that was just my draconic planets. I don't know hers. I've pulled back from everyone, in the last several years.

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Oh ok ,i see❤ Coincidentally, 7 years is usually the time the average Uranus transit lasts within a sign.

The pulling back is something i do too ❤. I get so damne tender at times. And i know that when i look at transits, some planet is either on my angles by longitudinal aspects or declinations.

I am reminded of Natasha Bedingfield's "Bruise easily" when she says "Anyone who can touch you, can hurt you. Or heal you. Anyone who can reach you, can love you. Or leave you. So be gentle when you handle me."

I don't know if I will ever allow anyone to get close to me though. The pain of a bruise is extremely sharp. I don't know how people in long term relationships and even friendships do it.🤷🏿

posted July 07, 2025 05:46 AM            

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I'm sorry to hear that.

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Its the trans Mars/ Uranus hit. Always such a pinch in my groin when it happens. It quick. But the after effects linger.

posted July 07, 2025 06:28 AM            

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I really feel like disappearing, but it never lasts for long. I wish I trusted people enough. I used to be more open, and welcoming, and now I'm not.

Last week, a family friend contacted me after two months, to tell me that her mum got the runaround health-wise, and was finally diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. She's at home with her, and starting chemo. Both she and her mum have been good friends to us, and two months ago, I had told her I wished I hadn't been so shy when I was younger, and I'd got to spend more time with her, because she has always been the best. She was there for us when others weren't. She took things to the hospital for my mum, when my dad was taken there by ambulance, and we had been waiting for news all night, and then tried to sleep during the day. she was just always there. Now I'm waiting to hear if I can help her at all.

In two or three weeks, my dad goes in for his cataracts check-up, and then gets surgery scheduled.

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Damne! Thats quite a load. If you feel that you can't be someone other than who you are being right now, don't sweat. A day of strength will come . Sometimes a week.

posted July 07, 2025 12:39 PM            

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I was anxious five years ago, too. I posted these after waking up from a nightmare. From the blogger, Jenny Lawson.

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I love the passages posted from the blogger. I think these hit home (considering the intense depression that i went through and still not sure I am recovering from)

You will overcome. But don't force yourself to do/be anything outside of what you are being and doing. The last thing you need is pressure. Be gentle with yourself. Very gentle.❤

I somehow found these words most comforting in my nights of despair. Infact, i still do. Take what you can from them.

“It’s dark because you are trying too hard. Lightly child, lightly. Learn to do everything lightly. Yes, feel lightly even though you’re feeling deeply. Just lightly let things happen and lightly cope with them. I was so preposterously serious in those days… Lightly, lightly – it’s the best advice ever given me…So throw away your baggage and go forward. There are quicksands all about you, sucking at your feet, trying to suck you down into fear and self-pity and despair. That’s why you must walk so lightly. Lightly my darling…”

Aldous Huxley, Island, 1962

posted July 08, 2025 01:38 AM            

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Originally posted by frida:
Uranus enters Gemini tonight! 💫💥

I am always excited when slow moving planet is at 0 degrees and forms aspect with natal Uranus at 0 Sagittarius. I usually get very clear, important insights at that time.

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