posted August 12, 2025 10:00 AM            

Today is the last day of my Gold Coaching webinar. It goes a whole year. I started on Labor Day weekend last year. It’s up leveled me a lot spiritually and psychically. Worth every penny. The work on my own will keep me busy for years.

posted August 18, 2025 12:57 AM            

There is a picture that this person took of me . And I couldn't help feeling like the pic made me look bloated and doped out. It was a horrible feeling.

Are we ever objective when it comes to our own looks? Like can we tell when we are getting overweight or "delusional" about our looks? When we actually don't look like how we pictured ourselves to be to the external world?

I know that feeling confident about how you look has more to do with what's happening with YOU on the inside more than what is physically there. I get that.

So perhaps this ISN'T the best time to make decisions regarding diet and losing weight etc. More especially when I am aware that a week from now, I will say "what was i thinking?I am gorgeous!"😁

In times like these ,I remember Moira Rose(Schitt's Creek) when she says "Take a thousand, naked pictures of yourself now. You may currently think, "Oh, I'm too spooky." Or, "Nobody wants to see these tiny boobies." But, believe me, one day you will look at those photos with much kinder eyes and say, "Dear God, I was a beautiful thing!"

When Jup squares my Asc in ♈ and exaggerates my flaws mentally. Or the current natal Merc ♑ opp to transit Jup ♋ nitpicks everything about my perspective, I must remember this.

I am really not as hideous as i imagine. But there is this awful temporary lunacy that makes me think I am.

Pam Anderson(infamous for many years for her big bust)had Uranus in ♑ opp Sun in ♋ in house 2 and Saturn in ♑ oppose her Mercury(ruler of house 1 and in house 2) when she had her breast augmentation surgery in 1990.

She then had them removed in 1999 when progressed Sun /Natal Jupiter was opp transit Uranus in ♒. And transiting Saturn conjunct Moon(2nd house ruler).

This going back to "factory mode" is interesting to me-as it highlights how oppositions can opt for extremes in emotions(and even actions) on one hand.

But then finding balance or "re-centering" may take another extreme back to what was there in the first place.🤷🏿

It is the journey to and from that's important. What we reflect on when these extreme changes are made. So its not in vain. Much like how we leave home and then later return to it.

posted August 19, 2025 09:31 AM            

Parents sent me a message to update me on the details of the sale of the home. I just felt completely off! Very tender.

I have not been feeling all that great with all these ♋ energy transits. I am eating more, likely gaining weight, feeling guilt about that. Just not a great time.

posted August 28, 2025 08:40 AM            

And its not like I deliberately set this date up. No. The system gave me this date and time when I booked online(which is how things work now)

Jupiter Cancer is opp Mercury in Cap/ square Mars/Asc and conjunct Moon/Ic.

So I'm thinking that these next few days should be eventful. We are trying to get the procedures for the house completed so that the sale exchange can go on.

posted August 31, 2025 04:52 AM            

According to Astrology X-files

Mars Conjunction Mars Transiting Mars conjunct your natal Mars. This is a time of high energy driven by biological needs to survive. The fight or flight mechanism is activated in you now and you have to decide whether to stand your ground or run. This energy needs to be dissipated in some way or you will be prone to accidents, bloodshed or angry conflicts with others. There is often an atmosphere of hostility around you. Just be sure that you aren't spoiling for a fight. This aspect is more difficult for those who were born during the daytime.

Encounters with the police or military are not unusual. Submitting to inspections for security reasons and traffic tickets are among the most common manifestations of Mars related contacts. Sometimes one experiences this as a mugging or an attack in which you are forced to defend yourself. While this transit can give you the energy to carry a new project through to it's completion, there are bound to be obstacles or opposition from others who do not feel like are they getting due credit.

More on determining planetary condition...

If natal Mars is lord of your 1st house, you may feel angry or irritated, but self confidence is high. You might be anxious and unable to sit still. You feel a need to act. It is a good time for exercise. Those born in the daytime need to exercise special caution against accident or injury.

I don't think this Mars return will be fun for me.

My ears continued to ache early this morning and my head was still annoying me. Not intense, but uncomfortable.

posted September 06, 2025 02:21 PM            

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[b]@Aries23Degrees, have you had a chance to experience relationships where all that martian energy is directed towards physical action (like doing sports together, having a common goal to do something challenging together)? Or if not physical, then some other project where you can constructively harness the energy in the partnership, that would otherwise turn into aggression.

My 7th house is different, and my Mars in 7th in Pisces is pretty mellow, but still... I get frustrated in a relationship if there is not enough action and growth. I loved playing sports with my ex, hiking, traveling often, and generally being active. It was such a joy. And I absolutely need high energy partner. I got frustrated quickly whenever our time together settled into having dinners and after-dinner sex.[/B]

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Sorry Frida. I didnt see this.

posted September 06, 2025 03:28 PM            

Uranus transit 10th square Asc, Sun, Mercury, opp. Uranus. I can't believe that square Sun and Mercury is boiling down to fighting bureaucratic errors - there were 3 big ones so far on three fronts. There's more happening of course, but this is a big part.

Since 2021. Uranus aspected all personal planets and angles in fixed signs. In the shortest possible way to explain, there were 3 men on autistic spectrum (2 romantic, 1 at a higher position at work and another at work) in relation to whom I felt enormous pain. Mostly felt unseen and disregarded and treated badly. And now dealing with cold bureaucracy, being stalled by their mistakes. I forgot what normal is, ugh.

Hopefully 4-5 more difficult months, and once Uranus turns direct, that will be it. Then recovery. There should be peace for a decade after that.

posted September 06, 2025 10:02 PM            

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Originally posted by Aries23Degrees:
Sorry Frida. I didnt see this.

I think you are right about that Mars energy. However I must add that with me, it plays out as competitiveness . I want to "one up" my partner in things. 🤣

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Then that’s the first thing to work on - it’s not a competition 😊

posted September 07, 2025 02:51 AM            

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Originally posted by frida:
Then that’s the first thing to work on - it’s not a competition 😊

That reminded me of a situation with my ex who has Mars in Leo in 7th. Once I showed him how my muscles grew in the gym after some time, and without thinking he showed me how his are bigger 😂🤣🤯 I had to point at the absurdity of his reaction to him (I’m a woman!). His natural drive is to compete.

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Yah. That sounds about right😄. I think Mars in 7th(especially when closely opposing Asc) is subconsciously expecting situations to surface that will require self assertion(Mars).

So it's like when in the same lane,they'll congratulate you for your achievements. But HAVE to emphasize their achievements in comparison directly after yours.

The root of that may be in the 1st breath of life(Asc),where situations , circumstances /odds were against them and they felt a threat to life?

This may have been a sickness at birth, surgical intervention, a domestic situation which threatened their life or external circumstances which necessitated that they get in touch with their inner "fight" and survive as independent/capable people out in the world quite early.

Touchiness,being defensive, resisting being counselled by others, not wanting to conform or cooperate with others, seeing life as "me against the world" etc. Tends to make some actively dissociate with ANY forms of partnerships that don't offer them self autonomy.

The others however(i have noted) often deal with being underestimated, taken for granted, overlooked or treated as a doormat.

So situations of intimidation, injustice or violence directly asserted at them can (over time) wake the inner 🦁 and need to fight and advocate for external change (oppositions do that) to quell the need for inner justice and/or retribution.

For me its the latter that expresses itself more. Being a Mars in ♎ makes one gentle and amiable. But there are many who take the kindness for weakness. And that's when I switch up and seem "bipolar" ( as I talked about oppositions in another thread).

Its the immediate "oh, so you think you can just walk all over me?" , that causes the swift turn and unexpected aggression. And then I just pop off.

I actually think that this placement( especially when in aspect with the Ask closely) is very flammable in relationships.

posted September 07, 2025 04:36 AM            

I’ve had a terrible time trying to sleep again, and when I finally got a bit of sleep today, it was just nightmares. I’d wake up, and go right back into it all. I guess that could be partly thanks to the full moon.

posted September 07, 2025 03:05 PM            

I will see how how I feel next week the 14th when Venus is in my 5th house at 23 ♌ and Mars is in 24♎.

posted September 09, 2025 10:52 PM            

I got to meet the Backstreet Boys!! 💛 It was a legit Millennial Dream come freaking true. Excellent show, too.

I also got to meet the legendary Chaka Khan as well. ♈️ My Aries Fairy Godmother! So amazing.

posted September 10, 2025 03:37 PM            

Mars has also arced to square my Ic , conjunct Dsc.No episodes of anger to speak
of(luckily). Just a headache that came and went. And increased energy.

***on this night, the Moon went into Aries and with that came angry feelings. I couldn't sleep. Mars conjunct my Dsc surfaced rage in terms of injustices. Not just personal ones. But ones of the world.

I felt so bad about life, let down, thinking of this hostile place we are living in as people. Lots of things involving chaos, unfairness and disorder etc.

posted September 10, 2025 05:48 PM            

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posted September 14, 2025 12:30 PM            

Do they tell me no?
Do they freak out that I’ve stopped performing?
Or do they have compassion and listen to me?
Give me what I need to be well?

Self expression is coming up too, have having to tip toe around mine for other peoples egos and unresolved trauma.

After this week, not sure if it is even possible to go back to appeasing narcissistic behaviors or playing into gaslighting or shutting up to make others life a lie or feel too uncomfortable. And if I deal with people like that, why keep them around?

I think my throat chakra is having a revamp. I started getting a sore throat. I have to rest and take it easy whether I like it or not. I also don’t have a tolerance for people who don’t give a **** that I’m stressed out, and just want me to perform. I am just so run down and enough is enough.

Anyways we are between eclipse portals.
Chiron is opposing mars this week and they say that early toxic female issues are coming up to be pushed out for the divine masculine collective.

But what is actually going on in my chart?

posted September 15, 2025 02:37 AM            

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Originally posted by Stawr:
I’ve just really hit some kind of wall with feeling like I have to perform. It stems from childhood but especially teenage years. When I’m not feeling good and I have pressure to perform or I’m just full blown burnt out. Paying attention to that persons reaction speaks volumes to be.

Do they tell me no?
Do they freak out that I’ve stopped performing?
Or do they have compassion and listen to me?
Give me what I need to be well?

Self expression is coming up too, have having to tip toe around mine for other peoples egos and unresolved trauma.

After this week, not sure if it is even possible to go back to appeasing narcissistic behaviors or playing into gaslighting or shutting up to make others life a lie or feel too uncomfortable. And if I deal with people like that, why keep them around?

I think my throat chakra is having a revamp. I started getting a sore throat. I have to rest and take it easy whether I like it or not. I also don’t have a tolerance for people who don’t give a **** that I’m stressed out, and just want me to perform. I am just so run down and enough is enough.

Anyways we are between eclipse portals.
Chiron is opposing mars this week and they say that early toxic female issues are coming up to be pushed out for the divine masculine collective.

But what is actually going on in my chart?

Uranus Gemini transiting my 12th house is squaring my Venus Pisces house 10.
Jupiter transiting second house opposing my Uranus st rx Capricorn house 8
And Venus Leo house 4 is opposing my Aquarius mars house 10

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It sounds to me like you are being triggered. And this could result in rebellion/fallout because of wanting more freedom for yourself and less pressure.

I wonder what effects(if any) the pressure planet(Saturn) is having on you?

posted September 16, 2025 06:39 AM            

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Originally posted by Aries23Degrees:
Moon in ♋ is in transit right now and will conjunct transit Jupiter/Ic at 22Cancer sometime tomorrow. So I don't expect a restful sleep tomorrow night.

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Right on time.Damne!

Sis arrived when trans Moon ♋ square Asc in ♈. She arrived much sooner than I thought she would.