posted October 24, 2016 03:03 PM            

And thingsgoneby,
it`s almost startling how much your story resembles mine, especially in terms of how I was when meeting him.

As for you questions, I don´t have enough time to answer them here now, but will come back to them. It`s just such a longwinded story. lol

Just one thing I am sure about and that is that meeting him was or is a great blessing in my life, even with all the lows. But even the lows somehow feel right. Everything just feels like it is exactly what`s it`s meant to be, whatever that is.

posted October 24, 2016 03:10 PM            

Faith,
You're a masterful storyteller. You should consider writing books or scripts

posted October 24, 2016 03:12 PM            

I love listening to you telling your story, though it is so heartbreaking. And yet, I don`t think it`s just storytelling. Let`s not forget storytelling is really doing magic (at least in ancient times it was).

posted October 24, 2016 03:16 PM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
thanks both for sharing so freely.

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Aw, you too!

Your story is uplifting because it's still viable and in progress!

I owe you email.

edit

Anyway....might be offline for a while as a I catch up on work.

PS I've got this song stuck in my head, thanks
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JIVaUcE4kAM

posted October 24, 2016 03:18 PM            

Have a good day, everyone!

posted October 24, 2016 03:53 PM            

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Originally posted by Faith:

PS I've got this song stuck in my head, thanks
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JIVaUcE4kAM

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You and me both, sister! lol

I remember actually the moment I first heard it consciously; I was absentmindedly putting on M`s solo cd (which I had never listened to before), and was actually in the low because of something having to do with P that I have forgotten by now. lol But I was really hitting an all month low, and then I suddenly heard M`s voice getting crystalclear through to the fog of my selfpity-session

"Come stop your crying. It will be alright."

And he was right. IT was going to be alright again. And of course it was before I knew about the current job P is working on. lol

And as I said I forgot why I was so down, but I`ll never forget how intense, clear and present M`s voice sounded for just this moment.

Anyway sorry that you have had such a turmoil with your brother. I hope it is going to be okay between you again?

posted October 25, 2016 10:49 AM            

I am at a public computer so cannot go into depth (and will be home late tonight, but I will come back to the questions eventually, could just take some days).

" The fact that I cannot communicate with him is agonizing."
Yes, I absolutely understand that.

"Just one meeting and nothing is what it used to be …"
Yes, but really, it wasn`t just one meeting. There have been some more along the line.

posted October 25, 2016 10:54 AM            

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Originally posted by thingsgoneby:
I think the Psyche/Psyche opposition looks promising as well. Soul to soul in a sense, but I’m not certain what’s considered relevant

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Yes. I think so, too. P and me have a 1 degree Psyche-Psyche-conjunction and his Pallas conjuncts my Psyche exact. I always suspect this having something to do with the telephatic receptivity (along with Mercury conjunct Neptune, both ways, though widish at 5 degrees in one case, and virtually exact in the other).

Also his true Lilith is exactly opposite my true Lilith (28 Leo-Aqua).

And his Priapus is conjunct my Lilith (meaning Perigee and Apogee, are coinjunct).

BTW Saturn conjunct SN does not need to be separative. my parents have that, and they`ve been married over 40 years so far, and still happily in love.

posted October 25, 2016 10:58 AM            

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Originally posted by Faith:

Can I ask howCurious about what you would have to lose if you just tried to send a casual hello and open up a conversation.

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Yeah, you never know what THAT could lead to. Into more weirdness.

Talking about me btw, not you.

good idea though keeping the lines of communication casually open.

And I agree on Lilith.

But I am pretty sure he thinks of you, too. Maybe misses you. He might be married and quite happily, or not happily, who knows?
But I am sure he`s thinking of you now and then as well, probably when you do yourself.

posted October 25, 2016 11:06 AM            

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Originally posted by Faith:

Can I ask howCurious about what you would have to lose if you just tried to send a casual hello and open up a conversation.

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Yeah, you never know what THAT could lead to. Into more weirdness.

Talking about me btw, not you.

good idea though keeping the lines of communication casually open.

And I agree on Lilith.

But I am pretty sure he thinks of you, too. Maybe misses you. He might be married and quite happily, or not happily, who knows?
But I am sure he`s thinking of you now and then as well, probably when you do yourself.

posted October 25, 2016 11:06 AM            

quote:

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Originally posted by thingsgoneby:
I think the Psyche/Psyche opposition looks promising as well. Soul to soul in a sense, but I’m not certain what’s considered relevant

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Yes. I think so, too. P and me have a 1 degree Psyche-Psyche-conjunction and his Pallas conjuncts my Psyche exact. I always suspect this having something to do with the telephatic receptivity (along with Mercury conjunct Neptune, both ways, though widish at 5 degrees in one case, and virtually exact in the other).

Also his true Lilith is exactly opposite my true Lilith (28 Leo-Aqua).

And his Priapus is conjunct my Lilith (meaning Perigee and Apogee, are coinjunct).

posted October 25, 2016 11:06 AM            

I am at a public computer so cannot go into depth (and will be home late tonight, but I will come back to the questions eventually, could just take some days).

" The fact that I cannot communicate with him is agonizing."
Yes, I absolutely understand that.

"Just one meeting and nothing is what it used to be …"
Yes, but really, it wasn`t just one meeting. There have been some more along the line.

posted October 25, 2016 11:13 AM            

"BTW Saturn conjunct SN does not need to be separative. my parents have that, and they`ve been married over 40 years so far, and still happily in love."

That's good to know. My friend and her boyfriend have a tight (exact? can't remember) Saturn-NN conjunction in composite. Three years and still going strong.

posted October 25, 2016 02:49 PM            

Noone forgets his dreamgirl, and the one he felt was his soul/ himself, just in a female body.