posted February 11, 2021 05:24 PM            

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Originally posted by Dumuzi:

perfect day for it too, makes it even better

i'm like a little kid no matter how many times these things happen i get excited and happy about them like it's the first time

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posted February 11, 2021 07:48 PM            

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Originally posted by Chanterelle:
Online school was canceled for rain, so I got to smoke a bowl and be synchronicitous instead. I’d call that a good Thursday.

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sounds like one

posted February 12, 2021 10:52 AM              

But I have noticed that sometimes when a person has a certain Sign really strong, and they come upon a person with the Sign after very strong--it's not uncommon for the former person to just not "get" the latter at all, which can lead to one of two common reactions. "I don't like them, they are sneaky, something off about them, I don't trust them" etc OR more rarely, "ooh, they are so mysterious, I can learn something from them, etc" Semi-Sextile Signs have a 2-12 House connotation to them.

When the former reaction takes place, it can lead to biases about that Sign. It's not quite the outright friction, butting heads, war, etc of square Sign relationship, which can also lead to biases.

@ Dumuzi--nothing that is not super general and mainstream/common knowledge i.e. in some sects of Hinduism she is part of the "trinity" of gods that represent the creative birth, maintenance, and death/destruction/rebirth cycle of the physical level of the Universe with Shiva being associated with the last part.

There seems to be something Plutonian and/or Saturnian about Shiva. That's all I got.

(And yet again, I disappoint another Lass [?], leaving her wanting more...

Just joking around.)

posted February 12, 2021 03:01 PM              

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Originally posted by Chanterelle:
I’m pretty sure you meant he not she, right? (Shiva)
That’s what I meant about the grape-stomping perhaps relating to Shiva’s dance of destruction?

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Hmm, found this:

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Shiva Has Both Male and Female Features

Images of Shiva usually show him to have an androgynous, if not feminine, appearance, yet he is a male god. Sometimes, he is actually pictured as being split down the middle, one half being the male god Shiva, the other half being his wife, Parvati.

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So yes, technically "male", but more of a He/She, towards the he? I think if Shiva was around today, they might call themselves "they".

But to many straight males, we consider Shiva female fo sho... We often call them "ex spouse" or the like. Like, "Debbie the destroyer."

(Joking, and I know it goes the other way as well).

posted February 12, 2021 05:32 PM            

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Originally posted by Chanterelle:
80 mile round trip, 5 lbs coffee, 1 oz herb, 3 bars of chocolate... no telling which will last longest.😉
YouTube time for kiddos... g’night.

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an oz takes me like a week to get through

@GalacticCoreExplosion

it's cool, got a synchronicity anyway so it all worked out

lass yeah, i just came here from anonymous boards and go with what people assume first easier to not announce that especially at first while i was still using them because that gets into all kinds of **** and people knew my chart

and no worries i can take a joke, and i'm bi so i know how awful dating a woman can be 🤣

i think they both had a destructive side, i know shiva has a few forms rudra being one

posted February 13, 2021 01:02 AM              

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Originally posted by Chanterelle:
Yeah, Shiva and Kali both stomped all over everything.

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Sounds like they were raging narcissists.

@ Dumuzi

posted February 24, 2021 01:02 PM            

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Originally posted by GalacticCoreExplosion:
@ Librapurr, no there is a different dynamic between Signs next to each other and Signs in square. The latter being more overtly and obviously tense/stressed.

But I have noticed that sometimes when a person has a certain Sign really strong, and they come upon a person with the Sign after very strong--it's not uncommon for the former person to just not "get" the latter at all, which can lead to one of two common reactions. "I don't like them, they are sneaky, something off about them, I don't trust them" etc OR more rarely, "ooh, they are so mysterious, I can learn something from them, etc" Semi-Sextile Signs have a 2-12 House connotation to them.

When the former reaction takes place, it can lead to biases about that Sign. It's not quite the outright friction, butting heads, war, etc of square Sign relationship, which can also lead to biases.

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posted February 24, 2021 06:46 PM            

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Originally posted by Dumuzi:
an oz takes me like a week to get through

@GalacticCoreExplosion

it's cool, got a synchronicity anyway so it all worked out

lass yeah, i just came here from anonymous boards and go with what people assume first easier to not announce that especially at first while i was still using them because that gets into all kinds of **** and people knew my chart

and no worries i can take a joke, and i'm bi so i know how awful dating a woman can be 🤣

i think they both had a destructive side, i know shiva has a few forms rudra being one

funny that you mention kaali though i have both kaali and rudra asteroids conjunct my sun (among a bunch of other ones)

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Try vaping or eating it then, if you don’t already.

posted February 25, 2021 03:27 PM            

i'm not particularly self centered in all honesty, it took a long time for me to even understand my own needs mattered and i have a strong tendency to put myself out for other people

i tend to disregard my own feelings often as something irrelevant especially if there's conflict with someone else's 🤷‍♀️ i find the aries moon selfish **** to be very untrue for me, but i also don't even find tropical zodiac to be as accurate anyway

that being said i don't ever feel like vaping gets me high enough, doesn't hit the same

and while i can like edibles sometimes they make me crave just smoking, they're also not as quick and more time consuming if you're making them yourself

with edibles i like to eat them and smoke so i can be high while i wait for the high because i don't have the patience to just eat it and wait i want to be high immediately

@Chantarelle
my experiences with edibles have been mostly good, i did pass out once but that was after eating like 3x the recommended dosage and then smoking a few times (before they kicked in, as they first kicked in, and then while i was high)

fell asleep on a water bottle that wasn't closed properly woke up covered in water, but i had to have been sleeping like that for a bit because it had the cap on just not tight enough 🤣

i can't imagine why someone would call 911 over a weed high though, no matter how high ive been with just weed it's never like "i can't handle this" though in general i tend to tolerate drugs well and i've mixed many kinds all together and so on

i took 14g of shrooms once which is quite a bit over the max dose of what people suggest you should take, since like 5 or 6 is considered a "heroic dose" to some people, couldn't move and everything looked the same whether my eyes were open or closed

entire room around me gone just shroom visuals, insanely euphoric and nauseating at the same time, would definitely recommend doing that at least once ever though i'd do it again if it came up in the right context

i like downers too so im good with weed passing out lethargy though typically weed makes me want to do **** and talk to people, exercise etc

i liked heroin nodding off a lot when i was on it, so it's just a feeling i seek

posted February 25, 2021 05:59 PM            

That’s good that you don’t fit that stereotype, but some do.

I was not specific enough with my recommendation. I meant a dry herb (flower) vape. Vape pens are dumb. Yada yada entourage effect yada yada. And yes you’re completely correct that it’s not the same high, but, if you keep your vaped bud and use that in edibles you get a lot more mileage out of your weed. I was projecting (a Scorpio trait I’m thinking about, thanks to you), but I’d figure that an oz a week in an illegal state makes for a pretty expensive habit. So I made my suggestions. A
dry herb vape has a higher up front cost, but it would pay for itself pretty quickly. And bc the herb is already decarbed from the vaping you don’t need to do anything to it. Just add to a high fat food or some everclear and eat 😈
I combine edibles and smoking often for a more potent effect. We might both be drug resistant lol.

posted February 26, 2021 05:24 AM            

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Originally posted by Chanterelle:
I can almost understand why someone might call 911 saying “Help, I think I’m dead!”

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posted March 13, 2021 03:46 PM            

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Originally posted by placidus_flamingo:
You’ll have to excuse me. As might be appropriate for this discussion, I’m really high.

That’s good that you don’t fit that stereotype, but some do.

I was not specific enough with my recommendation. I meant a dry herb (flower) vape. Vape pens are dumb. Yada yada entourage effect yada yada. And yes you’re completely correct that it’s not the same high, but, if you keep your vaped bud and use that in edibles you get a lot more mileage out of your weed. I was projecting (a Scorpio trait I’m thinking about, thanks to you), but I’d figure that an oz a week in an illegal state makes for a pretty expensive habit. So I made my suggestions. A
dry herb vape has a higher up front cost, but it would pay for itself pretty quickly. And bc the herb is already decarbed from the vaping you don’t need to do anything to it. Just add to a high fat food or some everclear and eat 😈
I combine edibles and smoking often for a more potent effect. We might both be drug resistant lol.

As for the shrooms, damn dum you crazy! **** if you really want to straight up see god, maybe skip to ayuahasca.

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i thought i responded to you but i guess that never happened, my bad

i meant 2 weeks for an oz, i think i was drunk when i wrote that

i have a dry herb vape somewhere (i think, maybe my ex took it, i'd have to look at this point it can only be in like one place anyway)but i hated using it so i didn't really, if i'm going to smoke it has to be a joint or a blunt and it's partially a weight/feeling thing, how it's held etc

i think that comes from having smoked cigarettes on/off for so long (i havent had a cigarette since august at this point) where if im smoking something and it doesnt feel like that it feels off and wrong and not satisfying

when i smoked both weed and cigarettes a lot if i ended up using a bong or whatever to smoke i'd light a cigarette after so i still had that feel with it

i'm very particular with certain things and smoking is one of them, has to have a certain weight or feel similar to a cigarette, don't really care for flavored anything, get very annoyed if i have to smoke with my right hand because it feels wrong etc and it bothers me deeply to do things any other way than what i like so 🤷‍♀️ i mean i will sometimes anyway but not when given a choice

i've used drugs on/off (mostly on) since i was about 15 starting with opiates, it's not so much that i'm drug resistant it's that i like/can handle getting really ****** up

there was a night idk if i mentioned it or not here before, (this is my first day sober after a week+ weed binge and im lazy so i'm not looking to see if i did) where i used heroin, pain killers, benzos, muscle relaxers, coke, weed, alcohol, phenibut, and i cant remember what else actually there was something in the alcohol but something more "natural" and i may have also used some kratom that night... but that was all taken within a matter of an hour or 2 then i went out for a cigarette and wandered to a friends' house etc

it was just all there so i took it, it's legitimately amazing that i'm alive 🤷‍♀️

the 14g shroom trip was great

i had originally tried shrooms at a normal dosage and used them a few times and i had used lsd in large doses by then so i wanted them to really hit me

the friend who gave them to me was massively into shrooms and actually suggested a 16g trip but i barely got down the 7 of those chocolate squares i did eat

wouldve definitely puked automatically if i tried for 8, almost did later anyway a few times but it was worth it

i would love to take ayahuasca but it's hard to find that **** outside of retreats and has to be prepared a specific way etc and that's a lot of obstacles to get high, if the chance ever came up i'd take it but i haven't really sought it out

offhand i know of the place in florida which is supposedly ******

i just really don't think i'd like being that sort of high with someone sober watching me and like singing while they beat on a drum

i prefer to do that sort of stuff quietly and alone or with people who are also on it with me, ***** with my high otherwise

posted March 13, 2021 03:47 PM            

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Originally posted by Chanterelle:
🥸 Note to self: emote when joking! Here’s what I’m talking about: http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=hnZb5wi_jsU

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posted March 13, 2021 04:17 PM            

had a weird fight where she told me i was angry (i wasn't) about something really stupid i didn't care about (was a tarot reading) because i disagreed with her about 2 different things being equivalent a bit later on that were semi related to the reading (but they weren't even kind of the same it made no sense to call them equivalent)

i told her i wasnt angry and then tried to sort of reiterate my initial point which set her off more so i told her goodnight and tried to just end things there

i initially wasn't angry, but her telling me that i was repeatedly and ignoring what i was actually getting annoyed about (her projecting and responding to her projection) definitely was getting me there

she kept going i tried to say goodnight again and let her know that at a certain point i was going to stop being nice about it so it was better if things ended

she got upset that i wouldnt just change the subject to something else and instead defended my side of things and then was also upset that i didn't want to talk at all and that turned into this really dramatic meltdown on her behalf after i ended up calling her a ***** for refusing to pay attention to something i tried to tell her and insisting it was me trying to fight (it wasn't, i was trying to make **** calm)

so she lost her **** , was self harming etc and i just... realized i needed a lot of space, like maybe space forever but not necessarily

no hard feelings or anything, i care about her, but i lack the capacity to be fully present for someone who's behaving like that

i let her projections slide a lot before then, and they bothered me, her telling me she was jealous of me any time something good happened made me uncomfortable and stuff too

but having someone hurt themselves to control an argument while telling me unless i did exactly what she wanted me to do (change the subject, don't say goodnight, don't respond to her when she keeps talking at me about the subject she wants to change etc) i was causing her harm and not being sympathetic was just too much

some stuff about it was a bit reminiscent of my ex

i think i'm just going to avoid women with scorpio placements for the most part, the guys i know with scorpio placements have never acted like that but the women have just been... jesus i can't even, and actually no the scorpio mars horrible rebound dateguy was too much too come to think of it (actually ******* asked me to rank him as a kisser in comparison to other people, first date which would have been awkward if he wasnt the worst but he was the worst so it was horrible) 🤔 but one of my scorpio stellium guy friends and i have never even fought or anything, but we don't tend to have any kind of heavy conversations or interactions

we speak near daily and have for years but 🤷‍♀️

but yeah i just can't, and like i know that she was stressed about other **** and reacting to that more than anything and i understand self harm from personal experience (it's never someone else's fault, it's more just stress relief and being overwhelmed) so i'm not like faulting her for struggling with it

i just can't handle being bitched at for an emotion i don't feel then blamed for someone else hurting themselves when things escalated after i tried to leave the situation entirely and the start of the fight was them getting upset over something imagined

the jealousy stuff was uncomfortable and longterm weighing on me anyway, because it never mattered how much good **** she had going for her or what she was happy about if anything happened for me that was positive then she would be jealous and vocally openly so

which is awkward as **** anyway

the projection stuff was normal too

i once told her that i was feeling really depressed, and low energy and empty etc and i said that and idk one other sentence about it, literally 2 sentences and she started telling me how i was being "manic" and ranting at me like i'd been going on

told her that wasn't what manic was and... apparently she just makes words mean what she wants when she wants so that didn't do much and just a lot of **** like that

so the self harm blame was just that last thing that made me decide i needed to not speak

nothing against her, she has plenty of good qualities, i just don't like going to scorpio places i've realized

like i feel sort of guilty won't lie, but i'm not really at a place in my life where i can handle that