posted December 12, 2020 01:21 AM            

I've sometimes have had the funny thought/imagination exercise that if my Teacher Yeshua was born in our times rather than his times, psychologists would have had a field day with him and labeled him all kinds of things from megalomaniac, to narcissist, to BPD, having a martyr complex, etc. And even back then, a number of people referred to him as crazy, unbalanced, demon possessed, arrogant, i.e. some of the ancient "equivalents" to some of our modern labels. (Why? Was it because he was being harmful to others? Nope, because they didn't like or agree with what he was saying!)

Anyways, apology accepted, and I do understand where you are coming from.

I wasn't trying to misunderstand or put words in your mouth so to speak, but rather having a moment of, "oh, I thought most people think that twin souls/flames are like this." and just wasn't seeing what you meant in the differences at first.

Also, I want to make it clear that I don't judge/condemn your past. I figure in many people's cases, most stuff is more or less sort of meant to happen to some extent, often as a learning experience OR the building up of inner strength (in coming to kick said addictions).

I dabbled some in escapism when I was younger, and so who am I to judge you for that?

Rather, what I was speaking to are the energetic effects of such a lifestyle of substances on the body physical, etheric, and emotional. I have to strongly disagree with you there. These have an imbalancing effect big time, and they open us up to/make it easier for negative entities to affect us. So when my alcoholic bio father asked us if he could move in with us some years back because he lost his job, etc, and I stupidly said yes, I could practically, psychically see/feel the dark clouds of negative entities hanging around him just waiting to influence him.

These "energetic scars" and body imbalances can be healed over time, and it seems to me that you are in that process, which personally makes me very happy for you. And I know that kicking certain addictions take enormous inner strength and so really, I have deep respect for you and that.

On a very different note. How much have you looked at your Aries Moon on your DESC/opposed your ASC/Venus? I'm curious about what you think about this, what it means to you?

The interesting thing about 7th House energies, is that they are very "shadow" and "reflection" related. When I mean "shadow", I don't mean in the more loaded, say Pluto or 8th House sense (i.e. heavy, dark, very difficult, very fear stuff), but more neutral--just stuff we are unconscious to and tend to project in either feel good or somewhat difficult ways onto others we are closer to or who affect us more than most. And these are not always relationships in the usual sense of the term of long term, committed romantic relationships, but also including "open enemies". In either case, people that deeply affect us.

Anyways, feel for some reason that there some healing to do in relation to that part of your chart. Some kind of integration with part of you that relates to your emotions, mother figure and/or inner feminine that would be helpful.

posted December 12, 2020 08:48 AM            

i understand and respect not wanting to give off false humility and so on, but i also understand that how something is said affects how it is received and that teaching is more than just knowledge held then shared it's how people are reached

teachers learn how to effectively reach an audience if you turn them away your message goes unheard and there's nothing gained in either direction

it's failure to have a message get lost because the way it's presented has overshadowed it

the state of being human is a state of being imperfect and jesus was not perfect in spite of his message, however his most famous sermons and parables are void of ego and not at all arrogant

the bible does not offer a complete picture of him as an individual

it goes beyond not liking what he was saying (and i say this as someone with nothing but respect for messages relayed) and has to do with behavior at certain points

also fair enough, it came off that way, but 🤷‍♀️ **** happens and rereading i can see your intentions so no hard feelings

it wasn't all escapism, you're painting it all with one brush without fully understanding

i'm aware of the potential energetic price of these things and stand by what i said earlier about you being too focused on how a path that isn't mine would be affected

and of potential benefits within the experiences, again it's partially about what you're consciously tapping into and my drug use has not all stemmed from one place

my personal experiences have been otherwise and historically you can find use of substances as part of ritual and so on, in addition to things like trials to overcome and so on

the individual is important here and your father was who he was but is not a reflection of everyone else

what's internal is important here same as it is with any path where you're engaging in things with risk (consider the messages in the book of abremelin on the internal being important when engaging, though that's with demons rather than substances the idea is similar)

and i can acknowledge risk but i will not pretend reward isn't there and again the specific energies here are important

ive had many experiences and they line up well, i'm inclined to accept them as more meaningful than an opinion of someone who blanket looks at something as inherently negative in this situation

as for the addiction side of things and drug use in that particular way the suffering and strength were both intrinsic to the experience of me becoming who i am and part of becoming who i will be

a net positive in my view so long as i don't squander what ive learned

i'm comfortable with it and ultimately it has not been detrimental in my view, going to dark places experiencing these things is invaluable for me because of both growth and what i've gained in understanding of people at many different places in life

being able to relate is a powerful tool, just like my own struggles with health have been worthwhile when dealing with people who are sick

i've been through decades of some very extreme fated trials and suffering with plenty of psychic experiences along the way (i have divinatory dreams and so on, am very good at picking up on people's thoughts and feelings as well even over a distance among other things, have had very good luck with healing energetically as well though that's slipped and at current point in time pain relief for others more successful) and plenty of messages in that

the path i've walked is the one i was meant to be on and i have been able to not be eaten alive by it internally and that's good enough

now as for the personal stuff

my moon/rahu on my descendant have definitely been a huge part of my life because a good chunk of my life has revolved around connections with other people over material concerns and the more normal experiences people have with school and work and so on

i think venus being where it is has been helpful because it makes me appealing to people though sometimes in a way where they don't ever really see me (though that's ketu's doing to some degree) because they're caught up in appearances

i think isolating the planets from the nodes when looking at these houses isn't worthwhile (i also don't use tropical on a personal level, so deeply considering an aries moon isn't going happen, i only use the tropical zodiac here because when in rome...)

i don't generally project i make it a point to have open communication to avoid projections and just like i take things with a grain of salt in other areas i take my views of other people the same way

i will usually say things like "it seems" or "comes off as" etc to convey as much

healing is and has been a huge part of my path, and in that regard there has been a lot, though to explain it would be more personal than i'm willing to get here (particularly the subject you've brought up)

i've done far more "work" than may be apparent, knowledge of vedic would be helpful here because the dashas reflect both where i've been, where i'm at, and where i'm headed rather well

i don't take interest and discussion as criticism or judgement btw, but i appreciate you clarifying and suppose i understand why it may feel necessary following everything else

you're free to ask questions and share thoughts and interpretations, but where we are has limitations with how much i'm willing to speak

posted December 12, 2020 02:25 PM            

But it is not always about the present moment...sometimes it's about planting subconscious seeds, and sometimes to plant strong seeds, one has to use dramaticism, strong energy, strong words, effects. This is something that both Yeshua and Yohannan the Baptist knew and used to make certain words and teachings more memorable. For with humans, to make something memorable, you often have to make it emotionally affecting in some way, whether anger, irritation, or the more sublime feelings. And to put an ancient twist on a modern saying, "Sometimes you got to flip a few money changing tables to make some omelets".

Oh yes, agree that even Yeshua, when still connected to a human body had a little ego. It's part of the body package. The realization of this helped to make this self more tolerant of others and self. Spent awhile expecting and reaching for "utter perfection" in self, and then dropped that unnecessary baggage.

Thank you for sharing some more of the personal nature. Don't really have too much to say to that part at this point. Though, do have a somewhat personal question. Do you happen to know which colors are predominant in the mental layer of your aura (the part of the aura that only gradually changes with either growth or devolution)?

This can tell us a lot, more objectively, about where we as individuals are at in relation to the ultimate i.e. the pure clear/white light (reflection of Source and pure Love consciousness). The faster the vibratory wavelengths of the colors, the closer we are, the slower the vibratory wavelengths, the further away (metaphorically speaking) we are. For example, most of us probably have had the experience of interacting with someone with say a mostly red, orange, coral pink, and/or yellow aura (in the mental layer) who was highly egocentric, self centered, material focused, and even downright narcissistic. Generally not pleasant to be closer with, though they can have their "exciting" moments.

And perception ever follows beingness (unless there are major body imbalances or the like. For example, I use to work in home with a young man with cerebral palsy who had a very fast vibratory, powerful, and beautiful aura, but his body physical didn't allow that to get channeled in an intellect/perceptual and overt/material communication sense. Part of him sometimes tried telepathy, but I was usually too dense to pick up on that very clearly). These are a type of "physics" that are just as real as gravity and the like are here. These are more objective "maths". Anyways, the closer to the clear/white light, the more expanded, clear, accurate, broad, helpful, etc our perception becomes (if the body relatively allows for it). There is a directly proportional relationship.

For example, if I came across a human or other being (and I have communicated with nonphysical beings like this) that had an all or mostly pure clear/white light aura, I wouldn't even think of telling them anything. I would just listen humbly. Because I would know, this individual's perceptions are beyond (clearer, more expanded, etc) than my own, as my aura is not mostly or all clear/white light.

These more objective measures are a very good and necessary ego check to people on a spiritual path. (and the ego part of us doesn't like to hear about these though).

posted December 12, 2020 02:59 PM            

everyone i've interacted with has mentioned that light, it gets weird reactions sometime, been there even when things have been shadow outside of that, permanent fixture

people have called it pure, angelic and so on

though if you can sense auras personally you should be able to even just from text 🤔 anything that would have my energy attached should be enough to "feel" and "look"

that's why i told you to "feel for me" yesterday when we were speaking, i'm used to people who can

i have friends and many acquaintances, we've played games like "tell me what i'm doing to you" energetically, making people feel things and then sharing what's done

usually a neutral 3rd party relaying things

divination games and so on

i thought maybe given your knowledge of what's coming you'd be similar and not need me to say those sorts of things, could just feel it

i don't visually sense things myself, but i can get around it well enough

but yeah what we can see and distance they're illusion to some degree, don't need much to really look at a person other than faith lack of trust in their senses is what slips most people up

i've heard about the white light for years now, from many people who didn't know each other the green and orange as well, mainly green

at a point where i was actively doing shadow work that became different for a bit everything shadowed but the white light but still there 🤷‍♀️

posted December 12, 2020 03:53 PM            

if when i say something to someone it's overshadowed by how i said it and the words are easily forgotten then the seeds are lost and can't grow

you're right you can't change my mind just by stating your views but when i think back on the conversation and what i remember is how you said things over what you said what good is that? could stand around forever waiting for seeds you never planted to grow but that won't yield any results

my own experiences carry weight, the experiences of others in circles life has led me to as well as all that i've studied and worked with/on

a single person who can show me books with ideas they agree with who has had experiences cannot because most people with experiences could do the same except for those who haven't read much and even then they're still valid no?

i've seen many people believe one way, swear by it, have experiences reflect it and then need to move on and discard once they've reached a point where to go further life shifts

sometimes people need to believe a karmic is something even deeper in order to gain from the experience and keep them there and so anything that has their best interest at heart would nudge them in that direction in order to make sure their debts are paid in as pure of a way as possible

these things happen

visions and dreams and so on all come from somewhere assuming you've stumbled onto 100% reliable narrators is a nice idea and all, but highly unlikely and even if you were lucky enough to then you're still limited by human perception

as i've said these kinds of things can get very muddied by our limitations and sometimes what we'd like to believe and so on

posted December 12, 2020 04:36 PM            

Thank you for sharing. Green, especially in the nice emerald greens to cyans, I've often noticed very strongly in relation to strong Venus and/or Libra. Sometimes very pale and slightly yellowish green, in relation to strong Moon. But Moon more often shows up as related to coral pinks in her regular way, and grays in her negative attunement (low level fears, worries, insecurities).

I often sense orange most often in relation to highlighted Leo (especially a high orange i.e. yellowy orange). However, I could see it as possibly being connected to a combo of strong Aries (red and/or yellow) and Moon (coral pink) at the same time.

White Light is beyond any single symbol. In our little system, Sun comes closest. Sometimes I wonder if our Galactic Core might correlate to White Light in a direct way? Part of the meaning for you is that you have some very powerful, protective guidance around you trying to communicate with, work with, and shield you. And some is personal attunement via your service work with others and maybe some previous "out of system" experience you may be bringing over (?).

As regards the next reply--mostly agree, and good points. We could really write entire books about these subjects in an effort to cover all the subtleties and relativity of all of this. But yes, generally speaking, I think it's best for people to rely more on their own personal experience, as well as listening to their own internal guidance, rather than listening to fellow humans.

Full clear/white light, public teacher types don't come along very often anyways.

I used to think/feel/believe that I shouldn't go more "public" in a sense until I was fully at that level (which I'm not), but then guidance kept pestering me in various ways basically communicating, "put yourself out there, start sharing your knowledge and insights, etc". Even then, for awhile I was like, "No, I'm not pure enough. I might cause harm." them, "Do it anyways!" After awhile, "fine, I'll try".

A deeper dive into my North Node relates. While it is in Virgo, it is very, very closely cusping Leo (btw, right on your Sun..hmmm...). The ruler of same, Mercury is in Cap widely conjunct the Chart ruler, Sun, in Cap, and then very closely trine Virgo Jupiter (retrograding back into 1st) which is conjunct Virgo Mars--ruler of the 9th (and co-ruler of IC).

And then the North Node is in the 1st.

posted December 13, 2020 12:46 AM            

well easier for me anyway

interesting observations, my visuals are low i have aphantasia so while i can dream and have visuals in extreme trance states it's very hard for me and i rely more on sensation than anything when it comes to that sort of thing

never stopped to compare it to signs

that's also why i ask for pictures when people describe charts, i read all of what you said but i can't place it in my head if that makes sense need to see it for a chart to click

i'm always people's emotional dumping ground/support system, good chunk of my life has been taking care of people in that way

people tend to find me comforting even just being around me so a lot of it has been that

i'm very open to messages and so on, sometimes more than i'd like to be, as a kid it could be terrible can't always control what comes your way especially when you're too young to understand it

not to mention trauma leaves you wide open too and i've had plenty of that, way more than most people for way longer periods of time but there's a lot to that story

only one in particular that i engage with regularly, invaluable though

had some other stuff come up this past year after 6 or so years of silence, very odd timing given venus-ketu dasha had me fixated on a specific dream (which up until recently had been the last one)

a good chunk of my life has been following signs and so on at this point

heading towards the end of a transitional phase but it's a bit like being blind, nothing visible to go towards signs saying there is but i can't see it yet

it's very trying to say the least but here i am

not like there's much choice really anyway outside of tapping out entirely and that's not much of an option

i think what we get as individuals when we connect is important whether our perceptions are immediately accurate or not it takes us to where we need to be to learn more

of course existing solely in a vacuum is no good though, still have to see other people's views and expand on things to assess things

1st house leo rahu makes sense so does mars-jupiter given the style you use to communicate your ideas

scorpio stellium ex had mars-jupiter and i have a close 1st house rahu friend (his is with his moon though, something interesting i've noticed is a lot of moon conjunct rahu people have gotten close to me) but another first house rahu i can think of had similar vibes though his was in taurus or aries i think 🤔

posted December 13, 2020 02:19 AM            

Anyways, having been through hell and back a few times, has prepared and tempered you to be a center of calm and helpfulness to others for these coming times.

No, I already explained to you, the polarization and shadow stirring up effect I have on others, isn't really about my communication style (though it can be at times). As mentioned, even when a child and a VERY quiet, reserved, introverted one, I had this affect on people from my peers to adults. It was a big part of why I was bullied every year from K to 12.

It has to do with my energy and vibratory rates--not the norm.

Pretty much summed up in one dream guidance message: Awhile back, I went through very lonely period where all or almost all my attempts at connecting more deeply with other people kept falling flat. I started to deeply wonder why. During that period, I had a dream where I was at a school I didn't normally go to (i.e. Earth), and saw self in the background helping the other students.
But when I would try to personally connect with them, they were not interested. For many, it was just they almost didn't even see/clearly perceive me, almost like I was a ghost. Anyways, I felt very lonely in the dream, but helping them was somewhat rewarding which helped some with those feelings. I wondered why this was happening.
I happened to catch a glimpse of self in a pane of glass, and I looked much older than the students around me. Most were children to teens, with a smattering of young adults here and there, whereas I had a beard and look and feel of deep maturity.

My Expanded self/guidance was trying to tell me, "it's nobody's fault--not theirs, not yours, it's a vibrational resonance thing and reaction". The great Law built into Creation is "Like attracts, begets, resonates with, and likes Like" on the deeper, energetic, Soul levels.

The only person that I have met who I feel very, very close to, who I feel truly understands, loves, and deeply accepts me, oddly enough had almost the same exact dream as I had. He saw himself at a school he didn't normally attend, helping the students, most didn't want any deeper connection with him, and he realized he was a lot "older". This same friend is like me also in that he has a very strong and conscious communication with his guidance.

One time he had a dream where he and I were with a big group of people, and he became aware from some kind of spiritual authority, that out of the group of people, only he and I had the real authority to spiritually teach others.

The above 2 messages are not the only ones of these kinds of guidance messages by far. I've received MANY similar, from both within and without. Anyways, am just a bit of an odd duck who directly came in from a very different and very Love attuned ET group purely for service reasons.

posted December 13, 2020 09:49 AM            

i understand that natally it may be read elsewhere, but i generally can find first house rahu and mars conjunct jupiter to both be a bit much at times

that's been my experience

different people react to different things you know? personal level i'm unsurprised because i can find those placements to be a bit much and abrasive as a result at points

time will tell with the other stuff, whatever's coming, i've had dreams and so on but i don't necessarily take them for the exact events that will happen

posted December 13, 2020 09:56 AM            

imbalance in the intimacy level

there's one person i'm extremely close to and then a handful of others i consider very close, but for the most part there's a level of removal for me

it isn't entirely intentional it's more just when people come to you for their emotions and stuff they're not always capable of reciprocating on an equal level and aside from that i have a level of discomfort with most people that does it

i'm generally open and friendly etc so it comes off like i'm less distant internally but that's how it usually is

posted December 13, 2020 01:34 PM            

Completely. Very similar feeling on this side as well.

Re: your follow up post. That's interesting. From what you have described in the past, it seems like a percentage of people are overly enamored with your combo of beauty and charm, which very much fits a Libra Rising with Libra Venus conjunct the ASC (and the Pluto in the 1st adds to magnetism).

Should mention that I do, obviously, feel close to my partner/twin soul (1). But, I'm not so sure we would be this close if we weren't twin souls. I suspect maybe not, because our vibratory rates are different enough within our core. With my friend I was talking about earlier, I feel like he understands and accepts more deeply than my spouse. Like our core vibrational rate is more similar.

He tends to be "nicer" and more diplomatic in communication with others than I am (who can be more "fiery"), but he also experiences a similar thing where people react strongly to his energy. I've seen people rail quite angrily at him, or say very extreme things about him, just for impersonally speaking his mind and disagreeing with their perceptions, and as mentioned, in a more gentle way than I sometimes do. (I have also noticed that with both of us, some people [more rarely], conversely, overly put us on a pedestal at times too).

posted December 13, 2020 06:37 PM            

just this weird constant "i want to go home" feeling, and i could never quite put my finger on it then, but the more ive learned and experienced the more it comes with that nagging "didnt really want to be here but have to" feeling

and yeah people have a tendency to get stuck on surface things with me and i look a lot younger than i am which can add to that

it's not bad or anything it's helpful, makes it easier to do things i feel like i'm called to do to some extent, but i generally feel very isolated even around others

do you get the homesick feeling? seems like you might understand it

that makes sense, sometimes the connection being there is the most important bit about something even if there's major differences

in my situation there's major differences but they work, though i do feel understood it's just not understanding through experience

i haven't really met anyone particularly like me on that level though, like your friend to you, maybe one day

posted December 13, 2020 08:54 PM            

But, its often those who are coming in here from a different group/system that really feel super homesick. Or those whose Souls who have some of that ET past/background (often its blended in with mostly human lifetime memories/energetics) to some extent. My spouse is one of the latter cases, and I'm one of the former.

"do you get the homesick feeling? seems like you might understand it"

Yes, very much so. One night I felt nudged to go outside late at night. I was looking up in the sky, and had the thought to send out a telepathic message, "If there are any positive ET's nearby, please show yourself or give me a sign." Waited for a bit, didn't see anything. Then I made bit of a joke, "Come on guys, throw me a friqqin bone already, I'm down here being human and all, it's the least you can do" and as soon as I thought that, in the direction I was looking a very bright "Star" appeared.

Anyways, after, I felt very homesick. I try not to think about it, but there is always this background feeling of, "I don't belong here, I miss my group". Its like this energetic mismatch and my energies just don't mesh well here.

Apparently Yeshua felt this as well, and sometimes came out as a bit of a frustration with humans. "Yeshua answered and he said, 'Oh, faithless and twisted generation! How long shall I be with you, and how long shall I endure you?'"

I'm bit of an unusual case in that I'm a direct, literal reincarnation of self that already lived a human lifetime (ancient Egypt). Anyways, in that life, I again came in from the same ET group, and I ended missing them big time--so much in fact, that when I was done with my earthly work, I requested to leave with them and they granted my request. Got taken up in their craft, lived for awhile as a human version of one of them, eventually detached from the body and then did some exploring, and then also guiding/service/retrieval work, for a long time, before deciding to come back here.

posted December 13, 2020 11:34 PM            

this is relevant to my interests for a few reasons

most of the people i could have had this sort of discussion with that i've met in the past were not the best people to have it with in my experience

one ex (not the ltr, witch ex i've mentioned her before but maybe not to you) but it was at a time where i knew much less

then more notably this group of occultists that ended up getting very paranoid and weird with me because they felt i was inhuman and just in a human body (i've had this reaction in quite a few circles, been called weird **** like a changeling and so on, it's why i'm not particularly inclined to seek these things out in person)

just been a recurring theme in my life to run into people who tell me that then all specify the same stuff

it's uncomfortable for obvious reasons and has proven to be a bit dangerous when people get a little paranoid

though not with everyone some people will just say something like "you don't feel human" then "it's fine it's just you" when i've asked what they mean

so it's just funny you mention that

i figured you'd understand the homesick thing, glad i was right, never sure how that will be taken but it's something i struggle with frequently

very often i'll find myself wishing i could go home or saying to myself "i want to go home" and feeling fairly upset about it all the while not really knowing where it's coming from because well i'll be "home" but sometimes certain people or animals etc will give off that feeling

twin flame i mentioned in particular does moreso than anyone

interesting idea to ask for a sign hasnt occurred to me

no ties to egypt for me that i'm aware of, had many experiences tied to rome (including other people with shared memories) and an intriguing meditation experience that's brought itself up again rather recently (partially in regards to twin flame)

out of body experience, i thought i was speaking in tongues, but latched onto a word that i just knew i'd be able to spell/ look up

turns out it was hindu, which i don't actually know and shouldn't have been speaking

have not had a chance to dig deeper with it but i suspect it will come up more over time

lot of fuzziness there, but there's a while to go before it's necessary to know

part of the issue was that group of people that got particularly paranoid insisted i'm capable of some things that seem very... off to me

they had been friendly at first but internal stuff between them made them get weird with me because of their whole "you're not human" fixation (which i told them was just stupid but 🤷‍♀️

well sort of friendly i got a lecture about not focusing on healing stuff sooner and my lives long love of drugs and some old grudges (this was one of the problems with my witch ex btw, getting yelled at for shared memories from 1000s of years ago 😩 was terrible)

tolerant? cooperative? those are better words, though i suspect i'll have to deal with them again at some point

hopefully they'll get over the ******** 😁

interesting to have this conversation so soon after that synchronicity you threw my way a bit ago, and in a twin flame discussion too (that synchronicity was related to my twin flame funny enough) perfect actually

🤔 i don't think i can find any words to express how grateful i am to be able to have this sort of conversation plainly with someone

posted December 14, 2020 02:39 PM            

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GCE: If you look at "Twin-Flames" from a Universal view, you'll realize that in order for us to exist in this reality, their must be two of us. Just as we have Light and Darkness, Yin and Yang, Birth and Death...etc. We have to have our Twin, but we don't have to reincarnate together everytime. I've met my Twin in this lifetime, not sure what were striving for yet though, but we're working it out slowly but surely. You'll know when you've met this being. It may not even be a person, could be a pet, but trust me...you'll know.

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Oh, I know, I know. When one feels like a 160lb giant Neodymium magnet when around a 100lb giant Neodymium magnet of the opposite polarity, and all you can think of is completely merging with the other..well, yes, I know.

It would just be nice if she didn't let fear and ego keep that from happening. Besides all that fear and ego, she is an extremely Fixed person who doesn't change easily nor quickly. All that Uranus, Pluto, Taurus, Scorpio, Leo with some Aquarius shading in (from the very, very close square of Aqua Uranus to her Chart ruler Mercury in Taurus), certainly says something about this personality and how stubborn, fixed, and set in her ways that she is.

But she is being let go of. It's a process, like grieving, and there are different stages. Thankfully I'm past the heart wrenching pain- bereavement, very emotional stage. Eventually, I won't even talk nor think much about her anymore.

"You're fading away, can't feel you anymore".

posted December 14, 2020 02:53 PM            

Not sure, but sounds like that group you mentioned may be better left alone? Too much ego and/or potential for same?

Something occurred to me. Besides any possible connections to non human groups, I also think that the more a Soul grows/matures, the more it starts to long for a combo of Source and the Oneness of the Whole. Ultimately, that is our Home of homes, even beyond any specific groups we have had experiences with.

It is a divine discontent as some have coined it.

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🤔 i don't think i can find any words to express how grateful i am to be able to have this sort of conversation plainly with someone

it's been needed definitely

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Oddly, sometimes out of initial conflict and friction, comes balance, perspective, and positive developments. Anyways, I have appreciated the conversation as well.

posted December 14, 2020 04:18 PM            

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Originally posted by GalacticCoreExplosion:

Oddly, sometimes out of initial conflict and friction, comes balance, perspective, and positive developments. Anyways, I have appreciated the conversation as well.

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Yeah, it's good when this happens.

posted December 14, 2020 05:24 PM            

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Yeah, it's good when this happens.

I'm feeling really quiet, but enjoy reading discussions.

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posted December 16, 2020 02:10 AM            

pretty sure those particular stars do nothing in my chart, off the top of my head i know my sun is on regulus and midheaven is conjunct castor and pollux, lot of other fixed stars in my chart but i remember those in particular

i have left them alone, there's just a feeling we'll cross paths again

that's another reasonable thought too yeah, regardless of what it is it sucks 😁

yeah friction can be good, lead to good things, appreciate the food for thought

posted December 16, 2020 04:00 AM            

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There are some indications floating around out there, that after TS2 more fully heals herself and her deep heart wounds, that she may come back to me* and that we may resume our Egyptian life. I'm trying to not be attached to any outcome though. While part of me would love for a reuniting with her white moth self, I also know ultimately that I will be ok if she chooses not to. I'm completely done with chasing her. She is the first and only woman I have ever chased (TS1 literally threw herself at me), and I'm just so done with that.

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