posted January 05, 2010 10:41 AM         

oups, I meant

posted January 05, 2010 12:35 PM         

It makes a world of difference to feel loved and cared for and I want you each to know that I love you too... I just met Pire, but you girls I have always loved. I can't wait to know you more, Pire! And girls... well, you know...

And if anyone does read this and has an excerpt in mind... especially a perfect one like Spanky's.... I would love to read them!!! I'm going to take this love and use it to get back to the right place in my heart and mind and I hope others can find Light in the excerpts too... and knowing there are so many beautiful people here at LindaLand.

posted January 05, 2010 01:16 PM         

A Crow, half-dead with thirst, came upon a Pitcher which had
once been full of water; but when the Crow put its beak into the
mouth of the Pitcher he found that only very little water was left
in it, and that he could not reach far enough down to get at it.
He tried, and he tried, but at last had to give up in despair.
Then a thought came to him, and he took a pebble and dropped it
into the Pitcher. Then he took another pebble and dropped it into
the Pitcher. Then he took another pebble and dropped that into
the Pitcher. Then he took another pebble and dropped that into
the Pitcher. Then he took another pebble and dropped that into
the Pitcher. Then he took another pebble and dropped that into
the Pitcher. At last, at last, he saw the water mount up near
him, and after casting in a few more pebbles he was able to quench
his thirst and save his life.

Little by little does the trick.

We must accept finite disappointment, but we must never lose infinite hope - Martin Luther King.

posted January 05, 2010 01:33 PM         

Love to you all again.

p.s. Yin,
I'm so glad you and Steve have found each other. You are obviously a blessing to him and a soul mate who helps bring synchronistic events into his life for his growth and greatest joy, (as he regularly does for myself and others as well). I am so glad to spend time with you on FB.

posted January 05, 2010 02:26 PM         

Mel, cpn, Yin

posted January 05, 2010 02:50 PM         

but i was going to suggest you get byron katie's "loving what is' from the lib if possible. it was very helpful to me when i couldn't pay MY rent!!

posted January 05, 2010 03:15 PM         

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I mean, are we friends on here or is this some kind of illusion? I think we are friends on here and if you were down the road I'd be over yours with a casserole and a bottle of sambuca, you know it. It sometimes pains me that the "practical" side of friendship with people on here is sometimes unfulfilled.

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I feel the same way.

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I had to go think for a while in my bedroom. I was crying and laughing and saying to God, "I have FRIENDS!!!"

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Stop it!!! We understand! And any person with strong Cappy energy would tend to feel that way. I get you there. Please don't feel bad though. You need to vent sometimes and be reminded that people DO care. You are far from a failure! A lot of people are in positions like this right now.

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posted January 05, 2010 03:49 PM         

I want to help you but I simply cannot at this time.
That deeply saddens me.
I wish you well.

posted January 05, 2010 04:28 PM         

LEXX

ps sorry haven't been around - have been super busy. Am thinking of all you lovely, albiet, cold Knowflakes.

posted January 05, 2010 04:54 PM         

And now I must say...

I GOT THE JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so I start for a partial day tomorrow and then a full day Thursday and the usual half day they have for Friday and then a full week next week (with the half day Friday) and I get to work Sunday at the Starving Artists Art Fair for the other temp agency. The after school program is ridiculously expensive (for me) and it is $7 an afternoon and $5 a morning in addition to that registration fee I paid today and they want the money each day up front... AND if you don't let them automatically withdraw it from your checking they charge a $5 fee per check you write!!! Thankfully I won't need them mornings due to the time the job starts so I just have to give her enough to get through Wed and Thurs and then I get off early enough on Fri to pick her up myself. She gave me a scholarship application for the YMCA (that is the program) and I have it almost filled out and will return it tomorrow after I pick up my daughter.
I am going to send my transcripts to the college now ($6! I was terrified to pay earlier) so they will remove the hold so I can register for the two classes I was planning to take this semester. The financial aid/loans will also help me out a little (not full time so not a lot) when they come in next month so I should get things caught up again during this three week assignment/job and will surely find enough work after that and hopefully find a permanent position at some point.
I missed an appointment for assistance with my heat bill that I am stressing but I can handle it now. I am going to take care of as much as I can while I have the energy and pull myself out of this pit of despair.

katatonic... how old is your daughter? What state do you live in? I've seen you around but I don't know anything about you! ♥

Yin/Valus (Valin? Yilus? hehe),teasel !!, AG to you all

koi... just saw yours I feel that way too!