posted January 27, 2023 06:22 PM            

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Originally posted by Stoika7:
Hey love, thank you so much for your amazing reading!! Yes it does completely resonate cause the enrgy is definitely blocked, we initially had a very special connection, we do have a powerful fated and soul connection, but it's him who held things back and basically walked away, cause he's not romantically available... and the energy is blocked now since I haven't seen him in three years.
I know it's crazy, but I unfortunately dont seem I can move on, he's always in my mind and I feel our connection is not over, I'm 100% sure about this inside myself, and so I have this strong feeling that I CAN'T let it go and miss a chance to reconnect in the future... Any time I tried to let go and forget about him, we had telepathic stuff and synchronicities which have literally haunted me, and so in the end I resigned to the fact that I am somehow still connected with him no matter what... It doesn't have to be necessarily romantic, but I feel that this connection has a reason and it is meant to develope sooner or later...
Don't know if your cards have an advice or see an outcome based on this context, whether you feel asking for a clarification to your cards?

As for your question, I feel that the feelings are mutual cause the Mars/Venus midpoint is trine to DSC, and the Moon/Jupiter midpoint is conjunct Venus... but there may be some insecurities too, cause Venus is quincunx Saturn, dont know if these insecurities are more on your part or his, in synastry his Venus is conjunct your DSC sextile his Jupiter, and so I think he's definitely having feelings. The insecurities look more about committment and long term, since maybe the whole circumstance may have an influence and question marks on your individual future, but the aspects of Jupiter look like you're both feeling your connection is supporting both of you in this recovery process...

"How long do transits last?"
It depends on which transit. The coming transit of Saturn opposite composite Mars will have influence for about one month and then Saturn will go towards comp. MC and this motion will last until summer, meanwhile other transits will be more favourable, but first you have to see how Saturn against mars will play out cause this looks like a block for the moment, it has not started yet and its influence will start in mid february until early march. Meanwhile, transiting North Node is conjunct comp. Moon, and this is likely building emotional closeness between you two. Tr. Chiron is in comp. 11th house square to Mercury/Neptune, maybe this is having an influence in your environment, some approve, some don't have a clear idea of your connection, and so on, but tr. Chiron is trine to comp. Chiron and this looks favourable as the environment/circumstance looks like it's supporting your connection...
The thing with the coming trasiting Saturn opposite Mars is that it is a very heavy energy of blocking or making things very very slow, and this energy outweights any other as for how your connection with him is developing, it could bring just delays and discouragement, or it could bring withdrawal and detachment, so this is why I said better to wait and see how things will develope in the next two months before making any further prediction, even so, if this transit plays out well, maybe just slow and with delays, in summer the picture looks much more favourable.

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You’re totally welcome doll, uhm - so I wouldn’t say I’m at that stage of being versed in tarot to be able to see outcomes in general. But I am learning a new method of reading, and I think it does show some direction - I think I’d like to do it for you. It’s called a Celtic Cross, most readers use it actually I’m just late to the party haha… I’ll give it a go with you; but I’m going away from now till like the 2nd. So I’ll only be able to do it then, is that okay? I shall put a reminder on my phone.

Okay interesting - at the moment we are spending a nice bit of time together, I’m not feeling particularly inclined to commit to anything just yet. I think he feels the same, we are both fairly loyal people, but we are really trying not to jump into anything… if the Mars/Saturn sort of breaks everything up that sucks, but if it just delays things I’m okay with that.

With the recovery, for the most part we are supportive of one another, but I do worry about accidentally enabling each other, I really need to watch that astrology aside. I don’t want to interrupt with his recovery process.

Yes that would make sense about the Neptune/Mercury, and Chiron I think it was? In the 11th? Some people do know about us, most of those that do are supportive, not all - some people have suspicions but don’t officially know anything. I’m not trying to hide anything; but I don’t want to throw anything out there either - I’m careful about mixing the group and our connection.

Yeah, sometimes I feel like his feelings are a little stronger or he’s got more of the grit to see relationships and all that through till the end, without fully running until it’s run it’s course.

Another reason I could be questioning my feelings at times is because I still have deep feelings for the military guy (remember the one that left to go back to Hawaii but we would keep our connection) - it’s confusing because my soul or heart pours for him but at the same time I cannot stand him, he’s lived his life in such flow and ease; so I find him to be rather ignorant and not understanding what some of us have to go through to survive. He is definitely not ready to settle down and enjoys his independence which is fine - but I find him to be a little shallow. Which is interesting considering my internal feelings…. Nevertheless I can’t stand him for long periods of time nowadays because he may actually drive me insane. Although I think sooner or later he’s going to hit rock bottom pretty hard, and realize how life works for most of us - and I honestly think he’s going to regret how he’s been with me. It may be my ego, but I have a strong feeling that he’s going to realize what a ******* he’s been with me.

posted February 01, 2023 06:48 AM            

May I ask rhetorical questions: why put that pressure on yourself?

posted February 01, 2023 09:06 PM            

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Originally posted by sassaqua:
You don't have to commit..

May I ask rhetorical questions: why put that pressure on yourself?

Take it slowly - consider committing after 6 months.

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posted February 02, 2023 05:35 AM            

There are a lot of challenges in the synastry.

He has some tricky stuff in his chart. And you are vulnerable.

This is a test of great learning for you about boundaries, parenting yourself, and not abandoning yourself.

Which I have mentioned before.

These are normal lessons so don't worry, or get weird about it, lol

Also, just for fun: are they feelings of huge fears of commitment?

posted February 05, 2023 09:22 PM            

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Originally posted by Stoika7:
Hey love, thank you so much for your amazing reading!! Yes it does completely resonate cause the enrgy is definitely blocked, we initially had a very special connection, we do have a powerful fated and soul connection, but it's him who held things back and basically walked away, cause he's not romantically available... and the energy is blocked now since I haven't seen him in three years.
I know it's crazy, but I unfortunately dont seem I can move on, he's always in my mind and I feel our connection is not over, I'm 100% sure about this inside myself, and so I have this strong feeling that I CAN'T let it go and miss a chance to reconnect in the future... Any time I tried to let go and forget about him, we had telepathic stuff and synchronicities which have literally haunted me, and so in the end I resigned to the fact that I am somehow still connected with him no matter what... It doesn't have to be necessarily romantic, but I feel that this connection has a reason and it is meant to develope sooner or later...
Don't know if your cards have an advice or see an outcome based on this context, whether you feel asking for a clarification to your cards?

As for your question, I feel that the feelings are mutual cause the Mars/Venus midpoint is trine to DSC, and the Moon/Jupiter midpoint is conjunct Venus... but there may be some insecurities too, cause Venus is quincunx Saturn, dont know if these insecurities are more on your part or his, in synastry his Venus is conjunct your DSC sextile his Jupiter, and so I think he's definitely having feelings. The insecurities look more about committment and long term, since maybe the whole circumstance may have an influence and question marks on your individual future, but the aspects of Jupiter look like you're both feeling your connection is supporting both of you in this recovery process...

"How long do transits last?"
It depends on which transit. The coming transit of Saturn opposite composite Mars will have influence for about one month and then Saturn will go towards comp. MC and this motion will last until summer, meanwhile other transits will be more favourable, but first you have to see how Saturn against mars will play out cause this looks like a block for the moment, it has not started yet and its influence will start in mid february until early march. Meanwhile, transiting North Node is conjunct comp. Moon, and this is likely building emotional closeness between you two. Tr. Chiron is in comp. 11th house square to Mercury/Neptune, maybe this is having an influence in your environment, some approve, some don't have a clear idea of your connection, and so on, but tr. Chiron is trine to comp. Chiron and this looks favourable as the environment/circumstance looks like it's supporting your connection...
The thing with the coming trasiting Saturn opposite Mars is that it is a very heavy energy of blocking or making things very very slow, and this energy outweights any other as for how your connection with him is developing, it could bring just delays and discouragement, or it could bring withdrawal and detachment, so this is why I said better to wait and see how things will develope in the next two months before making any further prediction, even so, if this transit plays out well, maybe just slow and with delays, in summer the picture looks much more favourable.

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Hey lovely,

I looked deeper into the cards with regards to your relationship with J

The Present: Ten of Swords (RV) I feel like at the moment there may be resistance to letting go of the connection; or what had happened between you. There may be some attachment to the wound caused by the connection - but because the card is in reverse, there is hope that you are starting to be ready to let of this wound.

The Challange: The Magician, because this section is a challenge, I feel like you are struggling with the HOW of letting this wound go, or perhaps even the connection. It is very much, I don't know what action to take to help me let this go. It is also perhaps, you don't know how to manifest the outcome you want, because maybe you don't know what outcome you want or you are not in tune with yourself enough to know what to do.

The Past: Knight of Cups (RV) I feel like the past sort of fuels the challenge. I don't know if this connection was very much in the ether, as in very idealistic and dreamy - but there wasn't much action taken. Or, there was a lot of hope for this, a lot of dreaming - but nothing actually came to fruition, or the grass wasn't greener on the other side. It's like not knowing what to do, or how to manifest because everything seems ungrounded.

The Future (not the final outcome, just a step on the way): Page of Pentacles (RV) Again with this, I feel like there is stagnancy. If you are still not sure what to do, let go, not let go. Reach out or not. There is still a lack of action and perhaps some fog-blocking foresight.

Above (what you are consciously working on to help you resolve the issue): The Devil (RV) I think in this case you could be trying to detach, or working on letting go of some old wounds that this connection has caused; or just your wounds in general. Gaining a new perspective by letting go of old toxic patterns, or at least being aware of them. It is like you are consciously going into your shadow self to try and face your darkest fears.

Below (subconscious drive, maybe unknown feelings): Four of Cups I guess you have been hurt by this whole thing; for now you may be rejecting new opportunities that may come your way - this could be so that you reconnect with yourself to realign. This card can also signify "not now, maybe later" so this could point to unfinished business between you and him, which could be why you are rejecting other opportunities, struggling to let go of the past. Or that could be the response to this situation, sort of like not now.

Advice: Okay, so for advice you got the Seven of Cups; and I do think this is suggesting you look and evaluate your options. It is asking you to ground an idea and choose which path to take. Don't leave things in the ether, choose a path and start to practically implement the idea.

External Influences: Is J married or something? You have The Three of Cups - or maybe there are just a lot of other people involved or in the way? It sort of contributes to the outcome. Or is he a huge partier? Always socializing? There is just something here about other people, parties, friends, children etc...

Hopes/Fears: Ace of Cups, You wish for love or closeness in this connection. To feel the spiritual energy running between you two that connects you, to be close. Filled with love and compassion. In terms of Fear, I mean if you wish for this it is also obvious that you could be scared to never have it or lose it?

Outcome (this is not set in stone; it only shows the outcome of the course you are taking now, you can change it): Six of Wands, I think this card is signifying success - what that means, I may have to clarify - but either way it looks like you will overcome these challenges or this stagnancy.

All in all; I think consciously and unconsciously (Above and Below) You are trying to realign with yourself and let go of opportunities or things that may not serve you. This is being done by shadow work or simply just being with yourself.

I think you will be successful in letting go of these negative patterns, or the wound this connection has caused with the Above card and Outcome card. It looks like there will be victory in letting go of resentments - or even, the karma between you two (this does not mean the relationship is over). But working with these shadows will help to release these painful karmic aspects between you two.

In order to get you out of stagnancy, or staying too still - looking at your opportunities and choosing a path that resonates with you will lead you to this success.

I would say you are pretty aware, of your fears or you know there is unfinished business and that the time is not yet. Looking at the Below cards and the Hope/Fears card - on one hand, I feel like there is a - what if I offer my cup and it gets rejected or pushed away for not now? Another, it is like you know you are not FULLY rejected and that there is love there. It may just not be time to fully bring it to fruition.

To end it off: I think you working on releasing your shadow stuff, will help to clear the karma between you two; for now, you may reject certain ideas/paths but if you realign with yourself, choosing the right path will help you to act on the energy that is presenting itself and it will lead to success. I don't know if that means a relationship, or just accepting the connection and love between you two, and releasing the karma. For advice, I think the path that is suggested to you, is the Nine of Pentacles. I think that signifies, working on yourself but treating yourself like a queen, spoiling yourself, and lots of self-care and luxury. Being independent, perhaps financially and workwise so can lead you to more self-confidence and groundedness. Thus will help you with the outcome

posted February 05, 2023 09:28 PM            

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Originally posted by sassaqua:
You are both in recovery.

There are a lot of challenges in the synastry.

He has some tricky stuff in his chart. And you are vulnerable.

This is a test of great learning for you about boundaries, parenting yourself, and not abandoning yourself.

Which I have mentioned before.

These are normal lessons so don't worry, or get weird about it, lol

Also, just for fun: are they feelings of huge fears of commitment?

Or are they warning bells? The question being: do you know the difference?

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posted February 15, 2023 05:56 AM            

I can't thank you enough for this reading !! ❤️❤️❤️ ...and please forgive my delay, I haven't been around since I am a bit busy these days.

Oh wow! Most of it DOES really resonate with me, you have a gift girl !!!
Well, I cant remember now but I thought I had told you that he's married.
Absoltely true that nothing ever started bewteen us, since he's not romantically available, even though there is something powerful between us, also at psychic level.
I am not willing to let it go and I absolutely can't live without wishing to meet him again! Even though, I don't expect anything given the situation, but I just can't stand not seeing him ever again or not keeping in touch somehow... I also need to give him something very important which belongs to our connection, an artistic work that he has inspired to me and changed my life.
Of course my fear of "rejection" is there, but basically I wonder if its worth pursuing the wish to meet him again, cause I likely would feel the wound again for not being allowed "to have him" in my life. So this is my question mark about wether to meet him again or not. even though, it seems impossible to me to let this go until I have a clarification/talk with him.
It is a huge unfinished business and I can't stand this fact in the first place!
The wound... yes. I was hurted by the fact despite our powerful connection, it all seems impossible, and that I wanst able to be in touch with him since long time... but he didn't hurt me at all, on the contrary, he was always so lovely to me, and for several reasons, he changed my life and helped me recover...
I am not sure what negative pattern I should let go... the only negative pattern is that I am helpless, not able to let this connection go, but not even able to figure out if it makes sense to meet him again... I am not even sure how I could meet him again, since he lives in another country. I have planned to travel and meet him, but yeah, not now, so this really resonates. I just can't travel now for various reasons and I will have to plan this in the future. So, yes again, there is stagnation for sure. And I do feel the time is not yet.
I understand what you mean when you say that if I release my shadow stuff our karma will be clear, but I am not sure what this shadow stuff is about really, do you mean related to him or to my own path? What if it's HIM to have to release his shadow stuff instead ?

....as for your situation, yes I think that saturn opposite mars is blocking things, or delaying things, as I had guessed... wait for this transit to be over and then the others I have mentioned before, I think it will take a couple of months to have a clearer view.

This is what I wrote in my previous reading of transits:
"The coming transit of Saturn opposite composite Mars will have influence for about one month and then Saturn will go towards comp. MC and this motion will last until summer, meanwhile other transits will be more favourable, but first you have to see how Saturn against mars will play out cause this looks like a block for the moment, it has not started yet and its influence will start in mid february until early march. Meanwhile, transiting North Node is conjunct comp. Moon, and this is likely building emotional closeness between you two. Tr. Chiron is in comp. 11th house square to Mercury/Neptune, maybe this is having an influence in your environment, some approve, some don't have a clear idea of your connection, and so on, but tr. Chiron is trine to comp. Chiron and this looks favourable as the environment/circumstance looks like it's supporting your connection...
The thing with the coming trasiting Saturn opposite Mars is that it is a very heavy energy of blocking or making things very very slow, and this energy outweights any other as for how your connection with him is developing, it could bring just delays and discouragement, or it could bring withdrawal and detachment, so this is why I said better to wait and see how things will develope in the next two months before making any further prediction, even so, if this transit plays out well, maybe just slow and with delays, in summer the picture looks much more favourable."

posted February 15, 2023 07:53 AM            

Thank you! I was actually with Saturn going towards the MC, would that slow things down too? Could work have something to do with that? Getting in the way… another question that I wanted clarity on, was in the composite I think you said the moon/Jupiter midpoint is conjunct venus or something is that correct?

posted February 15, 2023 09:22 PM            

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Originally posted by Stoika7:
Thank you for your further insight love... I am not sure about past lives, I leave this door open, but there is something powerful at karmic level for sure in this connection, there have been strongly fated situations, telepathy, synchronicities... I still perfectly know what he's going through in his life even though I don't have contacts since three years, but then I always get confirmations that my intuition about the events in his life were exactly how I have imagined... a strong psychic connection, which drove me crazy... I am certainly holding into the connection, but any time I have tried to detach, signs and synchronicities and fated events started again, drawing me back to him! So, at one point, I gave up detaching, since it all was harassing me in any case even against my will!
I don't know about his wife and our karma... I don't feel any connection with her at all, she's just insignificant to me... on a level that I really wondered how he could have such a strong bond with someone who is so insignificant to me. it's very strange. I can't even find similarities between them... for instance, I liked his former girlfriend and we even became friends, she's much more similiar to me, we have common views and personalities, we share stuff... his wife looks like a complete stranger to me.

As for your questions, tr. Saturn has already gone away from composiyte MC, but when it was, it was also square to composite Pluto, and so this suggested that the situation is blocked, and now Saturn opposite Mars is slowing things down even more... Work getting in the way, yes, it may be what saturn on mc square pluto suggested.
Yes, Moon/Jupiter midpoint is conjunct Venus.
Well, transiting Neptune is conjunct to your natal Saturn/Moon midpoint, and this certainly can give you confusion on matters of the heart and committment... but you are especially having transiting saturn square natal pluto and opposite Mars, so it's possible that you will feel your life direction is blocked for some time, likely until the end of march...

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Yeah, I understand that being so connected to him that you know exactly what is going on.

Do you have a deep connection to the universe/source/god doll?

Hmm, well perhaps it's his karma with his wife that is blocking things from releasing - like his karma with his wife must be his own **** to sort through; something perhaps he owes her. And maybe that is the point, in order for there to be little interruption perhaps you would need to be indifferent to her. Does that make sense?

I mean, I just feel like with these intense spiritual connections - there is usually some form of spiritual awakening. Do you feel that?

Do you feel longing for him? Like does your core feel like you are supposed to be together romantically?