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Randall
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posted June 16, 2020 10:33 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Randall     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Good definition of stalking (unwanted contact).

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posted August 09, 2020 05:02 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Stawr     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
The only contacting me once a week thing is going alright.
But I mean obviously my life does not revolve around talking on the phone to people.

But yo I am comfortable saying that even once a week is too much for me sometimes. If I can't talk I do what I can to respectfully tell her.
I assume she knows I mean it when I say don't call me now???
She missed a week when my phone fell in the lake. I could text her on my ipad that I can't talk because of that.

But to me it is still weird that there is such an expectation for me to talk to her on the phone once a week. The only other person I have felt obligated to keep that level of contact with is my late grandma.

I'm kind of at a place now where I am in the mentality of if I can talk to you this week, I will. If I can't talk to you this week I wont. And it's up to me to decide what defines the can and can't.

She called me when I was on the phone with my fiance yesterday.
She is in a place now where she doesn't keep telling calling me if I don't pick up. So I secretly congratulate her there.
But she will send me texts like these. "Can you talk for a bit now or later today? If not, we can talk later"
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I know it doesn't seem like much, but it kind of comes off as "HEGH, I demand answers, and YOU will TALGH to MEEEGH"
Like me not answering my phone should be enough of an answer that I can't talk. And basically expressing a demand that she knows when I talk to her. Like brah!, don't revolve your whole day around a phone call. I did not feel a need to get back to her later.
I do feel bad for blowing her off sometimes, but I know how she can get, and have to remind myself...and to help her get more comfortable lowering her expectations of me.
I know what it feels like to have friends blow me off, and it hurt my feeling pretty bad as teen but I am absolutely desensitized to this now and am not affected by it anymore, and know how to move on with my day. Since I have enough of my own stuff going on now.

Anyway, later sends me a text that she bought alcohol. I was doing a hair mask and figured okay I'll talk to her until my timer goes off. I had plans to see my mom later.

I can kind of tell in her tone lately that she is frustrated and feels a loss of sense of control, but that she knows better not to snap at me.

I know it took a lot of work for her to get to a place where she can only talk to me once a week, and when I need to do a rain check it might be really hard for her.
I am starting to feel like in her mind she thinks it's something about her personality that makes me want to talk less. But it's like uh no I want to talk less because it's not healthy or normal. (okay maybe a little bit her personality)

I consider someone a friend when I socialize with them outside of class, a party, or work.
Anyone I only socialize with outside of those settings is an acquaintance.
So knowing that friends can come and go I try to be attentive to anyone I consider a friend reaching out to me. Or get back to them as soon as possible. She can't handle that from me. She pretty much wants to be joined at the hip, that is not cute for me.

I usually talk to her for an hour on the phone this time it was under an hour. She was going on rant about her eczema journey, that is fine...I just had plans and my timer was about to go off and I know how difficult it can be to get off of the phone with her sometimes. So once I could get a word in I let her know hey my timer is about to go off, I got to get going.
And I established this when I started the conversation too. Like hey I can talk while I am doing my hair mask before I get in the shower.
Well I think she is attempting to have more self-awareness because she thought I wanted to get off the phone because she was talking about her self too much.
She chimes in with "HOW ARE YOU DOING!? What new with you?!"
And instead of me saying "what the hell? I just said I had to go." I quickly said "Good! Okay I gotta go good talking to you, talk to you later," and quickly hand up the phone.
I get texts while I am in the shower like "Sorry I went on about myself!" and all this how are you crap texts.

I did not feel like dancing around the issue, plus I could see she was attempting to be more self aware. So I told her she is fine and that I just have to go take a shower.

I get a response like "Oh I totally understand." (doesn't seem like it buddy, you stink of desperation) then I get "you are so always taking time for yourself"
That part seems kind of passive aggressive if you ask me. Like she is trying to make sense of why I don't pay so much attention to her anymore.
"hey I need to shower" "Ohhhhh laadeedaa it's all about you"
I mean yeah...she has lost the privilege of knowing so much of my business. She is probably fathoming why I have to get in the shower now, and not talk to her longer. Well oh well too bad. I want her to get comfortable with me going about my day with out owing her an explanation.
She sent me a few more things, but after that I was just done socializing with her for the rest of the week.

Oh guess what, Neptune has been in my 11th house for a while. It's going in and out of my 10th and 11th house this year.

Thanks for letting me update and vent, and get that off my chest.

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posted August 09, 2020 05:36 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Randall     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
You're welcome.

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posted August 13, 2020 09:59 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Stawr     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Future in laws
I was in suspense of why she called me. She has previously drove me up a wall with setting a date for my wedding. While I am finishing my last college semester.

And yes my fiance has to hear all about it every time this happens. If is damned if he takes my side, damned if he doesn't, and he's damned if he tried not to take a side. Poor guy.

I was worried that he told her that I expressed that she better not bother me about setting a date when I am setting up my classroom at the end of this month.

Once I brought my stress level down AGAIN. Is when she called me. So I was like no, not dealing with this right now, and hoped that she would just leave a message or voicemail. I just got a voicemail to call her back. Ugh....

So when I finally call her back the next day, it was just about me sitting their dog! Fiance's family use to excessively ask us to dog sit. But I was just so happy that she did not bring up the wedding that I said yes!
Then when she said if something comes up her neighbor can help out, or her daughter can. So I'm thinking WHY don't you just ask them to sit your dogs then???? Her daughter lives right down the next street from her, she is very responsible and successful, she definitely like dogs more than I do.
I live 15 minutes away. Not bad. But I so don't get why she wants me to do it so bad!
Her neighbor and daughter are also very trustworthy people too. wtf. and they both are dog owners them self. Why does she want someone more out of the way from her to go out of their way for her? Has it occurred to anyone that maybe I don't want to be busy? I'll stop, I've vented about this one enough.
At least I'll be done with college by then, but still I don't get what their deal is with wanting me to be a glorified baby sitter for all their pets over anyone else.
This is part of why I have become bitter about being a trust worthy person. Everyone wants you to watch their pets, I don't care if I get paid, I already have a job. Why is no one okay with me having free time or having more on my plate?

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posted August 27, 2020 08:51 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Stawr     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote

Fiance's sister is overall so unfriendly to me most of the time. And I feel like if it wasn't for his mom she would be way worse. I've had enough. I am on the verge of telling her off.

It's confusing.

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posted August 27, 2020 11:09 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for ballerina     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Awwww, Stawr

You are so very good! Is there really
free wi11? I think you'll agree that
our choice is very simple!? Consequences!
I found myself being resentful of how
much people were asking of me...and that
made me stop and think and release lol I mean realize, but it fits, giggles,that
I had some responsibility in it also..
I would act as if it didn't bother me,
and I was glad to do it...
I've learned how to say NO..in a nice way!
I just don't won't to be resentful, or
deal with negative emotions...

You are a beautiful and kind...
..and I know you'll figure this out!

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posted August 29, 2020 12:18 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Stawr     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
quote:
Originally posted by ballerina:
Awwww, Stawr

You are so very good! Is there really
free wi11? I think you'll agree that
our choice is very simple!? Consequences!
I found myself being resentful of how
much people were asking of me...and that
made me stop and think and release lol I mean realize, but it fits, giggles,that
I had some responsibility in it also..
I would act as if it didn't bother me,
and I was glad to do it...
I've learned how to say NO..in a nice way!
I just don't won't to be resentful, or
deal with negative emotions...

You are a beautiful and kind...
..and I know you'll figure this out!


Hi ballerina,
Yes...I am trying to work on having better boundaries with them. I feel like when I started college and teaching, they started to get too demanding for me.
Plus my fiance didn't understand it well when I said I would rather stay home on the weekends than go over there and dog sit. He didn't get it until he got his "big boy" job.

I seriously need my space from them for a while. They don't take everything I have to do seriously, and they just kind of add stress to my life. Not because they are bad people, they just lack self awareness. And yes it is getting in resentful territory. I am sick of being treated like a glorified baby sitter.
For other examples the mom has demonstrated lack of respect for my boundaries on other related things where I had to tell her no like 8 times. She bosses her 3 kids around a lot. And I do not have that kind of relationship with my parents. lol

But yeah with his older sister...we really don't have great chemistry. I have taken into account her weird behavior towards me at times. I don't make a scene with how she acts, or complain much to my fiance very often. Because what is that really going to accomplish? But what I was really doing was bottling up how shi++y her personality is. It just took one off handed comment a few days ago...and my bottle was out of room. (Plus I was pmsing) I might of lifted my hands up a little and made a wtf face.
Lately I just kind of gesture and make a wtf face. But no one calls her out.
My fiance has high functioning Asperger's, so I believe he is genuinely oblivious towards it.
I will sometimes tell him things, and it will make him upset that I was talked to that way.
Though I didn't go off on her....I finally spilled everything to my fiance.
I was holding back on telling him a lot for so long. But it's to the point where I realize what an issue it is, and how I am finally to the point where I am just done with her nasty attitude, and should be able to be more open with fiance about it since he is my life partner after all. And I think this will help him be more self aware too, and it might be better if he has better awareness to stick up for me and shut it down, and not feel like I am alone in sticking up for myself however I end up doing so.

Ugh my mom being the lady Ned Flanders that she is. Was telling me to think positive. But that is exactly the problem. Trying to stay positive for me is ignoring the problem...until it blows up.

I am finally expressing how offended I am, and then I can move forward with this is how this person is. It doesn't need to affect me anymore. Or at least deal with it better, in some other way.

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posted September 01, 2020 12:39 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for ballerina     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Stawr

Getting it out in the open is a good
direction to go in, leading to setting
boundaries, and finally getting that
"time" for you...
Thank you for sharing, in doing so, I
looked up Asperger's, because I really
didn't know much about it..I think it
relates a lot to my daughter, in all
these years she has not really been
diagnosed.
You certainly have a lot on your plate!
A11 we can do, is to undertake to do
a11 with LOVE!

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posted September 01, 2020 12:49 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Randall     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Ned Flanders? I feel that.

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posted November 19, 2020 03:17 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for MoonMystic     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
(Spoiler - pretty emotional)

Feeling such a loss. So far (hopefully only) only our long time neighbors. This time last year she fell down a flight of stairs and had do much to recover from that. They are older. He went to be by her side so much before and during the pandemic and the rigid rules hit. They were separated by acrylic. Sterile. No embrace. She must have been terribly sad.
She didn't have her little village, us either, neighbors who knew them 12+ yrs. In that process they quietly, once she was released, moved. Due to the new rules and his serious concern for her, they didn't come Back, to remain in touch. One neighbor thought they would wait for this c19 to come to end but it hasn't. Tonight my sadness for them hit me hard. I think because once upon a time in our little area, I was thankful for them (Thanksgiving coming up) each T.day.
Here we are still here, what if we are never to see them again? We still have our bunnies too. She loved feeding these cute wild critters. She kept a nice flower garden on the patio in her entry. He was a good guy who would wave or talk , he even offered to accompany me on walks. I'm happy she got out of the sterile place that septated them - now I hope they have healthy- peaceful and loving times in each others radius.
for them.

I hate being a fixed sign. We get too attached.
So this couple had hard times over the years, my hubby+I were ones they reached out to when those times happened. We really felt a bond. We didn't know their kids as they never showed up until the place was empty for cleaning. Due to the distancing rules we didn't get much closure.

Just needed to get that out. Crying like a baby ..

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posted December 15, 2020 09:25 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Stawr     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I am so sorry to hear that MoonMystic
Good neighbors are a blessing.

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posted December 15, 2020 10:05 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Stawr     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Not sure if this is really a vent, but I have come into a new era regarding my social life.

Oh my gosh, I loved Uranus in my 11th house. I think 25 degrees Aries is where my 12th house begins. That's when I changed and felt less up for socializing. Secretly happy when plans got canceled and such.

Plus my Saturn return was beginning. I started teaching, I started my bachelors program so in my free time, I just wanted to spend it with my damn self.

I have seen the boundaries theme with friend's play out over the years.

With Saturn return and Uranus in my 12th house. I have craved solitude and have experienced guilt for social distancing working to my advantage.

I could not be happier about Neptune leaving my 10th house. It looks like Neptune will be in my 11th house for good now. Thinking about how burned out I am in so many areas of life, and how I feel like I am not the same person anymore in a way...
Well my Saturn return will be over in 2 days. So maybe I will crave social stimuli like I did and be so hype for it and in my element. What does my ideal social life look like now? Will I seek out more Neptunian people?
Plus I am in my 30's now, plus Neptune in 11th I wonder how that will play out.

One of my other Gemini rising friend's is into yoga and chakras now. I did not see that coming but it's great that I can talk to him about that now.

Right now I am really just make time for a few people on occasion while being in a pandemic.

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posted December 19, 2020 01:42 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Voix_de_la_Mer     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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posted June 04, 2021 06:02 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Stawr     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I understand that there are certain parties that people can decide at the last minute if they actually feel like going. But then there are others where that is totally not okay!
Like anything wedding related!

Part of this Mercury rx is showing me any tech flaws.
I did my invitations through Evite. The Evite even said rsvp by May 15th. Because it's a Spa Party. To get staff to work my party, and for them to get supplies.

The stupid Evite alerts everyone today about my party. No one just wants to say "no" on an Evite. Even people who have legit reasons not to come do not want to rsvp no on an evite. Like my out of state cousin. So then everyone including people who have not RSVPed get a text alert for the party. Made future sister in law finally put "no."


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posted July 14, 2021 02:29 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Stawr     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I've come to the conclusion that my husbands older sister is jealous of me. The red flags have been there. But she is very careful about it because everyone else in the family likes me well.

Another thing I feel like the men in my husband's family are completely oblivious, or choose to look the other way.

1. My husband has Asperger's so he is sort of off the hook for not picking up on it. But I do let him know that it sucks when someone is rude to me and everyone just acts like nothing happened especially when it's him...to help him see my point of view.
2. Sister in laws husband who I will call P...I wonder, he is always nice to me and easy to talk to...but I mean it is sort of unrealistic to expect him to shut his own wife down especially by someone she acts so threatened by.
3. THEIR DAD what's his excuse?....MY DAD would tell me if I was being mean to another girl. HE HAS. Like does he really not pick up on his own daughters social cues? Can he not tell when his daughter does not like another girl in "their turf." Because my dad can!! One time I was telling my dad about how there was this new girl hanging around with my guy group, and I talked about how she could burp louder than me. And then my dad jokingly said "that 8!+(h"
But then my dad has a Cancer Moon. And my husband and his dad have Gemini Moon.
Water moons can have that, it's an advantage but it doesn't always feel like it.
But then maybe as a guy he feels like staying out of it. Husbands dad is a nice guy...but it's like gee how can I expect my husband to stand up for me to disrespect towards me, when his dad doesn't. (BTW his parents are not together)

But anywho I notice that she will up the disrespect when we are with their dad. AND not their mom. They are scared of her being disappointed in them.

Some red flags
-One time I went out to eat with them and their dad. They were talking about a bunch of stuff I couldn't relate to like college football and democrat stuff. It didn't bother me, I don't always to be the center of attention. It's okay to listen once in a while. But P being the caring/compassionate type he is when there was a pause asked what what new with me. When he did that I saw sister in law put her head back and rolled her eyes.

My husband of course did not notice it. But everyone else, I wonder. And it took me like 3 years to bring it up to him.

But yes...stuff like that over time has had me like "WTF was that?? Did I do something!? That was weird, did anyone think that was weird? No I guess not."

-Around their mom's side. Aunt ask what's new with me I tell her I got a raise. Everyone acts all yay that's great to hear. Sister in law chimes in about how she got a raise one time.
The delivery of it....was just cringe. It seemed desperate. Kind of like 'hey don't forget about me. I'm still here. It didn't even make me mad...I was sort of embarrassed for her.
And that's when I noticed she felt competitive with me.
And just that she feels that if I am shinning then she isn't....that is not good! Because then you can never be happy for that person.
But then I am like how can a grown woman feel so threatened by another person coming into the family? Like if she really thinks her family will love her less because of me...that is crazy and very sad.

From those observations I brought up. She is bothered when I get attention...

She get me nice gifts, let me borrow some of her wedding stuff but acts like she can't stand doing while she is doing it.

So you can only imagine how happy she behaved at my engagement party. She was rude to my sister too doesn't like my sister shinning either.

My bridal shower she didn't even talk to me. Even when I said hi to her, and thanks for coming basic shower small talk. It was outdoors but she was smart to wear sunglasses to hide her jealous eyes.

She was rude to me during my rehearsal too. I was with my sister, and matron of honor. AND MY FAMILY KNOWS WHAT'S UP. Right after that interaction they were like "wow she definitely doesn't like you, that was rude, why would she do that to a bride?"
I knew she had issues. I do my best to put my differences aside with her and be respectful. While it sucked to know that she is willing to disrespect me at my wedding rehearsal.
At least I know that's how ugly her insides are.

So basically I'm just at a place of acknowledgement like "She doesn't like me shinning and having any attention or being around her family, or succeeding. Where do I go from here?"

Too friggin bad, she does have a good life on paper. Too bad it is not enough, or what she needs to feel comfortable in her own self worth.

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This is just part of marriage in my experience!

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posted July 14, 2021 01:37 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Stawr     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
This is just part of marriage in my experience!


Thank you Ami! I really think you are right! It's hard to realize that it is pretty normal to not vibe/get along with everyone.

As a kid, I never picked up on any of that stuff my mom had experienced with not vibing with women on my dads side. I could not pick up on any of it until I was in my mid 20's. Or if they gossiped later.

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Our upstairs neighbors offered us their like-new dishwasher as they moved out of the building. Previously, our flat had been split over getting one (stalling). there’s six of us here, some of us wanting it to aid in cleanliness and order, two others vehemently against it for absurd reasons like “it gives bad vibes” “no one will empty it” (??), not wanting to deal with pick-up. yet in the end, a machine just arrived on our doorstep to take without much effort. For free! Was decided for us. Hallelujah.

Before officially bringing it into the house, we first double-checked with these two if it would be ok, especially my friend; I walked over to his room, told him upfront what was being offered to us—he laughed at our concern over him and said Sure no problem.

We’ve installed it, the kitchen counters and dishes haven’t been clearer and cleaner ever since! So much open counter-space, the kitchen looks like a showroom now!

My roommate, and closest friend, is refusing to use it, prefers washing his dishes and leaving them out to dry. He returned home at midnight from a weekend getaway and the first thing he did was reject the change, looking for the old dish rack in an already spotless kitchen. Not even a “hello, how are you?” Pure reacting to our home after giving the go-ahead.

I understand we all have our preferences, and I want to respect his, but the issue is, he doesnt wash his dishes properly, they’re drying dirty half the time! His reaction to the dishwasher is petty. I find this behavior by him to be anti-social (a dishwasher is almost a symbol of collectivity, taking care together), and lost trust in his attitude/perspective as a person. Because he’s one of my oldest friends, it’s been sad for me to recognize this side of him...

I won’t mention my personal opinion to him because he's entitled to his choices, but what I do instead is return his still-dirty dishes back into the sink to wash a second time. He asked me about them yesterday, why was the object he just washed back in the sink, and I said, it’s still dirty. And he had to examine it and see that yes, indeed it was. And he sat there for five minutes trying to get sticky lemon pulp off.


Again, it’s fine you want to wash your dishes by hand, but now this ‘change’ only becomes about YOU actually washing them! Which is the reason we have a dishwasher now!! To not notice/antagonize the ongoing problem ~ quality becomes neutralized and effort-less.

I manage to run and empty the dishwasher each night and morning, because it’s still new to the space and I prefer cleanliness so it’s my duty to maintain my own expectation, at best lead in example. This interaction just leaves me wishing in general that I personally knew more selfless, disciplined people. I feel like many wear a socio-political mask, community is only theory to them—they like the idea, it’s relativity, but the actual and practical responsibility triggers the ego, an ego that then has a lot to say-about stuff instead, as-if by saying-so represents “discourse” and contributing collectivity. Stfu!

It’s f*cking weird he adamantly rejects the dishwasher. He’s an Aquarius, which makes this anti-social behavior and self-delusion nature obvious to me. A man who can convince himself, base his identity as a part of a larger community and yet behaves like this as an individual?? Please. He’s the only one with a problem with it—the other men are a Capricorn and Virgo, and us women are 0°Pisces (me), an Aquarius and Virgo. Not to mention hand washing dishes wastes more water compared to the machines eco-recycling function, I swear if he mentions Germany’s local drought to me ever again.

Virgo Female was the one to speak wearily "no one would empty it" (as if the dishrack is better) because in her virgo imagination she prob already convinces herself no one else helps as much or does things efficiently, our constantly-full dishrack was proof, of our failure. I tried to reassure her that the difference between these is a dishwasher will also dry the stuff, reducing waiting and turn-over time. We will empty it because we will want to use it—we don’t want to wash every dish. I was raised by two Virgos, I'm used to some ridiculous claims, appeasing their concerns. When it came down to it, I wasn’t worried about her, knowing she’d turn happy/relieved once she saw with her own eyes the difference.
On the other hand, Aquarius Male was the one to say, "dishwashers have bad vibes". Projecting his waywardness onto inanimate objects, then playing it out. Oh FFS people, pls, get out of character for once!

I live by the principle, in-person if you have nothing nice or constructive to say, don’t say anything at all. Think it all you want (to observe), but don’t enact it. So am thankful for this thread, to vent.

I do believe he’ll get better at washing his own dishes, but to be frank, it seems that he chooses this only so he won’t ever have to commit to unloading dishes as a group. There's so many of us here tthat I don't even understand the concern. Can claim he doesn’t use the machine so it’s not his responsibility. Looking out for only himself, and I suppose, on a mental plane, to avail his conscience. This mentality shows me a contradiction underlying his larger-than-life humanisticly-generic-quasi-working-class world view. Imo, it’s also a subtle form of disrespect.


To be honest, I removed the two-tiered counter dishrack on purpose: I knew if it stayed, even with the new dishwasher, it would become a crutch, and we need to adjust to having a smarter machine. The dishrack is hiding in my room lol. There’s still a flat portion of our sink explicitly meant for drying stuff, but those dishes won’t be able to stay for long because of its size.

Should I mention my IC is Virgo? 😋


In other news... my other roommate, a spiritual guy, has a few demons... literally. We talked about that today and my entire body went off flooding my system: instant muscles cramping, dizziness and headache. Had to cut him short and tell him ‘this’ is pretty flipping serious. He started smiling. 😬 It was f*cked up to eventually talk to the demon itself, basically, trying to manipulate me energetically as if I don’t freaking know what’s up... tried to offer me a glass of water, as if I’m dumb enough to drink anything in the midst of this difficult conversation. (Higher self immediately told me “Don’t drink it”) Rebuke it all. By time it entered the space, I couldn’t even look at him anymore, I stared at the wall, automatically crossing all my limbs and continued the conversation, asking about his relationship to him. That it’s a shame he’s allowing this entity take advantage of his godgiven power.... At some point it asked me to look at him! “Look at me.” What the hell. I could write more about this interaction but the only thing that matters is I could handle it, gratefully, and also afterwards, after taking a spiritual bath, let my mom know what’s going on with this particular trying soul for additional protection and to pray.

Funny enough, last night I had a dream that he went into my bedroom without permission (which is not something I would ever care about IRL). The following day, today, this conversation happened.

My roommate isn’t dangerous, yet is struggling with this looming issue. Is managing with medication for schizophrenia, which he isn’t happy to be chemically dependent today, but knows it’s helping him in the meantime.

He’s been going through an 8H Ketu Dasha period, so sure as hell he’s vulnerable/susceptible to possession.

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I do not blame you for the dishwasher!

My first apartment did not have one. My now husband and I would fight about dishes a lot. Then he got us a portable dishwasher. It saved our relationship! LOL I hate the sensory of feeling wet and dry at the same time.

As soon as my parents informed me it was expectation to wash my own dishes I always grabbed the paper plates.

I've had a real dishwasher since May...I know that feeling too of my kitchen being easy to clean and look clean everyday.

I will confess I started using paper plates cause husband is out of state just to have that much time to do something else.

I just can't believe someone would prefer washing them by hand.

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posted September 08, 2021 02:37 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Stawr     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Uranus oppose Moon is having me not tolerate my mom gaslighting

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posted September 08, 2021 09:21 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Stawr     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I feel so sad saying this. But that is what venting is for.

Late summer weddings are so awful for me to go to as a teacher. I want to be happy for them I am.

The last wedding I went to I am so glad it's done. The bridal shower of wondering if I have to sit next to someone that I don't like. I was on day 3 of my period when I went to their bridal shower and it's an hour away from where I live.

Same with the wedding. I lost a whole weekend of getting teacher work done that I would typically have. It just sucks having this point of view for someone I want to be happy for.

It sucked going to my cousins wedding when I first started teaching too, 4 years ago.

As someone who just got married I know how devastating it can be to find out someone feels that way about your wedding. So that's why I am letting it out here.

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It's that venting time of year.

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posted December 19, 2021 04:35 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Stawr     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
^haha!

My in laws....my mother in law is super demanding...and right now my coping mechanism is to ignore her and shut down. I cannot with these boomers thinking it's okay to helicopter 30 year old's. Upset that I did not give her an immediate response. Acting like I can just tell her "no" and she will respect me....past experiences tell me otherwise...

Then I get told not to hurt my husband's feelings. Yep that's right mom, everyone's feeling matter more than mine. I've been taught that pretty much my whole life and that's why I have social problems. lol

The Venus conjunct Pluto going on in the whole world predicted family drama.

Plus Uranus is exactly conjunct my Mercury.

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Next time my condo gets abruptly sprayed...I need to stay at a hotel. Because I am struggling to not be an arsehole to my mom and dad.

Because I need to see my mom in smaller doses. She's a double Leo who wants to chat and engage more than everyone else in the family. I try to be polite and hope she will eventually stop talking to me...but then she keeps starting back up again. Like if I am watching something on TV...that means I don't want to talk. If I am sitting with my laptop that means I don't want to talk. If I am on the phone with my husband that means I don't want to talk to you.

I hate when people can't take a hint that I need my space and then I snap. But then it's kind of a natural primal reaction. I don't like how I handled myself today in the heat of the moment. So I just have to prevent situation like this from happening again and just stay in a hotel.

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I have been thinking about family & our different perspective view on things. & about what I do for family & myself. & finding a balance. & try not to focus on our personalities but principles it helps with the drama. & about my view on things life is a adventure it helps me with awareness about what matters. I chat on my channel & it helps to get a different view on family

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