posted January 12, 2005 10:21 AM              

AJ... yeah... us airy people have our vices and downfalls too... but I can't understand why one would choose to live amongst the Neptunian fog that useless, fishy little lies create... makes no sense to me.

Natasha... what you said about him making you feel like you twisted his arm to go... thats G all the way! Somehow he makes everything seem like it was my idea! Like I'm the instigator of everything we do. Which isn't true. And to be honest, his portrayal of the ex always troubled me, just because he always painted himself as blameless and innocent... and I know that's not true, even then.... but I never expected to sympathize with her to this extent. Actually this whole thing you said:

I am actually having lunch with my ex sometime this month and he will make me feel as if I twisted his arm to go. I think we need closure, and I know I sound superior when say that but I need my respect back.

That's exactly why I "dumped" him

posted January 12, 2005 10:47 AM              

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AquarianG, Souds like he has alot of air in his chart. I felt like that when you said how self centered he is. He must have like
a Scorpio moon with Aqua in merc,venus,Just sounds farmilar to me. If you were on the up and up when this started and you kept it real you WILL land on your feet trust me on that. You may feel bad now but in the end you will be a winner..

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That's what I think.... it hurts me now, but in the long run I will be better off. He's a Virgo moon, Scorp rising/1st house Uranus, Mars in Cap, Venus in Aries, Mercury in Aqua... and I think Jupiter is in Pisces, Saturn in Cancer... he has this big tough guy fascade... you know... the super athletic cop, catching all the bad guys, fearless, part of a special unit... which is funny because he's a TOTAL mama's boy and so blo0dy mealy mouthed and non-confrontational... to a fault!!! As you can see with the ex and now with me.... ugh.

posted January 12, 2005 03:20 PM              

okay, i've got one for you. so last night my pisces boyfriend told me that he'd lied before when he told me that he was checking out some girls we saw. when it happened i was in the middle of talking to him, and i saw his attention was drawn to them.. i felt insecure, expressed it, and then he denied it. my ex was a compulsive liar and cheater, so it is a bit of a sore spot with me. i still felt that he had been, so i wanted to make sure, and he eventually said that yes he had been, and he was sorry and wouldn't do it again. but then it came up again last night (it's been a couple of months since then, and no similar incidents have taken place), and he told me that he'd lied about being attracted to them, because i didn't believe him. WHAT??!?!!

he promises he will never lie again.

oh my, pisces logic is confounding!!!
(like, seriously, WHAT?!?)

posted January 12, 2005 05:50 PM              

in any case, he realizes how stupid it was and is truly sorry. i just find it SO odd that he would lie about something when the truth was so much sweeter!

posted January 12, 2005 06:23 PM              

I thought you were talking about your ex.

posted January 13, 2005 12:11 AM              

devilfish... oh yeah... he was very sleazy in his early 20s... actually, no... he's proven to have been very sleazy, period. but anyway... there really isn't a "rebound" relationship for him cause he was dealing with all these other women, but i suppose i'm the first "girlfriend" since the plastic boobie girl. he's 29. he's not a baby. plus... he's very self-absorbed... he would forever talk about himself... sometimes he would have been talking for 2 hours and i would be commiserating about his work crap before he had even asked me how i am or even how my day was... so... i guess... i should be happy?

mama mia... i'm starting to think what ppl say about cops is right... cops have a bad rep in relationships because they're supposed to be sleazy cheaters... but even if you have a good one, i'm thinking... it's just so hard to make a relationship work... i think his job has really messed with his head. i think because of all he sees, he's learnt to supress a lot of his feelings, just because he'd have to... and then the "loose" morality towards their relationships and marriages a lot of his colleagues have skewers everything even worse... even if he isn't doing the same things...

posted January 13, 2005 06:07 AM              

Funny you should say that. I have a lot of Pisces in my chart myself, but some of the Pisceans I've encountered - well, they can seem to be OK, but I never know what they really think. The men DEFINETELY have p/a traits, and my Piscean aunt was supersensitive and could seem as if she was trying to understand you on the surface, but you always got the feeling she was laughing at you behind your back.

I mentioned this to a Libra friend, about one never knowing what Pisces really thinks, and she reckoned it's because they don't know what they think either. (She has a Pisces brother.)
Having a lot of Pisces influence in my own chart, I would volunteer a guess that partly it's because they don't want to offend - but in doing so completely submerge their own opinions - but at the same time probably completely disagree with you from an emotional point of view. (They are probably even more churned up about the situation than you are!!) If they are Aries cusp-born, or have a lot of Aries in their chart, there is a tendency for this angst/contradiction to be expressed through massive, temperamental explosions!

LOL

posted January 13, 2005 12:25 PM              

as for cops being sleazy cheaters, I don't know, many men are sleazy cheaters but there is a tendency for any man who wants to be a better man to do what other men do, and they cheat. It comes from having no ability to make decisions.

example
ex b/f Gemini/Pisces rising says
"My friend Kevin said it would be a good idea to sleep with you first before we became serious"
So I said what do you want me to do, ask Kevin what we should have for breakfast too? and your therapist? and your mommy?

It was like that all the time, mommy said this, therapist said this, couldn't tell the truth because I told someone else and they said to do this...

Sure I'm bossy, but I am a Taurus, he was my love toy and I owned him! He liked that part, just not the part when he has to be alone for 3 minutes.

posted January 13, 2005 01:00 PM              

thing is right now, i am extremely self-conscious. not in all entirety, but with regards to the way i communicate. i am self-conscious about being too intense, not being light enough. all i want is to be a source of pleasure to people....a big ol' pleasure ball.

my merc is in gem in the 7th house, so youd think this wouldnt be a problem. but it opposes my neptune which is in sag, in the first house. ok, i have no idea what that really means i am still developing my intuition in regards to reading charts. what i do know is what i think and how it comes out are two different things.

but anyways, i just feel stifled because i feel things too much and do not have any sort of outlet going on. none. i dont write poetry cos i feel funny about it. my whole attitude to it is....is weird. i dont paint, write, potter... nothing for about 6 years now and being such an imaginative, sensitive, utterly receptive person...i feel like a balloon, thats near bursting. its got to the stage where i dont want to talk because it comes out wrong.

being a cancer lady, i know we emote better than we talk. you can just feel us...i find that people can always read me. its scary but true. i can never hide anything and nor do i want to. i love to meet new people and talk and share and find out about them. i absolutely love it. but lately it just leaves me emptier and feeling frustrated because i feel i could have communicated myself better.

so many times i have thought of running from this site cos i think i am received wrong...but i dont want to do that because i love it here. it is amazing and warm and all things wonderful. and aint no way you can feel me if i am just sitting staring/...OR CAN YOU?? we should experiment....

so i am just gonna keep trying, working on it until my SElf and me are united.

posted January 13, 2005 02:09 PM              

But not everything in life has a reason, so it's important not to try and fix the situation or take the blame off hand.

Example I had a person come to be about something he bought he was unhappy with and he wanted me to fix it, by fixing it I taking the blame, so you have to ask yourself whether or not you WANT to fix the problem, not if you need to, or would like to, or can, or if it's your responsibility. You don't have to take the blame because no one will care but you. It's not like you are going to be remembered for what you did.

Having a very self absorbed sister growing up, helped me figure that out, so that if someone has a problem that I want to fix because I know I can, I always ask myself if I am getting anything out of it which is selfish. But I have to be selfish, or else I will be a martyr. one or the other.

I mean we all want to take away someone's heartbreaks, but it doesn't feel too good, and it's not our problem anyway to make someone happy ultimately. Men who are unhappy usually always are, they go nowhere. That's my experience. Even if there was a chance and I blew it, years later that guy is still nowhere where people are concerned.

So I am never sorry to say, hey it's not my problem because fixing that would suck for me.
And I say don't blame me because you feel bad today, I am not obsessed with fixing you, like you are obsessed with getting me to care.

posted January 13, 2005 03:00 PM              

yea, i love to decorate....and clean.

will stop talking, thinking and start doing.

posted January 13, 2005 05:01 PM              

But it's more that you believe at the time you say it. And pisces are naturally just very private, so it's not that they're being deceptive so much as that they're afraid of being vulnerable. It's sort of like having to shield yourself from the rest of the world because they would hurt you if you came too close. A lot of pisces people (self included) "hide" themselves. It's more about self-protection than lying.