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Topic: A Drowning Fish
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ghanima81 Knowflake Posts: 1284 From: MAINE! :) Registered: Aug 2003
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posted August 21, 2004 11:32 AM
Yes, darling. Pompey just scored to make the game against Charlton 1-1, so that's good for me!!Look forward to speaking with you later!! Have a good one!! Ghani IP: Logged |
astro junkie Moderator Posts: 10049 From: Registered: Nov 2003
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posted August 21, 2004 06:23 PM
*hiccup* ... so how was the Vermouth? ... *burp* IP: Logged |
neptune lady Knowflake Posts: 161 From: Registered: Jun 2004
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posted August 22, 2004 12:56 AM
Awwwwwww, poor dear...we're all here for ya!IP: Logged |
LibraSparkle Moderator Posts: 5993 From: Vancouver USA Registered: May 2004
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posted August 22, 2004 01:47 AM
Hey Swerve  Just reading through the thread and wondered if you know the significance of the number 29? From Star Signs: 29 Grace Under Preassure "The 29 is a number of perhaps the heaviest Karma of all. It tests the person or entity it represents for spiritual strength, through trials and tribulations echoing the Old Testament story of Job. The life is filled with uncertainties, treachery and deception from others, unreliable friends, unexpected dangers - and considerable grief and anxiety caused by members of the opposite sex. It's a number of grave warnings in every area of the personal life and career. ..." IP: Logged |
Swerve Knowflake Posts: 811 From: London Registered: Nov 2002
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posted August 22, 2004 05:29 PM
Hello LibraSparkle - no I was not aware of that but find it very interesting as that is EXACTLY the story that has stuck in my mind since I was a child. I feel like I am being tested all the time to the point of breaking to see if I can handle it and stay true and love my fellow man. What concerns me more is the fact that she must be going throught the same things, and I know she has been bullied terribly, suffers from some kind of epileptic fits and is very low in self-esteem. If she has had to endure anything like I have on an emotional level then I have to protect her. I will not stand for it, and we have connected on this subject before. Neither of us is likely to start wallowing in self-pity, but it can effect how positive you are allowed to think. You know, after Navia's desciption, Sthenri thinking there is something there, my own investigations into the situation, and numerology linking us on all levels, I really am starting to believe. I think Destiny is truly calling. It just feels right on every level. But you know how life can be, and what LibraSparkle said is spot on, so I am not going to allow my heart to float up into the clouds just yet. The higher they fly, the harder they fall. Goes against the grain to be this realistic, but I refuse to allow myself to be weak anymore. Swerve
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LibraSparkle Moderator Posts: 5993 From: Vancouver USA Registered: May 2004
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posted August 22, 2004 05:33 PM
Yeah. I feel it too. I was born on the 29th.You seem like a really good guy, Swerve Good luck with this gal  IP: Logged |
Swerve Knowflake Posts: 811 From: London Registered: Nov 2002
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posted August 22, 2004 06:00 PM
Thank you darling. Swerve
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Swerve Knowflake Posts: 811 From: London Registered: Nov 2002
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posted August 22, 2004 08:29 PM
I sent her a text message 2 hours ago."I want to see you. Dreams can only take you so far. x" No response as of yet. Is this kind of thing a mistake? Is it pressure? I'm too confused to know if I am making the right choices, but I was inspired to listen to my heart after reading all the positive posts and energy you guys put forth on all of these forums. Swerve IP: Logged |
LibraSparkle Moderator Posts: 5993 From: Vancouver USA Registered: May 2004
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posted August 22, 2004 08:52 PM
What a sweet message  Maybe her phone is off? *shrug* Just tell her, look chick... I'm a Pisces and I'm Swervilicious You know you want me  IP: Logged |
Swerve Knowflake Posts: 811 From: London Registered: Nov 2002
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posted August 23, 2004 02:36 AM
I think she secretly likes these little things that I do, but she never comments on them or replies straight away. Not sure why. I once sent her something and got frustrated 5 days later when she hadn't contacted me. I told her off and she replied immediately quoting the text from 5 days previous so she HAD read it, and it had obviously had some effect.Why is she like this? It does my head in because I have to second-guess her all the time and never know if she really does have any feelings for me. Swerve
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Navia Knowflake Posts: 127 From: U.S. Registered: Jul 2004
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posted August 23, 2004 02:44 AM
Maybe she's out with her friends right now. I'll bet that she has read it and liked it. When I dated I was very cool about things like that. Maybe she feels that you are drawn to the challenge of trying to get her to like you. Make her respect you, though, because she wants to. IP: Logged |
Swerve Knowflake Posts: 811 From: London Registered: Nov 2002
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posted August 23, 2004 05:10 PM
Called her tonight, but she didn't answer. She always has her phone with her. Left a message to say hey maybe we could go out sometime, catch up , kept it light. Hour goes by, nothing again. Had to end this rollercoaster nightmare so sent her a text telling her that I don't want to be phoning her if she doesn't want to call back, that I love her as a friend and care about her, that I deserve more respect and have other things I could be doing if she really doesn't care. Told her to call me if she cared or....bye...X. Feel sick.
Nothing coming through. Nightmare has come around again. Not sure where I go from here. IP: Logged |
LibraSparkle Moderator Posts: 5993 From: Vancouver USA Registered: May 2004
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posted August 23, 2004 05:37 PM
I think you're sweatin' it too much. Give her a chance to get back to you.I can't really speculate on what's going on in her life, or her feelings for you. Who knows what's going on with her. Maybe she's busy right now... maybe she's nervous about her feelings. It could be pretty much anything. Busy yourself with other things, hon. She'll get back to you  IP: Logged |
Swerve Knowflake Posts: 811 From: London Registered: Nov 2002
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posted August 23, 2004 05:42 PM
I'm slightly scared she's wary of me now, maybe even telling her friends that I am a pain in the arse. Fact is , if I were in her position I would pay a friend more respect and would respond immediately if I thought they were upset.Maybe I set my standards too high - maybe I don't. I know I do what feels right. IP: Logged |
sthenri Moderator Posts: 4220 From: Generic New England City Registered: May 2003
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posted August 23, 2004 07:28 PM
Swerve your standards are not too high for you, only they seem unrealistic for her, that is true.Why, we never know. She could be out of town, or have a family emergency. Better to act on the safe side and pretend for the sake of friendship that there must have been a crisis. When you see her again, tell her you know she must have been very busy not to reply and then give her time to formulate a response. If she reacts to your last message, tell her you got over it, and now you are busy with other things. If she wants to talk, great, if not, you understand You may have to bluff here but even if it bothers you, at that moment you will have other things to do so that much is true. If you are on the phone tell her "I'm not that great on the phone and email is so boring, I can't be bothered unless we speak in person you know?" She can't argue with that. Stick to your guns and keep the conversation short until she makes a date. "This is just a conversation you say, we don't have to make a date now, BUT email and phone conversations that are long are difficult for me to handle, I can't handle three things at once, Well?" She is trying to put together a response and she doesn't move as fast as you. Everytime you contact her, she has to re-***** the situation, as nerve wracking as that sounds. That's just the way women work, we are very careful about communication since we do not know what is expected of us. She is wary already I think, of you and all men. So don't take it personally. If you are upset by her behavior, then do not contact her until she contacts you, just keep up to date with small contacts such as, saw this article and thought you would like it. Or share a story. But never ask how she is, or get personal again until she comes around. She will feel touched and miss the personal contact. Right now she is overwhelmed, and she is a Gemini, so she does get nervous. Better to walk on the painless side, if you get my meaning. She isn't going anywhere as Geminis are not that fickle with platonic friends. It just takes them a while, to get involved romantically, since they enjoy for the most part, the friendship. I would be suprised if she didn't contact you, but don't be too shocked when she does. You can keep her up to date with your life, or small news, but never act like you expect a response. She will notice. Take Care, Natasha
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sthenri Moderator Posts: 4220 From: Generic New England City Registered: May 2003
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posted August 23, 2004 07:41 PM
That word was Reassess..Do not get angry about these communication games, they are not worth getting upset over, but women do play games on the phone sometimes. Basically it's a sign of emotional immaturity, but that could also mean she has a person in her life who is a mess and she's helping out. You never know. She could also be breaking up with someone, or looking over her current love interest. Geminis often have someone already in the pocket, who adores him or her. It's good for a Gemini to have someone with some pride but not too much. You do not sound like the typical lover of an immature Gemini, so she may really be thinking this over. In that case, that's good. She needs to think about what you are really saying and look at her current situation to make necessary adjustments. Just recently a Gemini bad mouthed me all over town because I stood her up for a phone call due to a personal crisis. Before I could talk to her she had already judged me. If I talk to her and she's changed her attitude so that she is willing to forgive but wants to hear why, we will remain friends, but if she stays angry I would be upset. I am often out of town and I do not call anyone when dealing with personal issues, because everyone can hear me, Just a thought, In this case I would seriously consider keeping it light and short for at least two-three weeks while she thinks about what you said. That will give her time to work out her emotions, and feel secure in your confidence about what you want. Sometimes too much communication looks like a lack of confidence and she was teetering on the edge already. She can't ignore you, and you are already a romantic possiblity on the horizon in her mind, she is hyper aware of that, That's my opinion. Natasha
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Swerve Knowflake Posts: 811 From: London Registered: Nov 2002
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posted August 24, 2004 01:29 AM
You are a very special type of person, the kind I wish I had had more of around me in the past. Your words know just how to soothe the savage beast that is my tortured ego.Thank you Natasha. Swerve
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LibraSparkle Moderator Posts: 5993 From: Vancouver USA Registered: May 2004
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posted August 24, 2004 04:22 PM
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Swerve Knowflake Posts: 811 From: London Registered: Nov 2002
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posted August 24, 2004 04:45 PM
Nothing. I am not expecting anything, feeling as if the door has closed, possibly by my own hand. In a strange way I feel better, as if a weight has been lifted. I love her but I can let her go. She isn't ready for me.I am beginning to realise that my kind of love is a little different to most of the people I encounter. Never been the type who could pull a string of women and just go with the flow. Until now. I feel like being a naughty boy for a bit. After all, I have fulfilled the spiritual side of my Pisces nature time and again, but what about the non-commital, playful, promiscuous side? I want to feel good for once without all the heaviness. Perhaps this is a new chapter for me. Swerve
p.s. ....Still be nice if she calls......
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LibraSparkle Moderator Posts: 5993 From: Vancouver USA Registered: May 2004
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posted August 24, 2004 05:12 PM
I've been with my hubby for almost 10 years. One of the most valuable lessons I've learned about love in this relationship is that we each have our own ideas about how to love and be loved.I read this really great book called The Five Love Languages. Acts of service, gifts, physical touch, words of affirmation, and quality time. We all need a combonation of these from our loved ones to keep our "love tanks" full, and we also need to give a combonation of these things to keep our loved one's "love tanks" full... BUT one of these love languages speaks to each of us the loudest. I think it's important to figure out what your loved one's love language is, and your own. I also think it is very important not to impose your ideas of how to be loved onto someone else. It is our job, IMO, to figure out what the other person's language is and speak it to them, for them, because you love them. I'm not just talking about intimate lovers, but child/parent relationships, friends, etc etc. From my experience, I've noticed the best way to tell a person's love language is to judge which one they tend to use the most. Treat people as you'd like to be treated ... it's deeply ingraved in our subconsiousness. IP: Logged |
Swerve Knowflake Posts: 811 From: London Registered: Nov 2002
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posted August 24, 2004 05:48 PM
LibraS, hi darling, all I know is that it got ridiculous. Not returning calls, not responding to text messages, treading on eggshells, trying not to scare her, being her friend first, holding back my feelings, and lots of other compromises made just to tread water.NO MORE!!! I have been reading other threads regarding Gemini's and it seems they are selfish, careless, inconsiderate, superficial, mistrusting, childish and cold to others at the drop of a hat. My sympathy has expired, and my wrath is close to being unveiled (2 parts Scorpio to add firepower to an Aquarian sharp evolved-Pisces perspective - DO NOT **** me off!).  She fails to see what I can be for her, and she fails to show me enough respect to earn any from me to her. I am a man of much character, having survived a lot of trials and tribulations, and suffering through high sensitivity with an unbreakable willpower. And now I have to play childish games just to hear her voice? I think not. It is most definitely her loss.  Swerve
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pixelpixie Moderator Posts: 4236 From: Ontario Canada Registered: Jun 2005
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posted August 24, 2004 06:12 PM
*pats the spot beside her on the couch*Come tell me about it.  IP: Logged |
Swerve Knowflake Posts: 811 From: London Registered: Nov 2002
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posted August 24, 2004 06:16 PM
I want a Scorpio and I want one now.  Wondering if a Pisces would be good for me.....not sure....don't get on with all of them, love 'em or hate 'em.
Swerve
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neptune lady Knowflake Posts: 161 From: Registered: Jun 2004
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posted August 24, 2004 06:24 PM
Aww, sweetie anytime! (((Swerve)))IP: Logged |
ghanima81 Knowflake Posts: 1284 From: MAINE! :) Registered: Aug 2003
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posted August 24, 2004 06:51 PM
Me, too, please!! LOLAwe, babes. Sorry about that. She doesn't seem to have been up to scratch for you in the end. It feels terrible, but at the same time, you are right. If she wasn't giving back what she was getting, who says she ever would? Not all Gemini's are like that, I guess she just isn't in the same place as you, so it is HER LOSS. Many women would agree that there aren't enough men like you around, so go forth and spread thy seed....... (not literally, that would be a bit pervy) Just keep your options open, play the field a bit. Somebody may be just as in love with you as you are/were with her, and you haven't noticed it cuz you've been all wrapped up in her. Open them specs, your lady in waiting could be just beyond your Piscean gaze....... Love and light, Ghani IP: Logged | |