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wheelsofcheese
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posted April 28, 2009 07:09 AM
 
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i mean i looked down, saw the polish on my big toes ruined and suddenly my world crashed around me. i felt disgusting and dirty like no one would ever want to be around me. that i was repulsive.
I felt so sad for you when I read that. I wish I could give you a hug.
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good girl
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posted April 28, 2009 08:53 AM
I'm sorry to hear you're so miserable at home.
Glad to see you posting, I wondered where you'd gone.
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Yin
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posted April 28, 2009 10:09 AM
Leaping, you sounded just like me when you were talking about feeling ugly etc.
I wonder if there are some hard transits going on right now because I feel like I need to do all this maintenance on my body right now in order to feel better.
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leapinglemur14
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posted April 28, 2009 08:48 PM
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posted April 29, 2009 09:17 PM
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good girl
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posted May 01, 2009 02:02 PM
YEAH!! I'm glad you're gonna write more about yourself. I had to laugh: quote:
I'm about the least artistic person I know......
..............yet I think of myself as artistic. In my head...
LOL! That is so like me...deny reality and substitute my own! LOL! Oh yea, I can relate to that! IP: Logged |
leapinglemur14
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posted May 06, 2009 03:20 AM
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wheels of cheese
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posted May 07, 2009 08:47 AM
Jeez louise. This all sounds rough. Is there anything you can do to get out from under all these people? Sounds like they're sucking the life force out of you. Is it possible to move? Even to a house-share or something? IP: Logged |
leapinglemur14
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posted May 07, 2009 12:55 PM
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good girl
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posted May 07, 2009 09:41 PM
Darn that's too bad, about your mom losing her job just when your begining to earn money.Do you like waitressing? I used to be a waitress (resturants) and I really liked it. Good tips too. Are you working full or part time? IP: Logged |
leapinglemur14
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posted May 11, 2009 08:56 AM
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posted May 11, 2009 09:24 AM
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GypseeWind
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posted May 11, 2009 10:53 AM
Dear Leaping
Didja know that one of the first things you learn in Art Therapy is how to determine what a persons childhood was like by asking them to draw a pic of the house they grew up in? I thought i`de throw that in there since you mentioned liking to draw houses and your interest in Art Therapy. Best Wishes in a truly AMAZING field.IP: Logged |
GypseeWind
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posted May 11, 2009 10:54 AM
Dear Leaping
Didja know that one of the first things you learn in Art Therapy is how to determine what a persons childhood was like by asking them to draw a pic of the house they grew up in? I thought i`de throw that in there since you mentioned liking to draw houses and your interest in Art Therapy. Best Wishes in a truly AMAZING field.IP: Logged |
leapinglemur14
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posted May 11, 2009 11:57 AM
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posted May 12, 2009 08:54 PM
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MyVirgoMask
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posted May 12, 2009 10:41 PM
I wish I could give you a hug right now.
You're such a wonderful, loving person, and so full of life. I think you're just a very decent, good human being, and that is not something you can become, it's just who you are.Please be kind to yourself
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VinayM19
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posted May 13, 2009 03:49 AM
@leapinglemur14Well whatever happens always try your best to be in positive mood, imagine your future to be the perfect way you would like to, well to imagine you don't have to pay anything ... 
never give any importance to negative things in life, I believe you will soon come across brighter side of your life. Believe it and it will be there right in your life. "We believe what we are..." ------------------
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leapinglemur14
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posted May 13, 2009 10:20 AM
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MyVirgoMask
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posted May 13, 2009 03:16 PM
Well, wasn't your Jupiter/MC ruler in Gemini?
I'd say it's possible you might change your mind a few times....which isn't really a bad thing, considering it's about refinement. But as a random comment/advice, I'd say try not to put yourself under too much pressure and pin yourself to one thing entirely, maybe just don't think TOO far ahead (unforeseeable changes, etc) because the picture will get clearer with time.
You seem passionate about massage, so maybe take a course/certification/something like that, and educate yourself. The body healing stuff has so many avenues...massage, homeopathy, flower essences, herbalism, Reiki.
I have a client who's opening her own practice and she was trying to think of what to offer, and I was amazed at how many types of massage they've got. Aromatherapy massage, hot stone...it's endless. So maybe something that gives you lots of options to explore. It can be like a good job you like on your own time in the future, and would even free up time for you to explore other things you'd like to study!
I think it's just good to give yourself breathing room, and not lock yourself into something that won't allow you to grow. I feel it's all about making choices that are a step in the direction of what you like, but nothing etched in stone.
But that's just me.
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katatonic
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posted May 13, 2009 04:07 PM
leaping, please be careful. i am not a fly on the wall so i don't know your real situation with the BF but it can be dangerous to feel you are here to save someone from themselves. i don't know how bad these arguments are but the breakup/apologize, etc scenario sounds a little red flaggy to me. please be careful. loving someone doesn't mean taking their garbage lying down, or rolling around in it. pluto opp mars is a potentially volatile combination...there are a lot of ways to defuse abusive behaviour and some of them are very simple and effective...
and i hope you don't mind my saying so.
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katatonic
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posted May 13, 2009 04:24 PM
double post.
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good girl
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posted May 13, 2009 07:07 PM
Wow, I don't get here to LL as much as I used to and I miss so much. Sounds like you have a lot on your plate...{hug}Man I'm worried about you with your boyfriend (I completely understand that feeling of wanting to save someone from themselves), just don't let that be an excuse for taking abusive behaviour. Maybe medication will help, I hope. How long have you guys been together? Is he your first serious boyfriend? Is he physically abusive? Looking at your chart I think some sort of teaching is right up your alley, that and there is a strong tie to the 12th to your career. Counseling seems to go well with your chart. But I think whatever you choose, in a few years there will be a change in the direction you're going anyway. When pluto conjuncts your neptune in the 10th. Anyway, keep us posted. I feel for you, and hope things take an upswing. IP: Logged |
leapinglemur14
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posted May 14, 2009 01:42 AM
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