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Barbiegirl19
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posted July 13, 2014 02:41 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Barbiegirl19     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I think this forum is in serious need of it BIG time.

So to let in the sunshine, as of now what's the happiest/best moment of your life?

We are all human of course, and are engulfed in darkness from time to time so what's been your darkest/unhappiest time? Has it been overcome?

Share your happiest/best time last so that it's left in your memory.

I'll go first. My darkest time in my entire life, despite my troubles with alcohol, would have to be when I was 12-14 and tried taking my own life. I am the product of 2 young and unmarried parents. My dad was 24 and my mom 20, who at the time weren't ready to be parents. I felt at times, when I was younger, responsible for ruining their lives and it depressed me severly. What made it worse is when she started seeing a guy that I absolutely hated, and the fighting soon started. I started having severe insecurity issues, hated the way I looked and my weight, I hated everything about myself. I had friends but never opened up about these things to them. The depression got worse and I snapped one day. My mom and I of course got into a huge fight and right after we'd said all that we usually said to each other, I tried to kill myself. I overdosed on Tylenol. I remember getting into bed and that's about it. Not sure how I ever woke up from that, but I'm here today so I did. My mom still has no idea I'd ever done that. The depression worsened and I developed an eating disorder but never did try taking my life again. I went to different sources such as cutting and the alcohol. I've overcome all of this with positivity, preservance and finding myself.

The best and happiest moment of my entire life right now would be when Ellyn put up the detailed synastry chart of DeepFreeze and myself. That day changed my entire life and has made me the happiest person since then. Who would've thought that I'd meet my soulmate, and best friend here of all places.


*****We should LEAVE everything written in this thread, in this thread. No using what's been said here against each other.*****

We need more happy times here and need to reflect on those along with the bad.

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posted July 13, 2014 03:21 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ami Anne     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Thank you for sharing, Barbie.

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posted July 13, 2014 05:19 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for PixieJane     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
My "best of times and worst of times" tend to mix, I guess in part because I learn of my true friends and hidden strength in those times. So I'll just share something that was pure goodness for me that I recorded to my computer on December 18, 2005:

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I had gotten off the comp this morn when a friend that I had just emailed a few minutes before called (since she knew I was up). She wanted us to go surfing with them. Having just gotten over a flu, I was thinking of saying no, but my roomie really wanted to go, so I agreed.

I am so glad for that.

We surfed as normal and the lingering depression and such from fighting off the flu was banished and I really enjoyed myself and the company. The morn was cloudy, but it was still beautiful, with fog in the distant hills, and the ocean itself vanishing off into the distant mists. There was rain, but it was very light--I'm not even sure it counts as rain. And hardly matters when you're in a wetsuit anyway.

And then the wind picked up. Friends had a wonderful idea, to try windsurfing. This was interesting, and I wasn't sure about it, having never done it before. When I finally tried, it took me some minutes just to not fall over, though they said I picked it up really fast. It was difficult because I had to hold my feet differently, and dealing with the harness. But at some point, WHOOSH, the SPEED! I couldn't help it: I screamed with joy, and I was SO glad we had come.

And then the sun broke through.... not direct, but close. The water turned from gray to aqua, and I was suddenly recalling when I was like 6-10, how I'd get up before Mom & Dad (and often before dawn back then) and go outside and explore, play, go to friend's houses.... I felt so free and there was a stark beauty to life that I rarely feel (at least sober) since I guess I became a teen. And then I surpassed even that, and I reached a state that was nothing less than ecstasy, I'd say on par (though distinct and different in its own way) to mind altering dancing or sex, and perhaps even more fulfilling in its own way.

If there was any doubt about fighting to survive the dark times in my life, it was dispelled at this moment of utter beauty in which I lived totally within this miraculous moment, my shout and my heart praising the Goddess of Life and for this moment in Life, one that was worth every horror and ache I had endured just to be here. Tears came down my face (just a few), and I knew that when I die, should my life flash before my eyes, this exact moment will be replayed, and if it affects my body at all, I will smile then, at peace, knowing it was all worth it in part to this one ineffable moment.

What else is there to say? My cold seemed to come back but it went away again, and it was hardly even noted (at least not by me--and we were all wet enough anyway). I found out that the wind was LIGHT (like how fast would I have gone in a HIGH wind???) Because we messed with the boards (including the beginner board I had borrowed), we failed to miss the churches getting out and ended up eating at a Pizza Hut for awhile to give the traffic a chance to die down more.

Now I am home. I've showered, dishes are now washing, warms are washing and hots are drying. Today was awesome, and I'm sharing. If you get a chance to try something new like that, and to be out in nature in a way that helps you to fuse with it, if just for a moment, then avail yourself of the moment. If more people did, psychiatry would be an endangered profession.

As the Wiccans say, Blessed Be (it seems appropriate to now).


That wasn't the only moment that made me realize life was worth all the pain in it, it just happens to be the one I saved right after for posterity.

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posted July 13, 2014 09:13 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for DeepFreeze     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Ok...

My darkest time? A few years ago. I don't know how to explain it honestly. I was suicidal. The reason that I was is simple, but probably difficult to really grasp. 12th house would get me. I'm ok now having studied astrology and improving my awareness of these energies. But my Mercury is conjunct Mars in the 12th, in Virgo. They square a Gemini moon in 9th. (venus in 12th square Neptune in 3rd)
So you can imagine. I sometimes would think of very dark things but looking at the world through a dark window. Very negative and hopeless. Just hopeless for the world, hopeless for me. Feeling that the very world that you live in is lost so how can you possibly find yourself. That kind of thing. But also, with the planets involved aspected the way that they are.. I never got a break!! That combination is SO active that I take something to help me sleep. I do every night and have for many years. Otherwise I don't sleep until daylight again.
So the darkest time was I just wanted to escape. I wanted the thinking to stop, the worrying to stop. I wanted my HEAD to stop.
So I went to this place, an old favorite little remote spot with a pen and paper. I started writing what I thought would be my last words. I sat there and sat there... now actually unable to think at all! It took me 3 hours to do a page and a half and I gave up. I decided to get some help instead. My original intention was to return to that spot the next day with some rope and finish the job. But, I obviously didn't and did get some help.
Want to hear something kind of funny? I know we have a mix of beliefs and I don't want to start a war. But, years before that when I was really heavy into Christianity, that was my prayer spot. I would go there to pray very often.

Happiest moment..
Well. Even with our wedding and everything it was when I drove to pick up Barbie. I remember so many things about it.
I can't say that there was no drama. I won't say what, but there was some. So it was a Sunday and she really wanted me to come get her. Me being how I am. I told her to hang on and I'll get back to her. I was going to get her that Friday anyway but I called my boss and asked for two days off. I was awake by 11 that morning, worked all night until 11:15 pm. I ran home, packed in about 20 minutes and took off. I drove all night (about 11 hours). I got there late morning and picked her up. I remember our hotel room not being ready yet and sitting in the car in a parking lot, just looking at each other. I remember that first smile, what she was wearing, all of that.
We were coming home and she said, "I'm going to make a thread and tell LL that we are together ok?" (The Charmer gets the Lion) She wrote it on the way home.
I also remember stopping and getting some Chinese food. I got some Cashew Chicken and a while later was really upset with myself that I forgot that she is allergic to nuts! It just made me mad that I forgot.
The whole experience was amazing and there was no "weirdness" like we were unfamiliar with each other.
It was just the best! I felt like Mario getting his princess. I know that's kind of funny but it's true!

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posted July 13, 2014 09:38 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Lexxigramer     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Barbiegirl19
Great topic!
I am not up to sharing at the moment,
but wanted to say thank you for starting this thread!

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posted July 13, 2014 09:47 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for StarlightSmileSupreme     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I used to hate going to sleep at night because it meant morning would get there faster and I wanted it to just stay night forever and ever and ever. So I stayed up until the wee hours of the a m then I couldn't take it anymore. I ended up falling asleep between three and four in the morning then had to be up between seven and seven thirty.
By the time noon arrived, I just wanted to sleep so I would right then and there even if I were sitting at a desk. Just awful!

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Ami Anne
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posted July 13, 2014 09:49 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ami Anne     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
My heart is so warmed to see this thread. This is what SP is about. It was the reason it was founded, as I understand it. Thank you Barbie for doing this thread

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posted July 13, 2014 10:06 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for 12muddy     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
It's been so long, now my memories of the worst period of time in my life are a bit blurry. I've spent a lot of time analysing it, finding answers n whatnot. Now I write it off as the dark file, it doesn't quite trigger emotional responses anymore.

Moving away was good. But one of the best menories would be the one with my two best friends. A little ray of light in a dark tunnel.

Another one would be after I first talked to my s.o. We talked for more than 18 hhours straight n I was smitten. I lied in my bed n just felt my blood bubbling n rushing to my head. Ruler of the 7th in the 3rd lol.

"The beginning of young love", he said. "And it will never grow old".

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posted July 13, 2014 10:09 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for BellaFenice     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Darkest Time:

...Probably now if I am being honest with myself. There are a lot of uncertainties in my life right now and I've experienced multiple setbacks. It all started with the death of my grandmother and things have really snowballed since then. I want to think Pluto transits are rewarding, but really so far it has only caused me serious pain and has taken everything away from me. In some ways I feel very strong and in others, completely shattered. I feel very behind compared to my peers and keep thinking about the what ifs. I want to make numerous changes to myself and my life but the reality is that I don't have the money to do it. For the most part I am easy going, but I feel dissatisfied with being mediocre in some areas in my life. IDK, its kind of hard to describe because everything and nothing is happening.

Happiest Time:

It is a little bit of sad memory, but the happiest day was the last time I ever saw my grandmother. I used to go to her house every Friday night to have dinner- she would cook amazing fish which was great since my mom refused to cook it. More importantly, I would just sit and talk to her for hours. Despite being one of the most loving and selfless people I knew, living alone made her very lonely so she really relished the time that her family would come over. The last time I saw her I kind of sensed something wasn't right. For some reason I felt the need to stay longer than I normally did, and I am very fortunate to have done so. The last memory I have of her is waving goodbye and watching her on her porch. Little did I know as soon as I turned my head towards the direction towards my car that would be the last time I ever saw her smile. It was hard for me because I didn't get to say goodbye and one phone call simply stabbed me in my heart. For me I will always have the memory and hope one day I get to be that chatty little old lady sharing her life with the grandchildren.

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posted July 13, 2014 10:41 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for DeepFreeze     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Well Bella.... I know you're not looking for anything, just sharing and sorry if this is unwelcomed. I can't help it!
I don't know where you are in life and yadda yadda yadda. LOL

But, you know, just as an example. Back in.. oh... 2000 or 2001 I lost basically every friend that I had with something stupid.
Years later, I divorced and lost more friends.
A few months later lost my job. (before this job)
A year later we had this MASSIVE flood here and it got my house.
A year after that I filed bankruptcy and lost a bunch of stuff, and my credit.
The next year was the worst, craziest, just jealousy fueled abusive relationship I could imagine.
You can imagine year after year of just disaster I wondered what I ever did wrong in life. Well, I did something right actually. I don't know what!
In the end, each and every single one of those things has changed me for the better. Each one gave me something. It wasn't apparent at the time, or even a year or so later. Some of them are just now really paying off.
It's true though, each one, though a "tragedy" at the time, was just a huge blessing in disguise.
So just one day at a time, keep taking steps and who knows where life will lead you. Honestly, sometimes a person could swear that they could write a book on the different paths that life takes them.

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posted July 14, 2014 02:27 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Barbiegirl19     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Thank all of you guys who shared.

I really wish we talked more about the good and happy times here when we talked about the bad. Negative topics and issues only create drama and heated arguments. Imagine how wonderfully Sweet Peas would turn around if we did so.

Lexi you are so welcome. I wish you were here more often. We need more awesome people like you, who care here.

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posted July 14, 2014 03:39 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for YoursTrulyAlways     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Barbie,

I like my parenting role and it pleases me that I have done well raising children.

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posted July 14, 2014 05:31 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for teasel     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I'm still going through my darkest period since my childhood. It's been four/five years, and counting. I might be losing one of my two remaining dogs - she's been down and then up again, and had trouble walking today - the hits keep coming.

Happiest thing in the past month: my mother is doing much better. I've had a lot of happy times over the years, and it would be impossible to just list one. I am glad that I didn't lose my mother, though - we just have to get her back on her feet. I still worry.

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posted July 14, 2014 06:52 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for BellaFenice     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
No, DeepFreeze I appreciate it; put things into perspective. That being said, now I feel like an a-hole because I haven't been through that total level of destruction.

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posted July 14, 2014 07:17 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for DeepFreeze     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by BellaFenice:
No, DeepFreeze I appreciate it; put things into perspective. That being said, now I feel like an a-hole because I haven't been through that total level of destruction.

I think everyone has their own "destructions" that they face whether clearly visible or not. No one's worse than the other necessarily. Just a matter of perspective.
No one should ever judge you based on what you've had to face and go through? Agree?
Each faces their own karma, their own lessons to be learned.
Two people may lose a cat. One may cry and obsess for weeks. Another may just go get another cat. lol

If any of that makes sense.
I tend to do well with big things. It's the small tragedies in numbers that REALLY get me. One summer I had three rock chips in my windshield. Another summer I had two that required replacement.
Both times I was ready to set the ******* world on fire.

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posted July 14, 2014 07:32 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for DeepFreeze     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by teasel:
I'm still going through my darkest period since my childhood. It's been four/five years, and counting. I might be losing one of my two remaining dogs - she's been down and then up again, and had trouble walking today - the hits keep coming.

Happiest thing in the past month: my mother is doing much better. I've had a lot of happy times over the years, and it would be impossible to just list one. I am glad that I didn't lose my mother, though - we just have to get her back on her feet. I still worry.


You should keep us updated! Is there a hearth and home thread for you?
Stay positive especially since you say that there is no shortage of things positive.

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posted July 14, 2014 08:00 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for BellaFenice     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
quote:
Originally posted by DeepFreeze:
I think everyone has their own "destructions" that they face whether clearly visible or not. No one's worse than the other necessarily. Just a matter of perspective.
No one should ever judge you based on what you've had to face and go through? Agree?
Each faces their own karma, their own lessons to be learned.
Two people may lose a cat. One may cry and obsess for weeks. Another may just go get another cat. lol

If any of that makes sense.
I tend to do well with big things. It's the small tragedies in numbers that REALLY get me. One summer I had three rock chips in my windshield. Another summer I had two that required replacement.
Both times I was ready to set the ******* world on fire.


Very good points. That reminds of last night when my apartment parking lot was full and even though I normally park under the covered spots I didn't think it was too big of a deal to take a spot out in the open.

So what happened last night? A dust storm. ONE day after I cleaned my car. I was ready to set the ******* world on fire.

Teasel did have a thread but T got it locked. I'm actually impressed she got 6 threads locked in less than a week*

*No shade T, I like you and the fact you always keep it real.

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posted July 14, 2014 08:27 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ami Anne     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
That is cute, Bella

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I just wrote out a really long and in-depth story about the worst time of my life but I accidentally deleted it, damn smartphones! So I will summarize the worst part of my life. During my junior year of high school (worst part of my life):
1. Menopause hit my mom hard and she went bat **** crazy for awhile

2.My dad was sentenced to 15 years in prison

3. My favorite uncle died (cancer). This event made my mom's craziness worse. It was to the point where my family wanted her put in a nut house

4. And a lot of other smaller stuff

That was by far the worst time of my life. As I said I originally wrote out a longer post but it got deleted and I don't feel like writing it out again.

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Another dark period of my life was when my parents marriage fell apart. We had moved to Atlanta ,Georgia and my mom learned that my dad was cheating on her (again). By that point she was beyond fed up and decided she wanted a divorce...she loved my dad and was heartbroken but couldn't take the drugs and womanizing anymore. At that same time my brother was in shriners hospital in downtown atlanta, he almost died.around the Christmas of '98 after my brother got out of the hospital we moved back to our hometown and we started life over as a single parent family. From that point on things were very rocky... Saying we struggled financially would be putting it lightly. One time we were without power in the middle of a bitterly cold winter and another time we got kicked out of the house we were renting by our dickhead landlord and we would have been homeless had it not been for the kindness of a sweet little old lady who let us live in a little farmhouse on her property for next to nothing.

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posted July 15, 2014 05:16 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for sugarflapjacks     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Thanks for this thread, Barbiegirl19. Power of love and the human spirit.

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posted July 15, 2014 07:37 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ami Anne     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by sugarflapjacks:
Thanks for this thread, Barbiegirl19. Power of love and the human spirit.


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posted July 15, 2014 10:58 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for charmainec     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
To all those who have lost, struggled, battled and endured.

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posted July 15, 2014 11:18 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for DeepFreeze     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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I'm curious....
Does this show up in your chart?

Your IC and anything else....

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