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Topic: Blame My 8th House Stellium
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iQ
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From: Chennai, India
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted August 16, 2010 10:18 AM
 
Ami,
As I was making your advanced reading, one of the core problems was disruption of Soul Mission, and thoughts of not wanting to be born are "Sabotage" Programs planted in your subconscious by those who do not want you to fulfill your Soul Mission.
You respond to these by living life to the fullest.BTW, As individuals, Lara, yourself and WLeo are specialists in many occult areas but the reasons for arguments are not personal, they are astrological. Do not let it bother either three of you, you are all above argumentativeness in your Higher Self level. You three would get along great in person. The web, in these grand-cross laced times, can make anybody cross. ------------------
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Mblake81
Knowflake Posts: 238
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posted August 16, 2010 10:28 AM
The trick is not to take it serious.Build a box in your brain, a safe room for experiments. Lets things play out inside the box, whatever happens never leaves the box. You get to watch as things unfold, Almost like being at one of these.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Operating_theater
http://antiquescientifica.com/photo_Bellevue_operating_theaterc._1890.jpg You can only stay unaffected as long as your detachment holds. Don't get sucked in. **The stronger the detachment the more it has to be balanced later, remember that. This is how i was able to study death on a regular basis without being suicidal. Also, Hagakure talks of meditating on death issues, resolving them.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hagakure It was the only way i could meditate on watching events kill me, how they did it, what happened after the events. I should note you take from this box only the things of value.
--This is a right brain understanding a left brain problem, or attempting.
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LEXX
Moderator Posts: 2470
From: Still out looking for Schr�dinger's cat.........& LEXIGRAMMING... is my Passion!
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted August 16, 2010 10:33 AM
Peri  Thank you!: quote:
ETA: and I admire LEXX for being so strong and still appreciating life after everything she's been through, I have a lot to learn from her
Life is indeed still worth it and I am glad to be here despite coming in at birth already with body woes and not being wanted,(my mother in a fugue tried to drown me in a toilet when I was born at only 26 weeks/6 1/2 months, and she freaked because I looked to her, (her expecting a normal plump perfect baby), like a red, hunchbacked, club footed, extremely tiny little inhuman monster)
My life has been usually very difficult since then and still is to date.
Indeed, there is despite all, so much to learn and much to appreciate and experience.   ------------------
Everyone is a teacher...
Everyone is a student...
Learning is eternal.
~Everyone is
gifted. Some simply open the package sooner~
~To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance.~Oscar Wilde
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Ami Ann
Knowflake Posts: 3529
From: Pluto
Registered: Dec 2009
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posted August 16, 2010 10:39 AM
Was your mother ever put away,LEXX?
She needs to go to MY mother--the therapist  .
Ami
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Ami Ann
Knowflake Posts: 3529
From: Pluto
Registered: Dec 2009
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posted August 16, 2010 10:45 AM
Thank you, IQ
Thank you, Mblake. Ami ------------------
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Diablo
Knowflake Posts: 620
From: Melbourne, Australia
Registered: May 2009
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posted August 16, 2010 10:50 AM
Hmm now i understand why they say you should never discuss religion or politics...One love, people. We were all put on here to love xoxoxo IP: Logged |
Peri
Knowflake Posts: 1272
From: 49N35 34E34
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted August 16, 2010 10:51 AM
how horrible of her, LEXX! *shocked* 
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Ami Ann
Knowflake Posts: 3529
From: Pluto
Registered: Dec 2009
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posted August 16, 2010 10:53 AM
Peri
Do you have Air in the chart? Ami ------------------
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Peri
Knowflake Posts: 1272
From: 49N35 34E34
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted August 16, 2010 10:57 AM
yes, Ami, I have Jupiter, Pluto, mean BML and NN in air signs also Aqua is intercepted in my 1st house. Why?IP: Logged |
Ami Ann
Knowflake Posts: 3529
From: Pluto
Registered: Dec 2009
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posted August 16, 2010 11:01 AM
Well, Peri, first of all,if you have shut down to that degree, it is from trauma--too many things that were too hard to handle.
It is that simple.(I am NOT inviting arguments, please. This is from my own experience AND I am trained as a counselor)So, you have shut yourself down like a porcupine going in to a ball.
The key is to come out of the ball.
Are you following---so far? Ami ------------------
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Mblake81
Knowflake Posts: 238
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Registered: Aug 2010
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posted August 16, 2010 11:04 AM
Peri,While i am not you, and do not know how your mind works.. From my understanding it took having a point of view, both inside and outside to become balanced. What i had to do would be considered extreme for too many, so im attempting to make it more palatable. I should also add being able to attach and detach at will is a great skill, but achieving it is where alot of people get lost. It was nothing i learned over night so to speak. **if people were able to attach and detach easily, people would be very different and i dont mean that in a good way. The discipline in using a skill comes from seeing what the outcomes will be when it is used, how it is used, when is it appropriate to use it. Lots of scars either inside or outside are reminders to never use power wrongly. Hardships (can if your lucky) cause people to be more responsible. **in other words it isnt something to just "have" or "play" with. I dont mean this to sound demeaning please. IP: Logged |
Peri
Knowflake Posts: 1272
From: 49N35 34E34
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted August 16, 2010 11:05 AM
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I should also add being able to attach and detach at will is a great skill
ye for sure!  I need this skill badly  IP: Logged |
Ami Ann
Knowflake Posts: 3529
From: Pluto
Registered: Dec 2009
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posted August 16, 2010 11:08 AM
I asked about Air cuz Air can help detach. However, after I asked I realized that it was not that important.
The important thing is that you CAN heal.
You can get your feelings, emotions, identity back.
I will help you cuz I AM doing it!
Ami
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Ami Ann
Knowflake Posts: 3529
From: Pluto
Registered: Dec 2009
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posted August 16, 2010 11:11 AM
Mblake
Are you talking about being centered in yourself?
Inner locus of control--they call it lol.
You are like the James bond character who KNOWS who HE is.
That knowing is HIS power.
It is power cuz most people DON"T know.
Am I following some of what you mean? Are you talking about radically taking your OWN power back from where ever you or circumstances sent it Mblake?
If so, I think I understand Caroline Myss, a medical intuitive, now on something like this that she wrote.
Ami
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Ami Ann
Knowflake Posts: 3529
From: Pluto
Registered: Dec 2009
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posted August 16, 2010 11:12 AM
Dear Peri
Are you on msn?
Ami
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Peri
Knowflake Posts: 1272
From: 49N35 34E34
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted August 16, 2010 11:12 AM
I am very curious, Ami, please email me.IP: Logged |
Ami Ann
Knowflake Posts: 3529
From: Pluto
Registered: Dec 2009
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posted August 16, 2010 11:17 AM
OK I will e mail you now,Peri, to see if I have it right .I get confused with that lower dash
Ami
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Mblake81
Knowflake Posts: 238
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Registered: Aug 2010
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posted August 16, 2010 11:17 AM
Yes ami you are,I like POV's because they are earned IP: Logged |
Ami Ann
Knowflake Posts: 3529
From: Pluto
Registered: Dec 2009
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posted August 16, 2010 11:26 AM
Thank you,Mblake.
That means something. Ami
PS I had a time in life when I WAS detached as you call it.
I was peaceful in my own sphere--confident,strong, had my own power, very rarely hurt others, did a few times but was young and NOW would not.
I had that strong Scorpio power.
THEN, my mother convinced me *I* was crazy.I doubted myself so badly. Perhaps, I was a sociopath cuz I waa detached. I became afraid I was. I believed her POV and I abdicated my power.
Now, I am in this sorry mess ------------------
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LEXX
Moderator Posts: 2470
From: Still out looking for Schr�dinger's cat.........& LEXIGRAMMING... is my Passion!
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted August 16, 2010 11:28 AM
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KNOWS who HE is.
That knowing is HIS power
Yep.
I know me well, the negatives and positives.
I am honest with myself.
I love and like me.
I enjoy my self company.
It is the key to it all.------------------
Everyone is a teacher...
Everyone is a student...
Learning is eternal.
~Everyone is
gifted. Some simply open the package sooner~
~To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance.~Oscar Wilde
}><}}(*> PS.Peri, as to my mother, well it was most likely addiction to prescription drugs back then (too common in those days of "The Valley Of The Dolls" doctors caused by overdosing women)and her being a rabid Christian seeing evil and demons everywhere.
Then later booze plus prescription meds and being an even more rabid Christian. IP: Logged |
Mblake81
Knowflake Posts: 238
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Registered: Aug 2010
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posted August 16, 2010 11:32 AM
I normally detach when something is too strong to handle but i still need to be there and function.The marines teach you in a dirty way, It has side effects. The other is a more learned way, it takes your own time and effort to understand yourself. No one else can really tell you who you are or what you are supposed to be doing. -I mean that from a perspective of being centered in yourself and comfortable with it.
**To be totally honest im not sure i should even be posting in this thread, If you have diagnosed disorders i am not a doctor who is responsible for your well being.
The things i say and talk of could easily drive people to do crazy off the wall things, Please temper my words with reason. IP: Logged |
Ami Ann
Knowflake Posts: 3529
From: Pluto
Registered: Dec 2009
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posted August 16, 2010 11:34 AM
YES Mblake.
I GET it.
Thank you!
Ami
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Ami Ann
Knowflake Posts: 3529
From: Pluto
Registered: Dec 2009
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posted August 16, 2010 11:37 AM
I am so sorry for what you went through ,LEXX.
Is your mother still alive?
Ami
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LEXX
Moderator Posts: 2470
From: Still out looking for Schr�dinger's cat.........& LEXIGRAMMING... is my Passion!
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted August 16, 2010 11:40 AM
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Is your mother still alive?
Yes she is.IP: Logged |
Ami Ann
Knowflake Posts: 3529
From: Pluto
Registered: Dec 2009
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posted August 16, 2010 11:41 AM
Is she at ALL sorry for what she did ?
Ami
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