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Topic: Now that I finally found someone, he's dying :((
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Ami Anne
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posted August 21, 2011 04:12 PM
  
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Originally posted by Hera:
What do you mean by that, the connection was worth everything just to have it once in a lifetime? I feel the same way about him, btw...
Well I was singing this song last night. I will put it on.This is how I feel. For once in my life I was a character in a musical or a play about the deepest passions.
For once, they touched me and so I tasted them.
If I can't have them at least I tasted them.
I will put the song up.
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Ami Anne
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posted August 21, 2011 04:14 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2FZXU8WZ2xo&feature=related IP: Logged |
Hera
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posted August 21, 2011 04:27 PM
Very beautiful, Ami... Yes, one should have this experience at least once in a lifetime...He is beautiful in my eyes, he's not my type at all, but it goes beyong the physical and beyond the ego and the fights and the misunderstandings... It's a very spiritual love. I've had karmic ties before, in fact all my relationships were karmic, but none was PEACEFUL, despite being frought by so many arguments. I love his SOUL, if that makes sense.
I discovered my efforts to delete him were in vain. My e-mail has every conversation we ever had, still. It's all stored in there and it's too immense to delete it. And maybe I wasn't supposed to. 
I'm gonna send you his picture, even if he has changed a lot. His soul is still the same.
Thank you, honey, for sharing this with me.  IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted August 21, 2011 04:29 PM
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Originally posted by Hera:
Very beautiful, Ami... Yes, one should have this experience at least once in a lifetime...He is beautiful in my eyes, he's not my type at all, but it goes beyong the physical and beyond the ego and the fights and the misunderstandings... It's a very spiritual love. I've had karmic ties before, in fact all my relationships were karmic, but none was PEACEFUL, despite being frought by so many arguments. I love his SOUL, if that makes sense.
I discovered my efforts to delete him were in vain. My e-mail has every conversation we ever had, still. It's all stored in there and it's too immense to delete it. And maybe I wasn't supposed to.
I'm gonna send you his picture, even if he has changed a lot. His soul is still the same.
Thank you, honey, for sharing this with me.
Aww I have every word he ever sent me too even the bad ones lol Yes,it is the Soul
I was just thinking about this Hera
You and I have the unaspected Venus. Did his aspect your Venus?
This guy aspected very tightly with several planets.
Maybe that was part of why it was so deep.
What do you think?
Tell me about your unaspected Venus with him and back to you I will tell you my feelings when I look at his picture.
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Ami Anne
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posted August 21, 2011 04:33 PM
Also for triage and first aid----CRY!
Don't stop the tears.Encourage them.They will bring relief.
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Hera
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posted August 21, 2011 04:40 PM
I sent you the e-mail. Now waiting patiently.  That's the thing... my unaspected Venus doesn't make so many aspects with his chart. A trine to his Mars and a wide conjunction to his Chiron. It falls in his 7th house, though... His Venus makes even less aspects to my chart. A wide conjunction to Uranus (5 deg), maybe Jupiter but that's even wider (7 deg). It makes aspects to my asteroids, though. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted August 21, 2011 04:41 PM
I got it Hera and replied.
I am blocked to him and this whole thing for some reason.
I have no idea why but it happens sometimes where a wall goes up and I cannot feel.
I am not meant to.
I will look at your synastry
Want to check a few things out.IP: Logged |
Hera
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posted August 21, 2011 04:47 PM
I understand, no worries. I can't penetrate some people's energy, either. So don't bother with that. Would it help if I send you my picture? I think you should definitely feel me, your Sun is on my NN and opposite my Moon (but also Neptune, hope I don't confuse you). IP: Logged |
Hera
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posted August 21, 2011 04:51 PM
LEXX seems to feel his vibes. I think you are correct about him, LEXX, but it may be that what you saw is metaphoric. It does make sense, though. Would it help you to see his picture, even if it's old and he's changed a lot since then?IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted August 21, 2011 04:54 PM
Yes please send me your picture HeraTell me about your and his Neptunes and Venus' in synastry? IP: Logged |
Hera
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posted August 21, 2011 05:23 PM
In your inbox. We don't have any Venus-Neptune aspects in synastry, only a sextile in the composite (and an exact Venus-Pluto trine). In synastry, his Neptune trines my Mercury almost exact (also my Deja), my Neptune conjuncts his Sun exact. And that's pretty much all the Neptune action we have in synastry.
Composite chart - a totally different story. Neptune in the 1st, pisces Moon, Sun, Mercury, venus sextile Neptune, Moon square Neptune. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted August 21, 2011 05:25 PM
Let me ask some practical questions is you care to answer.Was he all over you before he had sex with you?
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Hera
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posted August 21, 2011 05:33 PM
We didn't have sex, Ami. Just talked a lot about it. In person, he was very respectful and managed to keep his hands under some control, lol. But he said he desired me and even had erotic dreams about me. (his Lust and Eros, which conjunct his Sun, are on my Moon-Neptune, hence the longing and the erotic dreams). IP: Logged |
Diana
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posted August 21, 2011 05:50 PM
Hmmm, I don't come to this site much, but every once in awhile I do, but I don't post. I never come to this part of the forum -- I somehow got redirected here, which I see as some sort of divine intervention, like I'm meant to warn you one last time. I am the girl from the other site who thinks he's a psychopath. I assure you it's not projection. I was going to break it down, but now I'm not, because I don't want to do all that work and take all that time when I can see you won't listen. Now I see he "isn't into pictures" and the picture you have of him is old and doesn't look like him. Fits with what I know of him. He doesn't want to leave any evidence after he's done with you. I think he's a criminal. I doubt it's even him -- or it's from many years ago. You've left out a lot of info about him on this site. I won't disclose it because I won't violate your privacy like that. I'm done with this. Do what you want but be careful. Introduce him to all the family and friends you can and write down as much info about him: address, phone number etc that you can. I'll be surprised if he agrees to meet anyone you suggest. IP: Logged |
LEXX
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posted August 21, 2011 05:53 PM
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Originally posted by Hera:
LEXX seems to feel his vibes. I think you are correct about him, LEXX, but it may be that what you saw is metaphoric. It does make sense, though. Would it help you to see his picture, even if it's old and he's changed a lot since then?
Oh yes! I usually can pick up a lot from pictures! And it is fairly new, not years old so yes please share if you would.
Also astrology is wonderful but there are always exceptions. So try not to base everything or too much of your choices and decisions on astrology.
My ex to be and myself have such a perfect synastry that several professional astrologers have said it is extremely rare and the most perfect they had seen.
However, here we are separated after 13 years nevertheless. The stars say perfect for each other but reality is showing otherwise.------------------
~I remember, therefore I am immortal~LEXX
~The present time is theirs, but the future is mine.~Никола Тесла
~"You have to be willing to give up the life you've planned for in order to live the life that's waiting for you." ~Joseph Campbell
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Ami Anne
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posted August 21, 2011 05:56 PM
I know Diana Hera
She is real and decent.Please listen Darling IP: Logged |
Hera
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posted August 21, 2011 05:58 PM
Diana, I apreciate your concern and your effort to help me, I really do. And what you said resonated very strongly with my own fears and doubts. But you came on too strongly and you're trying to influence me. I'm confused and broken hearted right now. I don't know what to think, but I need to stand up for whatever I will decide MYSELF, for myself. Again, I apreciate what you were trying to do and understand it is not a warning I will ignore. But I need to make up my own mind about this, not take your word for granted. You could be wrong just as you could be right about you. As for criminal charts... Their charts and their victims' are awfully alike, can you say which is which? I have a pretty creepy chart myself, this is why I take everything with a grain of salt. I hope you weren't offended. It was not my intention. I has honest about everything, perhaps too honest. And I really do apreciate your concern for me, despite what you may think. But I need to make my own decisions and stand up for them. I'm not yet there so I ask for advice. IP: Logged |
LEXX
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posted August 21, 2011 06:04 PM
Diana have you met this fellow?
I too get odd vibes but until I see his picture I will hold on making comments about those uneasy vibes.
I do agree, Hera must be careful.
Learn more about him at least and do not get intimate until or if he comes clean and straight up honest about himself.
Conversations as friends in safe environments
is a good choice for now however.
I still feel there is a reason they met and there is something to be learned here.
What at this time I do not know.Hera , is he a new person to your area or someone who has been there a long time?
Be extra wary if he only moved to your area in the recent times.
I still sense he is only a danger to himself if dangerous at all. He is very lonely I feel. He is extremely guarded, something I can relate to as it has only been a few years since I could open up to folks personally. Lots of folks hate pictures especially if they have a negative body image
which he may have. I do sense a man who has been hurt very badly in the past, whether as a child or later or both. I get more metaphoric images of him hugging himself and rocking with a blank numb feeling.....this is a feeling I too am familiar with.
The danger there is one can become emotionally numb after awhile, but from what you said he is not.
I will keep seeing what I pick up.
{{{hugs to you Hera}}} IP: Logged |
Hera
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posted August 21, 2011 06:08 PM
I said it was projection because you reacted very strongly to this. You sound like you hate and despise him and you don't even know him. It was my gut feeling that you reacted to my story so strongly because it reminded you of something you might have experienced yourself, this is why I said you probably projected your own issues. It is perfectly fine, I don't mind. It's a part of relating, this whole mirroring thing. But I need to disociate the truth from the illusion and make my own decision about this. Yes, I have second thoughts. I am insecure. I don't know! Alright? The scenario you presented creeped the hell out of me and reminded me of all the abuses I went through and I panicked thinking it could be repeated. But the reality is I have no real proof that he's a psychopath, nor that he's telling the truth about his illness or mixed lab results. So I'm going to have to find out and get my proofs, either way. I need to know. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted August 21, 2011 06:13 PM
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Originally posted by Hera:
I said it was projection because you reacted very strongly to this. You sound like you hate and despise him and you don't even know him. It was my gut feeling that you reacted to my story so strongly because it reminded you of something you might have experienced yourself, this is why I said you probably projected your own issues. It is perfectly fine, I don't mind. It's a part of relating, this whole mirroring thing. But I need to disociate the truth from the illusion and make my own decision about this. Yes, I have second thoughts. I am insecure. I don't know! Alright? The scenario you presented creeped the hell out of me and reminded me of all the abuses I went through and I panicked thinking it could be repeated. But the reality is I have no real proof that he's a psychopath, nor that he's telling the truth about his illness or mixed lab results. So I'm going to have to find out and get my proofs, either way. I need to know.
Yes listen to your gut Darling!
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Hera
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posted August 21, 2011 06:16 PM
LEXX, I shall e-mail you his picture. It's him, not somebody else, I can assure you. He is recent in my life. I've said this from the beginning. This is why I have doubts, I don't know him since too long. The affection I feel for him could be self-delusion or could be real; the doubts and fears I have could be a warning from my intuition or projections from the past. At this point, I do not know. My emotions and my thoughts are all very mixed up in my head. I have a see-saw chart, I vacilate between extremes and I'm unsure like this. I hope for clarity and that can only come from inside myself IP: Logged |
LEXX
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posted August 21, 2011 06:19 PM
Hera
Thank you.
Oh I meant is he new to your area, town whatever.
Like I said, I feel strongly you two were meant to meet.
For what reasons I do not know for certain yet.
But this meeting was meant to be.PS.
I have not received your e-mail yet.
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Hera
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posted August 21, 2011 06:23 PM
No, he was born where we live now. I am the one who moved here from somewhere else. He has lived here all his life. E-mail sent. IP: Logged |
LEXX
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posted August 21, 2011 06:25 PM
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Originally posted by Hera:
No, he was born where we live now. I am the one who moved here from somewhere else. He has lived here all his life.
Good!
That makes me feel better about him.
May I ask how old you and he are?OK...
I must go for awhile but shall return. PS.
My e-mail may be glitching.
If so will fix soon.
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Hera
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posted August 21, 2011 06:31 PM
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Originally posted by LEXX:
I still sense he is only a danger to himself if dangerous at all. He is very lonely I feel. He is extremely guarded, something I can relate to as it has only been a few years since I could open up to folks personally. Lots of folks hate pictures especially if they have a negative body image
which he may have. I do sense a man who has been hurt very badly in the past, whether as a child or later or both. I get more metaphoric images of him hugging himself and rocking with a blank numb feeling.....this is a feeling I too am familiar with.
The danger there is one can become emotionally numb after awhile, but from what you said he is not.
I will keep seeing what I pick up.
{{{hugs to you Hera}}}[/B]
Thank you for the hugs, Lexx... I really need some at the moment. It's true what you sensed. He is a loner, has been most of his life, even though he had relationships. He had a rough childhood and is a victim of abuse, like me. He has been disconnected from his family since he was 16, he has supported himself since then and only recently he tried to make peace with his family, even his older brother who used to abuse him physically and verbally and was very cruel to him when they were little. Mars-Pluto in harsh aspect can be an indication for both abusers and the abused. He has a tight square, I have the opposition. I know how that played out for me. IP: Logged |
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