posted November 22, 2013 03:25 PM            

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Originally posted by Twirl:
Lol. Do you feel like a hardcore con woman?
In which house is it?

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Con artist? No. Trickster? Yes. I am very Mercurian, I like to make puns and jokes, and am generally witty, and seem to employ little effort when it comes to using Mercury's gifts = I have Mercury conj SN natally.

H2.

posted November 22, 2013 03:31 PM            

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Originally posted by VenusDiSirius:
Con artist? No. Trickster? Yes. I am very Mercurian, I like to make puns and jokes, and am generally witty, and seem to employ little effort when it comes to using Mercury's gifts = I have Mercury conj SN natally.

H2.

I *so* abused something.

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posted November 22, 2013 03:43 PM            

Maybe to use Celtic Cross for this.

Oh No. "NOT accessing my seductive powers" is not an option. Venus is my Chart Ruler on MC. I have Moon conj Neptune. No, no, no.

My Mercury is indeed in H12. But SN is in H11 (4° conj).

posted November 22, 2013 03:52 PM            

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Originally posted by VenusDiSirius:
But this is Jupiter Return chart - Venus has to have something to do with money + they are placed in H2,with H2 natural ruler in H2. And it works for the period of the next 12 years.

Maybe to use Celtic Cross for this.

Oh No. "NOT accessing my seductive powers" is not an option. Venus is my Chart Ruler on MC. I have Moon conj Neptune. No, no, no.

My Mercury is indeed in H12. But SN is in H11 (4° conj).

Thanks for your time and interest, btw.

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posted November 22, 2013 03:54 PM            

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Originally posted by Twirl:
My cards are saying: Not until LC is actually clear in regards to what she wants in regards with her boy. If she is giving of half-hearted messages, that is what the result/harvest will be like...
Just suggestions of course Since you didn't give me permission to draw for you...

Thanks for the excellent feedback on the 8&9. I agree mostly with your findings... It's just that the swords often show themselves to me as writings... (Read all about my fabulous blogpost here: http://moonhousetarot.blogspot.nl/2013/10/tarot-writing-publish-be-damned-typical.ht ml?m=1 (will be edited out later, lol)
So I thought there might be a different message in it for me... Anyway... I'm going to keep pondering...
Hands are tied money wise, I think..

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Permission, here on out, granted! I do appreciate the respect. It's odd how both you and Ceridwen have pointed out that I am the unclear one. The only reason I've bit my tongue for so long is because I was always under the impression that he didn't want me. He did meet me in a very transitional time in my life, a friend of mine even told me they see me as a different person from 6 months ago and I met him about 2 years ago I believe. So I don't know if he doesn't want to date me because I've been sending these mixed signals or if he doesn't want to date me bc he just doesn't. There's a lot of overlap. For instance my feelings for him and the recognition that I needed time before I was easy for a relationship. I feel more ready now but I'm still cautious and constantly go back and forth between the two. I figured if I just waited things out it unfold and I would know for sure where he stands, I seem to have failed in calculating my own action and how they are perceived.

posted November 22, 2013 04:18 PM            

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Originally posted by Twirl:
Lol. I'm confused now. You are going to steal some money???? :-0
Well, at least we are clear about the karmic feel

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I pulled my Jupiter Return chart in which Jupiter is conj SN, conj Venus in H2, while Venus ruling H2. I asked what it means, I got X Wands + Death for the Jupiter conj SN. VII Swords + Death for Venus' part of the conjunction.

We've got to the conclusion that this is some Karmic stuff.

No,I don't think I stole some money. You know, in that previous life. This Jupiter Return came with the release, given the Death card, so I don't have to worry but it's interesting.

Anyways I did the CC..

1 .Star
2. Page of Cups
3. Temperance
4. Tower
5. 2 of Swords
6. 5 of Swords
7. Devil
8. 10 of Swords
9. The Empress
10. Justice

posted November 22, 2013 04:58 PM            

Why did you have to give her away? I haven't got over my dog's death, it's years now.
5 of Swords is the apparent victory, but you actually lost without realising it. Mean moves. Temperance as band-aid, reminding you to move on (8 Cups).

posted November 23, 2013 04:31 AM            

Daily card: Tower

Oh Jeez. Usually the tower has always been good to me in the past (though shaking me up), but just for today I would have wanted for a gentler card.

For clarification i pulled 3 cards, especially in mind how the evening would be in terms of him, or rather our weird-connection, how it might change or not.

Emperor - Judgement - Tower

The cards are realy not in the mood to be gentle today, are they?

Well, one card very energetically jumped out of the deck. Well it really JUMPED high, and then fell such that I could not see what it was.

When I turned it, it was the 2 of cups.

Oh lordy, I hope this is all just an expression of my emotional state, though this one is not very good right now.

Did I mention I Would rather stay home and watch TV tonight ?

posted November 23, 2013 04:56 AM            

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Originally posted by littlecloud:
Those are my daily card pulls about what to expect for that 24 hours. So as it predicted I've been depressed and mopey. Lethargic. I drowned my sorrows in junk food.

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posted November 23, 2013 06:44 AM            

It felt right to break it in now, and I Was asking what this encounter/ meeting with that man really had brought into my life, what the purpose of it ws.

The card I pulled was the Sun, just in this tarot the cards are related to a mythic couple and a keyword.

the couple: Cupid and Psyche
the keyword: Awakening.

This struck so much of a chord, it was uncanny. Actually ifirst only saw the Psyche-part, and funnily him and me share a Psyche-Pyche-conjunction.

I also pulled the cards for today, sort of a past-present-future-spread.

Past: Temptation (Devil)

Present: Innocence (Fool)

Future: Triumph (World)

The thing that left me a little shaken is that this last card depicts the couple fo Dionysos and Ariadne.

posted November 23, 2013 01:15 PM            

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Originally posted by VenusDiSirius:
See - you dissed the cards.

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How is that dissing the cards? I did what they showed I would end up doing, 8 of cups. Also the reason why is a bit long and I don't want to get into it online. In short I did it because I felt I had no other choice.

Your Jupiter return chart confused me, maybe you should post it in the personal readings section so we can finally see what the heck is going on! lol.

Ceridwen I think the cards are showing you that walls and restrictions need to be torn down, which is never a very gentle thing. I do however, like the new deck. Its very beautiful be sure to update us and good luck!!

On my end, there may be a possibility of losing my job, not from doing anything wrong exactly but more from being in the cross fires. I asked if my job was safe
King of Cups Emperor 8 of swords
Yea....not a good omen.

posted November 23, 2013 01:56 PM            

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littlecloud:How is that dissing the cards? I did what they showed I would end up doing, 8 of cups. Also the reason why is a bit long and I don't want to get into it online. In short I
did it because I felt I had no other choice.
Your Jupiter return chart confused me, maybe you should
post it in the personal readings section so we can finally
see what the heck is going on! lol.

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When one turns to junk food,not only they diss the cards but the world. Or you discovered a whole new meaning for 8 of cups. A practical meaning, if you will. High on carbs!

Oh, my return! It's not confusing. You don't have to read Jupiter return like you read a solar one, with Jupiter (or any other planet) the you can focus on the planet alone.
So, my Jupiter is in H2, conjuncting SN and Venus. The H2 is in Taurus. See - simple.

posted November 23, 2013 10:51 PM            

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Originally posted by VenusDiSirius:
Crossfire, indeed,King + Emperor. 8 of Swords is a such an odd card. Out of the entire Swords suit, that's the most immaterial card.

When one turns to junk food,not only they diss the cards but the world. Or you discovered a whole new meaning for 8 of cups. A practical meaning, if you will. High on carbs!

Oh, my return! It's not confusing. You don't have to read Jupiter return like you read a solar one, with Jupiter (or any other planet) the you can focus on the planet alone.
So, my Jupiter is in H2, conjuncting SN and Venus. The H2 is in Taurus. See - simple.

I asked cards what the conjunction means - and the rest is a tarot study in past life variations.

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I took the 8 as being tired/wallowing. Which I did. Took a long nap before work.

Your return looks like you'll be gaining in possessions. Money or pretty things. If you have a business selling handcrafted jewelry or art now would likely be a good time to sell it. It's very auspicious.

posted November 24, 2013 07:35 AM            

"eridwen I think the cards are showing you that walls and restrictions need to be torn down, which is never a very gentle thing. I do however, like the new deck. Its very beautiful be sure to update us and good luck!!"
Thanks, and you are very right about the walls. Though I had a strange imagery yesterday, when I was tentatively reaching out to the (invisible) wall around me, to carefully tear it down, my (invisible) fingers touched nothing, as if there WAS no wall to begin with. At least yesterday.
I guess I just had a good day, happens once in a while.

I just had that feeling of why hide away someone who is as amazing as me, doesn`t relaly make any sense, right? And thre is no need to.
I should have these days more often though. lol

At the same time I was also in a non-Neptunian-mood. Quite realistic and down to earth, not interpreting any of what I was seeing or perceiving, just being and doing, and acting as if the world was mine. lol

However, IWAS at the VIP thingy afterwards, and I did not expect him to show up, ashe hadn`t done so the night before, according to some guests.
I was talking to several other guests and actors.
He did eventually show up, but only for a few minutes, and we didn`t talk, though he was leaning against the bar, talking to some others, and the silly thing was it was in my back. I couldn`t well turn around to him to catch a look (well not moret han twice at least ).

I was involved in a chat myself anyway (am I really that funny? Why are people always laughing about my muttered one-liners?), and then a few minutes after that I saw he was leaving. Actually he was standing in the hall having a smoke and apparently waiting for someone.

For some reason I couldn`t let him go without talking to him, though. Not last night.
I know that I have pretty much ignored him for every occasion in the last years, while standing directly in front of him. But yesterday of all days, I just felt that it was so childish and stupid and I did not want that anylonger. So he is an actor (as his colleague pointed out to me in the chat I had with her before that: We are just people after all. lol), so he might forget me the minute I walk through a door and might not remember me.
But newsflash, *I* do. Remember him.
If he doesn`t, I can at least give him something to think about. Saying `Hi` is not really a bad crime anyway.

Well, anyway, when I got out into the hall he was in a talk with a colleague and someone from the press I suppose.
I stood a few metres away (not close, as I did not want to be intrusive or overhear the talk), and was putting on my jacket, preparing for leaving.
But I managed to make it clear, that i was pretty much waiting for their talk to end, or would like to say something to him. I donīt know sometimes you just can make this one very clear with bodylanguage. Anyway had he not been intersted in talking to me, I would of course have left.
But he is a polite man, well, he can be. I didn`t want to take up much of his time anyway, I jsut had to get something out of my chest, encouragement actually.

When their talk ended, I couldn`t even really adjust to that, so quickly he was standing right in front of me (vampire speed? lol), and it just catches me a little off gard HOW close he always comes. In the few instances we talked. I know he is an actor and used to be close to people, but I also have seen that he can manage to keep to a social distance. lol
But unlike the first time we met, I wasnīt too fazed by this and did not take a step back. If he can deal with that amount of proximity, I certainly can do, too.

Well, it was a very very short talk, Iactually just expressed how much IH ad liked the show, and how relieved and proud they must be to have been able to pull it off despite everything that went wrong before (so much in fact that I considered not going, it was a chaotic mess - but I saw a perfect show).

I don`t know exactly why i had to tell him that, he certainly knows. But in a way it was a way to "break the silence", to give this strange connection/non-connection a new spin, start a new phase. Might be just the actor-audience-phase, but hey, can be nice, too.

Actually I pulled three cards how tha little step of mine might change or influence our future connection/ encounters.

10 of pentacles - King of pentacles - 10 of cups

Yes, I accept these gladly.

Well I had also asked what really had happened that moment.

10 of pentacles - Lovers - Page of Swords

everytime I asked something about it, but I stop here, cause I will not ask the same question, just dressed in a new cloth, the 10 of pentacles would invariably show up.

I think it was a good and important thing to do, for me personally, no matter how insignificant and undramatic it really was.

On your dream, I have two thoughts in my mind currently.

1. it shows how you wished it could be between the two of you, if you both could tear down any walls (become naked and vulenerable and open around each other and really close)

2. you might have picked up on his true feelings for you.

posted November 24, 2013 03:59 PM            

In regards to the dream I agree with both 1 & 2 , I just don't which one it was. After writing about that one I remembered another one I had a couple of months ago that he told me, while I just stood there listening, not taking part in much, as he told me that he was going to be friends with his ex (they were still kinda involved with each other) for only a year more and then he would be (romantically) with me. Again, I usually take this stance with him in my dreams, listening, observing, watching, somewhat detached from everything going on.

In real life he has said and pretty much insisted that a relationship between us isn't possible because he doesn't want one, that we would be a bad mix together. I think there's a lot of fear there. I also never really responded when he would say this, never stated my case for or against a relationship and it's made me wonder if it's a test of some sort. Or that him telling me this made me act in an aloof way that lead to both you and Twirl saying that I'm sending mixed signals and looking like I'm keeping my options open. Then there's the dreams....3 of them which seem to have come to pass when I was being told of something that would happen.

posted November 27, 2013 04:59 AM            

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OMG Ceri!!!! *squeals* I know it sounds like a small step but if feels like a big step for you!

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Yes, I would have thought so. But somehow, it did not *feel* like that big step. Which is partly because of the way he made me feel as if we had been in constant ongoing communication. LOL
What the?
I mean it is probably just his personality, but still quite helpful to me.
The thing that nearly disconcerted me again, was just how close (physically) he came. For the very few occasions we talked, it always happened.
You know how there are distance-zones, and theoretically speaking we should be in each otherīs social distance zone, but he more or less actually somehow ends up more in my intimate distance zone or at the boundary between intimate and personal distance zone. Not that I measured it.

But this here "This space (especially the 15 cm (1/2 foot) zone bubble) is like a private bubble of breathing space, almost as an extension of our body. When someone is getting that close, our body and mind automatically reacts – it's being put on flight or fight mode. If it's someone acceptable in our most inner circle – we relax and enjoy the intimacy, but if the presence is unwelcome, we will shut down and try to retain somehow our comfort zone. - S"
http://www.study-body-language.com/Personal-distance.html#sthash.0RB1nFko.dpbs

my body or instinct did react, in acknowledging the fact and getting into "flight-or-fight"mode, just because something inside me registered he was unusually close, at least given the fact that we do not really know each other.

I just then noticed that I was more than okay with it, and taking a step back to return to the "safety-distance" (according to social norm), would just have been to keep to the mentioned social norm, but would not have been reflective of my personal feelings about this.

when we met 5 years ago, I DID take that step back (also because when he is so near, my third eye starts buzzing so much, like something is pulling at it), just to stick to the norm.
I did not do it on saturday, cause apparently he was comfortable with that, so what reason could be to stick to some sort of norm, just because we donīt really know each other (officially), though he feels familiar in ways that makes it difficult to know how to act appropriately to the situation.

posted November 27, 2013 05:29 PM            

5 years huh? I say make your move!! lol. You should watch him when he talks to other people one on one or in groups to guage why he came so close to you. Maybe he's just a very intimate type of person when it comes to one on ones, or just doesn't understand the concept of personal space with anyone which to me would be a warning sign. People like that can be really intense and they makes me bristle. My experiences may have been different than yours so it's hard to say. Or, of course, he can really like you. I always get this feeling that he is very intrigued by you...

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'As for your dream, I think there are internal processes going on in your soul, too. You are changing, and as you do your connection with him will do, too.

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Yes I am changing..I hope so at least. I can see a difference from who I was a year ago...I'm still adjusting I guess to my life after my abusive relationship. I don't think there is a connection with 'my boy' anymore. We had a talk, well mostly I talked, I was drunk, and he just isn't attracted to me in a relationship type of way. So now I have to cut him out of my life. I was expecting it and therefore was a bit prepared but hoped that I would be wrong. It still hurts and not just for losing what I had hoped I would gain but because I'm losing a good friend. Things between us had been so wonderful lately. It felt like he was finally learning to open up to me more, it was more intimate. I'm really going to miss that and of course him.

I did a CC for a love forecast from now until the end of the year. In simple words; it sucks.

..................6 of rods
9 of swords...Hermit crossed by Page of Swords...5 of swords
..............The wheel

The World- 8 of swords- Page of Discs- Knight of Discs

posted December 08, 2013 02:35 PM            

"aybe he's just a very intimate type of person when it comes to one on ones, or just doesn't understand the concept of personal space with anyone which to me would be a warning sign."
Well, he certainly is more extrovert and hence comfortable with more closeness to other people; however judging from observation he usually keeps more distance to others, unless he knows them very well.

"I always get this feeling that he is very intrigued by you..."
I got the same feeling.
Which is probably enough.

" life after my abusive relationship."
I am so sorry you had to go through this.

" I was drunk, and he just isn't attracted to me in a relationship type of way."
Did he say so?

However if so, I am really sorry. Though on the other hand maybe it is good to know now, so you can move on again.
Which is one reason I took thats mall step towards Mr Sag. To bring this floating connection/ non conection,m down to earth, make it more normal, even though that is just an audience-actor thing with a little bit of intrigue attached to it, and not more.
But I feel that it gives me a point from where I can move on again. NOt necessarily away from him, but even that option is open. It can very well be that he will simply fall away from my life, and if so, it will be alright. And if not, well let`s see.
I feel like I started to be the "Sun" again, instead of behaving like the "Moon", which is not my role in our astrological connection.

Actually it is HIS Moon conjunct MY Sun.

"Doesn't look like I'll meet anyone new...and obviously the Hermit is really summing up how I feel right now". I always equate the 5 of swords in this deck as relating to sexual abuse. That's not what takes place when I pull the card but it always makes me think of my past."

I feel like maybe this shows that you need some time for yourself to heal the old wounds.

Interestingly though I pulled the 5 of swords for the day when I met him, and it turned out so differently as I thought. NOt nasty at all.
BUT I had to be much more communicative and forward as I usually am. Going out of my comfort zone, though when I did I felt rather comfortable. lol
Maybe in this case it was this. Or well, you could say, there was competition there, about his attention, jut that I never even tried entering into a competition, and was not really aware of it.

posted December 08, 2013 02:42 PM            

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So I asked how I would look in that dress

9 of cups - King of Swords - 10 of wands

So I suppose I would be looking fat in it?
Yeah, well, thought so. :sighs:

posted December 08, 2013 03:27 PM            

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Twirl, this made me think of your card.

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