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Topic: Does anyone ever feel suicidal.......
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Mystic Gemini
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From: New York City
Registered: Jul 2005
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posted September 10, 2005 12:23 AM
 
when it's the time of the month?
I do 
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ILove
Knowflake Posts: 178
From: Winter Haven, FL
Registered: Jan 2005
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posted September 10, 2005 01:25 AM
I'm sure many do. But quick run, get your Star Signs by Linda Goodman book. The Forgotten Melodies chapter, page 267(hard cover). Do you have it? Cause I think her words on the subject are inspiring, and it may not be all that helps, but its a start, maybe some chocolate too. If ya don't have the book, I could para-phrase??IP: Logged |
Gemini Nymph
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posted September 10, 2005 01:39 AM
To be very honest with you Mystic, from what I have noticed abut your moods, reactions and what you have shared about your chart, I suspect you have some issues that are effecting your ability to maintain stable moods or simply have a mood disorder (i.e. depression, bipolar). I have chronic depression myself - I very intimate with this matter, so I'm not just talking out my a** here. In women, depression or bipolar disorder can be effected by our monthly cycle, so that may account for why you seem to feel a certain way during a specific time of the month. Either way, it would be a good idea to at least make a preliminary visit to a counselor or your GP for an evaluation. If you do have a mood disorder, it will not simply go away in time - it will most likely get worse and seriously disrupt your life. It would be better to confront this issue now, and determine if you are having this problem or not. If you do, the sooner you get counseling to help you understand and manage it, the better off you will be. IP: Logged |
Mystic Gemini
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From: New York City
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posted September 10, 2005 03:16 AM
Yeah I think I do. I have had that problem since I was young.------------------
Gemini sun, Cancer rising, mercury in Gemini, moon in Taurus *29, venus in Taurus, mars in Libra "You must live in the infinite blackness that exists when I close my eyes. I see you when I fall asleep, I see you when I dream." - Talib Kweli IP: Logged |
sue g
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From: former land of the leprechaun
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posted September 10, 2005 08:23 AM
MysticYou are a very brave one to admit that.......I had lots of counsellling and psychotherapy in the past and still go for healing now......reiki, shaman etc......I would have been lost without it... You know people here will support you and are ready to listen......if I can help in anyway, just ask girl......always ready to assist if I can... Love
Sue G 
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Bluemoon
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From: Stafford, VA USA
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posted September 10, 2005 08:29 AM
Love and Light to you, Mystic  I suffer from depression, but never get suicidal, yet.................. ((((mystic))))))) IP: Logged |
Peri
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From: Kyiv, Ukraine
Registered: Dec 2003
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posted September 10, 2005 08:48 AM
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ILove
Knowflake Posts: 178
From: Winter Haven, FL
Registered: Jan 2005
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posted September 10, 2005 09:05 AM
I think that if you chose to go down the path of drugs to heal yourself, you will still find your emotions and in-securities inside. It will be in a numb state that you view them. They are still there though, and I hope you find the courage to face them head on. If you are continuously looking for answers then you will find them. Sue g. has great advice, those at LL are here for you.IP: Logged |
ariestiger
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From: UK
Registered: Jan 2004
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posted September 10, 2005 09:23 AM
GemNymph, I like a lot of what you say and the way you say it.  MysticGem, maybe try changing things, initiating positive stuff and building on it, finding something really enjoyable to do and then pursuing it. The early twenties are always hard...I know ...and I have also suffered from changeable moods...have a Grand Cross with planets in all 4 Mutable signs...sometimes I don't know whether I'm coming or going... Do you find that your feelings are a reaction to other people's behaviour, or is it something in yourself you would like to change? IP: Logged |
Yang
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From: A temporary home
Registered: May 2004
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posted September 10, 2005 01:44 PM
Every now and then I think about suicide. But I only think about what it will feel like to be on the edge of death. Sometimes I like to push things to the edge. I know I will never commit suicide as I would be too s*$# scared to do it!IP: Logged |
sue g
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From: former land of the leprechaun
Registered: Sep 2004
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posted September 10, 2005 01:48 PM
Just want to say how proud I feel to know those who have the courage to speak out like this......all of you really are wonderful human beings......you warm my heart God bless Love
Sue G
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Planet_Soul
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From: The Universe
Registered: May 2005
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posted September 10, 2005 03:16 PM
Hi Mystic,I used to get really depressed during my earlier years. I found writing my feelings down in a journal to be helpful. I still do keep a journal, sometimes I go back and read what I wrote. By doing this, I'm usually able to pin point exactly whats really bothering me underneath the mood. I also read self-help books, no matter how weird that may seem to otehr people. I recently had someone laugh at my "Change your life in 7 days" book, but its all good  GN's advice is a good, seek out someone who will guide you to ride out the storm. There's nothing wrong w seeking out inner harmony. Do something for yourself, just for sheer enjoyment. As women, we sometimes overlook taking care of ourselves. I like going out and buying myself a special treat. Nothing major, such as a celebrity gossip magazine or a heavenly bubble bath. Treat yourself, and take special time for yourself you are worth it  IP: Logged |
sweetlibra
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posted September 12, 2005 03:53 AM
I used to feel that way, till i got a job.IP: Logged |
Touchstone
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From: Up North
Registered: Apr 2005
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posted September 12, 2005 06:01 PM
Mystic, you are definitely not alone, here, as this post has proved! There are loads of peeps around to help and offer a shoulder.I'm no stranger to depression and have come to view it as a familiar big winter coat that sometimes finds it way out of the closet! Sometimes I think depression is the mind's way of telling the body that something is wrong or needs attention, whether internal or external. That's why changing something (new hairstyle, job, diet, whatever) can sometimes help. My moods go up and down like a yo-yo. I've never been suicidal but I've certainly had phases where I've felt I can no longer cope with things. What helps pull me through is my sense of humour. I can have a right good laugh at myself later on and it puts things back in perspective even if I was dead upset at the time. Hormones sure have a lot to answer for! Grrr  My off-days follow a distinct pattern. Anyway, take care of yourself and we're all here if you need more chat. Touch  IP: Logged |
kiwigirl
Knowflake Posts: 257
From: New Zealand
Registered: May 2005
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posted September 12, 2005 07:03 PM
Mystic, this is something that is affecting me really strongly at the moment. I have been having the worst panic attacks i have ever experienced and i have been contemplating suicide just to not have to endure them anymore.Last night was the worst time, i was so close to doing it, but the thought of leaving my family especially my nieces behind was too hard to bear.It sucks big time cos i love life so much and am not suffering from depression or anything at the moment, just surrounded by a lot of sadness, have lost 3 very close family members in the last 10months and now my Nana who i adore and am so close too, is dying of cancer so i think that is the root cause of the panic attacks. anyway mystic you are not alone. Be strong, we will all get through this...we are women after all... much love and understanding
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Hecate
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posted October 25, 2005 12:59 AM
oh lord do I ever... I get in the worst moods.... I just want to turn my life upside down inside out... thank heavens it only lasts a day or so....IP: Logged |
Iqhunk
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From: Chennai
Registered: Oct 2005
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posted October 25, 2005 07:14 AM
I had only SMS Access to prevent a girl from committing suicide. [She was two timed by an already married b*****d and his wife sent her the proof.]. I managed to prevent it cause luckily she SMSed me before proceeding to swallow the bottle of sleeping pills.
The thing that clicked? COMMUNICATION. Keep the messages going. The more there is communication, the less the chance of taking the worst step. Did you all know that one of India's most successful models and ex Miss India suddenly took her life, one snappy argument with her family cause her boyfriend refused to marry her, and thats it, gone!
The reason? No communication at the worst moment. Now we dont know what the worst moment, so KEEP ON COMMUNICATING. Sometimes, the approach should be like that of a Negotiator where a maniac has people hostage and is threatening to blow em up.
You dont cajole the person, you dont scold. You just gotta hit on the positives and make the suicidal person self aware of the positives. In your case, just keep a cellphone and a journal handy. Just SMS something that will get a response from friends. It will drastically reduce the suicidal state.
Keep an outlandish target in the journal. Something no one in your peer group has done. Tell yourself that you aint dying till you attain this. [With an additional reminder that you are already good enough even without this target.]
Maybe it is a trip to 50 countries. Maybe to make a million bucks or run 100 meters in under 12 seconds. Everytime you feel even slightly suicidal, all you have to is evaluate what you have done to reach this target, how more to do, and what you can do now to reach it etc. Coupled with the SMS or chat or email from friends, you will get over the feeling very fast. BTW, that girl I mentioned, she is still alive and she has not attmepted to die ever since. So far, touch wood ------------------
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Iqhunk
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From: Chennai
Registered: Oct 2005
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posted October 25, 2005 07:22 AM
For those of who you are upset at death of loved ones, no one ever really dies. They just switch planes of existence. And the last thing they want is for you to join them using the wrong route. Suicide is STRICTLY PROHIBITED under Universal Law.
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aqua
Knowflake Posts: 2805
From: dreamland
Registered: Jan 2004
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posted October 25, 2005 08:00 AM
yes i vey much agree with you Iqhunk!but even if its a natural death we do switch planes of existence.so how is it different? IP: Logged |
Iqhunk
Knowflake Posts: 2132
From: Chennai
Registered: Oct 2005
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posted October 25, 2005 09:51 AM
Hi Aqua,
It is like a breach of contract with our Higher Self. The Karma of hating self attracts a next life where enormous hatred has to be borne. Plus, you cannot cross into the higher planes, you may be stuck in lower astral under command of some very demonic aliens/disincarnates. Very unpleasant! In some cases one stays as a Ghost until a Master enables a reincarnation.
Hindu Tantriks have a vast collection of info on this because some of them use the ghosts of suicide victims to carry on ethereal work.
Overall, there is no benefit to suicide but too much ill effect.
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Iqhunk
Knowflake Posts: 2132
From: Chennai
Registered: Oct 2005
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posted October 25, 2005 09:55 AM
Mystic Gemini, did you also check for PMS?IP: Logged |
Lemingtyne
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From: U.S.
Registered: May 2005
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posted October 25, 2005 10:37 PM
Hi Mystic,
I have these feelings briefly once in a while, haven't noticed if they correspond to monthly cycles.
It used to be much worse before I started working and having social contacts with people in the real world. Now I feel that I have a purpose and that I'm connected to others... most of the time. But some days I wake up and wish I had died in my sleep rather than have to face the day. And sometimes when I try to think of what I'm creating in this world that's tangible, the only thing I can think of is poop, and then I feel like my only real purpose is to make that stuff, and that's not a good feeling. These thoughts usually last less than an hour. I start to think, what if the best year of my life will be when I'm 27 or 36 or 65? I don't want to miss that. I have one good friend I can really talk to. I can call her and say "I'm having a bad day." We'll start talking and soon I'll feel better. Do you have someone you can talk to and be completely honest with? Is there something that hasn't yet happened in your life that you wouldn't want to miss?
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Mystic Gemini
Knowflake Posts: 1973
From: New York City
Registered: Jul 2005
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posted November 02, 2005 05:53 PM
I have lots of people I can talk to. I do talk to them. I can get happy quickly though.Maybe it was pms
*Scratches head.
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Blind my eyes I cannot see
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pixelpixie
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From: Ontario Canada
Registered: Jun 2005
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posted November 02, 2005 08:00 PM
I get very sensitive and emotional too.
I can usually moderate it, and no, I haven't seriously thought of suicide.. but I do at times.. ( those times) think.. if i got an illness and left this world, it would probably solve a lot of problems. But it would create them as well.
No suicidal thoughts really.. but depressed ones for sure.
I have always struggled with it, and I do believe therapy will help.. right now, it's usually okay to talk about it or write about it to feel better.. usually.
Bipolar perhaps.
I am also on my period.. and i find that a week before, I am absolutely despondant and emotional. I am irritable this week.. I am having fun and stuff still, but I turn on a dime and feel anger/sadness.
Then I just listened to music while making supper and danced around the kitchen and felt better.
Sometimes the simple things do it.
Immersing myelf in a feel good book... making some small changes.
You aren't alone, as you know.
You are allowed to be human and emotional and moody.. but if it interferes with your life too much, you are also allowed to help yourself.IP: Logged |
26taurus
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From: *
Registered: Jun 2004
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posted November 03, 2005 01:57 AM
I've felt suicidal many times in my life. Just this summer was the last time I felt that way, I was very close... If it wasnt for the books I've read (I think theyve really helped me on my path) and the soul searching I've done, I really dont think I'd be here right now. And I'm afraid, that I might get so down that I'll feel that way again someday. ....but, I have a good friend here, that was there for me this time. When no one else was. She knows who she is. xx Usually, I just get over it somehow. And I know I'm stronger for pulling through. Transformation everytime......maybe it's the Moon and Pluto in the 8th... IP: Logged |
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