posted June 23, 2019 06:27 AM            

When we parted, I'd convinced him that I'm gonna forget him and all that we shared (big fat lie). He believed it as he's now avoiding me. He has definitely been trying to run from me... all the more now!

Anyway, I'm glad you're feeling better! I believe the relocation will be good for you... it's like new beginnings.

I think, EmGem, you're "feeling" his pain because you're so intuitive and that's why you couldn't bring yourself to hate him. It's your higher wisdom coming through.. it's good because bitterness will only eat you up inside.

posted June 23, 2019 11:40 AM            

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Believe me, I'd cried so much now I just wanna heal and think of the positives. Problem is someone read our charts and said that we'll never make it long-term. Makes me wonder if I should even try. I guess that's the problem with astrology reading...it shakes your confidence.

When we parted, I'd convinced him that I'm gonna forget him and all that we shared (big fat lie). He believed it as he's now avoiding me. He has definitely been trying to run from me... all the more now!

Anyway, I'm glad you're feeling better! I believe the relocation will be good for you... it's like new beginnings.

I think, EmGem, you're "feeling" his pain because you're so intuitive and that's why you couldn't bring yourself to hate him. It's your higher wisdom coming through.. it's good because bitterness will only eat you up inside.

I believe you will find love again, whether with this guy or someone else. 💘

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This is why I have a love/hate relationship with astrology. You must be feeling so sad after hearing that 😢 sometimes it’s better not to know things. I mean lots of long term couples have for example sun square Uranus in the composite, which is supposed to be bad news. So you told me that reality trumps astrology remember? I think all you can do now is try your best to surrender. Then it will flow in whatever direction it needs to, for the highest good for all. Just ask a higher power for help. Always ask. If you believe in that 🙏❤️

New beginnings for me for sure. My pSun is at 0.00 Leo! 😊
Yes you’re right. I was feeling his pain. I’m sure of it. Once I let go he opened right up and he’s definitely in pain (tUranus opposing Chiron). He even asked to catch up this week. But I’m not sure that’s a good idea. We’ll see..

posted June 24, 2019 01:56 AM            

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So you told me that reality trumps astrology remember? I think all you can do now is try your best to surrender. Then it will flow in whatever direction it needs to, for the highest good for all. Just ask a higher power for help. Always ask. If you believe in that 🙏❤️

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Guess I'm only good at giving advices (haha)... but the reality is we broke up.

Last night I was thinking... I miss him but I'm afraid to go back to him (if we ever) as I'm afraid that he'll hurt me again. I checked the transits today and my natal Chiron is being squared by tMercury/Mars/Pluto/Saturn. 😰

I've been praying but I don't know if the higher power is hearing me.. it does give me a little peace though and that keeps me going.

I went on a date with a Pisces guy yesterday on my Venus Return 😛 but urgh... wrong fit. He talks about nothing but work and only wants to get fresh!

Btw, did you check your Venus Return for the year?
I have VR Vertex at critical degree conjunct VR Chiron & VR Dsc. It also conjuncts my natal Anti-Vertex.

Seems like I'm to expect something karmic.

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He even asked to catch up this week. But I’m not sure that’s a good idea. We’ll see..

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He's keeping those 5th house planets very busy, isn't he?! 😅

posted June 24, 2019 07:20 PM            

Hmm maybe I should check my Venus return. Hadn’t even thought of that! It’s this cancer season anyway. I think 🤔

posted June 26, 2019 06:30 PM            

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Ah... I was just trying to distract myself, but wrong fit. Haha... Out with him but thinking of my guy. -_-

He probably feels comforted by you so he wants you in his life... but you need to decide if you want to be this kinda presence. It might hurt you..

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Lol and do you should! I did the same thing remember? When we were breaking up I went out with another guy lol. We actually had great chemistry but then he flakes out on me blah blah blah. At the end of the day it’s still just a distraction from feeling your pain 😑

posted June 27, 2019 03:49 AM            

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Lol and do you should! I did the same thing remember? When we were breaking up I went out with another guy lol. We actually had great chemistry but then he flakes out on me blah blah blah. At the end of the day it’s still just a distraction from feeling your pain 😑

I’m thinking about him a lot more now but yeah I don’t wanna get hurt...ughhhhh.

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Yes, I remember, and I thought you were rather into that guy.
Unfortunately he's another one with baggage. *pat pat*

I realised that when someone isn't over their own issues, it's very hard & painful to love them.

This guy I went out with... it was so boring I can't even begin to describe it. 😂 We ended up just playing cards.

I checked his chart and his Pisces Sun/Mars conjunct my Mars. His Aqua Venus trine my Gemini Venus. His Aqua Mercury sextile my Moon, trine my Venus.

However, we have Mercury square Mercury. I'm now a strong believer that this aspect is a killer. Haha.. We simply have nothing to say!!

My Neptune also square his Sun/Mars. I absolutely can't figure out what he's thinking, what he wants and who he really is.

He also has Uranus square Sun/Mercury/Venus + his Aqua Mecury/Venus... he gives me a really cold vibe.

Anyway, I got upset by an acquaintance the other night. Called and started gossiping about my ex (she didn't know we'd broken up)... said he's a player (showed me messages he sent her which contained nothing scandalous actually and in fact she was the one who text him!)... and that I shouldn't invest my feelings in him.

posted June 28, 2019 12:31 AM            

You know better than to listen to negative gossipers! That’s awful. Wtf is she trying to do ??? I hate people lke that. She’s just trying to cause distress for some stupid reason. Of course it upset you, but you know the real truth. Surround yourself only with positive and good friends. Uplifting people. And ignore people like her lol.

posted June 28, 2019 04:33 AM            

Anyway, you're right, this person is not to be trusted... very gossipy in fact and would even ***** to me about her friends. I plan to distance myself even further from her moving forward.

I understand your feelings about your guy... I too cannot imagine not seeing mine again. But at the same time, I feel the need to protect my heart. I don't wanna be pulled back into the whirlpool and go through the spin again.

I've deleted his number from my phone but he has kept mine (he won't say 'goodbye' to me, he said).

posted June 28, 2019 11:40 PM            

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I understand your feelings about your guy... I too cannot imagine not seeing mine again. But at the same time, I feel the need to protect my heart. I don't wanna be pulled back into the whirlpool and go through the spin again.

I've deleted his number from my phone but he has kept mine (he won't say 'goodbye' to me, he said).

But until the day I figure out what I want & should do... and until the day he proved to me that he has changed, I plan on keeping things this way... which is no contact.

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Wow you go girl! That's so strong of you! I really think things always work out for the best so just take it one day at a time and the answer will present itself. It always does

posted June 29, 2019 02:47 AM            

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Wow you go girl! That's so strong of you! I really think things always work out for the best so just take it one day at a time and the answer will present itself. It always does

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I guess Neptunians can be strong too? 💪 Lol.

Actually it's so freaking hard and I still cry. Sometimes I'll think it's good that it's over... sometimes I'll think he must be missing me too because I cannot believe he doesn't miss me (the crazy ups & downs).

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I need to protect my heart too. He was messaging me again today and we both subtly implied and dropped hints about meeting up. It's so obvious we both really want to however we know that it will end up in a dangerous place of feelings, sex etc. So I know he's not trying to keep me as an option or play me at all, otherwise he would've taken the opportunity. It goes a lot deeper than that. It's so hard merely being in the same city as him :/

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If you both still feel the same way why don't talk about it and find a resolution? Obviously he's still into you so why is he behaving like a spoilt brat who wants all the candies? Can I kick him for you? Lol.

posted June 30, 2019 05:03 PM            

He messaged me the other night telling me he’d had xanax mixed with tequila. I think he was trying to get my attention. He’s done this before. Personally I think he was trying to numb the pain of the burn he feels to be with me. So I replied and asked if he was ok?! He said yes. Then I asked him if this was a regular thing he was doing. No reply 😑 and instead he posts a sunset pic on ig quoting a song about being lost in the city of angels. Then SHE comments with “😍” which triggered me. I got so upset over that bc he knows I’m going to see it. He didn’t like it or anything but he didn’t delete it either. So she’s still around and that hurts me.
So I’m back in this place of needing to protect myself and surrender this whole situation to God. I can’t suffer like this anymore but I can’t mask the deep love I feel for him either.... 😞

posted July 01, 2019 05:36 AM            

Seriously, I don't know what your guy is doing so I would still say protect yourself. Neptune-Sun people easily easily believe the good in others. My guy has Neptune square Sun and he refused to believe that some of those gals were just taking advantage of him (make him pay for them and their gfs).

posted July 02, 2019 02:56 PM            

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I understand how you feel. Like my guy would insist he didn't like any of those gals romantically but they were always hanging around him in a 'not-like-casual-friends' manner. It made me insecure and wondered if he was lying because the vibes were suspicious, especially those gals towards him (he's charming to the ladies, I must say). This is one cause of our frequent arguments.

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OMG my guy is charming too! WTF are we doing LOL. Seriously, we deserve so much better. I'm having a strong day today. Maybe its the Solar Eclipse conjunct my jupiter i dunno lol. But come onnnnn. I have trouble trusting him too. I get it. Geez there's way too many options out there these days its no wonder. I hate social media!!!

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Seriously, I don't know what your guy is doing so I would still say protect yourself. Neptune-Sun people easily easily believe the good in others. My guy has Neptune square Sun and he refused to believe that some of those gals were just taking advantage of him (make him pay for them and their gfs).

I don't know about you but I can't handle my guy with another gal while still trying to seek comfort with me. One of my ex tried to do that and I cut him off. I ain't no Aunt Agony, ya know?

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posted July 03, 2019 03:29 AM            

tNeptune is hitting my Mars/Moon/Venus t-square so I'm also going haywire. Completely feel lost in career and love. 😵

Depends on your spiritual beliefs, meditation and/or prayers may help. I've been praying every day and it has helped me get those negative emotions outta the system.

tUranus coming near my Sun as well makes it worse. Feeling sick of my current situation yet trapped at the same time. The interpretation on cafeastrolgy sounds exciting though: "Especially if you are female, you may begin a relationship with a male, and this association leads you into undiscovered territory or some kind of break from your past. This can be an exciting period of your life that is filled with change and stimulation. You might begin or end relationships, start a new career path, or move to a new location."

I met my guy when tUranus was applying 8° from my Sun. You would think it was too far to have any effect but I did get into a r/s with him and it was totally new territory for me! This also happened 2 days after my Venus Return.

My SR this year also shows Uranus/Sun in 4H so maybe I'll move... overseas?? 😱

I did a Horary the other night about whether we're really over OVER. I didn't want to read such predictions but couldn't resist. Anyway, it says we're not over OVER... so we shall see... I'm afraid to get my hopes up just to get disappointed.

Anyway, back to you....

How do you know he's pulling back & paying her attention again? Are you sure it's real and not your imagination? I remember you said you're very intuitive but the downside to this is your intuition can get messed up when you're stressed.

posted July 04, 2019 02:37 PM            

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And tNeptune is squaring your Sun/Mercury now 😳 so be extra careful when evaluating this situation... and yourself!

tNeptune is hitting my Mars/Moon/Venus t-square so I'm also going haywire. Completely feel lost in career and love. 😵

Depends on your spiritual beliefs, meditation and/or prayers may help. I've been praying every day and it has helped me get those negative emotions outta the system.

tUranus coming near my Sun as well makes it worse. Feeling sick of my current situation yet trapped at the same time. The interpretation on cafeastrolgy sounds exciting though: "Especially if you are female, you may begin a relationship with a male, and this association leads you into undiscovered territory or some kind of break from your past. This can be an exciting period of your life that is filled with change and stimulation. You might begin or end relationships, start a new career path, or move to a new location."

I met my guy when tUranus was applying 8° from my Sun. You would think it was too far to have any effect but I did get into a r/s with him and it was totally new territory for me! This also happened 2 days after my Venus Return.

My SR this year also shows Uranus/Sun in 4H so maybe I'll move... overseas?? 😱

I did a Horary the other night about whether we're really over OVER. I didn't want to read such predictions but couldn't resist. Anyway, it says we're not over OVER... so we shall see... I'm afraid to get my hopes up just to get disappointed.

Anyway, back to you....

How do you know he's pulling back & paying her attention again? Are you sure it's real and not your imagination? I remember you said you're very intuitive but the downside to this is your intuition can get messed up when you're stressed.

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Yikes I didn’t realize transit Neptune is squaring my sun!!! Ok I’m going to be extra careful.

Are you thinking of moving? Where do you live now?
I’ve definitely heard that tUranus conjunct sun brings a new partner so woooooooooo for you! Exciting times (even tho painful). Look I have a feeling it ain’t over for you two so I’m not surprised the horary revealed that.
Are you still in contact with him ??

posted July 05, 2019 04:48 AM            

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Are you thinking of moving? Where do you live now?
I’ve definitely heard that tUranus conjunct sun brings a new partner so woooooooooo for you! Exciting times (even tho painful). Look I have a feeling it ain’t over for you two so I’m not surprised the horary revealed that.
Are you still in contact with him ??

Yeah girl you’re right. There’s your Taurus energy grounding me lol. I need to remember that my intuition can be off when I’m stressed. But I do feel him in so many ways. It’s whether my wild imagination is taking over or not lol 🤔
He messaged me yesterday after a few days. Said he wants to catch up but the magnetic pull towards each other means he’s not sure he can trust himself around me if we meet up. I know what he means because I feel exactly the same way. We want it but we know it’s not for our benefit at the moment. Just to look into his eyes would be difficult. But look if we don’t catch up I’m going to tell him that I need a month of no contact in order to heal. It’s something I simply must to. Neither of us are letting go and honestly it’s going to be up to me to call this. For the benefit of us both. But wow it’s so hard to do. I’m going to pray too and ask for all the strength I can get 🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️
I’m tempted to do a horary now but I have no idea how to read them 🤣

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I'm not thinking of moving overseas (except to run away from him, lol) but both transit & SR seemed to suggest there might be a change to my home-base. If I move overseas it can only be because of work, however, I'm not seeing any opportunity right now. 🤔 If it's a local move, then there can only be ONE reason - that I decided to move in with someone.

We haven't seen or spoken to each other since we broke up. I know he's avoiding me because of what I said...but we really need to cool down (I need to stop being angry with him and HE needs to reflect on his own behaviour. 😤 OR... we just move on with our lives and wish each other the best. 🤷‍♀️ As you can probably tell, I'm feeling so hopeless.

So I was surprised that the Horary shows it's not over between us and that our next contact will be "sexual". 😱 It shows his significator moving towards me which means he will come to me (and I can totally picture it as he knows where to find me). Anyway, if we do meet again and our feelings are still strong then I know we really have something going. I just hope that it doesn't turn into a FwB relationship!

I understand the torn feeling you have between meeting or not meeting. *hugs* You have to decide for yourself though. If you're still feeling murky/confused, then perhaps no contact for awhile is your best shot. But can you control yourself not to contact or respond during this period?

You can get help interpreting Horary. I'll be more than willing to help but I'm no expert (still reading John Frawley's Horary textbook 😛 ). Try getting help in the Horary forum or on astrologyweekly. You get better responses there.

Mull over your qn though. I had a hard time formulating mine... Will we patch back? Should I patch back? Will we be in a stable r/s? Does he really love me? LOL, don't know which qn to ask!

posted July 06, 2019 06:51 PM            

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I'm not thinking of moving overseas (except to run away from him, lol) but both transit & SR seemed to suggest there might be a change to my home-base. If I move overseas it can only be because of work, however, I'm not seeing any opportunity right now. 🤔 If it's a local move, then there can only be ONE reason - that I decided to move in with someone.

We haven't seen or spoken to each other since we broke up. I know he's avoiding me because of what I said...but we really need to cool down (I need to stop being angry with him and HE needs to reflect on his own behaviour. 😤 OR... we just move on with our lives and wish each other the best. 🤷‍♀️ As you can probably tell, I'm feeling so hopeless.

So I was surprised that the Horary shows it's not over between us and that our next contact will be "sexual". 😱 It shows his significator moving towards me which means he will come to me (and I can totally picture it as he knows where to find me). Anyway, if we do meet again and our feelings are still strong then I know we really have something going. I just hope that it doesn't turn into a FwB relationship!

I understand the torn feeling you have between meeting or not meeting. *hugs* You have to decide for yourself though. If you're still feeling murky/confused, then perhaps no contact for awhile is your best shot. But can you control yourself not to contact or respond during this period?

You can get help interpreting Horary. I'll be more than willing to help but I'm no expert (still reading John Frawley's Horary textbook 😛 ). Try getting help in the Horary forum or on astrologyweekly. You get better responses there.

Mull over your qn though. I had a hard time formulating mine... Will we patch back? Should I patch back? Will we be in a stable r/s? Does he really love me? LOL, don't know which qn to ask!

So, mull over it. What is the ONE thing you really wanna know?

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Sorry girl I’ve been stuck in my own world with this situation of mine 😓

posted July 07, 2019 06:01 AM            

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Sorry girl I’ve been stuck in my own world with this situation of mine 😓

Yeah maybe it’s not going to be an actual move to another country. It could be as simple as making changes to your interior design? Making your home more appealing lol lol.
You dont wanna start a FWB situation with him nooooo! I mean, that’s ok if feelings aren’t strong but if they are like in your case then that’s a whole other world of pain. Be strong! I know it’s hard to resist. Trust me I know. Anyway geez it must be so hard not having heard from him for so long. I’d be dead lol. That’s excruciating, but you seem to be hanging in there.
I don’t know if I could do a horary.. I’m feeling way too vulnerable rn. I was right when I said his attention was with her. I swear I can feel him. He had made a love heart comment on her f****g picture in a bikini on her vacation. I got so triggered that I decided to block her and I’ve now muted him. It was so hard to do but I have to protect myself. It was so hard though. Excruciating. I’m emotionally and physically exhausted and am only just able to function tbh. So I haven’t heard from him in 3 days and when I do I have to tell him that I need space. I can’t stand the thought of them together.
I’m hoping tUranus moving towards my descendant will bring in someone new! At least to distract me lol 🤣

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That's the thing... I'm not planning to make any changes to my interior now other than maybe buying a new drawer to replace the old one, but I don't think a little thing like this will be highlighted in my SR? 😆

No, I don't wanna get into a FwB situation with him. Hell, NO! ⚔️ Anyway, he has a lot of Cancer in his chart while I have a lot of Pisces. He's way too attached than he cares to admit. When we're together there's a lot of dreamy entanglement in the abyss. How do we do FwB? We're just kidding ourselves! That's why the avoidance to meet. We're both scaredy cats.

It's funny, the other day I had a vision of us - that I was struggling to swim to the surface while he was pulling me down, begging me not to leave him. But I broke free, swam to the surface and got into a boat. Then I started crying because I felt sad for leaving him at the bottom of the sea.

Lately I started to feel him again, that he's missing me. I'm not sure if I'm over-thinking or my intuition speaking to me.

Do a Horary only when you feel ready and when you have a burning qn to ask. Perhaps now is not the right time.

I also think you should lay off their social media for awhile because it'll drive you crazy, so the blocking/muting is good. The love heart comment could be just him flirting but I know how you feel.

It's difficult to do no contact but trust me, it gets better. You'll get used to not hearing from him after awhile. The period of silence is necessary for both of you to logically assess your relationship and feelings for one another.

Even if you decide to move on at the end of the no contact period, you'll have peace because that's a rational decision you concluded, not an emotional one which will only swing you back & forth until things get ugly and the rope snaps.

Meanwhile, go out with others and have a good time. Be prepared that he may still be constantly on your mind but the distraction is still good, lol.

posted July 07, 2019 07:31 PM            

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That's the thing... I'm not planning to make any changes to my interior now other than maybe buying a new drawer to replace the old one, but I don't think a little thing like this will be highlighted in my SR? 😆

No, I don't wanna get into a FwB situation with him. Hell, NO! ⚔️ Anyway, he has a lot of Cancer in his chart while I have a lot of Pisces. He's way too attached than he cares to admit. When we're together there's a lot of dreamy entanglement in the abyss. How do we do FwB? We're just kidding ourselves! That's why the avoidance to meet. We're both scaredy cats.

It's funny, the other day I had a vision of us - that I was struggling to swim to the surface while he was pulling me down, begging me not to leave him. But I broke free, swam to the surface and got into a boat. Then I started crying because I felt sad for leaving him at the bottom of the sea.

Lately I started to feel him again, that he's missing me. I'm not sure if I'm over-thinking or my intuition speaking to me.

Do a Horary only when you feel ready and when you have a burning qn to ask. Perhaps now is not the right time.

I also think you should lay off their social media for awhile because it'll drive you crazy, so the blocking/muting is good. The love heart comment could be just him flirting but I know how you feel.

It's difficult to do no contact but trust me, it gets better. You'll get used to not hearing from him after awhile. The period of silence is necessary for both of you to logically assess your relationship and feelings for one another.

Even if you decide to move on at the end of the no contact period, you'll have peace because that's a rational decision you concluded, not an emotional one which will only swing you back & forth until things get ugly and the rope snaps.

Meanwhile, go out with others and have a good time. Be prepared that he may still be constantly on your mind but the distraction is still good, lol.

SR Mars in 5H conjunct natal Venus is bringing me a lot of new friends. Though no one I like romantically (yet) but I welcome the renewed social life.

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Good! I’m glad you’re not going to do the FWB thang. It’ll only lead to further heartbreak until you’ve both decided what exactly you ARE and have set clear boundaries with one another. Well I guess the positive out of this is that the fact that he’s scared means he still has feelings for you. He’s probably just wallowing I’m self pity and feeling rejected. Do you usually reach out to him first in this type of situation? Has it happened before?
Lol at your vision 🤣 I shouldn’t laugh but it’s such a clear message. You don’t want him to hold you back or drag you down. Maybe you’re picking up on his energy. He could very well be feeling this way rn. I reckon he’s for sure missing you, especially because it’s been so long!

posted July 08, 2019 06:58 AM            

I also have Jupiter transiting my 7H now but where is my Mr Right? 🤷‍♀️ Anyway, I just read this on Jupiter Rx in 7H:

"Jupiter entered your relationship zone late last year, opening the door to relationships that have the ability expand your world and be positive influences.

As Jupiter stations retrograde, you’re learning information, asking for a deep reevaluation of your one-to-one relationships. If partners seem like they are stalling or backtracking, avoid premature judgment for better or worse.

You can have the freedom, commitment and the security you desire. Be honest with yourself first, the better to allow you to be honest with others, and open to receive the love and support that is present. You are loved, protected, and deeply cared for—even if it doesn’t always seem that way."

I don't think it's possible for you to really like anyone with your emotions still entangled with him (I'm in the same shoe!) but still, just go out with whoever makes you happy and have fun as friends. It will at least help you to stop thinking of him.

As for my (ex)guy.... that's what my friend said as well - that his avoiding me shows that he still likes me... but he could also very well be trying to move on. 😢

We've gone silent on each other before but never an official break like now. He knows I'm extremely upset with him. The last time I was upset like this I deleted his number and treated him like a total stranger when I saw him, which upset him greatly. That didn't last long though. Two weeks at best.

This time's different as we both agreed to break up and it's unlikely either of us will text the other no matter how much we miss each other. The only chance of reconciliation is if he seeks me out which is what the Horary is suggesting - that he will in a few weeks' time. We'll see if the Horary is right.

By numerology, are you referring to the life path number (adding up your DoB until you arrive to a single digit)? If yes, I'm 1 and he's 3. Are we good for each other?

Oops, 2019 is a Personal Year 9 for both of us... year of endings!! 😨 So I can kiss all hopes of a reconciliation or new romance goodbye?? 😢 Ehm... but when my friend was in her personal year 9, she began a new r/s. 😗 Does that mean it won't last? Some astrologers say 9 is also a year of great changes including... relocation! This pops up for me again! A sign? Hehe...

posted July 08, 2019 03:21 PM            

Girl, he’s 41 in October! She’s 25!!!! Now you see what I mean? Mid life crisis. I think probably she’s shaking up his view of relationships in a Jupiter kinda way. Alerting him to what is possible, even if she’s just temporary. You also attract what you are. He’s in a non commital state, at least that’s how he was with me, so he’s probably attracted that in her. 25, her whole life is buzzing with youth. He probably needs to find that again within himself since he’s going through a crisis. He also is due to go back to Australia (his homeland) in feb once his visa runs out. The only other way to get around it is if he marries 😳 and that’s a bit of a question mark, would she marry him just so he can stay in the country? She’s pretty erratic and changeable herself lol. I’m going to cut the cord between him and I and her and I so I stop feeling what they’re doing. It’s too much. Apparently it grows back but rn I need to protect my feelings. It’s a hard step to make though..
The lunar eclipse this month will be opposing my natal Venus. Yay effing yay. Not looking forward to it but I’m feeling this energy of change building and needing to happen. At the moment, collectively the air feels thick with karma! So many people are breaking up around me. So many changes, triggers etc.

Your guy is missing you for sure. And look, here’s the thing. As brutal as it sounds, if he’s not for your highest good, he will exit your life and someone better will come along. I know you HATE hearing that, but try to let your rational logical mind come to the fore if you can. We can’t let our emotions rule or else we’ll get carried into a never ending abyss lol. Think about it, the best guy for you might be waiting for you to close this door. It is probably premature though I get it. You gotta feel ready to let go but I would bite the bullet and contact him if I was in your position. You’re both being so proud right now lol. I’d wanna know once and for all if it’s over or not or if there’s any chance to reconcile do that I can move ahead with my life. But having said all that, Considering the horary I would probably wait a few weeks and see if he contacts you. If he doesn’t then I would make a step to contact him and have a proper talk about what you guys want to do at that point. And Jupiter will be beginning to go direct at that time I think which is perfect timing 😊
Yes numerology life path number is adding up your total birth day, month and year until you arrive st a single digit. Read up on your compatibility with him here! Seems like some ego conflicts like what you describe! But also some good stuff in there too 💕 http://numerology.astrologyclub.org/love-compatibility-life-path-3-1/

Oh you’re experiencing a 9 year? Hmmm yes it is about endings BUT think if it this way, it could denote interior ways of being, endings of past patterns within your thought processes and beliefs that may be holding you back. That can only then pave ways to have a more fulfilling relationship, whoever it may be with. You never know! If you two truly love one another then I’m not sure anything can really get in the way of that. It doesn’t feel like it’s over yet 🤷🏻‍♀️
I’m having a personal year 1, new beginnings! It couldn’t be more true lol. Moving abroad, big structures of old belief systems changing, relationships changing. It’s almost too much lol.
But my clairvoyant friend said on a collective level, this is the year of transitions and next year is the war of internal peace ☮️ phew!!!
Maybe the solar return moon conjunct MC isn’t playing out just yet?! I mean we’re only really halfway through the year so just wait and see what happens I reckon.

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Married? No way! ❌❌ Is he such an impulsive person?? How long have they known each other? NO... I don't think he will do this just to get Visa. You're over-thinking! Yes, I get it... a 41yo hanging out with a 25yo can be really exciting... their energy rubs on you etc... but that's just all fun. Commitment is a totally different thing. Marriage is yet another. By this age, he should be able to tell the difference.

Maybe you should cut the cord and tie a knot so it doesn't grow back? How about just ask him outright what's up with him and this gal so you don't have to be guessing and imagining all these things on your own? If he says he's taking it serious with this gal, then you know you can move on. If not, then tell him how this is making you feel. I believe he cares about your feelings?

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The lunar eclipse this month will be opposing my natal Venus. Yay effing yay. Not looking forward to it but I’m feeling this energy of change building and needing to happen. At the moment, collectively the air feels thick with karma! So many people are breaking up around me. So many changes, triggers etc.

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I haven't been following eclipses. What's the orb of influence? I noticed that the next eclipse will be directly on my Name asteroid in his natal and it will square my Chiron/Psyche and his Name asteroid in my chart. Horrors.

Oh, and you're right that many people are breaking up/divorcing or on the verge. Wonder if Uranus in Taurus is shaking up the stability?

I think the Lunar eclipse opposing your Venus will make you reassess your personal values. It might bring great revelation!

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Your guy is missing you for sure. And look, here’s the thing. As brutal as it sounds, if he’s not for your highest good, he will exit your life and someone better will come along. I know you HATE hearing that, but try to let your rational logical mind come to the fore if you can. We can’t let our emotions rule or else we’ll get carried into a never ending abyss lol. Think about it, the best guy for you might be waiting for you to close this door. It is probably premature though I get it. You gotta feel ready to let go but I would bite the bullet and contact him if I was in your position. You’re both being so proud right now lol. I’d wanna know once and for all if it’s over or not or if there’s any chance to reconcile do that I can move ahead with my life. But having said all that, Considering the horary I would probably wait a few weeks and see if he contacts you. If he doesn’t then I would make a step to contact him and have a proper talk about what you guys want to do at that point. And Jupiter will be beginning to go direct at that time I think which is perfect timing 😊

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I HAVE been thinking that perhaps we're not meant to be and someone better will come along, so I've been telling myself to get over him (though it's easier said than done!). I know I need time... I just hope that he doesn't come back to hurt me again so when the Horary says that we'll meet again, I honestly have mixed feelings. If the meeting leads to something good then I'm happy of course. But if it puts me back to square one then NO, I rather not meet him again. This fear in my heart is the reason why I won't contact him. 😣

As for him... perhaps he's too proud to contact me since he was the one who initiated the breakup. Yet he also wanted to remain friendly & refused to delete my number etc (go figure). The last time when we went silent on each other, we also didn't initiate any contact but admitted missing each other when we met. I'm a Taurus and he's a Virgo but why is he as stubborn as me?! 😩

I think I'll patiently wait till Jupiter goes direct. If it brings a new relationship, yay! If it brings a reconciliation with him, yay as well, but if it brings nothing, then f**k Jupiter! LOL

Year 9 has so far been a lot of death & renewal for me in terms of personal relationships. A few months ago, my friendship with my bestie died and revived (the last time this happened to us was during her personal year 9... coincidence??). Major shifts happened within me during our "cold war" but I emerged wiser and stronger. When we reconciled it felt like we'd both sorted out our feelings so there was no need for apology/explanation.

Not sure if my ex(guy) and I have a chance of revival but as of now, I'm still sorting out my feelings towards him. Although I miss him, I'm also afraid that he has been playing with me. Reason: all those gals around him makes me wonder if I'm just one of many gals to him + this acquaintance told me he's a player. Of course I don't know all these for sure but I'm feeling negative so a contact now will not be favourable with this state I'm in.

Your Personal Year 1 sounds exciting and you should look forward to it rather than focusing on what your guy is up to.

posted July 10, 2019 12:57 AM            

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^^ I wanted to say "It's only been 5 days!" but if you've been talking every day or every other day then yeah, 5 days feels like a long time. [/quote/

Well we went 3 weeks without speaking when I returned home, so I guess 5 days isnt too bad considering. I just miss him so damn much..

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Married? No way! ❌❌ Is he such an impulsive person?? How long have they known each other? NO... I don't think he will do this just to get Visa. You're over-thinking! Yes, I get it... a 41yo hanging out with a 25yo can be really exciting... their energy rubs on you etc... but that's just all fun. Commitment is a totally different thing. Marriage is yet another. By this age, he should be able to tell the difference. [/quote/]

LOL you have no idea how much he doesn't want to go back home. He told me so himself. He said the only way he can stay is if his boss at the cafe sponsors him, which means he'll be a coffee boy for 3 years when all he wants to do is ACT. He said he doesn't really want to be stuck making coffee. Then he said other option is marriage. So i wouldn't put it past him tbh. I'm just not sure if she will do that. But who knows! It's something I can't control. I can't control any of this. THat's my lesson here. TO surrender to God's plan. You should try and do the same lol. I think ultimately all humans need to surrender and stop trying to control their life and the people around them. This is my big lesson at the moment.

[quote]Maybe you should cut the cord and tie a knot so it doesn't grow back? How about just ask him outright what's up with him and this gal so you don't have to be guessing and imagining all these things on your own? If he says he's taking it serious with this gal, then you know you can move on. If not, then tell him how this is making you feel. I believe he cares about your feelings?

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He definitely cares for my feelings. I can't fathom the thought of tying a knot once I cut the cord. He's my TF so it's literally like dying to part of my soul. It's not like other relationships, none that Ive ever had, not even with my ex husband.

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I HAVE been thinking that perhaps we're not meant to be and someone better will come along, so I've been telling myself to get over him (though it's easier said than done!). I know I need time... I just hope that he doesn't come back to hurt me again so when the Horary says that we'll meet again, I honestly have mixed feelings. If the meeting leads to something good then I'm happy of course. But if it puts me back to square one then NO, I rather not meet him again. This fear in my heart is the reason why I won't contact him. 😣

As for him... perhaps he's too proud to contact me since he was the one who initiated the breakup. Yet he also wanted to remain friendly & refused to delete my number etc (go figure). The last time when we went silent on each other, we also didn't initiate any contact but admitted missing each other when we met. I'm a Taurus and he's a Virgo but why is he as stubborn as me?! 😩

I think I'll patiently wait till Jupiter goes direct. If it brings a new relationship, yay! If it brings a reconciliation with him, yay as well, but if it brings nothing, then f**k Jupiter! LOL

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Girl I know you have fear, but as they say feel the fear and do it anyway. One of you has to budge lol. You Taureans are crazy stubborn lol! I would just put myself out of misery and contact him. Have an honest talk to him about what you're both feeling. I know it's scary but it might feel really relieving too!

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Year 9 has so far been a lot of death & renewal for me in terms of personal relationships. A few months ago, my friendship with my bestie died and revived (the last time this happened to us was during her personal year 9... coincidence??). Major shifts happened within me during our "cold war" but I emerged wiser and stronger. When we reconciled it felt like we'd both sorted out our feelings so there was no need for apology/explanation.

Not sure if my ex(guy) and I have a chance of revival but as of now, I'm still sorting out my feelings towards him. Although I miss him, I'm also afraid that he has been playing with me. Reason: all those gals around him makes me wonder if I'm just one of many gals to him + this acquaintance told me he's a player. Of course I don't know all these for sure but I'm feeling negative so a contact now will not be favourable with this state I'm in.

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Your Personal Year 1 sounds exciting and you should look forward to it rather than focusing on what your guy is up to.

IME, it's good to take a HUGE step back completely if you're caught in a state of confusion. It will give you the required space and time to see things with clarity and in a different light. 👍 Maybe this is what you need regarding your situation? Fear is what caused us to hold onto things too tightly.

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Yup totally agree. I need to go off and enjoy this and focus on ME. It all comes back to surrender

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LOL you have no idea how much he doesn't want to go back home. He told me so himself. He said the only way he can stay is if his boss at the cafe sponsors him, which means he'll be a coffee boy for 3 years when all he wants to do is ACT. He said he doesn't really want to be stuck making coffee. Then he said other option is marriage. So i wouldn't put it past him tbh. I'm just not sure if she will do that. But who knows! It's something I can't control. I can't control any of this. THat's my lesson here. TO surrender to God's plan. You should try and do the same lol. I think ultimately all humans need to surrender and stop trying to control their life and the people around them. This is my big lesson at the moment.

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Em... I still feel iffy about this marriage thing. 🤔 And IF he really marries her for the Visa then I think, gal, let him go... TF or no TF. Don't hold onto a romantic idea. Do you really wanna watch him marry another gal, have kids, and still calls to say 'hi' once in awhile while you're here aching for him??? Think about it rationally.

Between the two of us, YOU are the one who should go talk to him and sort this out. Haha... because I can tell that he still has a lot of feelings for you.

And btw, how do you know he's your TF? My Neptune in 7H supposedly makes me search for a soulmate/TF but I don't even know how it should feel like (lol).

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Girl I know you have fear, but as they say feel the fear and do it anyway. One of you has to budge lol. You Taureans are crazy stubborn lol! I would just put myself out of misery and contact him. Have an honest talk to him about what you're both feeling. I know it's scary but it might feel really relieving too!

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Trust me, I'd done so much talking it was unlike me (Taurus Mercury 12H). I usually talk to a person once... twice... and I'm done, but with him I'd been so patient. However, he would say one thing, do another... and then get upset with me for being angry so I think I'm done saying my piece. I've concluded that he's either in denial or taking me for a ride. So in retrospect, it's good that he initiated the breakup because I wouldn't have been able to do it (yet I know I was at my limit) because I didn't wanna lose him. But it is precisely because of this fear that I lost him while he walked away because he was confident. See the difference? So I'm gonna let him FEEL the lost. 😈

Like you, I also fear that he'll get over me and find another gal but who knows, he might be thinking the same about me too? 🤷‍♀️ So now it's a competition on who's more obstinate. LOL

But seriously, I do need to surrender to God and stop fearing / trying to control things. *Throwing my hands in the air* I still find myself going back to our regular joint hoping to see him, so I need to stop doing that as well.