posted October 29, 2016 06:13 AM            

And yes, I sometimes feel like I do understand his actions because I recognize a quirk or behaviour I am prone to myself.

Also yes, I think you brought the Draco transits to my attention.

As for Atropos. Tr Atropos had been opposing c-Sun about a week after we last met face to face.

But this time it did not seem to really occur simultaneously with a break down of communication - I actually had thought it did for the following 2 or 3 weeks following the concert/meeting in august, so I looked it up, and curiously just now realized he (or they?) had even "liked" my comment I did 2 days after the concert; I never even saw that one before. lol
But it fits the pattern.

It does not fit what I had previously thought about Atropos though.

Well Tr ATropos was exactly opposite c-Sun on 22nd/ 23rd august, and then Tr Atropos was conjunct his own natal IC and opposing his Moon on 28th-30th august.
(which was when they took up the podcasts again and starting the live video-thing).

Oh something got cut in his life - his beard did.

astrology can be so literal sometimes.

posted October 29, 2016 08:51 AM            

Thank you again for an enlightening reading, and sorry for abandoning the thread for awhile.

I saw your post on self-sufficiency, and that's my standpoint as well. Honestly, I was more self-sufficient before I met him. I didn't really felt I needed anyone to make me whole (even though I felt empty). So, it seems like meeting him filled a gap and created another one.

I think, either people care for each other and are there for each other, or they're not, and if so, there's really not much to speak of. That's just my two cents.

In the beginning of this thread I was still in a state of evaluation as to whether the encounter has served me, and, in a way it has. But it has brought more pain to me. Without a doubt.

AND I’m somewhat annoyed for the fact that it made me ”unsciencey"

Maybe one just have to accept that occasionally strange things happen.

I’m so glad I got to discuss this with you guys and that the thread turned out so lively.

Sorry to everyone I haven’t responded to, but I think I’ll try to put all this behind me. It was great reading your stories and thank you to everyone who wanted to share so freely.

And a special thank you to Faith for shedding light on the astrological queries I’ve been contemplating for so long.

I hope everyone’s doing well!

posted October 29, 2016 09:20 AM            

sorry that he caused you more pain than good feelings. Honestly speaking that would be the greatest signal to me that he is NOT the One.

Wishing you the greatest happiness on your journey.

For me the thing is, despite all the weirdness, uncategorizable things and what don´t I know, the one thing that is pervading it all, like a heartbeat humming, resonating through it all (not underneath, PERVADING), is that he`s brought so much happiness and joy into my life. The feeling of being ALIVE and savouring each feeling, yes, even when my doubts bring me to my knees - honestly speaking it`s never him, it`s always just my own doubts, thinking, rationalizing whatever.

He? He`s never been anything but an ongoing surprise to me, as just how kind and warm and welcoming he`s been to me (at least when I was in a state of being able to ACCEPT it).

Might not be what others would expect it to be, but I can`t even begin to tell how much my heart expanded ever since I met him, and how much more courageous (emotionally) I`ve become and am becoming every day.

So I am thankful. But it`s more than that. It`s simply joy.

And I can never have words to express how it felt when at some point last year I was looking at him and he was looking at me, and that look of extreme happiness was rising in his face until it had reached the level that it seemed to envelop everything and everyone in the room, the stunned disbelief and happiness, and knowing that I was at least part of the reason for that happiness, felt downright intoxicating.

As long as we can make each other smile that way at certain moments, I think we`re on the right path, even though it`s one that most people won`t understand (including ourselves probably. lol)

And the thing is, what I feel is, that instead of limiting and narrowing myself down, it is expanding my ability to love, in many many different shades of course.

So for myself I can just say I am on that path, because it feels right and because it fills my life with joyful, blissful moments, emotionally, spiritually and mentally.

posted October 29, 2016 09:44 AM            

sending you sweetness

posted October 29, 2016 11:58 AM            

Best wishes with everything, and I hope you stay on the site!

posted October 29, 2016 12:12 PM            

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sorry that he caused you more pain than good feelings. Honestly speaking that would be the greatest signal to me that he is NOT the One.

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It's hard to weigh these things, though.

Well I've been listening to this, this morning:

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It's no matter if you're born
To play the King or pawn
For the line is thinly drawn 'tween joy and sorrow

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Flowers Never Bend With The Rainfall - Paul Simon

^ A nice TF anthem...well the whole album really, though it's just about love, it's such a close love.

Like this from Kathy's Song:

And so you see I have come to doubt
All that I once held as true
I stand alone without beliefs
The only truth I know is you.

And I think even your Aqua moon would agree that tears can tell you things.

Sometimes also it's the pain we inflict on ourselves or, to enlarge this even more, it's the existential pain of humanity as a whole...a re-play of our separation from God, our exile from Eden, so to speak.

Sometimes, yes, I do think it's that important. Sometimes, I'm not sure.

posted October 29, 2016 12:54 PM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:

For me the thing is, despite all the weirdness, uncategorizable things and what don´t I know, the one thing that is pervading it all, like a heartbeat humming, resonating through it all (not underneath, PERVADING), is that he`s brought so much happiness and joy into my life. The feeling of being ALIVE and savouring each feeling, yes, even when my doubts bring me to my knees - honestly speaking it`s never him, it`s always just my own doubts, thinking, rationalizing whatever.
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Might not be what others would expect it to be, but I can`t even begin to tell how much my heart expanded ever since I met him, and how much more courageous (emotionally) I`ve become and am becoming every day.

So I am thankful. But it`s more than that. It`s simply joy.

And the thing is, what I feel is, that instead of limiting and narrowing myself down, it is expanding my ability to love, in many many different shades of course.

So for myself I can just say I am on that path, because it feels right and because it fills my life with joyful, blissful moments, emotionally, spiritually and mentally.

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@ Ceri : your story feel to be a great and beautifull path of evolution (in everything). Love is all about the world needs and when we are loved and in a good love we can diffuse our happiness, our warm and be available to others more than we are in pain, feel loneliness... we can nourish others with empathy and enlarge our hearts.

@ Faith : thank you.

"Sometimes also it's the pain we inflict on ourselves or, to enlarge this even more, its the existential pain of humanity as a whole...a re-play of our separation from God, our exile from Eden, so to speak.."

posted October 29, 2016 01:26 PM            

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Originally posted by Faith:

And I think even your Aqua moon would agree that tears can tell you things.

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Oh yes A LOT!!!!

But the thing is, even in the midst of going through this feeling of exquisite pain (and you know I`ve been there), there`s still joy in it.

It`s so hard to explain, I can`t even find words for it to myself, really. Maybe it`s the awareness of being able to feel that deeply simply. Or how cathartic these moments feel. Or.. or... or...

It`s like a "burning away of falseness" (especially concepetions of my Self. ), but it`s never that feeling of being totally abandoned, alone, devastated, desolate - well no, of course it feels like that sometimes, but not really, maybe it`s the absence of a feeling of HOPELESSNESS and MEANINGLESSNESS?

See? I can`T explain it.

But what I think I DO know is that if you are only feeling pain about someone, only hopeless and empty and as if life is meaningless and grey and numb and so on, then that is NOT right.

posted October 29, 2016 01:58 PM            

I've been assuming we can probably transcend that feeling at will, but sometimes it seems that we cannot. See, I don't understand how things are connected....whether connections are REAL or not.

@AwakenSky

posted October 29, 2016 02:01 PM            

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Originally posted by AwakenSky16:
@ Faith : thank you. Maybe I could post a composite because recently I discovered it and I am interesting to learning more in reading, but I don't know about his birth time. Also because that impresses me a lot to show some uneasiness and unconventional aspects for me to all (AquaMoon )and that I'm already here a lot as I have not done before LOL. You can tell me how I can post it (and after remove it)if this post still open.

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To post a chart you need an image posting service. I use imgur.com, it's free and easy to set up and use.

1) Draw up the composite
2) Click on the chart and it opens in a separate tab
3) Right-click on that chart and scroll down to copy image location
4) Copy that over to your image posting site
5) Copy again from there and post here using the UBB code:

[img]your image[/img]

6) To remove later, just click edit at the top of that post, erase it, and re-submit.

posted October 29, 2016 02:03 PM            

wow! today is your Draco birthday?
A solar Return of Destiny!!!

BTW mine was on 21st september.
You remember that day when C was sending me an invitation to like his site and P was doing the first live video with that comment at the end?

Both happened on 19th september (and the second live recorded podcast they did on 22nd september actually - could just not stay way that week. ).

You know what gives me really goosebumps?
In this chart my name is on the exact same degree as it is in his tropical chart.
And his Draco name is partile conjunct my name in my tropical chart.

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BTW I can understand wanting to look forward not back, or at least not getting stuck on the past review. So Draco charts are perfect for this, don´t you think?=

posted October 29, 2016 02:13 PM            

Not only is he having a New Moon in it, but SR draco Moon is ALSO conjunct natal draco Moon for him this year (1°10)