posted September 23, 2003 06:45 PM            

Karma has a funny way of working and bringing things back.

Not just fire versus fire. I do have some sympathetic understanding as I do have a very strong Aries moon in my 7th house. Therefore I have a quick emotional response to people as they do to me. In the same respect, I am not about to hide and not be honest when I see something that is totally out of whack. One must learn to temper the fire and look in the mirror about their actions. I believe it has been pointed out more than 10 times regarding this person but she immaturely refuses to acknoweldge such advice.

Now to you Gem Aries. I believe I have already addressed you on the other thread. As far as nastiness goes, your offensive language has far exceeded my pointing out the truth. I also believe others have addressed your behaviour as young people do visit this site and read these posts.

Anyway, I am done with addressing you, not that it should affect you in anyway, but I believe there have only been 2-3 people on this forum I have ever not wanted any dealings with, so you are in small company.

posted September 23, 2003 06:55 PM              

Please keep writing, I so want to learn more from you. Such a strong minded person such as yourself should have been a spokes person for all of us "Desperate to be loved" females out here.

Ok MAMA. LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL

posted October 24, 2003 08:01 PM              

Even though I may not write as often as I used to I do still read all the posted notes.
I need an advise regarding this scorpio boy. Last time we spoke was on August 29, 2003. I haven't called nor written to him. Last time we spoke it was a nice conversation. But we haven't tried to get in contact with each other in the past 2 months.

I hate/love him still but my question is should I send him a birth-day card.
His b-day is on Nov.5
Will this scorpio guy not care that I remembered. Will I make a fool of myself if I send him a Text message via our cell phones?
I'm real big on birth-days, I still care for him, I'll be honest I still Love him, but I'm so disapointed with him giving me the cold shoulder and not calling. I wont call him, but will I look desperate if I send a Text or Card?
I can't explain this hold he has over my psyche that won't allow me to move on.

posted October 27, 2003 01:52 PM              

I wonder what sign your N/S Nodes are.
I just read Maria Shaw's article on the Nodes in Dell, and it answered alot of questions for me. I always knew there were lots of past lives with my scorp man, but this made total sense. My S node is in Scorp, conjuncting his Sun/Merc/Venus/and Neptune. I don't have the article here, but I think it was the S Node conj. Venus, it basically said that you could fall head over heels in love with this person while he was completely ignoring me. That's what happened. Never before. Never since. And I was just as baffled by it as he was.

He even told me he was masochistic. But, it just goes back. . . a llllooonnnnnngggg way. I had a mystic tell me I was "addicted" to him in a past life, and now when he engages me (which is rare), I go right back to that.

The other thing the article stated, was that this is the life I am to LET HIM GO. Finally. I will NEVER forget him. But. . . tangible love is what I'm looking for. And he's happily living with his g'friend now anyway.

Hang in there. It ain't easy. If I were to guess, I may venture that maybe you, too, have your node in Taurus (???)

posted November 01, 2003 01:11 AM              

Take it from someone who knows all to well.
I married a Scorp. Exact discription to a tee. YOu will always be the one to cater to his needs. etc....etc.......
You will not or can not change him. Those traits you see now. You will see 20 years down the line. If you are willing to be possesed by him, owned so far deep down as owning your soul, and dominated. Everything being HIS needs met, His wants met first. Forgeting about yourself. Then keep pursuing. If you are looking for someone who will want to connect equally with you on a soul level...... Then Run for the Hills and don't look back.
What someone said here about the scorp thinking you should cater to his needs is so true. I had this scorp man tell me once after sharing a piece I had written (said to me in a hostile tone.) That my every waking thought should be on him and I shouldn't write unless it was about him. Being the Aqua I am with Asc and Scorp mars (war). I nailed him to his cross. I looked at him said fine!
Came back an hour later with a horrid tale to tell of him. His mouth dropped open and I said Careful what you wish for. Never again said it to me and never again wanted to hear about my work.

Regarding the card for his b day. This is a man that has spurred you. Degraded you and totally ignored you. Who will most likely not care about the card or use it against you in some calculating way. My question is
despite the "I'm big on birthdays" what are your true intentions behind sending the card. Is it truly to acknoledge his special day no strings attached? Or is it because you want him to remember you? and do you have any expectations by sending it? Maybe perhaps secretly wish he will come around? Is it part of that Arian Challenge?
I know this will probably send the ego to flare up .. and it doesnt matter what you do other than to be honest with yourself.

Blessings,
Redwood

posted November 01, 2003 05:21 AM              

Red...*curtsy*

I read your message the other day.
I like you.
That's pretty cool when you can tell that by exchanging only a few words.

posted November 01, 2003 06:13 AM              

pixlepixie, I am open minded and also because I really want everyone to get along and live in harmony I am hoping that what you say is true, and I am open to the idea that all Scorps aren't the same.

All things are possible. Actually the love I had for my ex Scorp was what I believed to be as Altruistic as possible...most people don't believe in Altruism, but I do, and haven't met many who do..And actually, today I had an experience...I knew that there was something different about this Lady I was talking to at an Parent support sight for ADD children. I exchange conversation with this woman and was pretty wrapped up in what I was saying doing so it took me a while to understand what I was hearing and seeing...well, of course others may have missed it altogether. This Lady devotes time and money to help parents deal with thier children with ADD ADHD....which plenty of people do. And actually I am going to do something similar but with another issue.

This woman unkowingly touched me deeply, woke me up ...freaked me out, really...I read what she had written and there it was in black and white...actual proof that Altruism exists.

Anyway...I'll save that for another time, or something.
LOL
actually my tummy quit hurting when I changed subjects.

GeminiAries, I read your messeges from begining to end and you sound pathetic.

I know the sound very well. I actually lived exactly like that, and even worse than that for 22 years.

I know everyone isn't the same, but..now I see Red say she had probs too. Luckily she could handle him. I could not. Funny thing to say since I did do it in some form for a really long time. Your relationship sounded so identical to ours when me first met and were dating.....him with some girl, me..with some guy..the whole crazy thing.

One of the hardest things for me to deal with was that he could just not talk to me.
Act like he didn't have a care in the world while I would be visibly a wreck...I have so many memories of pain, tears and fear. I am not one to hold grudeges or harbor hate, and I don't hate him but to this day when we speak on the phone, I still feel weird.

posted November 01, 2003 06:31 AM              

Oh man...I do know how and why things happened at that I wasn't really insane, but I still can't believe that I did it for so long.
If I told you only a fraction of the horrible things he did, said, lived, got comfortable with, you wouldn't believe it..and then I'd feel like crap, so we won't but I will tell you this.

It's been about 4 years since the split..and he is still mean.

The silence thing was bad...the worst part of the reality is actually partially my fault.
I am a giver. I'll give 'til it hurts. The people in my life know this but also care enough about me that they know when to stop taking.
He didn't, He was a taker and he took and took. I let him...so I actually and unknowinginly allowed this to happen, making him believe that it was okay. Most people would pick up on one of the signs but not him. I guess he thought I LIKED crying all of the time. Crying...laying on the floor next to him because he wouldn't come sleep in bed with me...yeah, that was much fun.

Not wanting to have sex anymore as soon as we said "I do"...stll trying to figure that one out. It was over night. Yet YEARS later when I finally had the courage to end it with him....he asked...."can we make love one last time?" I about lost it.
He said it was my fault because I didn't tell him.

Any you know, he is right. I should have told him much sooner. Like as soon as I had my child. Cuz I love my baby.

Okay...thats enough, and too much as usual.

Red...I want you to get my email address somehow. I am still trying to figure out the secret thing about that.

Oh, hey..but we should end on a happy note.

I did meet the love of my life. A gemini, who actually is two good twins. He lets me talk and talk and talk...even talks too.
What peace we live in. It's amazing really. No conflict, the ability to be who we are.

my ex is REALLY looking forward to us moving to where he lives in CO...a really SMALL town, lol...of course, he has always said negative, bad things about every one...including family. That was a problem for me as well.
My Gemini..he holds no ill will.
Believe it or not my ex never accepted the divorce. He didn't want to leave and still tells everyone that he is still in love with me and knows that someday we will get back together. LOL...believe me, he would not last with me a day now. I have really toughened up since we split up. Actually I toughened up that day. I decided it was over.
From that moment for me it was. It was freedom for me. No longer bound to mu 24/7 job of making him happy or being frazzled because he wasn't. He had the ability to turn the places we worked into a war zone.

GeminiAries...the world is full of really nice men..count my time served as yours.

posted November 01, 2003 03:08 PM              

Yes Altruism is real. So real that we tend to try and see beyond all the signs right in front of our face continuing on in deadly self distructive behaviors. Including believing our love is strong enough to change someone. Been there done that and learned the hard way. Altruism and ADD. Have you ever heard of indigo children? Most ADD children fall into this category. Its a shame society can't see whats real there. These kids wind up being pinned as bad seeds, uncontrollable, viewed and made to believe something is wrong with them. Then wind up drugged and their spirits suppressed just for the benefit of others lack of understanding and patience.

Blessings, Y un abrazo grande!
Redwood

posted November 01, 2003 03:20 PM              

I'm so glad you decided against sending that card no matter how hard it is.

posted November 01, 2003 03:26 PM              

You say you are a double leo.

My beautiful lion cub (14)
is a Leo.
sun,moon,mars, merc all in leo with an ascend in Aqua. psychic, intuitive, a definate charmer! With the mouth and roar of a lion. Wears his lion heart well.
He is the fire that keeps me going.

Blessings,
Redwood

posted December 06, 2003 02:36 PM              

The key is to do something WITHOUT giving a thought as to WHAT he's going to think, HOW he's going to react!!!!!

Anything else is manipulation on your part. Life doesn't work the way you want it to. (Def: Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different outcome)...

You don't pick the person you want and go for it. God picks them for you, and the more frustrated you are over this, the less you will listen to your inner voice. Have you ever heard your inner voice?

Lord! If we could just pick who we wanted and get them regardless of whether they were right for us, how boring would THAT be?

You need to think about how life really works. Live by the rules we ALL have to live by. You are no exception!

Two easy reads that will save you a thousand different ways:

"Men Who Can't Love" by Carter
and
"If Men Could Talk" by Gratch.

READ THEM AND START LIVING YOUR TRUE LIFE.

with much love & support,

.gloria

posted December 06, 2003 02:40 PM              

The key is to do something WITHOUT giving a thought as to WHAT he's going to think, HOW he's going to react!!!!!

Anything else is manipulation on your part. Life doesn't work the way you want it to. (Def: Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different outcome)...

You don't pick the person you want and go for it. God picks them for you, and the more frustrated you are over this, the less you will listen to your inner voice. Have you ever heard your inner voice?

Lord! If we could just pick who we wanted and get them regardless of whether they were right for us, how boring would THAT be?

You need to think about how life really works. Live by the rules we ALL have to live by. You are no exception!

Two easy reads that will save you a thousand different ways:

"Men Who Can't Love" by Carter
and
"If Men Could Talk" by Gratch.

READ THEM AND START LIVING YOUR TRUE LIFE.

with much love & support,

.gloria

posted January 07, 2004 11:22 PM              

No SEx, No Kissing.

Just talked. Talked about what we did and where our lives were. I am so happy to be communicating with him.
I still love him and told him of what I wanted and felt about him.
The thing now is the trust issue. I'm so scared of my heart getting hurt.