posted December 02, 2004 03:42 AM
I remember when I was young seeing Lindas Sun Signs on the shelf at my grandmothers. I must have been in third grade, maybe younger, but I would sneak a peak and look at it. My mom is a very religious woman, one of those that thinks astrology is devlish, so I got caught more than once, later my grandmother who had all kinds of books on everything under and over the sun, she gave in to the whole Satan thing, and got rid of all her books and such.....its tickling how the old can stay up all night in their loneliness, watch the 700 club and other night evangelist, and POOF!!!! They give up everything so childlike, so magical and so true in their lives.
I am so happy I am such a kid! read this and find out how I got back into Linda, from a buried Memory long needed to be dug out.
I was probably 23 or so, definately that or younger. I had met a woman from mexico and I was in love with her. we would later end up having a beautiful little boy together.
she lived in chicago and I was in the northwest suburbs. I met her while working at a plastic factory and we kind of hit it off.
I later quit the job for fear of health pertaining to invisible fumes in the factory that my S-elf told me hurt me. I got two jobs later, one at a mattress factory and a part time job at toys r us. I was so pooped. the Matress factory driver would pick me up in the morning, I resided about 7 miles away, but I walked home, which took me a hour, then i went to TRU for about 5 hours, I was so tire.
at the mattress factory I would meet two individuals. one whos birthdate was a day before mine, though we were opposites in everyway. the other a spiritual drunk singer. this guy was so gifted in song and knowledge, but he drank it away everynight. least to say I learned many things from him, and one of the good things was the Carlos Castaneda books. I borrowed the first from him, and later bought it and the rest of the bunch.
I dont know what happened, if it was the words that opened up things in me or just my attitude, but things started to happen that changed my life forever.
one night while sleeping, I had a dream where i woke up in the dream and someone was pushing on my shoulder blades tightly. i was on my stomach, and I couldnt get up. I was a little confused at first, so groggy i guess, but then I thought, "who the hell is in my room" I guess i felt like a trapped child and so I just thought as fear crept on me, then i panicked, and the person or thing let me go, and i awoke.
the next night the same occurence happened, and this time, i found myself swearing and such at this thing that was holding me down. I dont know if anyone has ever seen Trilogy of Terror, with the little African doll that if you took the chain off, he would come alive, well i use to dream of this dude as a child, and he would kick my butt, until one day i just fought back and I never dreamt of him again. well here i am at 23 thinking maybe this dude has come back, and i got scared-LOL. but I started to fight and swear,and for a moment i felt as if someone was pulling my body apart through reference of velcro. it didnt hurt, but I could sense it in my head in a way. this was scary.
the next night I had another dream, in this one, i was looking through a hole and what i saw inside was a clocks operational cranks and so forth. to me it looked fascinating seeing this go on, one thing moving and the other moving, and the ups and downs, things you cant see as a clock is closed. as i watched more carefully, i saw that at a certain juncture, the bars and so forth woudl break in a catastrophic nature and at that time, i knew it as my head i was looking at, and faster than I could react, the springs broke and all was amock, and i screamed as loud as i could, though i wasnt in pain, it justed looked disastrous. this of course woke me up.
so i went into the living room where my grandmother was watching tele. I was very scared now, and I felt that I need to tell her about the last few nights, the pushing, the screaming; I asked her had she heard me,and she said no, also adding that it was demonic things trying to control me. lol.
later that week i would go to chicago to see my love, and walking downtown, i came upon a stop light. as i waited for it to change green,i looked to my right and saw a magazine with a beautiful woman on the front, at first i thought it a singles magazine, the kind you see in every city, but there was something different about it. that difference was the title. it was called THE DISCOVERY CENTER, and i am sure it was the DISCOVERY that made me grab it.
as i opened the front page, and looked on the bottom,there was my answer to my frightful nights, even though i had no idea,i felt it, something inside of me told me: THIS IS THE ANSWER.
well on the page was a advertisement for a class at this discovery center,it was a place that had new age courses and such. the course i saw was OUT OF BODY EXPERIENCES WITH RICK STACK. now i dont know why (at the time i didnt) but something compelled me to walk 30 blocks to this center and sign up for this class. you wouldnt believe the people who tried to stop me from going to it
my girlfriend got so mad at me for going, and this bothered me alittle,but i am happy i went. it turns out (and i knew it all along deep inside)the person pushing on my scapula was me. I was trying to get out of body, i thought it was a dream, the dream being me sleeping and someone holding me down, but i was actually out of body, levitating there, waiting to float,and when i got scared,i would fall back in, and wake up. though i thought in the dream i was awake,it was me looking in the spirit looking through my eye lids!! we went through all kinds of discussions and it changed my life forever.
now I would end up being alone because of my new discovery. my exgirlfriend and I would end up getting back together three years later to make a baby boy, but at the time she skipped town. I felt releive and free to practice this art more with out any negativity from anyone.
one night after a two hour meditation to Musical starstreams with Forrest, i went to bed knowing I would have a OBE. i remember awaking and not being able to hear anything as if i was inthe ocean or the womb, i knew i was out. I told myself (as in the past I had a action to TRY to MOVE my body,whe it was the mind/soul) to go. i started to float up to the ceiling and i looked down to see my body looking like a deep sleep egyptian king, it was so weird. I began to go through the ceiling, into the attic, and out the roof. I will never forget, it was a cool night the moon was fool (this has a major effect on OBE's in my opinion), I just kept going up until i was in space. all around me, there were billions of stars, the most incredible feeling I have ever felt. I know and wonder if this feeling is why humans want to reach the stars, it was breathtaking and as Jodie Foster said in CONTACT, "They should have sent a poet, they should have sent a poet!"
all of a sudden i thought, "my word, I am in space! i cant breathe!" I of course started to come back down to the earth, as i came down the earth looked like a huge farm and then a monopoly board. I came to a house and hovered over it. as i started to go through the homes roof, i found myself in a hallway over a door, by now I knew that my S-elf would lead me to places, so i said to my S-elf go in. as i went through the door, there in the room was a woman and boy. the woman was watching tele, and the boy, a baby was sitting on the top of a couch, there was nothing behind it like a wall, and so i just sat there on the couch watching this baby balance and not fall down. i notice the woman had many white elephant statures around the room, but I never saw her face really, because the little baby got my attention and the elephants. it was light out when i got to the room. after sitting for awhile, i started to go back to my body and there i awoke feeling like a new human, as if my body had recycled itself and I was in a new body.
After that OBE, I started to change and grow more in wisdom and such. I was buying more books in the new age section at barnes and noble,and i recall seeing lindas books, but i never bought one, (perhaps because of my childhood and so) this was my first encounter with Mary Summer rain and others.
I decided to find another job that paid more and was less walking. I found one about half a mile from my home, as i walked in to the place to fill an application out. I saw that the secretary and I had gone to high school together, we had actually sat across from each other in english. she was pregnant now, and walking by, we greeted each other, and i told her i was hear for the clerk job, she said she would put a good word out for me. well i got the job and it was great,but the girl ended up going on maternity leave.
when she returned, she had a little boy. we started to talk more, and it turned out that she and the father were not together, so we started to go to movies and such, talk about high school and such. well one thing led to another and we started to date. she just got a new apartment after living with her mom and step dad. we spent alot of time there, but one day she asked me if i wanted to meet her mom. her mom was a virgo and this was her third marriage, so my girlfriend said this was the best time to meet her, cause she was finally happy. lol
when we drove up on the house, i was talking and playing with the baby. as we walked up to the house i was looking at the landscape layout and cars. the mom and step dad were just leaving and we met eye to eye and talked, they left and we entered the home to get some things she left. as soon as I entered the home, it seemed to get darker inside as if everything was coming down on me, i wasnt scared,but had actualy felt that it was soooo familiar.
then i remembered, this was the house i had come to in my OBE, i pointed to a room and asked my girlfriend it that was her room when she lived there and she asked me how i knew. i started to get light headed as i looked at this baby and thought, "was this the child in my OBE balanced on the couch back. it was amazing and so true.
when we got back to her apartment,i told her about the OBE and the baby, the house, everything, she just looked at me and then got this book out called soul mates. then she pulled out this big blue book, and opened up chapter five.
It was weird, we had started to talk about all kinds of things magical and then she pulled out this book, told me to look at the chapter and then if i got the book, to read it from the beginning first,but now it was okay to show me chapter five.
and for those of you that are figuring it out, it was chapter five: WHILE THE SOUL SLUMBERS, the book; STAR SIGNS.
Once I read that loooong chapter, I slept and I SWEAR as i slept Linda said to me, "Hello again, we meet again after all these years." Now she did say that to me,but I felt as if i heard it in a feeling way. I was 24,this was 1993.
my life changed after that book, so even though I saw her books as a child, i guess subconscously it stayed there until later,and i was led back to them.
i know i saw them at the book stores, i was always there, but it took a beautiful woman, her child in a Out Of Body Experience to AWAKEN me to my road.
Now I am writing numerology and I wonder, did Linda know I was coming back in the old days? amazing I say!
Thanks for reading my babble. lol
Thor
Lindaland
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