posted February 23, 2014 01:50 PM            

First a sports bra that's a little tight but with weight loss should be perfect.
King of Rods- Queen of Cups- Lovers
I think this one is a keeper. The reading had me laughing because the Queen in this deck is bare breasted. With lovers, it may just turn out to be that I fall in love with this sports bra.

posted February 23, 2014 09:36 PM            

8 of cups- 9 of wands- 8 of discs

posted February 24, 2014 04:58 PM            

For the 4 of Pentacles... It is also someone who takes care of his goods. Especially with the Empress there. "Well contained".

CC: I read that position as fears. I still take the advice aimed at the asker, not on both people (unless if they would be present with the reading).

@LC: Sorry, not sure I can do your reading anytime soon. Perhaps someone else can trade with you. I'm really a bit too busy.

posted February 24, 2014 05:46 PM            

The bra actually doesn't flatten too much thankfully. I've been introduced sports bras that maintain the shape and just hold the breasts which is great because compression is very irritating. Makes it harder to breathe.

posted February 25, 2014 09:10 AM            

yes I like the colours, too. The deck has been sneaking up on me. I only planned using it a couple of days, but haven`t used any other since,a nd did not even notice until now. lol

"for some reason the 2 of wands always gives me issues)but the page and 2 of cups look rather romantic. I want to say your hair looks luscious in a way... "
that makes sense actually.
Yes I suppose it is not looking all that bad after all. SEveral people also mentioned how it makes me look younger, which in my age is a good thing to hear.

"Pentacles are full of body and earthiness and with the 2 of cups I want to be bold and say he would want to run his hands through it."
I probably wouldn`t object.

" "Looking conservatively feminine (round in the right place *wink*) in a bright and refreshing type of way." Some women overdo it let it all hang out and in your case one can see that you have the curves but keep it safely tucked away."
I like that.

Also Twirl`s expression of "well contained".

It makes sense,t oo. I mean I may have lost these kilos,b ut of course I am still on the very voluptuous side to phrase it politely.

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Crappy stupid picture with the grimacing. lol

But I think the change is quite visible from here

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The baby is not mine, but the eldest son of my best friend. lol

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posted February 25, 2014 09:18 AM            

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Originally posted by littlecloud:
Made a couple of purchases that I'm not entirely sure of..

First a sports bra that's a little tight but with weight loss should be perfect.
[b]King of Rods- Queen of Cups- Lovers
I think this one is a keeper. The reading had me laughing because the Queen in this deck is bare breasted. With lovers, it may just turn out to be that I fall in love with this sports bra.

Next up is this really beautiful gold skirt. Looks almost like a Christmas decoration.
2 of swords- ace of discs- 8 of cups
I asked if I should keep it, it was a good investment. I hate having to buy clothes repeatedly. Especially if it's expensive. I'd rather buy something expensive and have it for years. It's really pretty, just costly and difficult to match. [/B]

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First one yes.
Second one no. I agree with Twirl here.

posted February 25, 2014 09:19 AM            

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Originally posted by littlecloud:
Sent an email to my professor then asked the cards if he would let me re-take the exam..

8 of cups- 9 of wands- 8 of discs

My initial impression is a no. But the 8 of discs/pents is making me think there is a possibility to be ok through hard work?

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posted February 25, 2014 02:24 PM            

And so good from all the weight

And lol on the deck. When I first saw it, it really did remind me of your energy though So it's great that it sneaked up as a new favourite...

posted February 26, 2014 11:07 AM            

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Originally posted by Twirl:
nd lol on the deck. When I first saw it, it really did remind me of your energy though So it's great that it sneaked up as a new favourite...

I always surprise myself with decks, the ones I wAnt most & think will resonate most, do not ( and or I hardly use them) & the ones I'm trying for fun then seem to come up with great stuff. Very odd, lol.

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posted February 26, 2014 11:09 AM            

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4 of swords - 8 of wands - 4 of wands

posted February 26, 2014 11:24 AM            

6 of cups - 7 of cups - Queen of Cups

posted February 27, 2014 09:52 PM            

Hanged Man- Justice- 7 of wands

They're so pretty and still sexy and it's been soooo long since I've worn something this nice..

Also I've returned the skirt and used the bra today in class. I liked it, a bit small but not suffocating. Kept everything in place

About my Professor (Twirl I'll add to the Lenny thread too since some it of it pertains to those), I did have to get 'creative' and he said he'd add my name to the list of make-ups. However there is still a lot of work for the class to be done. I've slacked and there's tons of studying. For this one and another class. I'm trying to balance it all out. It's hectic and that's why I haven't been around much.

Now for replies
Twirl
Don't worry about the reading, you can do it in a week from now if you like. There's no rush and I trust your readings. You have a better scope/idea of my issues anyway.

Ceridwen
If I'm seeing from the pics correctly you tend to gain the most weight around your lower half? I can definitely see the change which is awesome! Keep it up. I recommend these sites for weight loss and proper workouts (beginners too):
stumptuous.com
exrx.com
kettlebellkickboxing.com

As for how you'll in the dress I want to say it's almost like a coming out. I assume no one has seen you in something like it yet? The 4 of swords is like a slowing sleepy period, kinda drab, then bam! You have the 8 and 4 of wands, muy sexy

posted February 28, 2014 01:07 PM            

"I did have to get 'creative' and he said he'd add my name to the list of make-ups."
So you got your chance. Wonderful!

"If I'm seeing from the pics correctly you tend to gain the most weight around your lower half?"
Yes.
As it turns out (I did not know before because I was so overweight), I have a Pear-shape.

" I can definitely see the change which is awesome! Keep it up."
Thanks.

" I recommend these sites for weight loss and proper workouts (beginners too): "
Thanks, but actually I am getting along great with my Weight watchers coach, but I will check out the workouts.

" I want to say it's almost like a coming out. I assume no one has seen you in something like it yet? The 4 of swords is like a slowing sleepy period, kinda drab, then bam! You have the 8 and 4 of wands, muy sexy "
Hopefully so!
If it only wasn`t so cold!

" Soft."
I think that is pretty much it. The dress is flowery and more on the romantic side I suppose, and I am suprised how much it seems to suit me. But then again, I have never been the skinny or sporty type anyway. lol

I was also wondering how the weekend-trip will go, and yes, that includes seeing him on stage again. lol

Lovers - Knight of Pentacles - Page of Cups

posted February 28, 2014 03:55 PM            

Weight watchers is, I think, the best "program" they have out there because it's the closest thing to real life expectations of what and how you should eat. I'm not much of a diet fan, I much prefer exercising and eating healthy. No real limits except for nutritional benefit and still giving in to temptation from from time to time. The cleaner my food is (no chemicals) the cleaner my body will be.

I keep pondering on asking my boy to be my date to my friends wedding....

posted March 01, 2014 12:30 PM            

- looked at cards now- think the answer is "bloomed". Along what LC says: been keeping quiet for so long & suddenly with burst of energy, there you are, very noticeable Also still a bit conservative with the two 4's, but lovely & feeling good/vibrating good - homely/feeling at ease - vibes.

posted March 01, 2014 03:16 PM            

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Originally posted by Twirl:

@Lc : that hanging man cracked me up with your question. I think the girls are 'hanging in there' for another two months, lol. But they say that eventually if you work out that much (7 wands), it will go as you expect (justice).

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HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! You crack me up Twirl. But ok that makes sense. It's just weird to me. I've been a steady 34C for some time, then slowly from weight gain 34D and now 34DD. I don't think I've ever been a double DD and the funniest thing is that I've been working out more this past month. Trying to put more energy into my martial arts classes and sometimes working out at home too. The odd thing is that I don't really feel "big", only in terms of cardio and my labored breathing.

posted March 03, 2014 06:30 AM            

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Originally posted by littlecloud:
You really like him don't you?

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As much as you can like someone, you don`t really know.

I mean, sure I definitely feel a spiritual connection there, but if I strip away all that spiritual-talk (not saying it`s not true, just saying it could be true, or just a neat little concept in my head), if I am being more rational for just a little moment, what is left at the base of it, is probably some sort of attraction. Whatever it really is that attracts me, but it`s there.

*shrugs* That`s all.

And saturday really wasn`t my day.
I was feeling sick all at once, dizzy, nauseous and with an uncontrollable urge to visit the toilet; usualy I can control that pretty well, as I HATE embarassing situation and feeling like I am out of control (even if for health reasons), which I used to have anxiety attacks about and made me pick seats at the aisle.
Since this dreaded situation never really happened, I relaxed a little in the last years, and am more able to pick seats in the midle of the rows.

Well, the situation did happen on saturday, and it had to happen with him on stage, and me sitting in 2nd row.
But nevertheless, how much ever i regretted it, having to make four people get up for me, I HAD to leave the auditorium (air was very stuffed, too).
And I had to do it while, yes he was doing something on stage, he probably noticed it, and I am sorry about this, but I just had to get out and get some fresh air (and a bathroom), and I stayed out for the 10 minutes until the interval, as I would have hated to disturb the show AGAIN. So I had to do without the 2 and a half songs until then, and instead got some air into my lungs outside.

I could see the second half through without problems though, and I found it rather interesting, that as soon as he came on stage (and near enough to the edge of it to see anything), his look went straight to the seat I had left before the interval, almost as if to see if I had really gone.
Might have been pure coincidence, though the minutes after that, when he wasn`t havng anything to do but to lean against a wall, while someone else was singing, and I suddenly felt that familiar prickling sensation you get if somene looks at you, and I turned my head, and he was gazing into my direction, with one eyebrow slightly raised, but luckily smiling as well, and it`s true it was me, who had to break that eyecontact after a few seconds; I mean I am really sorry that I had to jump up like something had bitten me and made for some nuisance for the others who had to get up for me, and of course did never want to disturb the show. It was just a minor thing, I know, but it`s kinda rude.

*sighs*

So really not my day.

posted March 03, 2014 06:59 AM            

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Originally posted by Twirl:
I think that dress is lovely Ceri. Didn't look at the cards yet.
Wouldn't you love to go on a shopping trip, renewing your wardrobe? & throwing in a pampering say to celebrate all that weight loss

- looked at cards now- think the answer is "bloomed". Along what LC says: been keeping quiet for so long & suddenly with burst of energy, there you are, very noticeable Also still a bit conservative with the two 4's, but lovely & feeling good/vibrating good - homely/feeling at ease - vibes.

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Yes, I guess that is pretty right.
It did feel strange wearing it yesterday, at first. Especially since I noticed I had to modify the way I walk in a dress. LOL
I wasn´T quite aware of tha before.
But I got used to it pretty quickly.

Though I noticed that I seemed to attract a bit of a negative response by some women, esp. younger ones or those of my age.
You could feel the temperature drop a few degrees. LOL
Maybe, being as overweight as I still am, they thought I was not supposed to wear a dress like this, and well, I think I never owned such a short dress ever before (not even when I was still wearing dresses). This one ended just a bit below my knee.

I also noticed different visible reactions to my appearance, but these were usually coming from the male part of the species.
Not that I think I was that much too look at. Though I am quite aware that I probably never looked any better than last night, but I know how I was looking for years before, so of course I could notice the difference.

ALl in all it was an interesting experiment. LOL
And surpisingly after the initial bouts of discomfort and insecurity, I felt very comfortable and confident after a while.

posted March 03, 2014 07:03 AM            

It`s a weird one this time, puzzling.
but so was the whole trip

Empress - King of Swords - Princess (Page) of Pentacles

EDIT:
I realized that I phrased the question confusingly, in that it would rather read what impression I made.

So I rephrased again (still interested in both), and was asking what kind of feelings I might have triggered in him, if any at all.

posted March 03, 2014 05:01 PM            

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Originally posted by littlecloud:
Ok so your hair...
My take is that it's bold which some people will like and some won't. However the 'boldness' will be admired. Like rainbow colored hair, I wouldn't really like it but I would admire the balls of the person that did it.

I don't think you'll be crazy about it either..Maybe it'll be cut too short?

Haha! about the hairdresser 2... I was going to say she's either young or fairly new to this, and likely has her own ideas about how something should look regardless of what you want.

Go with hairdresser 3, she will be more responsive to you and the 4 of wands, sounds awesome. I'd rather pay a bit more and be happy with something (especially hair cut/color) then pay less and hate it.

For Ceri's interp of my hair..well I guess you can see the Hanged Man as free flowing since he's upside down and not struggling to get free.

As for my question... It may be a bit redundant since the healing reading you gave me but I was wondering about how I relate to others, not limited to romantic encounters but friendships as well. What do I lack and need to help myself relate to others better? What am I doing now that works and doesn't work?

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This thread is getting too crowded with words, lol. Had to go up & down to find your original question. For how you relate to others:

What strikes me most is the confidence levels. For some reason you are on one end quite fierce & I can expect you to be forceful too, but it's somewhat out if balance. It feels like there are not enough confidence levels to take your place. Like you give it away to others & they have the upper hand. Competition would definitely be a factor in this and/or approaching others as if it were a competition with a winner & a loser. It looks like you often then don't want to fight for something (it's not really the right description, but along those lines). So it looks like you would rather walk away then confront a situation. This is based on trust levels & not as it always IS.
Altough I can imagine it feels like that for you at times. Creating something solid can be difficult.
On the other hand I can also see the advantages of that. I think you are very free spirited & let people be & give them space to do their own thing. I think you come up with new angles & ideas in relationships to others & you would like a lot of (playful ) challenges.

In case of how others perceive you I can also imagine that you give of mixed signals, they then feel that they do not know where they stand with you. That's their misconception, because you are in fact very loyal & would walk through fire for someone.

Normally I would say you CAN be very forceful as well (when you feel confident with someone), but I doubt you feel secure enough to 'demand' things and/or express your full needs/expectations currently.

posted March 03, 2014 10:07 PM            

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Originally posted by Twirl:
This thread is getting too crowded with words, lol. Had to go up & down to find your original question. For how you relate to others:

What strikes me most is the confidence levels. For some reason you are on one end quite fierce & I can expect you to be forceful too, but it's somewhat out if balance. It feels like there are not enough confidence levels to take your place. Like you give it away to others & they have the upper hand. Competition would definitely be a factor in this and/or approaching others as if it were a competition with a winner & a loser. It looks like you often then don't want to fight for something (it's not really the right description, but along those lines). So it looks like you would rather walk away then confront a situation. This is based on trust levels & not as it always IS.
Altough I can imagine it feels like that for you at times. Creating something solid can be difficult.
On the other hand I can also see the advantages of that. I think you are very free spirited & let people be & give them space to do their own thing. I think you come up with new angles & ideas in relationships to others & you would like a lot of (playful ) challenges.

In case of how others perceive you I can also imagine that you give of mixed signals, they then feel that they do not know where they stand with you. That's their misconception, because you are in fact very loyal & would walk through fire for someone.

Normally I would say you CAN be very forceful as well (when you feel confident with someone), but I doubt you feel secure enough to 'demand' things and/or express your full needs/expectations currently.

How does that resonate so far?

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There's only one bit that I disagree with; most people know where they stand with me. I have very little qualms with letting people know how I feel about them. Many times it just kinda pops out of my mouth when society would much prefer I keep it shut. I suppose my mood swings could make it difficult to know sometimes.

About confidence levels, yes, when someone is important to me so is there opinion so when they think about me a certain way it does upset/hurt me. This I think is what sometimes drives me to be so competitive, to prove that I am better or worth more than what someone may have originally thought. Maybe it's part of being a Leo.. To want that respect of "wow! I'm impressed". Sometimes, confronting a specific situation would mean being more vulnerable than I would like to be so in that case unless I trust the person, it is just easier for me to leave. Sometimes I see no better outcome and this is the best solution. This is where being forceful with someone comes in. If I know them well enough to make my demands then I will, but mostly I feel like making demands will lead me to having nothing so I will keep my needs to myself at times to avoid the disappointment. In general people find me very aggressive.

And a big yes on giving people space. It took me some time to realize it, mostly after being on the receiving end, but everyone needs their alone time to do their own thing. Or be alone, whatever the case may be. So I do my best to be understanding because I myself need alone time as well, to study, work, paint my nails, watch something on Netflix etc. This clingy behavior that people seek in relationships drives me nuts.

Any idea on things I can do to improve this? The suggestion you emailed me, would that help? I've been trying to study more so that I could build more confidence that way. So that I know my subject matter more and know that I'm not stupid. (Intelligence is important to me and I haven't been feeling very smart lately).

posted March 04, 2014 07:05 AM            

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Originally posted by littlecloud:
There's only one bit that I disagree with; most people know where they stand with me. I have very little qualms with letting people know how I feel about them. Many times it just kinda pops out of my mouth when society would much prefer I keep it shut. I suppose my mood swings could make it difficult to know sometimes.

About confidence levels, yes, when someone is important to me so is there opinion so when they think about me a certain way it does upset/hurt me. This I think is what sometimes drives me to be so competitive, to prove that I am better or worth more than what someone may have originally thought. Maybe it's part of being a Leo.. To want that respect of "wow! I'm impressed". Sometimes, confronting a specific situation would mean being more vulnerable than I would like to be so in that case unless I trust the person, it is just easier for me to leave. Sometimes I see no better outcome and this is the best solution. This is where being forceful with someone comes in. If I know them well enough to make my demands then I will, but mostly I feel like making demands will lead me to having nothing so I will keep my needs to myself at times to avoid the disappointment. In general people find me very aggressive.

And a big yes on giving people space. It took me some time to realize it, mostly after being on the receiving end, but everyone needs their alone time to do their own thing. Or be alone, whatever the case may be. So I do my best to be understanding because I myself need alone time as well, to study, work, paint my nails, watch something on Netflix etc. This clingy behavior that people seek in relationships drives me nuts.

Any idea on things I can do to improve this? The suggestion you emailed me, would that help? I've been trying to study more so that I could build more confidence that way. So that I know my subject matter more and know that I'm not stupid. (Intelligence is important to me and I haven't been feeling very smart lately).

Thank you so much Twirl. I really appreciate this.

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Hey

In regards to not knowing where they stand with you, I don't mean that you don't speak your mind and/or let them know. It's more in regards to the other things I wrote, you can give in and/or give up sometimes. I think you operate on impulse a lot in regards to others. So the vibe you then give of (or can give of) is that of someone they can't quite predict will or will not be around. The word I'm looking for is something along the lines of unpredictable. Altough I don't think you would see this that way at all (because you have that passionate/spur in the moment - vibe).

If this still doesn't resonate, just dismiss of course.

And yes, exercises given will help.
Second I think that if you feel (suddenly) quite intense about something someone said to you, is to try not to respond immediately and/or think of conclusions (like: bugger it, I'm not going to bother).
Third, when someone disagrees with you, don't immediately think they are right & you didn't see things correctly & give in. Just ask them why & let them explain. Don't defend your views, but just listen to what the other has to say & see if you can still appreciate their view but also belief in how you saw it. So, don't immediately respond but observe what happens if you don't.
And don't push yourself. You are already fine as you are. You are now just trying to create more space for expression your inner core more (& feel safe about that).

Hope you can do something with these

Hope this makes some sense

PS: Don't put/place someone above yourself (and/or try not to ). We all have different talents & just belief you are doing an excellent job with all your personal skills. No need to proof that

-of course I'm very aware of the fact that can be hard to do. But really, just sod 'm if they do not see/appreciate certain things. (If it doesn't work immediately, just repeat: Sod 'm, sod 'm, sod 'm). lol.

PS2: I made a recording. Meditation with 8 swords & releasing some of self defeating thoughts. It's 25 mins. You want to try it out?
I'm pondering between 'perfecting it' with music & editing or just throwing (free) stuff online & on my site. Because I take forever to create products & stories otherwise & I have soooooo much stuff I would just love to start sending out there.

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Tarot & Dreams

posted March 05, 2014 09:14 PM            

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Originally posted by Twirl:

Hey

In regards to not knowing where they stand with you, I don't mean that you don't speak your mind and/or let them know. It's more in regards to the other things I wrote, you can give in and/or give up sometimes. I think you operate on impulse a lot in regards to others. So the vibe you then give of (or can give of) is that of someone they can't quite predict will or will not be around. The word I'm looking for is something along the lines of unpredictable. Altough I don't think you would see this that way at all (because you have that passionate/spur in the moment - vibe).

If this still doesn't resonate, just dismiss of course.

And yes, exercises given will help.
Second I think that if you feel (suddenly) quite intense about something someone said to you, is to try not to respond immediately and/or think of conclusions (like: bugger it, I'm not going to bother).
Third, when someone disagrees with you, don't immediately think they are right & you didn't see things correctly & give in. Just ask them why & let them explain. Don't defend your views, but just listen to what the other has to say & see if you can still appreciate their view but also belief in how you saw it. So, don't immediately respond but observe what happens if you don't.
And don't push yourself. You are already fine as you are. You are now just trying to create more space for expression your inner core more (& feel safe about that).

Hope you can do something with these

Hope this makes some sense

PS: Don't put/place someone above yourself (and/or try not to ). We all have different talents & just belief you are doing an excellent job with all your personal skills. No need to proof that

-of course I'm very aware of the fact that can be hard to do. But really, just sod 'm if they do not see/appreciate certain things. (If it doesn't work immediately, just repeat: Sod 'm, sod 'm, sod 'm). lol.

PS2: I made a recording. Meditation with 8 swords & releasing some of self defeating thoughts. It's 25 mins. You want to try it out?
I'm pondering between 'perfecting it' with music & editing or just throwing (free) stuff online & on my site. Because I take forever to create products & stories otherwise & I have soooooo much stuff I would just love to start sending out there.

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Oh, Yes! I'm very unpredictable. I have moon square Uranus so sometimes in a moment I may not like you as much as I did earlier that day. So it's an emotional instability that people are likely to pick up on. You should be in my head, 5 minutes and you'll be dizzy with all the back and forth.

I think I have the hardest time with what you wrote in your PS. I think it's mostly because I feel like I'm lacking in personal skills/talents and even with things like astrology or tarot cards, I could take it further, learn more, go into more detail but I don't. So it's like proof to the world and proof to myself. I used to be a lot more competitive as a child, I would get insanely jealous over anyone else that did better than me on a test, or ran faster, until I realized how sick it made me feel. So I stopped. I still have a bit of that edge to me and I don't know how to calm it. Maybe it's having a Sagittarius MC where I'm always striving for something higher? It's good on the one hand, but not so much on the other...

posted March 10, 2014 02:52 PM            

"Though it doe snot quite fit the Knight of pentacles. lol"

I think it was Twirl that mentioned how this Knight in one of my readings meant a lack of outward action. The knight is slow moving so I would actually think this makes a lot of sense for you reading/night. He did look over at you and so he did think of you so there is that steadiness there, on your both your part actually. Him expecting you to come to the play and him being at the play, but because of your feeling sick this action was slow to play out.

Women are always the worst when it comes to being nice to each other, so I am not surprised that they reacted the way they did. Men...well men tend to like all sorts of things. So if the men are reacting in a nicer way than the women then I say you looked good. Clearly you've noticed a difference and will continue doing so, the important thing is to be happy with you and take care of your health. Change doesn't happen over night, as much as we would like it to, but at the same time it allows us time to understand what is going on and adjust accordingly. You seem to be doing very well

Sooooooooooooooooo interesting things this past weekend...I met a boy who seems really interesting so far, turns out he also trains martial arts which is a huge plus for me. He can understand my craziness.

I'm curious as to what the cards had to say so I asked how he was feeling about me in general thus far.
3 of discs- 7 of cups- 9 of rods
This could easily be a reflection of what I'm feeling but to me this says that he likes me, possibly fantasizes about something more, it feels more solid than just a sexual attraction but still in the early stages so the 9 is saying he's trying not to get to far ahead of himself or that I'm being a tad standoffish. I always see a vulnerability in this card, a man stands in front of 9 rods naked with his arms out (like the leonardo da vinci sketch). Maybe he's been hurt in the past.

posted March 10, 2014 04:26 PM            

@Ceri: Just read yours... That queen of wands is always a fiery, noticable one.