posted October 16, 2006 07:50 AM         

Sorry it took me forever to get back to you. The weekend turned out busier than I thought. Anyway, here it is. Let me know what you think and if you have any questions or need clarification I will be glad to answer.

I did the Celtic Cross spread for you with Rider Waite. It's a 10 cards spreads and it covers the entire situation rather than focusing on particular aspect. The interesting thing about it that sometimes it will point to the areas which might be overlooked by querent but important neverless .

The middle of the cross are two cards - what covers you and what crosses you, First reflect the general atmosphere now surrounding the matter, second shows the nature of obstacles or opposition. You have 4 of Pentacles crossed by 4 of Wands. Fours represent stability and that says that things are not moving fast enough and you may feel stuck. Four of Pentacles represent material security and Four of Wands emotional security, both these cards are related to home ownership. You mentioned that you are getting divorced and it looks like you will get to keep your home or, at least, get a good financial arrangement. The only thing that might get in the way is you being too nice and trying to avoid confrontation. You can be gentle but also firm, don't give in.Also, you need to proceed very carefully though and make sure to read all fine print.

The card depicting your past is Three of Swords. This is not a welcome card in any reading and the past is probably the best position for it. It's a heartbreak and separation involving emotional hurt and mourning. It could also indicate a minor surgery.

The next card shows where the querent is coming from. I like to call it the root of the issue because it is not visible to the outside world and reflects your inner state. It is Two of Swords and it shows that you were able to calm down and the hurt eased with the passing of time. But you don't feel ready for the action yet and take a stance of waiting for something to happen. You might feel overwhelmed by the need to make difficult decision. This card also means reaching settlement or agreement.

While you may be uncertain and unsure of yourself inside this is not how you appear to the outside world. Queen of Wands in the "crowning" position shows strong passionate self-sufficient woman in control of the situation. And this is not some sort of mask, this is the potential that you might yet come to realize. It is so tempting to think that some day a White Knight in a shining armor will come and rescue us from all our troubles. But the truth is that we are much better off knowing that we can rescue ourselves.

In your near future you have a Wheel of Fortune. It is a turn for the better, a lucky break. Often it has to do with financial situation but it could be anything that will benefit you. You are entering a new cycle involving fortunate set of circumstances that promise change and continuing progress. A chance circumstance might bring an end to the past difficulties and offer new opportunities. Of course, the question is - when? Generally, Celtic Cross covers time period anywhere from 3 to 6 months. If you can relate the card in the "past" position (Three of Swords in your case) to a particular event, then the time frame for the future will be close to that, i.e. if it happened 6 weeks ago, you can expect to see the "future" card manifestation in about 6 weeks.
The card that referred to as ˇ§your Selfˇ¨ and describes the self-view is Nine of Swords. It is sometimes called a "nightmare" card and might indicate that your sleep is disturbed as you are struggling with some stressful matter. That is why I asked you about your dreams. The whole point here is that most of these fears and worries brought by the nightmare are unfounded. But in your case the dreams are actually positive and reflect something that you desire. I would say that your subconscious is trying to give you some positive reinforcement. Try to write them down, it is very possible they contain some important message or insight.

The following card, Page of Swords, represents situation. It reveals outside influences and input of people involved. In a positive aspect, you may find yourself in a situation where quick thinking and decisiveness are of essence. You may need professional advice before entering a contract or agreement. In a negative aspect, you may find yourself a subject of gossip or rumors. Be careful whom you trust. Someone whom you thought to be a friend might not be.

The next card, Six of Swords, represents your fears, hopes and expectations. What you want is all stress, conflict and difficulties to be over. You wish that you could leave all your troubles behind and move on. May be you are about a trip that would relieve tension or even relocation.

posted October 16, 2006 03:16 PM         

You are right in so many ways!

First of them is that things are not moving fast enough for me and yes, I have this feeling of being stuck and very hard to get out from this relationship!

Secondly about financial matters, yes, I will keep the home (flat) because my parents bought it in the first place so is mine. Also he promised me that he will pay enough for children and I believe him. Also I will try to start a new business so maybe will be good for me from this point of view.

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The only thing that might get in the way is you being too nice and trying to avoid confrontation.

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SO TRUE!!!! that is why I delay so much to start official this divorce and maybe if I wasn't so nice he would be out from home long ago! But I don't have the heart to make troubles and be too hard with him!

About the past I don't know ... surgery I didn't have ... and about heartbreak and separation involving emotional hurt and mourning, was something which really hurted me, but was 3 years ago! could be this? I hope no, otherwise I should wait other 3 years for good things! Or, could be the fact that I am not happy romantically / phisically / emotionally for long time and dreaming in silence about this somebody and is so hard I can't be more closer to him, I don't know if we'll be, when we'll be. I don't want as well to start something new if I didn't finish my marriage, so I took lot of time to take this decision and other time to put it in practice.And things are finally moving but soooo slooow!!! Was also something last winter, I was very upset and sad mostly, more than before because he was away from the country and I thought he is gone for good! Maybe was this!

The nightmare maybe is more about what I am struggling with my stressful matter of going out from this relationship I don't want anymore and how to get in other relationship which I wanted so much but I don't know how to get it nice and easy and i am afraid to don't spoil the things if I rush in!

I am already subject of gossip or rumors between my husband's friends, they making lots of scenarios about my life , they suppose I am already involve with somebody else and so many unbeliving stories on...

About the Knight of Cups I hope will be the man of my dreams I am glad is in the final outcome! You are sure he will come into my life ?!?! I mean to don't be about my solicitor who is influencing my court matter with divorce and help me out to get best benefits!? But I think I worring too much, you pointed very clearly is about relationships and emotional concerns.

I know on other hand you can't predict how things exactly going to happen, so you cann't tell me exactly if will be him or not, but I must recognize I am a bit-bit dissapointed because I was expecting I think, more details about this possible new man that I dream about, something about his feelings / hopes/ situation / position (regarding me)/ willingness to commit as well, I don't know - something like that! Or maybe because my main concern at the moment is abot my divorce these matters came more strongly in the reading.If you can tell my anything about him, other time, if is possible, I will deeply appreciate it!

So, the card are showing very well my situation, I understand that I am on the good way, will be a change in better soon and this is the most important. And, of course I am waiting for the Knight of Cups to come in my life as soon as possible!

Thank you very much for all what you wrote here, you gave me good hopes anyway, and I will tell you when things will improve more in my life .

Thank you so much!!!

posted October 18, 2006 12:29 PM         

could you help me get a better understand of why and the message I may not be getting about both of these roads?

posted October 19, 2006 08:01 AM         

I don't have that much free time but I'll be happy to do one reading a week. I don't want to leave anyone out and so far there are 7 requests. I was thinking of doing the general reading for Lynx this weekend if she still wants one,or the next person, greeneyedgemini. Would you, guys, let me know if you still interested?

Alma

I am glad you found some good insight and no, you are not goinh to wait three years for good things to come. Time could be tricky to figure out but 6 months is usually the max and the rule that I mentioned does not necessarily applies to every reading. As for "man of your dreams" - he will come when you are ready, when you fully develop your "queen of Wands" qualities. Here is some good reading on this card http://www.angelpaths.com/wands/wandsqu2.html Good Luck!

posted October 22, 2006 09:50 AM         

Tarot Passages is another that I found last year: http://tarotpassages.com/spreads-readings.htm

posted October 24, 2006 09:51 PM         

So here we go, Sarah. Hopefully it will make some sense to you I'll be glad to answer any questions that you might have

I did Celtic Cross for you with Rider Waite, traditional spread with traditional deck. The overall feel from your reading is of motion, color gold and a lot of air. It's like you are opening the door and walking outside on a bright sunny day for a breath of fresh air.

It seems that you are in the process of some serious soul searching because 6 Major Arcana cards turned up. Those usually refer to the matters of significance and personal transformation while Minor Arcana may reflect more of mundane issues.

At the center of the Cross Page of Pentacles crossed by The Lovers. Page of Pentacles interpretation is that you may soon be presented with an opportunity to make money or engage in a new business venture. It may have something to do with education. From small beginnings progress will be slow but sure. Care, patience and gentleness are needed to bring the potential to fruition. The Lovers card feels somewhat "stronger" here. May be in order to develop this small enterprise you need to step away from your love relationship. Perhaps, you are at the point when you feel secure enough in your relationship that you don't need to focus on it all the time. You can go out in the world to find out whatever else you need for your personal fulfillment and when you return your love still will be there waiting for you. While The Lovers picture a happy union, the other meaning of this card is making a choice. You are at the fork on the road and it's like you have being put to test in order to move to the next stage of your development. You may need to choose between potential partners or between love and carrier or some creative activity.

Ten of Wands is in the recent past. Tens signify the endings and Ten of Wands is known as Weight of Ambition. You were struggling to meet many commitments and responsibilities, perhaps more that you could or wanted to handle. Imagination stifled with too many worldly concerns. The lesson here is to develop a better understanding of your limits.

The card in the next, "what is beneath you", position describes your inner state and motivations not visible to the outside world. This is the "root of the situation" so to speak. The Tower. This card is about breaking free, knocking down the walls that imprison us. There is nothing subtle about this card. It says - change is happening,- a new door opened in your life and you are going through it. The walls of the Tower can symbolize many things: job that stifles you, family relation that you can't get close to, relationship that trapped you, all kind of negative ideas or fears. While the outcome is likely to be good the process might be not that pleasant. It depends a great deal on the attitude of the individual how difficult or painful it is to deal with. The Tower card is also about sudden inspiration or spiritual enlightenment. I have a feeling it is more likely in your case than some external event. First, because of the "root" position of this card and then, because of the next card.

The card in "What crowns you" position shows goals, possibilities and opportunities. It helps us see how the individual might resolve the situation. The Hierophant. Spiritual guide who transcends the material world, channel between esoteric knowledge and ourselves. This card also represents our moral growth and development, knowledge of true right and wrong. It appears when the individual is searching for answers of philosophical and spiritual kind. A wise teacher in a form of a priest, psychologist or spiritual mentor may appear to help you and guide you on your way. The Hierophant is the keeper of the "old ways". It may suggest that we follow more orthodox ways in solving the problem at hand. Might also indicate participation in a ritual or ceremony,

The near future. The Magician. Anything is possible. Is a huge step from the humble beginning of Page of Pentacles. The Magician has all four elements and suits (Wands/Fire/Creativity, Swords/Air/Mental energy, Cups/Water/Emotions and Pentacles/Earth/Tangible results) at his disposal. You are able to master new situations, take positive action and focus on realizing your potential. You are able to promote and market yourself to those who are interested in making use of your special skills. Any technical equipment you need will be at hand. While The Hierophant is a teacher, The Magician can manifest as a writer, politician, entrepreneur or medical specialist who would be helpful to you.

The next card is "Your Self". Queen of Swords. Your mind is sharp like a sword. Head over heart. You may have matters to resolve, things to thinks about and you kind of want to be left alone while you are doing it. The danger here is that The Queen of Swords will accept nothing less than perfection. "She, who possesses the priceless virtues of loyalty and integrity and the capacity of bear sorrow without breaking, is ultimately the image of emotional frustration and isolation because she is untouchable" That's a quote from Mythic Tarot by Lis Green and J. Sharman-Burke. I don't think that you are a "Queen of Swords" to this extent though .

I want to talk about the next two cards, "your situation"/ Wheel of Fortune and "your fears, hopes and expectations"/The World, together because they share the same theme. Completion of the circle. The Wheel of Fortune represents coming and going of all things. Todayˇ¦s challenges are tomorrow opportunities. The Wheel spins with or without us. If we go with the flow, we grow, if we resist we stagnate. We must take responsibility for "whatever comes around". While The Wheel of Fortune is a very desirable card in a "situation" position, it's a lucky break basically, it is not exactly what you want because it deals with things on material level more than spiritual. You are ready to move on to the next level. The World card signals arrival, coming together of all things. All in balance, we have completed the circle and ready to start all over using the knowledge and the wisdom that we gathered. We have arrive to the stage in life when appreciation for the life and the world comes from deep inside. We see ourselves as a part of a cosmic order, we see our place in a universe. The World card is the ultimate goal for all of us.

The final outcome card actually surprised me but, I guess, it was "back to Earth" kind of thing. Knight of Cups. Traditionally it means a new romantic relationship or emotional renewal of an existing one. Actually, in combination with The Hierophant it might be a marriage proposal. The other, more symbolic interpretation is - following your dreams and trusting your intuition may lead you to fulfillment and satisfaction.

posted October 26, 2006 07:26 AM         

Thank you so much for that amazing reading Kamilla!! You're so talented!

It's picked up on so many things that are happening to me at the moment and has really captured the 'theme' of things so succinctly.

"It's like you are opening the door and walking outside on a bright sunny day for a breath of fresh air." That's exactly what I feel like at the moment! I feel like a veil has been lifted and I seem to be having all sorts of revelations, almost on a daily basis! It feels wonderful and exciting and hopeful.

I especially identified with the part about "sudden inspiration or spiritual enlightenment." Just read what happened to me in this thread I started over on Universal Codes! http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum2/HTML/002353.html

I feel a real pull towards developing my spirituality at the moment and I've been looking at meditation as a means to do that. A colleague of mine goes to a regular group and she invited me to come along so I think I will.

It's interesting that the lovers, the Heirophant and the Knight of cups came up as I have been very relationship/emotion focussed recently and the question of marriage has come up. No proposal as yet but it was hinted that it's something that may happen in the not so distant future. So we shall have to wait and see. Don't really mind if it doesn't as what I've really prayed for is the emotional renewal the cards spoke of so that's wonderful that it's beginning to manifest. Thank you Universe!

The feeling of opportunity and fresh starts is really exciting! I have wanted to concentrate on my writing a great deal more recently but simply haven't had the time or the focus and so it's left me feeling frustrated. It's good to know positive action is on the cards.

I can be quite 'head over heart' when I need to be but ultimately my Cancer Asc and Scorp Venus take over and I find myself dripping with emotion! I will have to make that choice you spoke of very carefully and maybe it's a question of trying to find a good old Libran balance between each area?

posted October 26, 2006 02:23 PM         

I am SO glad that you found it helpful and very excited for you. After I did your reading I thought I'll take a look at your name too since I remembered seeing it on BB lexigram requests threads. I posted it there.

posted October 30, 2006 12:35 AM         

so sweet of u to find time for all these reading
i am in no hurry,so pls do a reading for me whenever u get time

posted November 08, 2006 06:11 PM         

Just wanted to give something back so to speak, and I pulled one of my Angel cards for you.

It was "You Are Supported - Allow Heaven to Carry you as well as any burdens you may have."

posted November 14, 2006 04:32 PM         

Thank you for your kind words , I don't really think I did that much. Plus, I kind of run out of steam for now. Life has been a bit hectic lately.

I like the Angel card you drew for me . Thank you.
Reminded me of "Going with the flow " of Osho Zen Tarot

"The figure in this card is completely relaxed and at ease in the water, letting it take him where it will. He has mastered the art of being passive and receptive without being dull or sleepy. He is just available to the currents of life, with never a thought of saying "I don't like that," or "I prefer to go the other way." Every moment in life we have a choice whether to enter life's waters and float, or to try to swim upstream. When this card appears in a reading it is an indication that you are able to float now, trusting that life will support you in your relaxation and take you exactly where it wants you to go. Allow this feeling of trust and relaxation to grow more and more; everything is happening exactly as it should."