posted July 15, 2004 04:55 AM              

By the way, FYI IrishEyes and RA --- Paras' "virgin ears" are male. And I think they are far from virgin!

Yeah, paras!!! Where are you - Sleeping Beauty???

Wake up Little Suzie!! and fill us in on those crazy dreams of yours!

posted July 15, 2004 01:31 PM              

Temperatures in the mid-nineties + a living space that is always a few degrees warmer + no air conditioning = one knocked-out Paras. Lately it's less like sleeping and more like being in a daze. The only dream I can remember was about three spiders (I'm a major arachnophobe, btw). Two were big, you know, ta******a-sized, and one of those was white. The smaller one was black with brown spots. My asked my dad to kill it for me, he ended up flicking it -- and it nearly landed on my foot! So I ran it over and over and over with the wheels of my computer chair. Not very pleasant.

Ra, 26taurus was right, I am a guy (last time I checked, anyway). She's also right about my ears not being virgin. Or any other part...

I know I haven't posted much lately but I have been checking the board every day. I'm still here!

Oh, and by the way...
...I really love you guys. And gals.

posted July 16, 2004 07:25 AM              

Did I ever tell you that you remind me of an elf from The Lord of the Rings?

posted July 17, 2004 03:01 AM            

No really though, that is very very nice!!! Cuz I mean, I look at the pictures of me and think I am soooooo un-photogenic. I want to re-do everything.. and to have someone say that makes my heart swell up so much.
Sincerely, thank you.

You should seriously use that line on women.... it works. I am now putty in your hands!!

posted July 18, 2004 04:22 AM            

Remember that movie 'Cool World'? I'll bet you wished cartoons were real then, huh?

posted July 19, 2004 09:53 PM              

~anyway~

I love the things you say about rats. And you've hit the bull's-eye again, you insightful Scorpioness, you. How do you know about the one and only time I ever found Kim Basinger particularly attractive???

Now let me tell about the dream I just woke up from.

...

I was in a woodsish, park-like area. There were two people with me, a man and a woman. We were investigating witches, at a site where they supposedly practiced their craft. We were talking to -- or rather listening to -- a tall woman with long, curly reddish hair and beautiful clear green eyes. She was the "head witch" of whatever group had, until recently, met at this peaceful nature spot. I saw a few small circles, maybe a foot across, impressed into the dirt, some of them overlapping. The effect was like ripples in a pond to me. The witchy woman was telling us how this spot was sacred to her and her fellows, that they had abandoned it recently because too many people had become curious and started spying on them. I don't remember a lot of words from this dream, rather very strong impressions. The impression here was that of a special and sacred thing becoming a 'tourist spot' to outsiders. She told us how her group was getting headaches from the attention this place received, even after they had stopped there. The impression of myself andf the two people I was with was like we were reporters, investigators, something of that nature.

...

Then we were following the witchy woman. She was going to show us something. We were crossing a lake, or part of one. The water was very shallow, only a few inches deep. The witchy woman walked to the far right, with thge other man in our group close to her. He seemed gentle and kind. To the left of them was the woman in our group, who seemed suspicious and untrusting, and didn't like tromping through the water. I was to the far left, mostly listening. The witch was telling us how we should all have clear eyes, and something about the sun being the reason they were white.

...

posted July 20, 2004 06:50 PM            

Before I get into any of the symbology, I would like to make a few guesses about you, just to make sure I am on the right track ... which I am unsure of because some of what I think is quite different than how you present yourself here on the site.

You are above average in intelligence, of that I am quite certain. You enjoy writing? Are you a sci-fi fan? There is something building within you, born of desire and indeed spiritual awareness, but at odds with certain aspects of your personality and limited by some sort of social ...... ineptitude?

Do you tend to live in the past? Is there something about your future that you fear? You seem to be concerned or anxious about your life path and feel somewhat lost at the moment. Sometimes you harbor negative feelings about yourself and are often too hard on yourself. Was your mother or father overbearing?

I do not know what your relationship situation is or has been, but your dreams strike me as being compensatory where all of the dream females are concerned. You lack female companionship, and I think this has been the case for most of your life. I could be way off and I truly do not wish to intrude upon your private life, but I would really appreciate an honest answer so I/we can understand the true symbology. If I am way off, then the female presence in your dreams is a reflection of the player that you are.

Am I right about anything so far?

posted July 21, 2004 12:30 AM              

My IQ was last tested at 135.
I love to write; have a natural affinity with the English language; always got A's in school for Spelling, Grammar, and any kind of writing assignment -- without trying.
Your statement about "something building within me" really shocks me. That is precisely how I have been feeling, for sometime around a year now, and the feeling gets stronger as time passes. But I also feel a frustration associated with it, like there's a blockage that I can't identify or remove, something hindering the coming-out of whatever it is. It's like a revelation being withheld until I...?
I don't live in the past at all, but mistakes from my past dictate some of my present actions.
I am always concerned with my life path, and have never felt anything but lost. For a person who tries to base everything on reason, not knowing the reason I am here (in this life, in this body) is just difficult. But I live with it.
Too hard on myself? Is it possible to be that? Being hard on oneself is the way to evolvement -- being easy on yourself allows spiritual laziness. I am hard on everyone, myself included. If we don't set expectations for ourselves, what would be our motivation to do anything?
My mother and father were the opposite of overbearing -- they were a bit too lenient. That made it difficult for me when I became a legal adult. I had to learn a lot of lessons the hard way. At least I learned those lessons well.
Compensatory? You're no doubt right about that. Not only do I lack female companionship (and this hurts more than I care to put into words), but I have some subconscious issues about females, monogamy, and relationships. The last few I was with used me up pretty bad and spit me out after they got what they wanted -- or when they found something they liked better. I had never been so blatantly LIED TO in my life. I've dealt with it pretty well, consciously, over time, but I bet the subconscious still holds a grudge or two.

Well, there. I feel horrible about having gone on about myself that way. But I wanted to validate the things you said. I really appreciate the insights. You really are quite amazing.

And happy anniversary! Nine years, eh? That's something to be proud of. I'ts great to hear of a couple happily together for so long. I wish you both the best, for the next nine years as well. And the nine after that...

...

Okay, here's the latest horrorshow from my head. What I can remember anyway. Seem to be having a difficult time remembering all of it lately. I think it's the heat. God bless Autumn, and hurry up, will you?

1st dream:
It was about a vampire movie. Not your usual vampire movie, though, these were lava monster vampires. Everything molten rock. First I was watching the movie, which scared the hell out of me. There was a certain part I couldn't watch, had to turn my head away from the screen. Then later i was in the movie. I was one of the lava-creature/vampires, somewhat low on the vampire heirarchy. I was led through the tunnels by a LCV (lava creature/vampire) who was higher on the pecking order than me. We came to a shallow river of lava (which I knew we could both walk through as easily as walking on the ground) and he told me to stop and wait for him. He set off down the river, and I waited by its edge. I knew he was going to a big chamber where the head lcv's were. He'd announce my presence, possibly take instructions, and then come back to get me. I had the feeling i was going to be sacrificed, killed by the head lcv's. Little lava creatures, like small humanoid shapes, came hissing out of the lava at me, but they were nothing to me and I crushed thim with my fist, unworried.

I woke up from this dream scared out of my mind. It took a good thirty seconds to a minute to reassure myself that i was alright, that it was just a dream, to shake the feeling of fear. I dozed back off to be immediately awakened (somewhat) by a perceived creaking of the front screen door. Half dreaming and half awake, I thought I looked out the front door's window to see a vampire standing there (not part lava creature this time), with green eyes. Then I (finally) came all the way awake.

2nd dream:

I was in an apartment (mine) on an upper floor of a building. (There are those upper floors again!) Across the street was another tall building, some kind of government agency. I was in a back bedroom, which was darkened, watching the front door of the building with binoculars. I saw the guards checking out or speaking to people coming in. The guards wore dark suits, had little headsets clipped to their ears. I knew they (whatever government agency it was) was after me, had marked me as a troublemaker. I planned to do something about it, but I can't remember what exactly.

...

I remember going up some stairs inside the government building, hoping no one would see and stop me before I got where I needed to go.

...

Upper floor, gov't building. A cafeteria. Everything white and chrome, very mechanistic and impersonal. I'm going through the cafeteria line with everyone else, and outrage gets the better of me. I look at the woman handing out dinner rolls and blurt:
"You know what you are? An object dispenser! A job fit for machines!"
The lady next to her says, "What's wrong with machines?"
"Nothing," I reply, "but they're not human." I'm focused on the first lady. "Do you believe in the Spirit -- the human Spirit?"
She nods and smiles, a tad embarrassed but not upset at all.
"It's not like a machine, is it?" I ask. "The body's a machine, the Spirit is not."

And that's all I can remember.

I really wish I could remember more of these two dreams, I know a lot happened in them, lots more than what i recall. *sigh* Oh, well, maybe next time.

posted July 26, 2004 04:52 PM              

My last dream involved drugs. I really don't want to talk about it either.

What happened? After my last post, this string just... stopped.

posted July 31, 2004 08:11 AM              

I have a question, for anybody: I have heard that one can't read in a dream, because words are a left-brain function and dreams are a product of the right. Is this true? I could swear I read that guy's name off his ID card with no problem in that last dream.

Well, I'm off to read and then sleep. Well, unless I see anything else I want to post a reply to first. So probably more madness on the way. (:

posted July 31, 2004 03:05 PM              

The best dream I had where I read something was one in which the clouds in the sky spelled out "One Love" over some mountains. In the dream I was trying to find my camera to take a picture of it, and it slowy evaporated. What a cool dream though.

Interestingly my mother dreams in black and white. When she told me that - I was shocked - I thought everyone dreamt in color. She also dreams that she is on the outside - watching the dream. She sees herself and the events as if she is watching a TV screen.