posted August 29, 2020 01:32 PM            

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In the Vedic astrology forum at LL,
MoonMystic started a topic, Aug 1, 2020, 2:47 a.m.
Dodecatemoria / Dvadashamsha
- http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum38/HTML/000306.html

I made a response to her thread.
See my post Aug 1, at 12:45 p.m.
Scroll through.
I left notes to a LECTURE video
made by Michael Reed and KRS.
Skim the notes, and Listen to the youtube video.

They are talking about Vedic 12th house placements.
Your Jupiter, {Uranus}, and SUN are in Vedic Capricorn.
{Uranus is in brackets, because some branches of astrology omit the planets beyond Saturn, if they are purists.}

That thread talks about Ancestors!!!
I happened to see you talking about your ancestors in another asteroid thread here, by MoonMystic.

I KNOW that you are a brilliant woman.
Anyone who is pursuing TWO degrees in Finance AND International Economics, would have the intelligence to understand (in general) what those astrologers are saying. You don't need the math. Listen with 'the story' in mind, and the options you have in choices to make.

Plus, they mention cultural mythology that you might already have a broad familiarity with.

YOU were born here, in the 'early prescribed' setting you had AS a child, FOR a Reason. You had NO control then. You had no control over what happened.

The better-news is.. that you now Do have more control than you ever had!

Something that impressed me VERY much though, is that your Father was able to 'realize' what happened to you!!!! HE didn't 'know'... He didn't REALIZE how sensitive you are, and how beautiful you ARE inside. He APOLOGIZED to you, over what happened, and he is making restitution to you, supporting you while you are with your other relatives being Cared for.

RECEIVE that apology...
YOU have a CHANCE to Change your Life.
GRAB ONTO it... and Go for it.
You HAVE people Supporting you.
You have a Team.
Everyone is behind you to be successful.
Now... YOU must add YOUR strength TO that wish, and your Chances.
YOU decide on the DEEPEST part of you.
No one else has access to that place, but YOU.
'Decide' .. you are going Forward, no matter what kinds of nervous feelings you have about your Future.
It's OKAY to feel nervous .. that's natural.
See it as 'excitement'!! LOL

Your Future is ~~WOW~~~!!!!

In 12th House? .. You might have been born in order to resolve some of your ancestor's problems. AND, Aqua.. They GIVE you Good Gifts. You have Talents that have been Passed down to you, FROM them.

YOU have the ability to Rise Above.
You like it when people are proud of you?
The ones who have passed on, for 7 Past Generations, have seen what you went through.

They are a 'Cloud of Witnesses' in the etheric realms.
Their souls exist but in a different plane of manifestation.
They are ALSO very PROUD of you!!!!
You were Born here with a Purpose to fulfill.

That Purpose .. is GOOD.
You are still young when you think of an ENTIRE lifetime.

YOU Can Do This!!!! :thumbup:
You are in the preparatory state of becoming 'independent'. You have advanced knowledge of Finances. And, if you got into an 'honest' financial jam or hiccup, I'm certain your relations would help. When you're first getting started in life, before you get the experience you need on how to organize yourself, it's almost to be expected that you'd have a couple bumps along the way. .. No problem, when your honest and are doing your diligence.

We make Mistakes!!-- That's how we Grow! *heart*

Much Love,

And, remember this song...
Hold it in your Heart.

posted August 29, 2020 04:51 PM            

I wonder what does that mean?
And thank you Mirage. Do you happen to be psychic? I am astounded by how you knew I had unfinish business in my psyche (that was exactly what I told my psychiatrist on Thursday) and that I am/have been trying to search for something in the past that I can use in my future.

I feel so transparent before you. I told my psychiatrist exactly that I believe my depression now, which occurred without trigger was because as i have been distracting myself with work, school and catching up, I somehow managed to *escape* myself, but the unresolved issues remained. So during the quarantine for Covid-19, where the entire world slowed so (so I had at least 80% of my workload cut for me) I had no choice but to face myself so all of my past(wrong word?) demons surfaced. They have been lurking beneath the surface, waiting for me to deal with them and now was the time. Hence I told my psychiatrist I believe my "depression" now and everything that I am going through is a matter of *tying* up those loose threads from my past so that I can move on for good from now onwards. It is so that I can really *let go*

Even my suicidal thoughts, it is not from my anti depressants. I do think of suicide, but I do not plan it nor think I deserve it. It is different from the past. The me now, my feelings and thoughts feel like the me then? Like I am living the portion of my past I should have lived but chose to not live and be focused elsewhere but it is inescapable. I have to pay my dues. Hence I am living/paying it *now* when there is more time.

Mirage, I don't know what to say to you. You give me so much encouragement and always type such long messages to me, and genuinely care about me. Thank you so much. I never knew it was possible to feel this way over the internet. (I know I seem to be putting you on a pedestal again but YOU DESERVE IT. I have met so many bad people in my life but somehow still managed to feel grateful for the lesson they taught me. I am just that kind of person)

I am glad that Saturn is transiting to my 12th house soon So I can be more grounded in tying up my *loose threads*
Is it just me? Or is this just how the universe works? Why do I feel that the universe or everything, god is helping me, aligning the stars for me so I can do/perform what needs to be done/for my development? Like exactly what I needed is exactly where my stars are aligning?

Or am I just a special snowflake? Haha

I don't want to die Mirage. And I know I am not going to die or commit suicide. I just escaped from my past, and I believe now is to deal with it. Hence I feel all of these.
Perhaps the past me knew I needed to be stronger, older in order to deal with these complicated emotions. And I don't want to let her down.

I want to be able to grasp a future, unimaginable by her. So bright.
And I want her to tell me "I am glad I didn't jump off this ledge. Thank you"

And I'd thank her for enduring.
For we have come this far...

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Btw I always thought the *12* house was a bad house. Of hidden enemies or Karma.
I will read more into the link you gave me later. I just really wanted to reply you first now.

posted August 29, 2020 04:57 PM            

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Originally posted by MoonMystic:
Mirage 💓💓💓

I'm operating on low sleep these days. 2 hours maybe 2x per day/night.So my attention has been a bit more limited or spread. My apologies .. I'm going to read this wonderful info you shared soon as possible. THANK YOU. : >:❤:< :

Much love to both of you AQUACap88 and Mirage .. 🌸⚘⭐

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Much love to you too! Make sure to get plenty of rest. No worries, we will always be here waiting for your response so please don't spread yourself too thin!

posted August 29, 2020 05:09 PM            

But this is my chart: http://imgur.com/a/qAKCepc

(I don't have a 12th house? So no Karmic DNA coded into me!?)

Natal + Chart http://imgur.com/a/qAKCepc

I will continue to try and interpret/decipher it by myself but please let me know if you spot anything or what I should look at?

posted August 31, 2020 07:45 PM            

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Originally posted by Randall:
Good luck!

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Thank you so much for your constant encouragement Randall.

posted September 01, 2020 07:39 PM            

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Randall.. She was talking about thought-communications within aspects of her INNER Self. Her present-self, speaking to and about her past-self. ... Really, I had tears in my eyes watching Aqua unfold.

That's a LOT of hard work you've shared, Aqua. So Beautiful. You are honest and brave.
*hug*

posted September 03, 2020 10:39 AM            

Just stopping by quickly.
You know I live in a place that hurts my body. I have no control over outside environmental issues. I live on a tiny government check and almost all that money goes TO pay medical insurances. Right now, I have no income-stream so I'm stuck here. Not able to relocate for various reasons.
I apologize for not showing up sometimes---- but it can't be helped.
{I'm here today because I don't like TOO much time to go by-- but I'm writing words through MUCH interference, and I hope it comes out well. Apologies if it doesn't.}

I'm glad your life is moving forward.
You went to those banks while transiting Jupiter was on your Mercury-Banks conjunction! haha

Your chart would also support you seeking additional education at this time. Transiting Jupiter on your 11th House Mercury is GOOD for long-term plans, and making careful selections.

Saturn in the 12th is known also to be good for increasing your education.. maybe side-classes, if you have to work more full-time?

The Arts are important ... especially to you.

Maybe your ability to talk so frankly and genuinely on internet with me, might be because you also have inside you the ability to communicate like this. Not everyone can. You are really 'real' .. genuine, and it shows itself.

Being older, I have a LOT of life-experience. haha, you call me psychic?.. eh, part of that IS my Experience in life, and maybe an ability to have empathy and compassion. And yes, I have genuine Love for people, and am an encourager and believer in human potential. If you are working on being your better self, then, I'm a good person to have on your team!

Now.... You know you're going to have good days, and days when you're not in that 'good' spot.

You need to have a "default" plan in your head.
Some POSITIVE self-talk statements that you put your WHOLE mind TO. Whether you believe it or not?, you on-purpose THINK WELL, and say to self that WELLNESS is the TRUTH.

I thought it was interesting that with the lowered amount of work-load, that you suddenly 'found' your feelings. GOOD GOOD GOOD!!!!!

I know. It didn't 'feel' all happy and rosy to feel your feelings?.. but you NEED to.

You had been trained in Music.
Music is a way to pour OUT and FEEL feelings. Can even by-pass words. Just pour out pathos from your Heart.

Keep CARE of your Heart, your Soul, your feelings.

I like how you are able to identify your now-self, and minister to your past-self, and TOGETHER look FORWARD. That now-self, IS core. The past is passed. Your feelings from that are 'residual' and WILL process, and you CAN feel much much better. There can be little glitches from time to time?, but remember this saying: "This TOO shall pass."

You feel a period of sadness??
"This TOO shall pass"

It is Right not to act on destructive thoughts, and senses. It's ENERGY. You have that marvelous Saturn opp Mars. THAT can be a blessing actually. It's all on HOW you want to Direct, re-direct, re-frame your 'thoughts'-- which are like a rudder for energy flow. Energy flows are made RICH by Emotions. E-motion. Energy-in-motion.

Energy is GOOD. VERY Good.
Sometimes you have to put some resistance to focus it in the direction you want it to GO in.
Sometimes... you'll have lows. And that's okay. It's part of Life. Dip your toe in it, and where possible, don't wallow in an extended stay.
Sometimes... you MUST face some lows.
.. Let it process. It's okay.

Your chart says you have talent for the Arts.

I hope you'll USE that part of you.
It is NEEDED for a Balanced Life.

Your Intelligence is Wonderful...
Your Heart is Precious.

posted September 03, 2020 11:10 PM            

I have good news I am so excited about! I just had a phone interview and it went well. She offered me a zoom interview (because social distancing) with her boss on 18th Sept and I hope it goes well!! 🥳🥳
It is a pretty important role in a bank, global treasury and I am so excited!

You have been mentioning arts... and yes arts was a *huge* part of me which I didn't pursue. It was my first greatest life decision. I used to draw and paint a lot, my parents and grandparents invested few thousands per month for my art classes and I won a lot of competitions. I got scouted for the first art school in my country when I was 11 to join their school at 13 (secondary school) and I happily accepted :')
However at 12, I decided that there was no viable future in art for me so I rejected their offer and went onto the academic path. That decision was soul shattering on so many levels because painting was everything I knew, everything that I am and everything I did. It was also my coping mechanism. From everything. Fights between my parents, my father and others. Whatever I felt, I expressed it on a canvas. After rejecting the offer, I couldn't hold a brush for another 3 years and till now I can't paint or draw as well as I used to, like some sort of a mental block. It still hurts thinking about it, because it was truly everything to me and I was so, so so talented. I was holding art exhibitions overseas and winning competitions earning me 30k pounds etc
My parents were even arguing over how to spend the money I earned from my "art". Younger me didn't understand anything and just wanted to paint. The more frustrated I felt, the more I expressed it and harder I painted until it became "abstract" which earned me more love and "recognition". I even appeared on the news! I miss it so much..

But I have lost the skill.
Even if I hadn't, that mental block still exists. I feel all these *lost potential* in me. So frustrated. "What could have been."
But I know I made the right choice. I only wish I didn't have to make it so young, and to break myself like that so young, for what is *logical*.
But it is what I had to do then and it remains right even till this date.
So I will not, shall not and do not regret anything.
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END OF SHARING
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Will I not excel in finance? 😭 Working in a bank? 😭
Should I follow my 12th house placement of public service? What is right?
Regardless I am so happy, and even more excited to end this week on a right note.

I PASSED THE FIRST ROUND OF INTERVIEW! THE FIRST INTERVIEW OF MY LIFE!! I HAVE MARKET VALUE (LOL) 🤣

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I hope you are well Mirage. Please don't apologise. And yes I really *hearted* the entire thing. Your words are always too kind and I always look forward to them. I wish there was something I could do for you in person because you deserve so much and you touched a place in me so deeply I didn't know still exists ❤️

Although I am still useless now (since I'm just a student), I hope I can do something for you in the future ✨

posted September 04, 2020 10:44 PM            

Yay!!! Oh Yes You DO!!!!! *hugs*

Keep steady on that track.

Thank you for sharing about the past and your wonderful special Art talents and achievements at such a YOUNG age. You are SOOO talented!! So very special. *heart*

That training for painting, and your ability to accomplish great work, is STILL inside you. You haven't lost a thing. Nope. If you ever got the 'nudge' to breakout your brushes again, even if only for a hobby, you'll find your abilities coming back. In the meantime, take a break, and ... Heal.

Weirdly?, you could even be surprised to discover that those skills will have increased if/when you were to take that up again.
. . Our unconscious mind can still work at refining some of the things learned. You might be delighted to find it all rushing back to you, and, even in a better way. Your inner Muse may give a nudge, in right-timing. Safe.

For now, letting all that stay more in the background to rest is perfectly acceptable.

You have DECADES of years of Life experiences ahead of you-- Time is on your side.

Your early decision to drop art and head towards the "logical" direction into the world of finance probably came around a Saturn-influence whose purpose was to help you narrow your fields of choice, to give more efficient focus and direction.
. . Plus? You had enough on your plate.
Time to individuate. That was a very healthy thing for you to do for yourself.
. . Like I said, your talents and accomplishments are 'there'. They are YOURS. You can be proud of yourself.
The 'world' recognized you-- even then. *hug*

This interviewer is considering you for that special part of banking because he recognizes you have what it takes, and could excel in it. --- Trust that.
. .
If someone else were to be given the position, you can take pride that you were 'considered'. They know who you are. You have MANY persons on your Team, watching out for you, ready to help open doors of opportunity.

Let the time pass. Try to find ways to relax, and Good Luck on your interview.

Also-- thank you soooo much for SUCH kind words and intentions. God sees your Heart! I'm certain that Blessings will flow towards YOU for wanting to give, and towards me 'as though' it was already accomplished.

{{I love you too, AquaCap. }}

posted September 17, 2020 12:21 PM            

Just for fun, I keyed in Asteroid Banks transit and natal.

My natal Banks trine TR Sun 4 degrees, TR Moon 2 degrees, 😭 Squares TR Mercury3 degrees but conjuncts TR Jupiter and TR Pluto at 2 degrees 🥳🥳

DEAREST MR JUPITER. PLEASE BLESS ME WITH ALL YOUR HOLINESS AND EXPANSIVENESS, MAKE ME GIANT.

PLEASE JUPITER. GOD BLESS. THIS IS ALL I EVER WANTED.

**edit**
I just noticed you mentioned Jupiter and Banks too (great minds think alike!?)
What would the conjunct with Pluto be tho? Obsessive? I do find myself a little obsessive over this whole bank thing...

posted September 17, 2020 11:11 PM            

Pluto.. also stands for Wealth. OLD Wealth. Established Wealth. Massive.

Your transits are gorgeous for your interview.

Mercury square Mercury.. is waning {that means it already peaked and its energies began to diminish}. Mercury square mercury just means to remain flexible to ideas presented to you!

The Sun in Virgo is conjunct your Vertex 28+! That's a fated opportunity. Then it also conjuncts your NN at 29+ .. Sun over the NN is favorable.

The Sun in Virgo is also TRINE your Venus! Yay. Transiting Venus is in your 6th House.. great for interviews.

Transiting asteroid Banks is in Scorpio {that's money!!} and in the 9th House. The 9th House has to do with Commerce, and International Commerce.
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(You have your Part of Fortune in Scorpio 23+ in that House. The 9th House is also related to Higher Education, Judges, Publishing, and Foreign.)

I went outside. It's dark. Looked up and saw Jupiter shining so beautifully.

And I know that when YOU look up at night, you see the exact-same Jupiter that I do!

posted September 18, 2020 08:00 PM            

Such beautiful signs...

But I'm sad to say it didn't go well. In fact I didn't even get to interview with him at all. My Skype software glitched, he waited 5 minutes for me then exited the conference. HR tried contacting him for the next 2 hours to no avail. I emailed HR at 430pm to ask for a reschedule as it was getting late and I had night classes last night from 630-1030 so interviewing is impossible, schedule wise on my end. So far no response from HR yet... He probably flaked on HR completely again and HR will have to pester him continuously next Monday for a shot at rescheduling. It is really terrible because even the interview confirmation (exact time), he only gave it yesterday on the day itself in the morning while HR tried contacting him for confirmation for the past 2 weeks.

That aside, I am thinking it was for the best. Because I was so sleep deprived yesterday and also nerve wrecked after HR sent me the confirmation email with the Skype link and I realised his the vice president of the treasury department (we don't follow the US bank system where almost all managers are VP, basically his the 2nd largest man in the whole global treasury department. I actually had and still have no idea why someone as important as him is wasting his time interviewing someone like me for a mere internship position at 3pm on a Friday). I was literally freaking out so so bad in the morning at 1030am when I received the email, after only sleeping for 3 hours in 2 days. I guess his position explains why his so damn self important.

In all honesty the first round "interview" with HR was more of a background check where she confirmed my details and she said "we are interested to enlist you as one of our candidates" within 2 minutes. Everything really feels too good to be true. I'm literally starting to think that this was all a prank.

Anyways I am hoping for another chance at an interview with him as it would be such a GREAT, once in a lifetime opportunity to be working directly under someone as "great" as him. Although I am honestly also appalled by this treatment, the way he treated HR and well.. me. My friends are all like "red flags, red flags, red flags everywhere". Do you think I should work for someone like that, Mirage? It's honestly terrific prospects, possibly instant career advancement since I will be his direct hire but his personality is really...

Seriously, the incident really turned me off in all honesty. How did someone like him become the VP of a key department in my country's oldest and largest bank?

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Anyways...I drew tarot cards yesterday, the top card was 4 of Pentacles (very money card) so - wealth, stability, security but also fear of scarcity, of letting go while and the bottom shadow card was Wheel of Fortune indicating greater things are to come. A "fated opportunity" indeed. I found online here that a combination of these two cards indicates: "The Four of Pentacles, when it appears in a reading next to the Wheel of Fortune, brings a message that you will have success in all that you undertake at this time. It is a positive sign to go forth with your plans."
http://www.edelwyn.com/four-of-pentacles/#Important_Card_Combinations
~~ so maybe~~
Saturn glitched my system because he felt my preparation was insufficient and I needed to be in a better mental state with sufficient sleep in order to properly utilise the opportunity, and Jupiter would bless me with a second shot at the interview next week when I am much more prepared.

I will continue to believe that the Universe works in mysterious ways for me, helping me bring my goals and self into alignment.
That everything is for the best.

posted September 18, 2020 08:33 PM            

You were about to be interviewed by an incredibly highly-placed person. It means that YOU are recognized. You are IN 'the system' as a potential talented candidate. That's excellent. Be incredibly IMPRESSED that they 'saw' that in you. Yes. It's there!

You are having transits that will work for you.. not just now, but through the first few months of 2021.

awww. I 'understand' about not being able to sleep and feeling so haggard. {{ *hug*}}. I've been like that before. awww.

Mars square your Neptune can tend to lower body-energies than you're used to?

Your meeting is 'not' going to be judged on a glitch. They have been looking at you for a while now.

Glitch? .. Even those higher-ups get glitches.
Relax......
Let that melt off of you, and GET some excellent sleep now that the pressure is over for a while.

3pm on a Friday? YUP!! Absolute. I've had that happen to me before. Some of the executives use that time. {humor-- the other good times, they're out on the golf course!! }

So. No stress. Let it go for the weekend.
Enjoy yourself!!

{and still... Be Proud!!!! yes}

ADDING.
BTW, Just because someone holds a high office, or has a very prestigious position of honor in a company, is NO guarantee that this person is 'worthy' of a pedestal? High office is NOT necessarily a reflection of virtue and goodness. Not necessarily someone with good character or refinement of soul-- morally or ethically.

Respect is expected.

I need to kind of say 'this' too--
if you are extra attractive, some of those in higher positions might 'shock' you by making a sexual pass at you. .. DON'T go there. NEVER. No short-cuts like 'that' in order to get ahead. Would haunt you, AND your reputation.
{I had known a few women in music and theatre who 'slept' their way up.. Don't do that to yourself?}

In my lifetime, I've tended to cast important high-positioned people in places of honor inside me that they didn't 'deserve'. Again, some of the sexual things that may surprise could leave a really disgusting after-impression. {I've known a few of those... just 'shocking'.}

See and Expect the Best.
If you find otherwise, then, know they are human.
If you find that they are actually quite corrupt-- then that is something ELSE you will learn about handling your self.

Keep your own Beautiful Self intact.
Don't let *their* lack of rising to good standards affect YOUR decisions of 'how' YOU want to conduct your own life.

Maintain Integrity. Maintain your own Integrity at all turns-- to the best of your ability.
YOU 'be' who you want to be known and portrayed.
Let it be of high standards if you so-choose.
Integrity and Good Character WILL follow you, your WHOLE life long.

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omg!! You're right!! "11:11" ??? how Cool!!!

posted September 19, 2020 10:55 AM            

Your story makes me quite scared however I am quite dense in person (very work centric) so I might not notice sexual advances or inappropriate comments. What would a "sexual pass" be like?

Knowing my Dejanira, could I be coerced into such things? Will I be threatened to sleep with so and so or lose my job/employment opportunities everywhere? Can they threaten to soil my reputation and future employment prospects if I don't sleep with them? Am I overthinking the worst? ##Paranoid
I'm basically thinking of what is the worst thing that could happen and contingency plans to mitigate them. ##Fear
I have to admit while I did think my appearance can land me a job in banking easier (though I didn't put my pic in my resume but am thinking of doing so tomorrow and start submitting the updated resume to foreign banks), I never thought I might get subjected to sexual abuse.

Sexist comments, sure but I'm used to them and take them as a compliment haha. Like when a male China classmate came to me and asked "why do you work so hard when you're so pretty. "
I took it as an acknowledgement of how diligent I am and a compliment to my appearance >D Also to his defense, he probably didn't mean it in a sexist manner but out of genuine curiosity because he was someone I tutored and study together with after classes. To him, I was "crazy" for taking up two degrees and even learning how to code on my own while keeping up to date with all my readings. Like a "superhuman"
So he was probably just curious why I am like that or what motivates me? When I could just live off my looks, like he said quote: girls uglier than me ~LOL

The night before my interview, when I was telling my mother about it and reeling over how I managed to successfully coded out a model, I did on excel previously for a school project to derive the same exact output, my mom said "technical skills and coursework not important. Look pretty and nice more important for man."

I think maybe being in a asian dominated culture, I don't pay attention to sexism anymore and instead think of it as a compliment, compared to the west. Like "hey look! I'm doing my job as a woman well by looking pretty and at the same time I am so much better and efficient at work than all you men combined. WHAT'DYA SAY BOUT THAT."
I also think sexism is an advantage. Nowadays in particularly tech, recruiters have a fixed quota to hire females even if said female is less qualified than her male counterpart, just so that the organisation/department have more "diversity"
To me that itself is sexism and discrimination, but since its advantageous to me 🤷🏻‍♀️
NOT COMPLAINING

You are right about Mars square your Neptune making me feel more low energy, but in all honesty I have been feeling more *riled up* over the past few days, I think I accomplished more in the past 1.5 week than I did in the past 6 months. I thought perhaps it was thanks to my Jupiter-Mercury conjunct 🥳
Mercury square Mercury, aside from being more flexible to new ideas, could that cause mental fatigue?
Anyways my mood have been lightening up over the past few days as I get more things done, so I have been feeling happier these days ☺️☺️

posted September 19, 2020 04:01 PM            

I wasted the time of such an important person and threw away such a good opportunity.

VP was willing to take time out to interview me yet I made him wait a total of up to 10 minutes. If he was amicable after this, he wouldn't be a VP. He would be a doormat.

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I hope he gives me another chance.
And I will make sure he doesn't regret giving me that chance. If he does give me another chance, another shot at interviewing, I will make sure to be so much more prepared and well rested, that the first missed interview would seem to be a blessing and I promise, my future self, to make everything right.